Emotions

Summary: Raven accidentally looses control of her powers and hurts Beast Boy. After the accident she notices a change in Beast Boy's behavior.

Chapter One

"Go away, Beast Boy!"

The three Titans sitting on the sofa all sighed as one. The cry always heard at least ten times a day in Titans Tower.

A few seconds later Beast Boy came running into the common room being chased by a furious looking Raven. He was carrying some kind of book clutched to his chest and he was going full out not even bothering to change into an animal in his panic

"Give it back!" Raven roared.

"I just want to read it!" the changeling yelled back.

The other Titans watched in annoyance. Finally Beast Boy came to a stop as a wall loomed up ahead of him. He turned around to face the furious half demon

"How many times have I told you to stay out of my room!" she screamed "All I want is peace and quiet! And you have the nerve to barge in and take one of my books!"

"You said read a book! I couldn't find any. And I knocked like five times but you were meditating." Beast Boy tried to explain.

Raven's powers crackled through the air. A wind picked up whirling her purple hair around in a circle "Why can't you just leave me alone!"

Black power flew out at the changeling. He was struck and tossed aside like a rag doll. Rolling into a ball at the last second he smashed into several chairs and finally the opposite wall of the kitchen.

The whirlwind of power halted immediately and Raven looked around at the shocked faces of her teammates. Beast Boy sat up and gave her the look that a mistreated dog gives its master

"Beast Boy… I…" Raven started towards him but he backed away slightly in fear. Raven's eyes filled with tears and she ran out of the room. The toaster exploded in the kitchen.

Robin paced as Cyborg bandaged a shallow cut on Beast Boy's arm "This has got to end Beast Boy. You can't take much more of this."

"Dude! She was meditating! I didn't want to wake her up so I took a book and left. How was I supposed to know she'd…" he trailed off.

"Raven has told us all to stay out of her room because she keeps things in there that could be dangerous. Why can't you just listen to her?" Robin demanded

Beast Boy didn't answer. He really had no answer. Why did he try to make the Gothic girl happy when all she did was shove him away? What was the point?

Raven walked down the hall and waited for a moment as the common room doors slid open. She glanced around looking for Beast Boy.

He wasn't in the kitchen, or on the sofa, and the TV wasn't blaring all kinds of video game noises.

"Where's Beast Boy?" Raven wondered aloud.

"I believe he went into the city on some 'errands'." Starfire reported.

Raven nodded her thanks then headed up to the roof. Why in the world would Beast Boy go to the city? He hated being stared at unless he was with the others.

Shrugging it off Raven slipped into her usual trance and lifted her body into the air.

Two hours later Raven was walking to her room when she heard a loud clanking sound coming from Beast Boy's room. She paused then retraced her steps towards the room. Knocking softly she called out "Beast Boy? Are you in there?"

The door opened as it was programmed to do. Beast Boy was perched on the top bunk of his bed. He cast a glance at Raven then returned to staring at the ceiling.

Raven glanced around the room. It was clean for once. And it didn't smell like tofu and pizza. But… something else was different. It still looked the same. The dark green walls, the desk in the corner. The…

There was no mirror. Raven remembered it had shattered when Beast Boy had punched it. And the scratch marks on the wall had somehow vanished. They had come from the Beast. Beast Boy said he would keep them to remind him of what had happened.

"Do you want something?" The hollow voice surprised Raven. She glanced at Beast Boy who was still staring at the ceiling "If you don't please go away."

Raven winced and rose up into the air. She sat down so she could see the changeling as she spoke "I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry."

Beast Boy's emerald eyes flickered towards her then returned to the ceiling "Everyone is." he replied softly

"Beast Boy… I didn't want to hurt you. I really didn't. I just lost control. I'm sorry." Raven's voice took on a pleading note

"If you didn't want to hurt me then you wouldn't have." Beast Boy whispered in a husky voice "When I became the Beast I tried to protect you."

"That's different! My powers are triggered by emotions! I can't help it! Do you know how many hours I meditate to make sure you guys don't get hurt?"

"Eight." the boy replied

"What?"

"You meditate exactly eight hours every day. No more, no less."

"How did you…"

"I watch Raven. I wanted to know when you stopped so I could…" his voice caught but he plowed on "So I could spend time with you."

"Why would you spend time with me?" Raven asked "You said I was… creepy."

"I said I was sorry didn't I?"

Raven looked down at her hands. "Yes, you did." she looked up "And now I want to say I'm sorry too."

Beast Boy lifted himself up on his elbows and studied her for a moment "You really mean that, don't you?"

"Of course I do!" Raven exclaimed indignantly. A few pens lifted into the air and shattered spraying ink everywhere.

The Goth girl sighed and closed her eyes for a few seconds. Then she flicked a hand. The ink cleaned itself up and disappeared into a black vortex of power.

"I would never hurt you on purpose Beast Boy." she whispered lowering herself to the ground "You're my best friend."

Raven sat in the dark. She liked the dark. But right now she wanted light. Beast Boy's words played over and over in her mind

"If you didn't want to hurt me then you wouldn't have... I tried to protect you when I was Beast."

He had tried to protect her. And he'd nearly been killed twice in the process. And hewas almost thrown in jail.

Raven paused in her thinking to look around the room. Dark. She wanted light. Dark. Light. Dark. Forever dark.

"Beast Boy." she whispered. He was the light she yearned for.

Gathering her courage she got up and went into the hallway.

Beast Boy was still on his bed looking at the ceiling. Raven sat on the bottom bunk in silence searching for words to say

"I'm so sorry. Can you forgive me?" she sent the thought to the changeling's mind. If he wanted to he could shove it away. There was silence then "I forgive you."

Raven smiled a little. A black aurora surrounded some pieces of paper and they did flips in the air. She frowned.

"You know Raven, I… I never thought you were creepy." Beast Boy whispered. Somehow he'd gotten next to her on the bed without her noticing.

"I know you didn't… but… it hurt still hurt to hear someone say it." Raven replied holding back tears. The papers ripped themselves into shreds.

Beast Boy watched the pieces float to the ground gently. Then he pulled Raven to her feet "Come on."

Raven looked around the roof in confusion. Beast Boy had dragged her up here for some reason but now he was totally silent as if he was searching for words

"Raven?"

"Hm?"

"You're… an empath, right?"

"I sense emotions, yes."

Beast Boy turned to her and had to look down slightly to meet her eyes "Tell me what I'm feeling right now cause I have no idea."

Raven hesitated then slowly slipped into the changeling's river of thought. Emotions of all kinda burned in her magical vision but one stood out the most.

LOVE. And not just love. Love for her!

Raven jerked from the river returning to her body with a jolt. Her eyes flickered up to Beast Boy's. He was staring at her. She frowned. He knew! He was just trying to show her…

Raven's thoughts trailed off as Beast Boy's lips covered hers. Raven tried to pull away but the shape-shifter held her tightly.

The rooftop door melted into a mere puddle of molten steel!

Raven desperately tried to pull away. Didn't he realize what he was making her do?

Beast Boy's hands traveled down the girl's arms and he entwined his fingers with hers.

One of the AC units exploded sending pieces of machinery into the air!

Raven kept struggling. It wasn't that she didn't enjoy the feeling. She just didn't want anything to…

Beast Boy's hand stroked her spine softly and Raven let out a moan of pleasure.

Several steel beams twisted themselves until they were no longer recognizable.

She had to stop! Why wouldn't he let her go! Didn't he realize he could get hurt?

Finally the changeling's lips lifted off of hers. But before she could say anything he was nibbling on her ear! That and the soft touch of his hands on her back and waist was too much.

Black power sparked all over Raven like electricity. The rest of the AC's blew up. The molten puddle that was the door twisted up into the air like a live creature.

"See Raven?" Beast Boy whispered in her ear "You're not hurting me."

Raven jerked away from him confusion evident in her purple eyes. This time the cement they stood on cracked.

"Beast Boy… I can't do this! I can't feel these things. I'm sorry." she whispered backing away from him.

Power crackled through the air sounding like firecrackers.

Raven fled from the roof leaving Beast Boy standing there on a buckling rooftop with his mouth open and a hand outstretched.

Okay this is actually going to be a two part oneshot. I got tired of writing them always ending with BB and Rae getting together at the end and everything being perfect. So here's another oneshot from Raven's Shadow of Light!

Chapter Two

"Calm down, Raven.