All the way home Tony thought of how he was stupid to think he could have Michelle. I knew it he thought, she's gorgeous, obviously every guy out there will want her and that way I don't have a chance in hell. The Tony would tell himself no Michelle isn't like that; she wouldn't do that to me. Even though most of him believed that she wouldn't be like that, he still made himself believe that she is like that because of his insecurities!
Tony arrived home and went and had a really steaming hot shower, he let the water run over him, pretending it was taking away his hurt and pain. He really felt like he had fallen hard for Michelle, and it hurt him so much to know that she would drop him just like that for another guy. Then Tony felt like he was overreacting about it; 'it had been one kiss, were not even going out!' H e spent the entire day thinking through things about him and Michelle, arguing with himself, 'she would do it, no she wouldn't do that to me, does it matter? It's not like were an item'.
Back at Michelle's house she went back inside her house and sat down, James came and sat with her.
"Look Michelle are you okay? You've seemed upset since you got back in from seeing that Tony guy."
"Yeah I'm fine" She brushed him off, she was thinking things through, she didn't mean to be blunt about it, but this was important.
'Is he jealous? If he is do I still want him, if he's going to get jealous every time I see another guy as a friend then what sort of relationship would we have? Is there going to be trust? He's going to have to trust me, Should I call him and explain? Does he think I'm with James? If he does how could he think that, I kissed him today and he thinks im going to go with another guy on the same day!
All these thoughts were rushing through Michelle's head and she didn't know what to do.
"I don't think you are Michelle"
She didn't even remember what they were talking about, "You don't think im what?"
He looked at her, eyebrows raised, "I don't think your fine"
She looked at him and a few tears fell from her eyes, "Aww Michelle don't cry what's wrong?"
"Nothing"
James looked at her, tilted his head and looked into her eyes, "Yeah, sure you are, come on, you'll feel better if you tell someone"
"Just Tony thinks that I'm with you, I think, I don't know im so confused, he was… different, when he left, I just I want him to know that its him that I want to be with, ya know?" She said whilst sniffling.
"So you want Tony?" He asked, he had actually come over to ask Michelle to give it another go with him.
"Y…ye…yes" She said still sobbing
"Well call him" He told her, James was a lovely guy, no matter how much he wanted Michelle, he wanted her to be happy even more, and if she wanted to Tony then she should have Tony.
James gave Michelle a big hug and then told her he was going to give her privacy with the call, he wished her well and kissed her forehead.
Michelle plucked up her courage and dialled his number, yes she knew his number off by heart, but she thought putting him on speed dial would be a bit too obsessive!
Tony got up off his sofa and picked up the phone,
"Almeida"
She loved that voice, it was so husky sometimes, and she loved it!
"Hey" She said hoping he knew who it was.
"Oh Hey Michelle"
She paused for a while then she said "is that a good 'oh' or a bad 'oh'?"
"Well…" he sat there scratching the side of his face, as he always did when he was nervous.
"Well both actually"
"So you're happy I called and you're not happy I called?" She asked her heart beating faster,
"Well yeah see, um… I wanted you to call, because you know, I want to talk to you and stuff, but I sort of didn't want to talk because… I like…"
"Because what Tony?" She asked again she was beginning to get frustrated, not because Tony couldn't get his words out but because she thought he was going to say he didn't want her, the kiss was a mistake etc.
"Because I want to… I want to get over you" He quickly said; oh crap was that the right way to word it? He started panicking, thinking he shouldn't have said it, and he said it wrong, should he have just not told her?
Michelle paused and then took a deep breath and whispered "You want to get over me?"
"Look Michelle, I understand, I do, I just can't handle it"
Michelle was getting frustrated again, "Tony what cant you handle? That my ex was over my house? What cant I have boys as friends?"
"What no Michelle, it's that… right Michelle this conversation it's not working…" Before he had even finished Michelle cut him off and began yelling "It's not working Tony? So your going to give up that easy are you? Fine well I'll see ya at work tomorrow shall I?" She said huffing and puffing, afterwards she felt embarrassed for being so emotional, she thought she had exaggerated a little and now she was feeling slightly humiliated, she wasn't normally like this, it was the fear of losing Tony, before he was even hers!
"Ok look, like I said it's not working, were both getting worked up, and I just think that we should carry the conversation on another time"
She sighed she knew he was right, "Yeah, fine, ok" she paused "Well I'll see you at work then"
"Look, Chelle, do you want me to come over? We can still talk if you want I just think that it is a you know important conversation and stuff so it shouldn't be done over the phone"
"Ok, erm, sure, yeah you can come over" Michelle said, the stress suddenly left and was overcome by nerves and excitement.
