Misato's place is
like I remember it. It's messy. She never picks anything up. The
first thing I see when I open the door of course has to be mountains
of empty beer cans.
Dead soldiers, she says.
She won't just
put the cans in the bins. It's not that hard. I should tell her off
later, but what good would that do?
Ikari really is just a kid
Kensuke and Toji said he said she shows you a side of herself she
doesn't want anyone else to see. She considers you like family they
try to say.
The cans are everywhere.
I'm surprised
Asuka hasn't pulled her hand away yet. She would usually punch me
even if I just accidentally brushed up against her. I guess she
calmed down to me when I killed her. But I never killed her.
Asuka
is calm. She looks at me and her hand is not in mine anymore and the
electricity is gone. My hand tingles.
"Idiot. Nichts hat sich
geƤndert." she is saying. Asuka I can't understand you.
Speak Japanese. Speak Japanese, God damn you.
"Did I say you
could touch me?"
She brushed me out of the way like I was dust.
Everyone's dust. Dirt and sand and dead skin. Dust.
She's
in a chair at the table. The table where she said Shinji do you want
to kiss me she said.
Why
I have nothing else to do I'm bored
are you afraid to kiss a girl she says she's taunting me always
picking on me.
Are you afraid to kiss a girl on the anniversary
of your mommy's death Asuka said
why did she bring my mother's
death into this
Asuka says is she watching you from up in
heaven
Well Asuka you're getting more than you bargained for I
lean my head in and she wants me to stop breathing?
I kiss her,
sort of. She forces my lips onto hers and holds them there with my
nose shut and I'm suffocating help me and she's washing her mouth
now.
She's brushing her teeth and using mouthwash how insulting
how insulting
Definitely not a good way to kill time she
complains.
She was so upset when Misato came home. Misato
doesn't seem to be home right now. When Misato came home that night
when we kissed, Asuka tried to talk to Mr. Kaji. He's dead now.
Like Asuka. Who is here and not dead reality is at the end of the
dream I hear the voice say.
Asuka was upset when she came from
talking to Kaji. She told me she felt awful because she actually
kissed me. Insulting how insulting but I'm not hurt. I'm hurt
because I know it had to do with Kaji. I remember that night.
I
wanted to die.
I've never really cared if I died or not, but
I've never actually desired death.
Asuka's sitting at the
table. Wonder what she's thinking. Pen Pen is out of the
refrigerator. He's making penguin noises.
Ms. Misato what's
in the other refrigerator I ask
Misato says he's probably still
sleeping she said.
He's making penguin noises. I'd rather try
to figure out German than penguin noises. I think he's complaining
about something. This is getting annoying. Where's the fish? That's
probably the first thing I should try doing: giving him something to
eat. Fish.
Swimming in the ocean like fish.
I'm in one
of Asuka's plug suits.
We match oh haha Aida yes my figure is
nice very funny Toji shut the hell up.
She's making me ride in
the plug with her in her Eva Asuka you can't go in the water we'll
be finished.
We're underwater. Swimming in the ocean like fish.
All units fire at will. Angel destroyed.
Fish.
The pack is
open. Pen Pen has finally shut up now, but I still want Asuka to talk
to me. What's so hard about talking to me I wonder?
She's
more insecure than I am. That's why she acts so self-righteous and
superior and pompous all the time. But how the hell would I know?
What's that noise? Oh, it's just the TV. I hate these
religious programs.
"The sun will turn to darkness and the moon
to blood before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the
lord." an old man rants.
That seems unsettling. I thought
religion was supposed to bring you solace, not terror.
Absolute
Terror Field.
The Eva has penetrated the Angel's AT Field
impossible they say how the hell severe cranial damage suffered unit
has been rendered immobile how the hell?
His sync ratio is
escalating
escalating I'm ascending heavenwards.
