Okay, my first KH fanfic ever. However, I won't be able to update as quick, because I have a problem with my computer so yeah... Anyway, this chapter is only the beginning so it kind of sucks! The second chapter is better!


Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts 1 or 2

Chapter 1: This is my pain, not yours

I was finally home.

I tried to get back to this place for one whole year…

It was my own fault, but I still managed to get back with my friends…

So why did it feel so wrong to be back?

Why was I feeling like something was missing inside? Was it, because Sora and Kairi were becoming closer with each other? Maybe, but then again, they have every right to be together.

I fear that my repetitive thoughts are beginning to make me doubt my best friends. I mean sure I'm glad that they're going to be together, but a part of me, my dark side, despises the fact that they're even talking to one another. However, I have no say in this so, I'll butt out. It's funny, I used to think I was in love with Kairi, but it wasn't even close to love. I guess I can never really "love" anyone.

The only thing I can do is like someone, never have I used the words "I" and "love" in the same sentence. Oh well, I guess I'm destined to never fall in love, perhaps I'm supposed to be alone for the rest of my life.

"RIKKKKKKKUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!"

I nearly collapsed off of the bent paopu tree I sat on and instantly snapped from my thoughts. Sora jumped on the tree and sat right next to me, staring into the horizon that connected the land and sea. Sora didn't say a thing which worried me most, normal people don't exactly just shout your name and not say SOMETHING.

" I-I was thinking about leaving Sora…" I accidentally said, I didn't mean to it just slipped out…

" What do you mean your thinking of leaving? We just got you back and you want to LEAVE!" Sora turned to face me, gaping.

" I don't mean FOREVER, just a little while…" I explained, trying to calm him down, from my view it looked like he was hyperventilating. I don't exactly think that's a good thing and I don't think that's actually a bad thing, in his case anyways.

"…"

"What?"

"……"

"What…?"

"…"

"C'mon Sora don't gimme the silent treatment!"

"What's wrong, Riku?" I blinked.

"There's nothing wro-"

"Don't lie to me Riku… Our hearts are connected, I can tell when your lying, you want to leave… not to get away from here. You want to go away, because of me…" He said it as if I hated him or something, which kind of hurt, because no one ever told me how I really thought.

"Ha… How'd you guess?"

I was actually surprised by how easily he could read me… So very well… Even though, we haven't spent much time together… I did want to leave, because of him, but not like that. I wanted to leave so I could settle myself down, to be okay with their relationship. I mean, it's okay if their together, I've been alone more than once. I even have King Mickey with me now so I won't be "alone"…I just won't have someone there with me that I can love, that'll love me in return.

"Riku if you leave, Kairi and I leave as well!" The instant he said Kairi, I think I almost punched him in the face. If it wasn't for my calm composure anyway, maybe it wouldn't be so bad if they came along. Maybe going on an adventure again would do us some good, even if we did just come back from an adventure.

" Fine, fine. You can come, but Sora?"

"Yeah?"

"Remember I told you there was one thing you could never imitate by not being me?"

"Yeah, what about it?"

"I found out there were two more things you can't imitate by not being me."

"Ohhhh, and what's that, huuuuhhh?"

"One, you can't ever be as tall as me and two, you can't ever be as hot as me" And with that I ran like never before. Maybe… Just maybe, everything was fine just the way it was.

"Riku, get back here so I can kick you butt yo-!"

Thud!

What the hell was that sound…?

I turned around to see Maleficen- I mean Kairi on top of Sora… I swear to god I forgot about that bitc- Kairi. I miss when it was just Sora and me.

"Sora, how can you be playing at a time like this! We gotta finish our raft!" Malefi- Kairi said and she smacked him over the head, he recoiled.

Bitch…


Okay, I know, I know... Really bad chapter, but please R&R my second chapter is better!