Warning: This story is SLASH. That means two people of the same gender in a romantic relationship with one another. Don't like it, don't read. Also, this story has eating disorder themes. So if you're recovering from an eating disorder, then please proceed with caution or don't proceed at all. I don't want to trigger anyone. Anywhoo, on with the story!
Chapter One - No Beginnning... No End In Sight
(Percy's POV)
I don't know when it started. I guess it had always been there.
It never started for a specific reason, or a certain situation. It just... happened.
Now, I'm an intelligent human being. I have top marks in all my classes. I'm a prefect. Which is why I don't understand how it happened.
Not that I mind. I've grown to love the feelings. The pains. Everything.
When I first started at Hogwarts, the pressure to be better than all of my other siblings was immense. I had to be better than my brothers before me, and my brothers and sister after me.
That's not what did it though. One thing isn't going to cause something like this. Otherwise, everyone who ever wanted to excell over others would be insane.
There's something... about not eating for days... it's just...
Then there's the mess-ups. I'm not as strong as I'd like to be. There are bad days. When I do eat. But there are ways to make mistakes disappear...
I was always careful. I made sure I did keep down at least a little bit, to keep me healthy.
Being thin never mattered. Just the feeling of emptiness... It takes me so high. Then other days, it brings me down. There is a price. It's like selling your soul to the devil, beacue you can't just stop. There's no such thing as "just quitting".
But that's okay. Everyone's got their secrets.
Okay, first chapter. Yes, it's a bit... yeah, but it get's better trust me! I just wanted to show that this isn't going to be one of those "someone called me fat once so I developed anorexia and then i fell in love with a wonderful person and it all went away" stories. Eating disorders run deep.
As always, my chapters are short, I know that bothers alot of people, but I work best in short bursts of energy. Anywhoo, review and tell me whether you liked it or not and why. I like it when people tell me why.
