Disclaimer: I own nothing involving KH, besides my game that I bought…and this fic… and my other fics… and my blow-up Riku doll… AH! I typed that!
Leo: I'm mainly focusing on this story, because it's the only fanfic that I have any ideas on what to write… MOLOKAI NOT WHILE I'M TYPING!
Molokai: -sighs as finishes styling Leo's hair- Look, if you want to meet a proper guy, instead of a spirit sent to protect you then let me finish your hair!
Leo: I know that I said last chapter that we're together, but Molokai reckons I need a proper bf so he's helping me, but making me look… what is it that you said.
Molokai: Absolutely smexy and cute at the same time.
Leo: Well as I'm being styled, I hope you like this chapter! I was listening to KH2 music while typing this, so yea… I'm getting set for the Australian release of KH2 in three months or so!
WARNING: This fanfic contains (Male x Male) relationships and its AU (alternate universe) so if you don't like, get out and don't flame…
Chapter Four – The beginning of the addictions…
It had been four days since Sora broke down in front of Leon's house, and the arguments he had with the rest of his band. Sora and his band now, stood in the studio, hearing the feedback that was recorded only a few minutes ago for their self-titled album. Leon sat beside the producer and mixers as he looked at the configuration that they set for the final song. Tidus and Cloud stood near the console as they listened to their parts to see if there was anything that needed to be changed. While Yuffie stood near the door and played with her drumsticks, twiddling them in her fingers as she tapped her foot with the bass drum.
Sora was extremely quiet as he closed his eyes and let the music flow through him, to see if it was exactly as he envisioned. He felt his lyrics hit his soul, right from where they were created from, Leon's lead guitaring that accompanied the lyrics to his heart. Cloud's rhythmic guitar, along with Tidus' bass and Yuffie's drumming brought the background, the actual soul of the music. When the song completed the producer, Cid as he was called, swivelled around in his chair to face the band.
"Well guys and gal, what do ya think? Pretty awesome tuning don't ya think?" Cid said, flicking under his nose as he said so.
"Unfortunately with the mixing, you threw the bass line out of sequence in the final verse." Sora said, his eyes opened to meet everyone else's eyes looking at him, some of them in disbelief.
"You mean we have to do it again?" Tidus said in annoyance.
"No, all Cid has to do is place your bass line back in sequence, that's all, it takes one rotation of the dial and it's right." Leon said, reaching over to the console, only to have his hand slapped away by Cid, who guarded his console from threats.
"No one touches the equipment, and for your information, that was perfect, the bass creates it's own rhythm in the final verse." Cid said, coolly looking Sora, who held his gaze at the older man.
Leon, Cloud and Yuffie dropped their head and sighed, Cid was going to get it now. No one ever told Sora how music should be, he knew the ins and outs of music, ever since his stepfather taught him to play guitar. Sora took a few steps forward and towered over Cid, who picked himself off the chair, to meet Sora eye to eye, still with a slight smirk on his face.
Sora looked at Cid, gave a small nod and walked to his equipment, picked them up and walked out of the studio. Leon frowned, Cloud raised his eyebrows, Yuffie dropped her drumsticks and Tidus' mouth hung open. Sora didn't defend the song's 'feeling' as he said called it, he backed down to the producer.
"Well I guess that means, that it's perfect then." Cid said chuckling to himself, sitting back down as he saved the song list and stored it away into his hard drive. "Expect the album to be in stores in three months time, I expect that you guys have a video production in two weeks, you might want to rest up for that, I hear the video is going to be a killer on ya, but it should be worth it."
On that, the rest of the band picked up their equipment, except for Yuffie, who used the studio's drum kit for the recording. They loaded their stuff into their respective cars, and were about to head off when they saw Sora standing by his car, cigarette in his mouth, occasionally puffing from it. The band walked over to him for some answers.
"Sora what the hell are you doing?" Cloud said as he watched Sora bring the cigarette to his mouth for another puff.
"I'm smoking Cloud, what else does it look like I'm doing?" Sora said, blowing out some of the smoke that was in his mouth, from the puff he took.
"Why did you walk out man? That's your song that you let get ruined. And since when have you smoked?" Tidus said, resting one hand on the bonnet of Sora's car.
"For one, get your hand off of my car. Two, I walked out because in life you have to let things go if you really want things in life, I let the song go, because the album and the tour was on the line if I opposed him, I knew that. Thirdly, I started smoking four days ago." Sora said taking another breath of the cigarette, releasing some of the smoke up into the air, away from the rest of the band members.
Leon looked at Yuffie with a concerned face, who looked back at him with a similar glance. Cloud and Tidus looked at each other with confusion as Sora took another breath of smoke into his mouth and exhaled it, coughing a bit from inhaling too much.
"Why are you letting yourself die like this? Why take up smoking when you already have too much for yourself to handle?" Tidus asked, rubbing Sora's back as he tried to stop the ongoing coughing from the singer.
"Using it as a de-stressor Sora?" Leon said looking at Sora double over in a fit of coughs, knowing that he would be alright.
"Kinda, it helps relax me yea, but it hurts when I have more than three a day." Sora said flicking some of the ash out onto the concrete.
"And what number is that one?" Cloud said, nodding at the cigarette in Sora's hand.
"This one is number eleven in my life, the fifth one this night." Sora said, in between coughs.
Leon dropped his head and slapped it out of Sora's hand and before anyone else could react he dropped Sora to the ground. Leon had successfully pinned Sora underneath him and was currently giving his singer the most evil glare that he could give.
"What the fuck is going through your head Sora?" Leon said, grabbing Sora's collar of his shirt and lifting him off of the ground. "What the fuck are you trying to do to yourself?"
"I'm trying to relieve myself of the fucking pain that I'm in because of the world, it being a totally pain in the arse right about now." Sora said, tilting his head to the side in another series of coughs, this time a bit of mucus and blood came out on to the ground, causing the rest of the band members to gasp.
"And you think smoking is going to help you Sora? Fucking look at yourself in the mirror dammit, you are killing yourself." Leon said, tears beginning to emerge on the edge of his eyes. "None of us want you dead Sora, you are important yo everyone of us and we are all hurting when we see you do this to yourself."
Sora pushed Leon up off of him as he got to his car and closed the door and wound down the window. Sora placed his keys in the ignition and started up the engine and placed his seatbelt on. The rest of the band just stood there, as Leon picked himself up off the ground and dusted some of the dirt off his clothes and watched Sora rev his car engine.
"Sora…" Yuffie said as she approached the window of the said person's car.
"Please, just give me time to think." Sora said as he flicked his cigarette out the window and drove off down the street.
Sora got to his apartment in a normal manner, nothing to crazy or excited about it. He placed the key into his apartment door, unlocked it and went inside and turned on the light. He sat at his table and flipped up his laptop, with the opened message still on it from when he got the news from Riku.
'Sora…
No offence Sora, I like you but I have a girlfriend named Kairi, she's nice and she a very cute girl. I'm sorry Sora, but I'm just not interested."
Sora remembered when he read that message four days ago, he grew so depressed, angered and violent that night…
Flashback'I knew this would happen… it always happens to me' Sora thought to himself as the realisation hit him like a ton of bricks, he got rejected again. He slammed the laptop lid shut onto the base, turning off the screen of the laptop in the process as he paced around the room trying to clear his thought. Unfortunately Sora couldn't help feeling like the world was laughing at him, the whole world had turned his back on him and now he was alone again.
Sora picked up his alarm clock, threw against the wall and the little black electronic device broke into several pieces. He picked up his guitar and was about to break it, when his mind screamed at him to reconsider his actions, causing his to drop the guitar, snapping one of the strings. Still in his fit of rage, Sora was on a destructive path around his apartment looking for things to destroy.
The aftermath of tornado Sora totalled one alarm clock, three toothbrushes, the low E string of his guitar and his voice box from screaming too much. Now the late teenager was on his bed crying his eyes out from the desperation that hit him after the anger had subsided. Sora thought about the opportunity that he had and he saw it slip away with him, carrying his hope and his heart away from him.
Sora picked himself off of the bed and started to punch the ground in frustration, only have a knock on the door interrupt him from his anguish. He walked over to the door and swung it open quickly to see his neighbour Seifer (pretty sure that's how is name is spelt) standing at the door with a very cross look on his face.
"For Christ sake Sora if you are gonna keep that up than you should do us all a favour and fucking do something to calm yourself down." Seipher said in a cool voice, brushing his hair back while keeping his icy glare at Sora.
"For your information Seifer, I just got rejected, my band is annoying the fuck outta me, and if you aren't careful you are gonna be sent through that wall and down seven stories to the ground below." Sora said through gritted teeth.
"Jeez, if you're that worked up over stuff like that you need a hobby." Seifer said, before he dug into his pockets and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. "Here you should start smoking, it'll help de-stress you."
Sora looked at Seifer, to the packet of cigarettes and back at Seifer again. He was unsure whether or not to take them, he knew the risk, but an escape from the misery he called a life was sounding too good to pass up.
"But I'm underage you should know that." Seifer muffled a small laugh
"Ah naïve Sora, you are underage to buy them, not smoke them, legal age is sixteen." (It's true in Australia you can smoke at the age of sixteen, but can't buy until eighteen)
"Well if I do take them, and I do get addicted, how am I gonna get more than smart ass." Sora said lifting an eyebrow as he leant against his apartment doorframe.
"I'll make you a deal I'll sell them to you at thirty bucks."
"Bastard, they only cost two thirds of that."
"Well, if I'm caught sell it to a minor then I'm in trouble, so this is liability."
Sora sighed as he grabbed the packet in Seifer's hand.
"You got a deal."
End Flashback
Sora was still only half way through his first free packet, the one that he took from Seifer that night. He needed to make his smokes last until his band gets underway, and then he'll be racking in the money, hopefully. This video for their hit was already going to cost them 80 of the first two shows of their tour, if they actually go on one.
This also all depends on whether Sora can keep it together, which is why he took the smokes in the first place. He was using them as a means to calm himself down, and so far it has worked, he didn't get angry at Cid, nor was he stressed nor did he really yell at Leon, even when the latter was yelling at him.
Though inside, Sora knew that he was hurting, the smokes were adding insult to these internal injuries and he needed to find a way to relieve himself of all of these pressures, without destroying his body at the same time. Until that time, Sora was going to take it easy, a smoke a day from now on, and relax. He had two weeks until the video starts shooting and he gets back into what he really wanted to do in the first place. Make a video, sell albums, make music and go on tour. He was nearly there, and then he had nothing to worry about.
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ATTENTION ALL READERS AND REVIEWERS!
I'm deciding to hold a competition to anyone who is interested. The competition is to send in a drawing or sketch of anything related to my fanfic (so any of the characters, anything that you want to happen in my fanfic, anything!). If you are not the drawing type like me, then send a typed scene of what you want to happen in the future chapters of this fanfic.
All entries will be regarded and will be judged equally and fairly and they will be marked on three key points:
A mark out of ten for originality
A mark out of ten for description (written pieces)/artistic passion (drawings)
A mark out of five for the hell of it XD
So send all your ideas, drawings and that to my email, which is for your chance to win a choice of…
a)A plot twist
A lemon (which would mean an increase in the rating)
Any other things you want happening in a future chapter
So send your ideas in and you might have the opportunity to have your idea in my fanfic… can't wait for the entries!
Oh and one more thing, if you are interested in sending in your ideas, please review or send an email to me to give me a warning on when you'll submit your ideas, because the competition ends in two weeks or so… (may extend period for entrants)
GOOD LUCK!
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Molokai: Wow you updated quicker then normal, and your holding a competition?
Leo: Well considering that I'm putting everything else on the backburner for this thing, including studying for my half yearly exams for school, I got a lot of time on my hands…
Molokai: Well I wonder if anyone will enter?
Leo: Hopefully, the competition is designed to increase reader participation, and also gives me an idea on what readers want to see…
Molokai: Fair enough…
Leo: Well as I'm still getting styled up, we're now on my outfit, I'll look at the possible entries and see ya'll later… R & R!
