Who Am I?

Summary: Robin thinks over his life and past mistakes late one night on the roof of Titan's Tower. A certain red head finds him and forces Robin to take a closer look at himself and his past.

Robin was sitting on the edge of the roof of Titan's Tower. Normally this wasn't strange. But tonight it was. For one thing Robin wasn't dressed in his uniform. Instead he had on white sweat pants and a white hoodie sweatshirt. But even more astonishing his mask was lying beside him. His icy blue eyes looked over the city with a strange light in them.

Sidekick, leader of the Teen Titans, Red-X, Apprentice. At one time he had been all of these things and he felt as if he still was some of them. A sidekick to the most famous hero in Gotham City but never truly out of the man's shadow. A leader of his own team and responsible for each of them during battle. A ruthless thief to find the true identity to a madman. An apprentice to his worst enemy to save his friends from a terrible death.

Among all these things it was hard to find the real him. Who he had been before his parent's tragic death and before he had been trained to be cold and unfeeling. Of course living alone with four other teenagers –at one time five- had melted most of the ice on his heart and there was still one person who could melt all of it temporarily but it never lasted. It always came back with every battle. Every villain he faced.

As he thought all these things over Robin was soon asking himself

"Who am I?" he folded his hands under his nose as he thought the question over in his mind. He had learned from the greatest detective but still he didn't know the answer to such a simple question

"You are Robin. My dear friend and leader." a sweet simple voice answered. Robin jumped and reached for his bo staff before realizing it was only Starfire. He raised his arm over his eyes simply out of habit

"Robin, stop that. I am not going to tell anyone your identity." the girl said softly. He sighed and lowered the arm. For a minute the girl studied him taking in the icy blue of his eyes. There were marks around them from his mask and he didn't look like had slept in awhile

"Robin, what is the matter? You have been up here for quite some time and did not join us for dinner. Raven said you needed time alone but I thought…" her voice trailed off and she looked down at the ground. Robin gave her a weak grin and tried to make up a quick excuse

"I'm not hungry Star. Thanks for asking though. I'll be down soon okay?" the alien princess did not move to leave. Instead she stared at him with such intensity Robin had to look away from her light green eyes to keep from spilling everything that was running through his mind

"Robin, if you wish to do the talking I would be glad to listen to your troubles. Perhaps it would make you feel better." Robin shook his head

"I feel fine Star. Really." he could tell she didn't buy it

"Do not lie to me Robin. We Tameranians are much attuned to our and those around us' emotions. I can tell you are unhappy." Robin sighed and folded his hands under his nose again. Starfire floated over and sat beside him. Neither one spoke for a long time

"I'm just not sure of myself anymore. It's like the more things I become the more I loose myself." he glanced over at the girl "Does that make any sense?" Starfire nodded and wrapped her arms around her legs for warmth in the chilly October night air

"It is like when I was in line for the throne. Everyone expected me to be someone I was not. It frightened me greatly that I could not be myself. So yes I suppose I do understand what you mean." Robin nodded and ran a hand through his un-gelled hair

"Is there something else?" Starfire questioned softly. Robin shrugged then looked down at the waves crashing against the island the Tower stood on

"It's just… I feel like I'm loosing my touch. That I'm not as strong as I used to be. That being with the Titans has… I don't know."

"Robin, you are just as strong as you were when you first started the Titans. I believe you are stronger in both the body and mind. Raven has taught you to control your anger in battle. Cyborg has showed you how to be less competitive and Beast Boy has taught you to have fun."

"And you taught me how to open up." Starfire looked at the boy in confusion. He grinned slightly "Batman always told me that being a hero like him was a lonely job. I couldn't afford to let anyone close because if they got hurt I would be responsible."

"That is not true!" Starfire exclaimed "We became Titans knowing fully the dangers that came with our position. You would not be to blame if we were harmed." Robin shrugged and let his legs dangle over the edge of the roof. What she said was true and he knew it but all his life he had been responsible for someone getting hurt and he wasn't going to let that happen again

"Robin, we are your friends and even if it is dangerous we will always help you if we can."

"I know Star. But my whole life I've been alone. My parents died when I was young so it wasn't like I had a lot of people showing me affection or care. Bruce- err Batman was great but he wasn't a loving person. It just wasn't his nature and he taught me to be that way. But I guess after living with you guys showed me that I don't want to be like that though. Sometimes I want to yell and laugh like Beast Boy but something holds me back." he shook his head and went back to his earlier position with his chin resting on his knees. Starfire laid a gentle hand on his shoulder

"Robin, there is nothing to be ashamed of when you show emotion. Especially when you are happy or sad." to her surprise Robin's shoulders shuddered under her touch

"Robin?" the boy looked up. Tears were streaming down his face slowly but surely. He gave a watery grin and Starfire returned it.

They sat in silence until Robin spoke again

"You know, Robin's not my real name."

"I guessed that." Starfire replied. Robin looked down at his hands. Well, she's seen his eyes…

"It's Richard. Richard Grayson. My mother always called me her little Robin because red was my favorite color."

"Richard." Starfire said softly as if testing out the name. After a moment she smiled

"It is a nice name. My royal name is Koriand'r. On Earth I think it would be Kori Anders." Robin cocked his head and smiled

"Kori. It fits you." Starfire smiled then twirled a strand of hair around one finger deep in thought. She absently wondered if Kori Grayson fitted her

"Robin?"

"Ya?"

"Do you think that perhaps when we are alone…? I might call you Richard and you could call me Kori?" Robin turned to the alien beauty beside him and smiled

"Sure… Kori." then gathering up his courage he planted a sweet swift kiss on the princess's lips. She squeaked in surprise then leaned into the kiss. Above their heads the large new moon rose. After a long time they broke away breathless. Then Robin started laughing like he would never stop. He laughed so hard tears rolled down his cheeks and Starfire couldn't help but giggle along with him. Finally he stopped gasping for breath. He had ended up flat on his back laughing to the sky

"What was so funny friend Robin?" Starfire asked her green eyes shining the darkness

"No clue." Robin responded before pulling the girl closer. She leaned her head on his shoulder and sighed

"On my planet when the new moon rises people say it is a sign of new love. I believe that it is the same on Earth yes?" Robin shrugged

"Good enough for me."