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Leo: I'd be back! Finally after being banned from the computer, to assignments, to laziness and writer's bloc I'm back!
Molokai: -kisses Leo- And we're together finally, now that's he's sixteen
Leo: -blushes- Well anywayz, hope you enjoy this chapter!
WARNING: This fanfic contains (Male x Male) relationships and its AU (alternate universe) so if you don't like, get out and don't flame… and yea swearing in this chapter, cause Sora gets really pissed off…
Chapter Three – The beginning of the hardships…
"Yea, well what the fuck have you been doing for the past month!" Sora screamed into his mobile phone. He had just completed the lyrics for their album and was planning the rehearsal with the rest of his band.
"I don't give two shits about your priorities, we made a fucking pact that the band comes first, after family and social issues, not just because you want a vacation!" Sora screamed once more, before ending the call and slamming the phone onto his table, breaking the screen of the phone.
Sora was really over his band members, they haven't even released an album and already they were getting on his nerves. The phone call was from Tidus, who was begging to take a break from rehearsals for a two-week holiday on the some tropical islands. Though he wasn't the only one pushing his buttons the wrong way. Him and Cloud just had a fight over the name of the band, on which everyone agreed on in the third band meeting, and now he was having second thoughts.
Sora's head felt like it was going to explode. He had organised all of the meetings, wrote all of the lyrics and even gave advice on how the songs should be played. He even got them hooked up to a record company who would be willing to label them, and yet he feels that no one is giving him the congratulations, besides from Leon and Yuffie, his best friends.
He collapsed onto his bed and covered his head with his hands as he yelled into them, muffling them slightly. He was already under a lot of pressure to give the band a great impression to a possible audience, and he was under pressure by his landlord for not giving the rent he needed, as well as the burden of two rejections from possible girlfriends, and a severe beating from a guy. Sora felt that it was all just too much.
He opened his laptop and found two messages waiting for him. One was a special promotional offer to win a 'fantastic prize'. 'Yea right' Sora said to himself as he deleted it, while smiling as he looked at whom the other was from. Riku.
Sora felt that his spirits had been lifted off of the floor and into the sky. He felt like that everytime he saw a message from Riku on the computer. Sora refused it to be love, because he didn't believe that you could fall in love with someone halfway across the world, and never really met them before. That stuff only happens in fairytales, and Sora was a person to believe that fairytale relationships happen to those extremely lucky people, mainly in fairytale stories about those kinds of relationships.
However, Sora couldn't deny the facts. He feels like Riku is the only person that makes him feel special whenever he thinks about him. He also is the only one that makes him feel happier about life, by a simple message of encouragement. And Sora knew that he couldn't live a day longer if Riku left him for good. Sora knew it was love, it had to be, but no one like him could ever feel something that. He was normally the person writing about people experiencing it, or talking to people who have gone through it. Sora shook his head, he had to clear his thoughts and actually read the message before any more visual pictures and thoughts come into his mind.
'So Sora, what's up? How's your band going?' Riku's message said. Sora snorted in slight amusement. Typical life, you try and forget certain things in your life and they just come right back the second you forget them, bloody ironic isn't it?
'Funny that you bring them up. Man they're annoying the fuck outta me, I can't take it anymore. I've done everything for them and yet they treat me like dirt, I got them the record deal, I used my money, my fucking money to get us where we are and yet I get no sign of gratitude, I should just quit now…' Sora typed in his reply and sent it to Riku before looking over his lyrics again.
Sora was looking over the band's possible album cover and looked at the design. It was a stunning design of Sora at the front of the cover, but with a twist. He was half submerged into the darkness of the background of the cover, with the rest of his band members faces outlined in the black background above where Sora was 'submerging'. Sora had to thank Tidus' girlfriend, Yuna, for that design. She was a brilliant painter and the design worked well with the band's name, 'Dark Souls', even though Cloud wanted something less 'evil', as he put it.
Sora then looked at the booklet on the inside of the album and quickly looked over the lyrics, which caught his eye, making him frown. He quickly brought up his lyrics on his laptop and his eyes narrowed as he searched for the lyrics he wanted. When he found them, he looked at his laptop screen and then at the booklet. He realised that the lyrics on his laptop was modified from the one in the booklet. Normally he would think of it as being an error on the producers' part, but not when an entire verse had been changed.
"That son of a bitch!" Sora yelled as he looked around the room for his phone for which he found on the floor, broken in several pieces. Sora swore even more under his breath and picked up the album book, his wallet and his keys and stormed out of his apartment and hopped into his car. Sora raced down the streets, really fast, but extremely skilled behind the wheel so he could turn and brake only when needed. Slowing down only when he knew when the police were nearby so he didn't get busted again for speeding.
Sora pulled up in front of Leon and Yuffie's house where he opened the door, grabbed the CD booklet and slammed his car down, not bothering about locking it, cause it was going to be a very short visit. Once at the front door, Sora took in a deep breath and slowly clenched and unclenched his fists before calmly knocking on the door.
To Sora's luck, Leon answered the door, who was unfortunate to meet the right fist of Sora colliding with his right cheek. Sora felt his blood boil and his senses go out of control as his anger began to flare up, and that went the same with Leon.
"Sora what the fuck was that about?" Leon yelled as he held his right cheek in his left palm, trying to dull the pain.
" 'What the fuck was that about?' Why not say that to yourself," Sora showed Leon the page of the modified lyrics, "What fucking right do you have to change my lyrics, MY FUCKING LYRICS!" Sora said throwing another punch, which was luckily stopped by Leon and his fast reflexes.
"Sora I…"
"Fuck you Leon! I told you that you consult me if you have a problem with the lyrics, just like I told Cloud and Tidus to approach me if they have any problems with the band. I've put all this effort in for you guys. I bore my sweat and my emotions onto those pages for this fucking band and yet you fucking change my lyrics without telling me!" Sora said screaming at Leon who was looking at Sora with as much intensity as Sora's yelling.
Just at that moment, Yuffie stepped into the room and saw Leon holding his right cheek with his left hand, and Sora's closed fist with his right. She also saw Sora's angered expression and Leon's icy cold glare back at the singer. Leon didn't even need to look behind him, he already knew that Yuffie was there.
"Yuffie, leave the room. This is between us two, you don't need to get involved." Leon said, still holding his glare at Sora, who in turn still held his.
"But, if it involves…" She tried to help the situation, only to be cut off by Leon
"I said leave Yuffie." Leon said, his voice rose slightly, he never raised his voice unless he meant business. Knowing this, Yuffie quietly left the room and Leon let go his Sora's, now unclosed, fist.
"Sora I'm sorry for what happened with the lyrics I…" Leon said coolly to Sora, only to have the enraged singer cut him off in a sea of hatred.
"Your sorry? That doesn't make the situation right Leon. You should know better than the rest of the band that the lyrics are my heart and soul, they are my lifeline into the band. When you change the lyrics, you change the emotions that I placed into them and that ruins what I envisioned Leon." Sora said, tears beginning to linger near the edge of his eyes, threatening to fall. Leon saw this and sighed, he was always the one who had to sort out Sora's problems.
"It's not just the lyrics is it?" Sora eyes widened as Leon stared at him, straight through his façade that Sora placed over his emotions and his true self. "It's more than that isn't?"
"Leon I can't take it. I've worked so hard on producing the lyrics, getting the record deal and getting everything for us set up and yet all I'm getting is betrayal from you guys. Cloud rung me up a couple of hours ago begging for the name of us to change, and then Tidus rang and said that he going on holiday for two weeks, which totally screws up what I fucking planned!" Sora said, crying, head hanging low as he clenched his fists. "Why is it that I'm trying so fucking hard to get everything ready for us, to allow us to be what we have always dreamed and then it gets shot down." Leon had to admit it, Sora was pouring his heart and soul into this band and yet it seems that he gets no credit for any of his efforts.
"I know you, Cloud, Tidus and Yuffie do your parts in the band and do it really well, but no offence I've put in all of the leg work for the starting and coordinating of the band and no one is here to help me. I'm stretching myself, bending myself backwards for this band and yet no one is there to support me through it." Sora said, kneeling on one knee as he clenched his fist and starts punching the ground in misery and anger. "Why won't anyone fucking help me Leon! Why?" Sora looked up into Leon, who looked down into Sora's teary and frustrated eyes.
Sora lowered his head down again and looked at the ground to see a puddle of blood lined pavement, forming around his hand where the cut was from the repeated punching was from. Sora looked at his right hand, specifically where the blood was coming from. He noticed that he cut his knuckles, and by the looks of the amount of blood that was trailing down his hand, he had done it pretty deep.
"Sora, why don't you come inside and get that cleaned up?" Leon said helping Sora to his feet and began to guide him into his house, only to be shoved away by Sora, not heavily but enough to loosen the grip he had on Sora's shoulders.
"Nah it's okay Leon, I should be getting home anyways. I'll stop off at the chemists and pick up some bandages." Sora said holding his fist in his other hand, applying pressure onto the wound to slow the bleeding.
"Okay then, take care Sora, and for god's sake fucking ask him alright. You ain't doing any favours fantasizing about him and then hurting yourself because you are under this much stress." Leon said as entered his house and slowly closed the door.
Sora headed back to his car, opened the driver's door and hoped into the leather seat of the car. He looked around his car for a means to help cover the hand for a short while so he could get to the chemist. When found a small cloth on which he cleaned the inside of his car with, he grabbed it and quickly tied it around the knuckles of his right hand and then started the engine.
Sora cringed as he gripped the wheel in his right hand and he got into gear with his left hand, as he took off from the front of the house. (AN: Remember I'm an Australian so we got right-hand driving instead of left okay.) He took the trip quiet slowly, loosing much of his steering capabilities due to his injured right hand. The trip to the chemist and back to his apartment took half and hour, when he normally could do it in half the time, but Sora wasn't too fussed, so long as he got back safely.
Sora walked up to his apartment, bandaging his right hand as he was doing so. Once he reached his door, he clipped the loose end of the material to the rest of the bandage and entered his apartment. He went to his laptop and looked at any new messages, and of course who had sent him a message but his overseas angel, Riku. Sora opened the message.
'Don't quit your dream Sora, they are what makes us strive in life. If you lose your dream you'll become nothing and I don't want that to happen to you, I would die if you lost all hope in life." Sora's eyes widened as he read the message. There was something about it that ticked in him, he was given new life in him. He couldn't give up on his dreams, he was doing it for himself and for his lover, Riku. But could he call Riku a lover?
'Well considering that we basically tell each other all, and Riku does seem to like to hug me over the messages and that. Maybe he just really cares about me, as a friends sake… dammit why does this have to be so hard? Should I tell him, or should I just go with friends? Fuck where's a coin when you need one?' Sora argued in his head, he was still really unsure whether to ask Riku if he loved him or not. 'Well you have one shot in life to do whatever you truly want, hell that's what got me into this band… screw the consequences, I'll take my chances."
'Thanks Riku, it seems that everytime you speak to me I get new life into me. I don't know whether to tell you or not, because I'm afraid of the consequences of this, but I will anyway. Riku… I love you, I love you because you have always been there, maybe not in person, but you have supported me ever since the first time I read your messages… and I want you to know that I will always love you.' Sora typed, he felt a small prick hit his heart with every word he wrote. He was putting his heart on the line and he couldn't help but cry once he sent the message, already fearing for the worst to come.
Sora's thoughts came back to the real world as he heard a sound come from his laptop, his heart skipped a beat as checked to see who it was from. He frowned as he saw another promotional offer from some website he had signed up to. 'Bloody typical, they have to send those things at the worst time possible' Sora muttered in his head, just as another message came up onto the screen, this one from Riku.
'Sora…'
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Molokai: You're leaving it there!
Leo: Yup I'm a bastard ain't I -pokes tongue out- I wanted a real cliffhanger for people to get excited for the next chapter.
Molokai: Well whatever makes you happy…
Leo: Yup, just like you…
Molokai: You know it -kisses- Leo
Leo: Well I hope you enjoyed the chapter, and I'll get the next one out in a fortnight, hopefully so cya til then
Molokai: Please review!
