Disclaimer: don't own it, if I did Billie Piper would not be leaving and Rose and the Doctor would be doing domestic.
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Ok here it is the reunion.
P.S If you are uncomfortable with the mention with suicide, there is a small mention not a huge mention, but still one, then don't read this. But apart from that it is fine.
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The ache of time
I love
you, I have loved you all along, And I miss you, Been far away for
far too long, I keep dreaming you'll be with me, and you'll never go
,Stop breathing if,
I don't see you anymore. – NICKELBACK "far
way"
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Pushing her self into a harder run, Rose was almost flying. She strained her ears to pick up where the sound was coming from, following it with her heart. It almost seemed like it was calling out to her, making her push her self harder.
Rounding a corner; Rose came to a sudden halt. Before her was the blue police box that haunted her dreams and her waking hours. Breathing was becoming harder, as she took in the sight before her. She never thought that she would see the TARDIS again, never did she think that she would hear the sound that she was now hearing. Never again did she think she would see the being that stepped out of the TARDIS.
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The Doctor was letting the fresh London air wash over him when he spotted a small figure standing a few hundred meters away. The figure was hidden in the shadows, with only the outline illuminated by the street lamp. The Doctor didn't need any light to know who it was.
"Rose?" he called out quietly to the figure
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Hearing his voice confirmed that what she was seeing was real, but she still couldn't be sure. She had imagined the sound of the TARDIS before, awoken to it and found out that it was in her dreams. She had caught a glimpse of blue out of the corner of her eye, but when she looked closer it was not there. Whereas this time he stood there illuminated by the street lamp, never had her dreams tortured her so.
He looked the same, she was thankful to see that he hadn't regenerated again. He just looked tired and worn out. She noted that his hair was a mess and his suit was creased, he looked a little paler then she remembered.
"Doctor" her voice horse from little use.
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That was all the conformation that he needed.
He quickly strode over to where Rose was and came to stand in front of her. He stared at her for a long time, taking in everything before him.
She looked thin and wasted, like she was hardly eating anything, just what she needed to live and even then not enough. He took in the way her hair seemed lifeless and just sort of 'dropped' to her shoulders; there was no shine to it. Her face was pale and waxy, like she hadn't seen the sun light for so long.
But her eyes, oh her eyes, they made him take a step back. They were staring blankly at him; it seemed as if she hardly knew that he was there. There was no emotion in them, he expected anger or sadness, yet he saw nothing.
He lifted his hand slowly, bringing it up to her cheek. He placed his hand there, not surprised to feel just how cold it was.
She closed her eyes, slowly leaning into his touch, savouring the feel of his hand on her face. From under her eye lids tears began to leak, slowly falling down her face onto the Doctor's hand.
"Oh Rose, I am so sorry, I never meant to hurt you, I would never dream of hurting you. All I wanted was to keep you safe, away from all that could hurt you, but it seems that I am the monster that you should be protected from" he whispered.
The sound of his voice seemed to awaken Rose from what ever dream she was having. For her eyes shot open and she backed away from the Doctor, her eyes beginning to fill up with more tears.
She was mumbling to her self while shaking her head, all the time looking into his eyes apprehensively.
"Rose? What's the matter?" he pleaded, frightened to why she was acting like this.
Not being able to take anymore of the shock that she was being presented with, Rose's eyes rolled backwards and she lost conciseness.
"Rose!" his hands shot out instinctively to catch her as she fell, her fragile body falling into his strong one.
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Rose woke up feeling warm and well rested; something that she hadn't felt in a long time.
She was straining to remember what had happened the previous day.
She remembered waking up sometime in the late after noon, walking out of the door and wandering through the streets through her neighbourhood. She remembered the rain and its wetness socking her skin, making her clothes stick to her.
However there was something else that was buried within her mind, like a fading dream, but some how she knew that it was real.
It all came back to her, like a boulder slamming into her chest; she lost the ability to breathe.
He was here, he had come back. After three years of waiting and hoping for him to return to her he did. She had lost all hope of ever seeing him again.
There was just one thing that she needed to know; why did he send her away?
Out side of her room she heard shouting, and just as she was straining to hear what was being said, the sound of a breaking mug was heard.
Dashing out from under the covers; Rose quickly put her slippers on and pulled the door open and ran out of her bed room door.
Running into the lounge room she was greeted with the sight of her mum in her pink pyjamas, and the Doctor standing on the other side of the room with a cheeky grin on his face. Her mum was furious, she was ready to blow and the source of her anger was standing opposite her and acting like nothing fazed him what so ever.
Spotting Rose the Doctor's grin got impossibly wider.
"Your up then sleepy head, took you a while. Will you kindly tell your mother to stop throwing things at me; she's making quite a mess" he said looking pointedly at Jackie.
Spinning around Jackie noticed Rose for the first time.
Wrapping her arms suddenly around Rose's shoulders she held onto her tightly.
"Rose!" she let go of her and held her at arms length looking her over.
"You okay, I didn't hear you leave yesterday you had me so worried, and then he showed up with you unconscious, and I didn't know what to think. Oh Rose!"
All this time Rose was not paying any attention to her mum, she was staring blankly, straight at the Doctor. He in turn was looking at her with a small smile on his face.
Slowly pulling her mum's arms off of her arms, Rose walked over to the Doctor.
Standing in front of him she took in what she missed last night in the inadequate lamp light. He looked really tired and his eyes were blood shot, his skin was pale and he looked like he had slept in his suit.
"I thought it was a dream" she whispered.
He looked down into her sad eyes, with his, "I assure you, I'm here Rose, and I'm never leaving you again" he promised.
"How do I know that? I don't even know why you sent me away last time, frankly Doctor I don't think I can trust you again!" she said harshly
"Rose, you have no reason to trust me, and I don't blame you for hating me, I hate myself. But can you please listen to me, let me tell you why I sent you away and then you can judge me" he pleaded.
"I don't know if I can do that Doctor, it's been a long time for me, how long has it been for you?" she stated the last bit accusingly.
"Not as long as it has been for you" he said sadly
"How long?" she shouted
"A month maybe less" he was looking down at his shoes.
She staggered back; she knew that it would not have been 3years for him, but a month? He had a time machine, a simple push of a button and he could have come and got her a few hours after he left, or even a few minutes, claiming that it had been a joke or something. However she had been wasting away for 3 years waiting and hoping that he was coming back for her.
"A MONTH!" she shouted "a month……..a month" she was whispering under her breath.
"Rose, please I know that you are angry……" he began.
"Angry?" she huffed "I'm not angry Doctor, I'm still processing the information that I have been dieing inside for three years, while you have been gallivanting around time and space for a month having a dandy old time!" with that she turned on her heels and ran out of the front door.
"Rose……." he whispered
"Well I hope you're happy" came the spiteful reply from behind him, from the forgotten person in the room.
Turing towards Jackie the Doctor stared at her angrily "You think that I wanted this? You think I wanted her to hate me?" he hissed "I have been miserable ever since I sent her out of the TARDIS, going from day to day, wondering what to do with my self. My life has been hell since that day, the TARDIS wouldn't talk to me, and nightmares haunted me while I slept and while I was awake. So Jackie Tyler you tell me whether I am happy, whether I look happy"
"Don't tell me about your hardships Doctor, cause I don't give a shit, you can go to hell, god knows that's what you put Rose through. You haven't been here Doctor; you haven't had to see your only daughter fade away from life, you didn't have to listen to her crying every night in her sleep, didn't hear her screaming the name of the man that broke her heart. You have no idea of the heart break that you put her through, you have no idea of what you mean to her. She put her life in danger with you, gallivanting around the universe, but you know what Doctor, she was in more danger here on earth, she was safer with you!" she threw the words harshly at the Doctor, not caring about the affect that it had on him.
"What do you mean?" confused he didn't know what she was talking about. Safer with him, what could possibly hurt her here?
"You really have no idea the impact that you have on Rose do you, no idea that your actions may have consequences, might impact someone other than your self" she said disbelievingly "she tried to take her life Doctor, found her in the bathroom collapsed on the ground, bottle of empty pills by her side." Her eyes were filling up with tears just thinking about the moment that she had seen Rose, collapsed on the floor pale as the tiles under her, a tinge of blue on her lips, giving no signs of life. Thinking that she was dead and then finding a pulse later. "Took her to hospital, they fixed her up of course, got the pills out of her. Told me that if I hadn't found her when I did then there would have been every chance that she would be dead, lucky that she wasn't" she sobbed just thinking about losing Rose was painful.
The Doctor stood there shocked, no idea that he had that influence on someone, he had caused the woman that he loved to have reason to end her life. He had thought that she would hate him too much to do anything like that. Hate him enough to forget him and get on with her life. That hadn't happened; him sending her away had caused her to feel the need to kill her self, he had almost killed the woman that he loved.
"I had no idea" he whispered
"You lot never do, think we will move on, when we have no choice but to, and then there are the few of us that our heart is too beyond repair to let us move on. Rose loves you Doctor, has spent the last 3 years trying to convince her self that she doesn't, just to dull the pain. She's tried to hate you, tried to forget you, but it just has made it worse because she feels guilty about feeling the way about you." She scoffed in disbelief "you've hurt her Doctor and now you have to heal her, and you only have one chance, one chance to make it better, and I can tell you if you mess it up, then that's it. She's too far gone to give you more than one chance. Go to her Doctor tell her everything, don't keep anything back" she told him with all seriousness.
"Thank you Jackie, I will do just that, and I promise you that I won't mess it up, I don't think that I can live without Rose" with that he turned on his heel and ran in the same direction that Rose had run off into.
"I know you won't mess it up Doctor, I just hope that there is enough Rose left to forgive you, bring her back to me, you are the only one that can" she whispered to the retreating back of the Doctor.
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On my knees, I'll ask, Last chance for one last dance, 'Cause with you, I'd withstand, All of hell to hold your hand, I'd give it all, I'd give for us, Give anything but I won't give up.- NICKELBACK "far away"
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A/N chapter 5 over and done with, just thought I should give you a little bit of more of life that Rose had after the Doctor, that is sort of the idea of the story……..
I've promised that it will be happy and it will so no fear shippers, happy ending will be forth coming! Just hang in there for a bit! A promise is a promise and with the end of the season coming up and the departure of Rose, I think we all need a happy ending.
Until next time……..Review please once again cookies and maybe even a nice cup of hot chocolate
(In Australia its winter and I can tell you it is freezing so I need some hot chocolate!)
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