I Miss My Friend
Summary: Raven reflects on her friendship with the Titans especially a certain green, pointy eared grass stain four years after the Titans have disbanded.
Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans or the song 'I Miss My Friend' by Darryl Worley. But I DID make changes to the song and I DO love that song and other work by him…
(A/N: When the type is in italics it means it's a flashback okay?)
Raven sipped her tea slowly as she looked out of her apartment window. In the distance she could make out the large T shaped tower half hidden by the fog. The place held so many memories. Most of them good but some bad. She sighed and poured the tea down the sink. She hated looking at that tower every morning like that but she couldn't stop. It was her home or at least she thought it was…
Raven wrapped her arms around herself trying to hold back tears. Starfire had already confronted her about leaving and she was unsure of what to do
"Rae?" Beast Boy emerged from the door and walked over to her
"What?"
"Star said she might go back to Tameran since Galfor's dead." Raven nodded
"She told me." the two stood in silence watching the water lap against the Tower. After a long time Beast Boy spoke again
"Raven, I'm thinking of leaving to. Maybe get a job and finish school." Raven turned to look at the changeling. He looked back down at her
"Y-you can't leave. I don't want to stay here with just Robin. We'll kill each other." Beast Boy smirked
"I doubt it Rae. You guys are pretty good friends right?" Raven turned away and shrugged
"I don't know anymore. He's so prideful now. Like he has all the answers and no one else's opinions matter. He's not the same." Beast Boy took her hand and turned her so she was facing him
"Then you could come with me. It wouldn't be any different only we wouldn't be fighting villains and risking our butts constantly." Raven smiled
"I'd really like to but…" her voice trailed off and she looked over the water "I don't know." Beast Boy nodded
"It's not the same without Cy." Raven nodded feeling tears well up in her eyes. Beast Boy pulled her into a hug. Their metal friend had died a year ago saving the whole team plus several other members of the Titans. Sometimes Raven could feel his spirit in the Tower. Especially around his room, the kitchen the couch and always in the garage. Several times she had noticed that the T-car had new additions added on even though they didn't use it any longer
"I don't think I'll stay here but I still want to be close to the Tower." she decided. Beast Boy nodded and hugged her tightly
"You take care of yourself Rae. Maybe someday we'll meet up again." Raven looked up at him in surprise
"You're leaving already?" Beast Boy nodded and Raven noticed now that he was dressed in jeans and a tee shirt
"Don't forget me." she whispered. Beast Boy grinned and shook his head
"There is no way I could ever forget you Rae."
Raven felt tears welling up in her eyes and she wiped them away quickly. She assumed a meditation position. Her powers flicked on the radio and a beautiful melody drawled out accompanied by a man's voice
I miss the look of comfort in your eyes. The way you'd smile in the mornings. I miss the way you'd tell me everything was gonna be okay. Oh but most of all I miss my friend…
The one my heart and soul confided in. The one I felt he safest with. The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again and let the light back in… I miss my friend
Raven's eyes flew open and she turned the radio up and floated closer. The song reminded her of Beast Boy so much. She didn't want to miss the name and artist.
I miss the colors that you brought into my life… You silver smile, those emerald eyes. And I miss your gentle voice in lonely times like now telling me it'll be alright. Oh but most of all I miss my friend.
I miss those times, I miss those night talks, I even miss our silly fights. The making up, the morning talks and those late afternoon walks. I miss my friend. I miss my friend…
Before Raven could hear the name someone rapped on her door loudly. She growled and hurried over to it
"What do you want?" she snapped opening the door. There was a familiar chuckle and she looked up. A green skinned man stood in front of her with a smiling face. On one side a fang stuck out. His green hair was rumpled and spiked up lazily. His eyes held laughter and amusement
"If you're gonna be like that I'll just leave." he joked. Raven threw herself at him. He laughed again and hugged her tightly
"How ya doing Rae?" he asked. Raven shushed him then opened her apartment door
"Come in and we'll talk." the changeling obeyed and sat down on the black sofa. Raven levitated two glasses filled with ice and soda into the room
"So what have you been doing?" Beast Boy shrugged
"I finished school like I wanted to and I've been working across town." he glanced at Raven "I've been trying to find you for the longest time. Where've you been?"
"Jumping around. I haven't stayed anywhere for more than a few months. Mainly because Robin kept coming and asking me to come back. I'd get angry and something would explode and I'd leave."
"Jeez Rae." he paused and swirled his drink "He still being a jerk?"
"Yes. He pretends to be sorry but I know he isn't. I think maybe he is… for Star and Cy but not for me and you. He just didn't have anyone else."
"So anything big happening?" Raven shrugged then set her drink down on the coffee table before curling up on the sofa
"I've been working at the library for a little bit. I met up with The Titans East the other day and talked with them. Bumble Bee's still a wreck about Cy but she's doing better and Speedy's been helping her along." Beast Boy nodded then looked over the Goth girl. She had a faraway look in her eyes like she was remembering days past
"Raven, come here." he patted the cushion next to him. Raven slid over and he hugged her tightly around the shoulders
"Why'd you come?" Raven asked
"To see you. I was stupid Rae. I should've realized it sooner but I was blind and stupid." Raven looked up at the changeling
"What are you talking about?"
"I should've taken you with me." he kissed her roughly on the lips. Raven gasped slightly as he pulled away
"Beast Boy…"
"It's Gar." he whispered. She smiled and leaned into his hand as it caressed her cheek. She had been lonely for four long years. But now that was over…
Ya this was kinda stupid but anyway… tell me what you think K?
