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Undeniable
Love
Chapter
13 - Alone
By:
Scaevola
Published
8/25/05
Updated
10/07/05
I am VERY SORRY that I didn't get this online yesterday. I forgot to do some homework and put this on hold for the day. Plus I have SAT's tomorrow so I had to do some reviewing for those too.
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InuYasha woke early that morning as the sun's morning rays shined through the window. Normally he slept well at Kagome's house, but he considered his early awakening a blessing. He didn't want to have Kagome wake up before him and find herself in his arms. She'd sit him through the floor if that happened.
He gently laid Kagome back onto her pillow and covered her better with the blanket before he got up and stretched. He kneeled next to her bed and watched her sleep.
He often found himself watching her sleep. In camp when he'd wake up in his tree he'd gaze down at her, grateful that the branches hid him from Miroku and Sango seeing him stare at her so openly. He couldn't help it though, or at least, he didn't want to. She was so beautiful.
InuYasha, remembering her wounds, gently lifted the blankets to try and see how her wounds were healing. Silently he prayed that she wouldn't wake as he did this. He wanted to live for awhile longer!
He gently peeled off one of the bandages to see underneath. He smiled when he saw that they were healing fine, having been sped along by his saliva. He blushed as he remembered once more what he had done in his demon form.
It was odd. Normally he had no recollection of what he did when he was full demon. But this time, he had a clear memory, every scent, every emotion, every thought, was seared into his memory. He blushed as he remembered cleaning Kagome's wounds.
As the sun rose, he found himself remembering exactly what had happened that day. Then he remembered Kikyo. Kikyo...she was dead (remember he thought he killed her.). He was confused by his emotions as he thought about the miko. She was his first love, or at least, what he had considered his first love, and he had killed her. He was sad, but he was also happy, because Kikyo's death meant that he could devote himself more to Kagome.
But before he had killed Kikyo, how had she used that demon ritual against her. Even if she had known how to do it, she would not be able to. Only a youkai can complete the task. Something didn't add up.
InuYasha remembered when he had first learned about the demon rituals. It was way back when InuYasha was younger. He had broken into Sesshomaru's castle and somehow found himself in a large room full of books, somewhat like a library.
He poured through a lot of them, fascinated by what he read. Much of what InuYasha had read he remembered even today. He picked up a rather large book, and flipping through the pages, InuYasha finally became educated with some inuyoukai secrets. Having not been raised by the tribe, InuYasha was woefully ignorant of his kind's way of life and rituals. After he picked up that book however, he knew just about all there was to know.
Unfortunately, some of the things InuYasha found out he couldn't use, because whenever he tried, his youkai instincts kicked in and reminded him that he had been cast out of the inuyoukai, and he had no right to use the knowledge he had learned in that book. When that happened was one of the few times InuYasha hated his youkai side.
Another book he had found in that room had in fact, had a wealth of information that InuYasha could use. In fact, it was from that other book that InuYasha had learned how to use his blades of blood. It had other skills that InuYasha wanted to look at, but when he was about to look some more through the book, Sesshomaru burst into the room. Needless to say, chaos ensued, and the book was lost, along with many others, in the fight.
InuYasha was awoke from his memories as Kagome whimpered in her sleep. The sound was small, barely loud enough for even him to hear, but it was definitely there. He turned and looked to the girl. Her eyes were moving rapidly beneath her eyelids. Another small whimper came from her and he gently took her hand, not sure what he should do. She was either in pain or having a nightmare.
She let out another whimper. "InuYasha, don't leave." she whispered.
He looked over at the girl in the bed. She was obviously having a nightmare. 'About me leaving?' He took her hand in his own.
"Shhh. I'm here Kagome, I won't leave you, I promise." She seemed to be soothed by his words, because she stopped whimpering, but InuYasha kept a hold on her hand. 'I love you, Kagome' he thought. Unfortunately, he wouldn't know how she felt about him until he asked, but doing that seemed like too big of a risk for him to take. What if she didn't like him in return? Would it ruin their friendship if he liked her in that way and she only liked him as a friend?
The longer he thought about it, the more scared he became. He kept running through all of the What if questions in his mind.
He watched her as the sun slowly rose and sighed when he heard a door open in the hall and soft footsteps head downstairs. It wasn't long before he smelled Mrs. Higurashi's wonderful cooking. Suddenly, a thought came to his mind. If anyone knew what Kagome thought about him, it would be Kagome's mom.
InuYasha stood to go down stairs and talk to her. 'Time for some breakfast and quality time with Higurashi-san,' he thought.
Careful not to wake anyone, he descended the stairs silently. He turned to the kitchen to see Mrs. Higurashi cooking some bacon and eggs. InuYasha's mouth watered as he smelled the bacon. If anything made Kagome's time bearable, it was the food.
"Ohayoo, InuYasha" Kagome's mother smiled brightly as he walked into the kitchen and sat at the table.
"Ohayoo, Higurashi-san." replied InuYasha.
Kagome's mom frowned at how InuYasha refused to call her anything but Higurashi-san, but said nothing. She knew he'd just be stubborn about it.
She set a glass of orange juice and a plate with lots of bacon and some eggs in front of him, watching him shovel the food into his mouth with a smile before she turned to dish herself.
They both ate in silence for awhile, enjoying each other's company. Or rather, She enjoyed his company, while he sat and thought about how he should carry out his line of questioning. Finally, he decided to just be more or less direct.
"Higurashi-san?" he waited until he got her attention before going on. "I was wondering, um, I mean, well, you're ah - What I mean is, when Kagome is here, what does she talk about?"
It wasn't like InuYasha to be so unsure about what he's going to say. Mrs. Higurashi knew this as well as anyone else who had met the impulsive hanyou. He was definitely up to something. She had an idea on where this might be heading, but decided to play dumb for now.
"Well, she talks about the hunt for the jewel shards, and her latest adventures." she answered truthfully.
"Oh." InuYasha was quiet for some time, toying with the food on his plate. "Does she ever talk about anything else?"
Mrs. Higurashi was now sure of what InuYasha was trying to get at, but suddenly she felt like having a little fun with him. "Oh well...sure she talks about all of you guys all the time, of course -"
She cut off as Sota and her father walked into the room.
InuYasha quickly finished his food as Sota told him all about his video games and sports he liked. He then got up and hurried outside, most likely to jump into the Goshinboku.
Mrs. Higurashi served her father and her son their breakfast and sat down to think. She knew that InuYasha and Kagome both loved each other, but neither of them seemed willing to admit it.
Suddenly, she had an idea. All she had to do was give them the day to themselves. She looked up at her father and son. Sota wouldn't be a problem, he'd be off to school soon. Her dad on the other hand might be a little trouble. "Dad, I was hoping to do some shopping today. Would you like to come?"
Her father looked at her like she was crazy. "Why would I want to go shopping? I have a shrine to take care of!"
"Well we'll be passing by that antique shop that always has the old artifacts." Mrs. Higurashi said casually.
Her fathers eyes widened when he heard that, and he was obviously having some trouble suppressing a grin. "Oh well them I suppose I'll go, just incase you need any help carrying the bags and such."
Mrs. Higurashi nodded. All men had a weak spot, her father no exception. InuYasha's may be ramen, but her father's was ancient artifacts. "I want to leave soon, so hurry up and finish breakfast."
"I'm too full to eat anymore anyway," said her father. "I'll go and get ready to leave." With that he hurried upstairs to his room.
Mrs. Higurashi looked at Sota. "Sota, make sure you get to school on time. I'm going to tell InuYasha that you have to be there soon, so don't try to stay home once I leave."
She walked outside to find her son-in-law to be sitting in the tree with his eyes closed. "InuYasha?" she called.
The hanyou opened one eye and looked down at her. "Yeah?"
"My father and I will be going out to do some shopping soon for groceries and things. Sota has to be at school soon, so make sure he leaves. You and Kagome will have the house to yourselves for most of the day, I need you to take care of her for awhile longer, okay?"
"Keh. Like I'd let anything happen to her." said InuYasha indignantly.
Mrs. Higurashi smiled lightly at his remark. "I know InuYasha. You take very good care of her, and we're all very grateful. We'll be back later today. But before I leave I want to show you how to use some of the things in the kitchen. So if you'll come down for just a minute..." she trailed off, waiting for the hanyou to jump down.
When he did, she turned and headed back to the house. He followed her, his eyes closed and hands folded. She wondered how he knew he wasn't going to trip on something with his eyes closed, but decided against asking anything.
They headed into the kitchen. She went through the cabinets and got soup and Ramen and some other easy to cook foods. She put them all on the kitchen counter. Then she went to the microwave.
"This is called the microwave, InuYasha. This'll heat things real fast. All you have to do is..." she explained to him how to use all the buttons and how to set the time, making sure he understood not to over heat anything or put anything metal inside it. He nodded, telling her to go on.
She explained everything she could in the span of 15 minutes, from the microwave to the stove, and even the oven. He seemed to understand them all, comparing them all to more primitive forms of cooking back in the fuedal era.
Satisfied with her explanation and sure that she wouldn't come home to a burnt down house, Mrs. Higurashi left with her father, and Sota left soon after to hurry off to school.
InuYasha returned to Kagome's room shortly after Sota had left only to find that Kagome had awaken.
She was sitting up and yawning as she rubbed her eyes. He watched her fondly as she tried to keep her eyes open. When she finally did manage to keep them open, she saw him, and squealed.
"InuYasha!" she shouted and hopped out of the bed.
InuYasha's eyes widened when she ran to him and hugged him tightly. 'Well, she's obviously feeling a lot better.' he thought wryly.
"Umm...Kagome?" He was still unsure about why she was hugging him. Maybe she was just happy to see him?
Kagome looked up at him. "I heard you last night InuYasha. I was awake." The hanyou's breath caught at her words. 'Oh god. She heard me?'
"I want you to know... I love you too." Kagome tightened the hug and burried her head in his chest.
Joy filled InuYasha. He had never felt so happy. Kagome loved him! He wrapped his arms around her and returned the embrace. 'She loves me...' InuYasha took her chin in his hand and made her looked at him. He lowered his lips to hers and kissed her tenderly.
Kagome kissed him back, deepening it. The kiss was innocent, but full of love. They separated and gazed into each other's eyes, both seeing their love for one another.
"You have no idea how many times I've wanted to do that." breathed InuYasha, as his nuzzled her hair, taking her scent in.
Kagome laughed, burying her head back into his chest. They held each other tightly, enjoying every moment of their newly expressed love, but finally, InuYasha pulled away from a disappointed Kagome.
"How are you feeling?" he asked.
Kagome smiled. "I've never felt better, InuYasha." She stood on her toes and stole another kiss from him.
InuYasha's head was getting a little fuzzy. Her scent and kisses made him want to just stay with her like this forever, but unfortunately, he had other responsibilities. Higurashi-san wouldn't be happy with him if he didn't take care of Kagome properly.
"Come on downstairs. Your mom cooked bacon and eggs earlier. I'll heat them up for you." InuYasha picked Kagome up and carried her down and put her on the couch in front of the TV.
"Maybe I should do the cooking," murmured Kagome.
InuYasha, looking down at her, said "Don't worry, you just wait here and I'll heat up some food for you. Your mom explained everything in the kitchen to me."
He gave her a swift kiss on the cheek and hurried into the kitchen. Kagome turned to the terebi (television in Japanese) and turned it on, flipping through the channels as InuYasha cooked.
InuYasha came back into the room with a tray full of bacon and eggs, and of course, some Ramen. Kagome took the tray from him with a smile before turning back to the terebi..
"Wow! You didn't burn the house down, InuYasha!" exclaimed Kagome.
"Keh."
Kagome eventually changed the channel to the cartoon network (I have no idea what channels are in Japan, sorry) and watched it with InuYasha. She was a little suprised when he picked her up and put her on his lap, but relaxed and ended up leaning back onto him, glad that InuYasha was showing affection.
Kagome became lost in her thoughts. Suddenly, Kikyo came to mind. What about her? Would InuYasha stop seeing her now?
"InuYasha?" she poked him in the shoulder to get his attention.
"Hmm?" he started kissing her neck, slowly going higher and getting closer to her lips.
"InuYasha, what about Kikyo?" at that question, InuYasha immediately froze. Kagome could feel him tense up as he answered.
"She's dead Kagome. That day...that day that you were taken, when I heard you scream...I had to decide." InuYasha held her in his lap, still tense, waiting for her response.
"Dead?" whispered Kagome, not sure if she had heard correctly. "What do you mean you had to decide?"
InuYasha answered hesitantly. "Well...when you screamed, Kikyo was taking me to hell. I had to choose, go to hell with her or save you. And I chose you."
"So Kikyo is in hell?" asked Kagome.
"Yeah, I guess so. Not like she would go to heaven after I killed her." answered InuYasha.
"NANI? You killed her?" shouted Kagome. She stood up and looked down at him. For some reason it bothered her. She had always wished that Kikyo wasn't there to keep her from InuYasha, but she had never wanted her dead! And to have InuYasha kill her too!
InuYasha paled. "Kagome it's not like that! If I didn't kill her I would have had to go to hell and I wouldn't have been able to get to you! You know I wouldn't have hurt her without a reason!"
Kagome relaxed as he explained. Maybe she was over reacting. She felt bad that she was the reason InuYasha had killed Kikyo. If she hadn't been in trouble, InuYasha would be happy with Kikyo now.
"I'm sorry InuYasha." she whispered.
"Huh? What are you sorry for?" asked InuYasha.
"It's my fault that Kikyo's gone, isn't it? If it wasn't for me, you would still be happy with Kikyo." Kagome felt horrible.
InuYasha stood and took Kagome in his arms. "Don't say things like that Kagome. It's not your fault. And no, I wouldn't be happy with Kikyo. I chose to save you for a reason Kagome, I love you, and as long as I'm with you, I'll be happy."
He bent down to kiss her softly on the lips, pulling her closer to him. Just then the door opened and in walked Kagome's mom and grandfather.
Kagome's mom smiled as she caught them kissing, while Kagome's grandfather dropped the bags he was carrying in shock. He stared at them for a moment before fainting.
Kagome's mom laughed at her father before asking InuYasha to help her get him to his room. "I guess he's in a bit of shock that Kagome chose you and not Hojo, InuYasha."
InuYasha blushed as he carried the old man to his room. He'd have to find a way to repay Mrs. Higurashi for giving him some alone time with Kagome this morning.
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