Summary: Kagome moved from Japan to America when she was in seventh grade. Shestopped talking in eigth grade, and no one knows why. Now, in eleventh grade, Kagome will undergo a series of events that will dramatically change her...Kagome's POV.
Rated M. Why? Because my mind has many bad things in it and I don't know what I might use...
Dates Written:
June 26th, 2006
June 27th, 2006
June 28th, 2006
Poisoned is Sesshoumaru. HolyDemon is Kagome. HumanPuppy is Inuyasha. SpiderBack is Sango. DamnHand is Miroku. TouchAndDie is Souta.
(6-27-06) Took a nasty spill on my horse today... My cousin did too. We were walking through a river and her horse tripped. She almost fell off but managed to get off gracefully. Her and the horse were fine. Then my horse was running (cantoring) and I ran into a tree branch (I swear it came from nowhere!). My head snapped backwards from it (stupid tree) and my back and neck began hurting horribly... It's been a few hours and they still hurt. Feels like something is just a little out of place and like I can almost put it back in place, but not quite.
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The Games We Play
Entry Thirty-Five: Tying Up Loose Ends
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Seven Days Until The Rebellion...
This was it. This was the last time they were going to talk over the internet and figure out what to do. They spent the first week learning their abilities. Now they had to plan out things that were going to go on. They had to get things together.
Kagome could feel the fear welling up inside of her as she signed onto her messenger. This was the last time she would do this before the fight. After that, no one was going to go on the internet. Internet information was easy to trace, even using public computers. They didn't want to risk it.
Besides, they couldn't really go in public for fear that someone would be kidnapped.
Kagome clicked on names and then searched for the button for a conference. She hadn't been on the internet since before the accident. The concept blew her mind away. Over a year she had been out of reach to anyone but her own mind. She couldn't remember the year, though. She just remembered being kidnapped and bleeding.
She silently wondered what she had felt during the days that she was without memory. She pushed the thought aside as the window popped up for the conference.
Poisoned has joined the conference.
DamnHand has joined the conference.
SpiderBack has joined the conference.
HumanPuppy has joined the conference.
TouchAndDie has joined the conference.
KillTheTrainee has joined the conference.
HolyDemon: Who is KillTheTrainee?
Poisoned: The officer that informed me of your death... She will help us on the attack.
HolyDemon: Okay then... Well, how is everyone doing?
KillTheTrainee: Better if I didn't have a retarded trainee trying to seduce me with Starbucks and nicknames.
SpiderBack: Is that where the username came from?
KillTheTrainee: Yeah... Nothing else came to mind... Soo... How is everyone doing?
Poisoned: Considering what is coming up and the stress it brings, good.
SpiderBack: Stressed.
DamnHand: I am doing well... I think the source of my problems is Sango's worries.
SpiderBack: What? How am I causing your problems!
HumanPuppy: Better... Much better.
HolyDemon: Why are you doing better?
DamnHand: Because I worry about your worries.
HumanPuppy: I spoke to Kikyou... We're going to start going out after the fight and all...
Poisoned: How are you doing, Kagome?
HolyDemon: As good as I can be doing, I suppose.
SpiderBack: Okay, guys. We need to get plans together fast because I have to take Kilala to the vet and make sure she's as healthy as possible for this.
Poisoned: Alright... The first thing we have to do is lure him away from the city and towards a place where other people cannot be harmed by him.
HolyDemon: I can do that part.
HumanPuppy: How?
HolyDemon: They think I'm dead. I'll contact them today that I have the jewel and I'm willing to give it to them if they let me live...
DamnHand: That sounds good.
TouchandDie: We just need a way for them not to expect the rest of us to be there...
HumanPuppy: Yeah... I spoke to Kikyou and they are very determined to get usaway from Kagome.
SpiderBack: It makes it that much easier to take the jewel and go.
Poisoned: So, does anyone have an idea of how we can set up them expecting us not to be there?
TouchandDie: I think I do.
- - -
Ophielia smiled as she closed the chat window. She had underestimated the teenagers. She didn't even expect Sesshoumaru to think of something this smart. She signed out of the messenger and began to mess around with uninstalling the program. Technically, she wasn't supposed to download the program to start with. But, she had... For work purposes.
She turned to face the printer as two copies of the conversation came out. Of course, one was all bogus and she intended to leave that on the printer. She turned and put the other copy in her lockable filing cabnet.
Someone was bound to be going through her office to see what she had. After all, she was working on a case that targeted Andrew and Naraku. There was little doubt that they would send someone to investigate what she already knew and get rid of any decent evidence.
She would leave out obvious evidence, too. Then she would hide the evidence that was real in her filing cabinet. Once they saw that her naturally messy desk had everything in it, they would realize that she rarely put things away. They would pay attention to that stuff only, thus leaving real things alone.
Ophielia wondered if they truly were that predcitable. Then again, she had just spoken with the people who could tell what would happen next the best.
She searched the office for the lust-struck dumbass. He must have gone home, she thought proudly. As she realized that it was well past ten o'clock at night, she knew that she was one of the only people in the building.
What a bummer... I guess, no matter how annoying, it's nice to have a dog follow me around all the time... She thought briefly. Her cell phone rang, just as she knew it would. After all, it was a part of the real plan. The fake plan said that they wouldn't attempt to contact each other just in case something was traceable.
"Officer?" The voice on the other line asked. It was Souta, and she knew it. Of course, they weren't going to say names just in case.
"What is it? What's going on? We weren't supposed to talk to each other." She hissed. It had been a few hours since they all stopped talking, but she was just finishing up. Creating fake evidence takes up a long time. No, creating fake evidence is easy. Creating fake-but-possibly-real evidence takes up a lot of time.
"It's Kagome... I think she's going to... She... She's starting to have problems. She... Sesshoumaru yelled at her and she yelled back. Then, when she was in her room, I heard her saying that she didn't want any of us safe. I heard her saying that she wanted to..." Souta took a deep breath and gulped. Ophielia mentally applauded his talent and encouraged him to go to Hollywood or something like that.
"She said that she was going to give the jewel to them so they would kill all of us. She said that all the years of not talking and us not caring or helping... She said she was going to get back at us for all of them." Souta said. Ophielia gasped. This was a shock to her.
"Take her to a public place tomorrow. Try to talk to here there. It'll be hard for her to react harshly if she's in a public place. Perhaps it can solve your problems, if you talk to her about it... I'm coming over to spend the night and make sure your family isn't harmed." Ophielia offered. Souta made a sound that confirmed her words then hung up.
Perhaps this wasn't going to work...
Ophielia looked around the dark, creepy, empty office. She had to admit, she was a bit scared. She grabbed her coat and left for Souta's house.
- - -
"Sesshoumaru?" Inuyasha asked. Sesshoumaru stopped practicing and turned to look at his younger brother. It was ten at night and Inuyasha was coming to speak with him? Inuyasha may have been part demon, but he got tired just as often as humans. Why wasn't he asleep yet?
"What is it, little brother?" Sesshoumaru asked. Inuyasha walked towards the empty bleachers that surrounded the sparring arena. His brother held Tokijin in his hand with the Tensaiga lying down on a table with a powerless sword. He was going to be here all night, Inuyasha was sure of it.
"I wanted to thank you for reviving Kikyou..." That wasn't it at all. He was beating around the subject and both of them knew it.
I won't push you from your comfort zone... Not unless I must... Sesshoumaru thought. He preferred that Inuyasha get to the point, but he wouldn't push him. It would do no good.
"I know that you didn't have to revive her... And I know you'll say that I would have moped around because of her death. Honestly, I wouldn't have. After knowing what happened to Kagome, I would have fought for her. It would just affect me for a while before I realized I needed to protect Kagome..."
He was really beating around the bush. There was no point in him babbling like this. Then again, everyone seemed to be afraid that they would die. Death made you do strange things.
Sesshoumaru raised his sword and practiced a few techniques as Inuyasha bumbled around for words. After a while, Inuyasha came down and got the Tetsaiga from where it had been put away. He held it up as it transformed into a large fang. His facial expression told Sesshoumaru one thing.
Sparring time.
Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru began using a corraboration of techniques, each trying to get to the other. Blood was nothing. They would both be healed by the time the big fight came up.
"What I was really trying to say..." Inuyasha broke off and dodged a close attack from Sesshoumaru. He took a deep breath and then charged at Sesshoumaru.
Wreckless as always, little brother...
"If I died in this fight--"
"Which you won't." Sesshoumaru cut him off. Everyone seemed confident that they would die.
What is it with a human being concerned with death? Even Inuyasha should be able to get over this fear, due to his demon blood. Sesshoumaru was just getting annoyed with everyone being so scared.
"Yeah, but if I died... I wanted to know if..." He broke off once more as he got a good hit at Sesshoumaru. The Tetsaiga cut a few inches deep into Sesshoumaru's stomach. It was a light wound, and it could have gone deeper if Inuyasha had not been so distracted. Sesshoumaru looked up at Inuyasha as his wound patched itself up within a few minutes.
The two brothers charged at each other once more. It felt like they would be unable to speak unless it were during a sparring match.
"If I died, I wanted to know if you would revive me." Inuyasha said. Sesshoumaru tried desparately to get his body to keep moving, but it stopped on it's own. His mind even had to stop thinking for a moment and ponder Inuyasha's stupid question. Confusion ran across Sesshoumaru's face from the unexpected and pointless question.
Inuyasha picked up on that and immediately began to explain. "We always fight and say that we hate each other! Then when we spar, we actually try killing each other and give each other death threats! I want to know if that's all real or if you'll revive me!" Inuyasha snapped defensively. Sesshoumaru couldn't control himself anymore.
He knelt down and began laughing. He had soon started laughing so hard he had to lean on his sword. After the initial stupidity of the question passed, he looked up at his younger brother. He was confused. Did he really not know? Was Sesshoumaru that good at hiding what he felt inside him?
"Even with death threats, anger, hatred... Relationships are built on blocks. Ours are just the type that look like they won't hold. They do, though..." His brother blinked in confusion.
Time to try for a simpler approach...
"Inuyasha. If there was a demon at school, even a human or hanyou, that was seriously harming you. I would kill them or make them wish that I had done so." Sesshoumaru said. Inuyasha lowered his sword in shock. Sesshoumaru was... protective? Over him?
"Why? You always seem to hate me and you fight so hard against me. The way you push me away contradicts that." Inuyasha said. Sesshoumaru moved in for another hit, which Inuyasha barely managed to avoid. That's why you don't speak when you fight. Your guard falls.
"I fight hard and I act harsh to help you. You were always so trusting and weak as a child. When we would go out and catch frogs, and play with the horses together... Those times meant a lot to me. I knew that if I kept doing that, you wouldn't be able to prove yourself." Both the brothers had stopped sparring and lowered their swords.
"Being a half demon means that people will expect more of you. You can't act as human, because then you are weak and picked on. I wanted you to fit in with demons like me. I sparred against you as tough as I could so you would know how to fight for yourself rather than run from everything. I act rude to you so you'll be used to the way demons will treat you and you will learn that you don't need other people to help you stand up." Sesshoumaru said. Inuyasha stared off into space before coming back down to Earth.
"You were... trying to help me and protect me?" Inuyasha asked. Sesshoumaru nodded and raised his sword.
"But I can't do that if you don't fight, Inuyasha. Show me what you got." Sesshoumaru said. He let a taunting smirk slip onto his face as Inuyasha lunged forward.
Beyond the hate, the brotherly bond was there. It was stronger than anyone else would ever be able to realize. Insults were endearments upon one another. Fights were moments of bonding. Times of feigning hate were times of toughening up and learning to stand on your own. It was a way to make him strong and independant.
It made Inuyasha more than a hanyou...
- - -
"Miroku?" Sango curled up against his body. It wasn't cold. She wasn't cold. But she was scared and wanted to be close to him. Miroku hugged her close to his body. He wasn't wearing a shirt, and Sango realized that she was cold. Why hadn't she realized it? Compared to the warmth Miroku's chest was radiating, she was freezing!
"What is it?" Miroku didn't want her to start on the scared-of-death crap. He understood that she was scared. She was putting it all out of proportion, though.
"You love me, right?" Sango asked. Quite honestly, Miroku was surprised that she even felt the need to ask such a question.
"Of course I do, Sango." He replied. Sango smiled and kissed his nose.
"And you'll never leave me?" She asked. Miroku wondered about the obvious questions but decided not to ask about them. Something was bothering her and she would tell him in due time.
"Never." He replied with a gentle kiss on her lips. Sango took a deep breath and relaxed. Once she exhaled, Miroku felt her body calm down. He hadn't realized how tense she was. Whatever had been bothering her seemed to be gone, and she hugged herself closer to him.
"I love you very much, Miroku..." Sango whispered. Miroku looked down at her and smiled.
"And I love you, my dear Sango." He replied in a soft tone. Sango smiled and they slowly moved in for another kiss. Sango couldn't feel worried about anything with him kissing her this tenderly. She felt like she was the only woman that he would ever see.
She hadn't realized that, when books say that people melt in a kiss, it is possible. She and Miroku broke the kiss for air, then leaned forward and kissed once more. Slowly, they began to undress each other.
It didn't hurt that time. When Miroku entered her, there was hardly any pain. Or was there pain that Sango wasn't paying attention to? She was only focused on showing Miroku how much she loved him. Sex could convey those feelings, couldn't it? It could, she knew that for a fact. When he broke through her barrier before, she had felt all the love he held for her break through at the same time.
And, with both of them in the same apartment that had no heater, they warmed up the room together and showed their love for one another. Sango fell asleep next to Miroku, his strong arms around her.
I love you Sango, and I will never let anything happen to you. I want to take all your burdens from you, if you let me.
- - -
She was scared. There was no doubt about that. She wasn't scared of death. No, she had no fears of death after what had happened before. After discovering the absolutely warm feelings that the afterlife held, she had no fear of death. That wasn't the thing that bothered her now.
It was the idea of leaving everything behind.
What scared her more than leaving all her friends here and forgetting about them... It was facing Andrew and Naraku. She wanted to take them out on her own. But, with the last attempt as proof, she wasn't strong enough. All she wanted to do was take them out and have them know that she got to them.
But she couldn't.
Kagome sat on her bed, reflecting on the thoughts of her life. Her father had died. She didn't realize that it was because of the jewel that they were in such a hurry to get out. She didn't realize that the jewel was the reason that she didn't get the stupid toy and that she was angry at her father when he died. Thankfully, she heard his voice speaking when she was dead.
At least her father didn't seem to hold a grudge against her.
Then she moved to America. She was raped. One of the only things she had to offer a man- God knows her heart wasn't good enough -was taken. Her virginity was stripped away from her against her will. Her friend ended up dying. Not just her friend, but her best friend.
Kagome wondered how long she would feel guilty for this. How long would she feel responsible for Kimi's death? She hated the guilt. She couldn't stand the guilt that suffocated her when she thought about it. She wanted desperately to let it go and to get over it. It wasn't her fault, she wanted to be reassured of that. It was Andrew's fault for slamming her head against the back board of the bed.
Still, no matter how many times she tried to reassure herself that it wasn't her fault, she felt the guilt. It tackled her hard. There was no getting away, it seemed like. It seemed like it had her in it's grasp and there was no way of breaking out.
Her father's death, too. She blamed herself for that. Unlike Kimi's death, she knew that there was no squirming out of the guilt it brought. She had brought the jewel to her like a young, naive little girl. Look what it did. It caused someone to intentionally crash into her just so she would be dead and the jewel would be unprotected.
The doorbell rang, and Kagome sauntered over to get it. She didn't expect anyone other than Officer Chan. She was going to come over and help them in tips of pulling off a very good bluff. Because Naraku and Andrew had no way of knowing what they were doing in the house, they would assume that Souta's assumtions were true.
Kagome opened the door and allowed Ophielia to enter the room. She showed her the couch and told her how to unfold the bed from it. They didn't have much better than that, unfortunately.
"Souta should be down in a minute. I have to grab the phone then get him so we can talk about how to act." She said. Ophielia nodded her head and Kagome began to walk upstairs, dragging her feet.
She was tired and desired nothing more than to forget the things that burdened her. But that would be unfair. It would be really unfair for her to forget the hard times and just live with the easy times. Besides, tough things make you stronger, right? Gradually increasing your beer intake raises your alcohol tolerance. The more drugs you take, the more immune you are to them.
She just had to tell herself that the pain was the same way. She just had to keep telling herself and keep forcing herself to believe that things would get better. She knew that they should get better. Whether or not they woudl was up to the Gods and fate to decide. She couldn't change things, no matter how much she craved to.
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I am not yours. I am not something for you to hold and use. I am myself, and I will NOT allow you to take claim over me. I will show you that I am not weak. I used to be weak, but I will not be that way anymore. I will be strong. I will show you that you will pay for what you have done to me. I will fight back now. Are you ready? I warn you, do not expect a weak girl to fight you. Expect me, the Holy Demon.
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DawnMiko- That's EXACTLY what my summer will be like too! There are periods of time where I'll have to do something else, but that's kinda in the end of July.
Youkaimei- It's fine. If you can't think of anything, give me Monster or Amp energy drinks. Those keep me going for hours on end. Oooh... Dr. Pepper sounds nice. DON'T BASH YOURSELF WITH YOUR COMPUTER! I'm not going to stop working on this. Yes, there will be a sequal... I just keep forgetting what I want it to be about! Damn it!
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