Summary: He was worth the heart ache and the monsters, but is he worth the after? Rose/Ten eventually. R&R

A/N Thankyou for the reviews and thank you for all the advice that you all gave me I will try hard to make it as good as possible.

Alright here is chapter two, I didn't update as quickly as I wanted to I had 2 exams and a psychology test this week, and they were all spit thought the week so every night I have been studying, finding time to write this chapter was hard. AND to top it off I couldn't post until now, I have absolutely no idea why! You would have had this chapter about 4 days ago or more. Now you get two! Yay!

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It is an advantage and the nature of the strong that they can bring crucial issues to the fore and take a clear position regarding them. The weak always have to choose between alternatives that are not their own. – Dietrich Bonhoeffer

: 3 years previous :

Rose woke suddenly, falling out of bed with THUD!

"OW!" she hissed while slowly rubbing her head where later a bump would surely make it self known.

Grumbling to her self about teaching the Doctor how to land The TARDIS, she slowly got dressed and just as slowly, made her way to the console room.

"Doctor next time your going ta land do ya think that you might wanna sound an alarm or somethin, feel right out of bed I did" she complained to The Doctor as she neared the console room " hit the dresser, gonna have a nasty bruise in a few hours, I hope your happy!"

"hmmmm?" was the only reply that she got.

"Is that the only thing your going to say? 'Hmmmm'? Not only did you wake me up, but I also had the worse wake up call ever" she grumbled as she sat down on the only seat in the console room. Watching the Doctor fiddle with the TARDIS, she waited for him to respond.

After getting no response from the Doctor, Rose was getting quite pissed off.

She was tired and hungry and well that wasn't the best mix for Rose Tyler. It should be common knowledge not to wake Rose Tyler that early in the morning, granted there really is no morning in the TARDIS. One normally ate when they were hungry and slept when they were tired. But according to Rose's phone it was 7:00 am and well the Doctor was sure going to know just how pissed off Rose was if he didn't answer her soon.

"Doctor are you listening to me?" anger becoming more apparent in her voice. Glaring at the Doctors turned back, trying to burn a hole through his brown jacket.

"Rose, the wind will change" came the monotone reply.

She quickly turned her face away in anger and shot off of the chair. Rose slowly walked around the console to face the Doctor.

"Look I don't mind being woken up at the ungodly hour of 7" he still didn't look up "ok maybe I do, but that doesn't matter. But what I do mind is that you woke me up at 7 AND now you won't even talk to me let alone look at me, what the HELL is the matter with you?" Rose was shouting by the end of her speech. She was aloud to be irritated, she reasoned with her self.

"Rose do you mind not shouting, I'm trying to concentrate" another calm response, with just a hint of annoyance behind it.

"On what Doctor?" slight annoyance, but curiosity hid it well.

"The DH" he said like it was the most obvious thing in the world (A/N a DH is my creation it means doohickies!)

"right the DH, how silly of me" she rolled her eyes "Where are we then, better be some place that we can relax for a while, been doing enough running me. Going to need new shoes soon if I'm not careful" she laughed, all anger forgotten now with the prospect of another adventure.

"London, 2006"

"2006, well that's hardly interesting, only thing there is……..well……." she scratched her head trying to find something that the Doctor may find interesting in her time. "Nope nothing comes to mind" she said with a grin. Going up to the Doctor she playfully punched his arm "so what we doing here then?"

"Rose we need to talk" still looking down at the console.

"We are talking; mind you, I'm doing the majority, but we are still talking"

"I don't mean talking about morning awakenings, there is something more important to talk about"

The Doctor finally looked up, and Rose saw something that she never thought that she would see in her life. His eyes were cold and emotionless. They were almost black; nothing like the warm cheerful brown eyes that was always present.

"Rose, go to your room and pack your bags" he said quietly and without emotion.

Rose couldn't believe what he was saying; she didn't know what he was on about.

"Pack my bags, why? Am I going some where?" she asked there was still curiosity in her voice, with a tinge of fear.

He sighed, "Rose don't make this harder then it has to be" he sounded tired.

"What is going on? Why am I packing my bags?" he turned away "don't you dare turn away from me Doctor, you usually can't shut up so don't bloody well start now" He still was looking away "Tell me!" frustrated now Rose couldn't take it, tears were started to burn the back of her eyes. She refused to let them fall, not now. A small tear escaped.

"Your going home Rose, and staying there, no more travelling the universe, or through time, no more saving the universe, no more running for you life" he quickly stated, but he said it so calmly you'd think he was talking about the weather.

Rose stood there, staring blankly at the Doctors back. She couldn't believe what he had just said. He had said she was going home, no he had told her, like he was in charge, he is, she reminded her self. The tears that she had previously held back were starting to leak out of the sides of her eyes. Slowly at first and then they started to pick up speed as sobs shock her body.

"Why?" she said after she had calmed down somewhat.

"I'm not arguing with you Rose, go pack your bags" he said slightly impatient.

"Doctor I'm not going till you tell me why!" she hissed

"Rose" he started as he walked up to her and stood facing her " I said go pack your bags, no arguments, no buts, no whining, no tears and no 'I'm not going', this is not open for discussion, go pack your bags" he said angrily.

He was acting a lot like his previous self, all angry and withdrawn, that Rose was starting to get scared for her self. This Doctor was normally so happy and bubbly; she was expecting him to start sprouting a Northern accent anytime soon.

"Doctor this isn't like you, if there is something wrong you can tell me, I thought we could tell each other every thing" she pleaded to him.

"Rose there is nothing else to say, you either go pack your bags or you leave without them" he said harshly.

Rose stormed off, going to pack her bags.

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While Rose was packing her bags, she was thinking to her self about the injustice of it all and the reasons behind the sudden change in the Doctor's attitude, and the reason behind him telling her to leave.

That SOB he has no right to make me leave, this is my home too, The TARDIS is the only place that I feel at home.

Maybe it's me maybe I did something to upset him, I mean I did act jealous with Sarah-Jane and Reinette (sp?). I didn't really have any excuse to be jealous, he is not mine, I'm just his companion, and he has shown me many times just how much his companions mean to him.

Or was it because I took so long to get over the last Doctor My Doctor, he said that I gave up on him, did I, have I lost hope and trust in the Doctor, is that why he sending me home?

He said that he wasn't going to leave me; he said that I could spend the rest of my life with him. What's changed all of a sudden? I wish he would speak to me; he used to tell me everything.

How am I going to live without him?

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In the control room the Doctor was silently waiting for Rose to return with her bags packed. This was also the time that the TARDIS decided to make her opinion known.

What the hell do you think you are doing Theta?

Stay out of this old girl

I'm not so old Theta, but old enough to know that you are making a huge mistake

This is my decision, she is leaving, I've had enough of the arguing she is going end of that!

Oh no you don't, don't you dare shut me out, you may be doing that to Rose, but you sure as hell aren't going to me. You may be a great and mighty Time Lord, but I thought that you had changed; now I see that you are just like them.

What is that supposed to mean I'm just like them, what the other Time Lords, what's that supposed to mean!

That you think that you are almighty, your above everyone else in the universe, superior if you will. I thought that after all that has happened to you, your ego might have been humbled, but I thought wrong, just as pig headed as the rest of them.

Old girl can you just let me make this decision my self, I have my reasons behind this, you know what they are. It can't happen, I won't let it happen. I can't.

Theta, I know you think that sending her away will change it from happening, but you know just as well as I do that you can't alter something like that, it is messing with some pretty big rules. You can cause a lot of problems if you go through with this.

I know what I am doing it is for the best…….for everyone.

She still has the right to know why you are sending her away, please don't make this parting like so many others, no good can come of them, you should know, it's happened before.

Old girl, I rather she hate me then me hating my self in the long run.

Talk to her Theta, if she means any thing to you, then at least talk to her. And if you are ever going to have a chance, it is now she is almost here.

"Doctor?" came the quiet announcement of her arrival and the last attempt to get him to explain everything to her. He turned slowly towards her.

Rose was standing in the door way of the console room; he noticed that she had her back pack on and a few extra bags by the side of her feet. A lost look on her face, like she couldn't face reality. As soon as the Doctor looked towards her she raised her mask, opting to a prideful look instead of a pitiful one, she was going to face him like she did everything else that she was battling against, with her chin held high and defiance in her eyes. In other words she was going walk out of here with her head held high and her dignity still in place. She needed to work out how to keep her heart in one piece before she was to say good bye.

"Doors that way Rose" he said like he was talking to a three year old.

Angry, Rose picked up her bags and strode over to the doors and opened them.

Suddenly she stopped and turned her head slowly around.

She looked around the TARDIS once more time taking in everything around her, the worn out chair, the railing surrounding the console, and the heart of the TARDIS it self. She stood there transfixed by it and watched it slowly changing colour. She said her fare well to the TARDIS and thanked her for everything that she offered her, but she also asked one thing of the TARDIS;

Take care of him, protect him and make sure that he isn't lonely for too long, and if you need me, or if he does, just come and fetch me.

Turing towards the Doctor Rose was lost for words, how do you say thank you for something like what the Doctor did.

She said the only thing that came to mind.

"Wouldn't have missed it for the world, have a fantastic life Doctor"

She slowly stepped out of the TARDIS and closed the door behind her. She stood with her back turned towards the TARDIS her face blank of emotion. The familiar sound of the TARDIS engines echoed through her every cell of her body, making her shudder. She heard the dematerialisation of the TARDIS and when she could no longer feel the engines or hear the deafening sound she collapsed to her knees and sunk to the ground. All that could be heard around the Powell Estate was the sound of painful, heart breaking sobs.

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In the Time Vortex a little blue box was flying, sadly singing to her self and her companion.

Echoing in the heart of the TARDIS were the sounds of a broken Time Lord.

The heart has reason which reason knows nothing of- Blaise Pascal

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A/N I said it is going to get happier and it will, I just wanted to write Rose leaving. Soon you'll find out why he made her leave oh won't that be interesting? Hmmmmmmm?

Ok this was a lot longer then I anticipated, but I my self like long chapters and I thought that some of you may appreciate it too! !

Review please. Constructive flamers only please! All advice welcome, you are the readers and any way that I can make it easier for you I will!

Until the next chapter!