Kagirinai-Yoyokagirinaku
Eternal - ForeverChapter one
Kikenbutsu (BOOM)
I've been thinking about this for… a while now…maybe even years. I don't know (at least) eleven months or so…it has been itching the back of mind for like…ever. I do not own Sailor Moon or Gundam Wing.
-|Heero-Usagi|-
Without much a due Kagirinai Yoyokagirinaku, Eternal Forever.
Bold = flashbacks- TEXT- = conscience
~*~
He'd pushed her away so many times before; she'd almost become deadened to the pain. Almost… it still hurt every time. Every time they touched, every time her hand even brushed against his skin. Every time she reminded him how perfect he was. It was mind boggling, she'd met this boy three years ago and yet, he was with her today, he'd be nineteen now. She met him in the Sanq Kingdom one night… oh…
"Heero…" She breathed out briefly.
"Usagi?" Makoto asked waving a hand in front of her friend's face.
She blinked twice looking at the four worried pairs of eyes that stared back at her. She giggled nervously.
"Sorry guys, guess I was just dazing!" Usagi looked down at her strawberry smoothie. "I'm fine." She said dismissively as she spun around the mixture with her straw.
"Who's Heero?" Minako asked with a wink.
Rei raised her eyebrows, "Usagi you haven't met any guys now have you?" She asked, the accusatory tone clearly in her voice.
Usagi covered. "You would know what I was talking about if you signed up for chorus with me like I asked. 'Hero" is just one of the songs we're memorizing for the winter show."
Minako had been interested in the chorus then she'd learned that Meiji University had also a volleyball team, which practices held around the same time. So singing was pushed back until next year.
"Oh." Minako said. "We need to go out more then. Maybe we'll meet a Heero?" She winked devilishly this time.
"Usagi, back to the task at hand." Ami said as she thoroughly ignored them. "If you want to get this internship you have to concentrate."
Usagi nodded pushing the watery melted mess from in front of her.
"So why do you think you deserve this internship Usa-chan?"
Usagi thought for a moment, "I'm a good worker." This caused a guttural groan from all with the exception of Ami and Usagi.
"Shut up." Usagi said good-naturally and they all giggled.
Usagi thought momentarily, "and because I have a lot of past in the Sanq-Kingdom. I think Ms. Peacecraft would have a positive influence on me."
~*~
It was year of the Sanq Kingdom's collapse… or, one of the few times it had. The Sanq Kingdom was in a depression, it was terrible, people were dying because help was needed, Relena was trying her very hardest to help while juggling the Peace treaty and her own security at hand. That's exactly why Usagi and Ami decided that they were going to spend their 'gap year.' Volunteer, Ami especially interested in it because it had to do with medicals and that was the field Ami planned on working on in her life.
"He still hasn't called?" Ami asked Usagi as they packed their bags into the small apartment they had rented for the year.
"I personally don't care." Usagi said with a smile pushing another sweater into one of the drawers. It was a one-room apartment with one bathroom and kitchenette; Red Cross stationed them there. It was a small community that made up of college kids who had decided to help out. Ami and Usagi's twin beds were situated in the middle of the small room. A small window overlooked an alleyway and the streets where cars bustled up and down the street.
"Usagi-- Mamoru means well… I'm sure you two just got into that big argument because he was going to miss you for an entire year." She protested closing the drawer and sitting on the bed. The room was a plain white with a closet right next to the window. Two bedside drawers were near the twin beds the carpet was gray. It appeared to once have been majestic ebony rich in color.
"Ami-chan! You know I have forbidden you of saying that name in front of me…and anyway there isn't anymore 'Mamoru and Usagi.'" She said pushing the now empty suitcase underneath the bed.
Ami sighed sitting down on her bed and flipping through a textbook as Usagi continued to fix her room.
"Damn you Mamoru no baka."
"Usagi Tsukino, Mr. Kane will see you now." She snapped her out of her thoughts.
"Thank you." She spoke softly standing, she straightening out her white shirt and black skirt one last time before entering the interview room where another young woman was leaving.
She walked into the room, a young man was sitting there, slightly round, he pushed the glasses up his nose, not noticing she was there until she closed the door behind her. His black hair fell into his eyes and the light stubble was clearly on his face. He wore a white dress shirt and large slacks. -|Not a Gundam pilot or a main character|-
"Please to meet you… Usagi? Usagi Tsukino. I'm Judas Kane."
"It's a pleasure to meet you Mr. Kane." Usagi said as he motioned for her to take a seat.
"Well Ms. Tsukino tell me, have you had any experience in any filing, office work?" Mr. Kane asked. She contemplated the question a bit then remembered a tip that Ami had given her, don't loose eye contact.
"I've worked several places, Tokyo community hospital mostly, helping around with papers with a friend of the family Dr. Mizuno… Also around my father's job, he's a magazine journalist. I've had my fare share of experiences you might say." Usagi was tense… she was afraid she's start to sweat too much and then he would report to the Queen of the World to question her hygiene.
"Well you have the most experience so far Ms. Tsukino. Tokyo community how'd that end up?" He commented.
"Thank you...well to tell the truth I just couldn't stay any longer, they didn't dismiss me in any way but I had to leave. I couldn't stand seeing people die." She said with a soft smile, handing him another copy of her resume.
"Don't worry Ms. Tsukino this isn't an emergency room and I probably couldn't stick it out in that situation either. Would you consider yourself a 'happy' worker Ms. Tsukino?" He said while looking over the resume.
"I would definitely say that, I do everything I do with pride, I want to enjoy the fruits of my labor. I really want to look at something and then make it something else. It's like creating a piece of yourself." She was one sentence short babbling.
-Imagine Rei and Minako… Usagi you lie.-
'Shut up.' She hissed back at her conscience.
Rei and Mina-chan right now would be laughing their heads off if they could have heard what she had just said to that question. Usagi…pride in her work?
-Pfft.-
-It was unheard of.-
'Quiet you!'
He nodded in acknowledgement. "Have you ever been to the Sanq Kingdom Ms. Tsukino? This is a question for a potential messenger, do you know your way around?"
Usagi almost drifted, heck, she'd almost said his name again.
"Yes I came here around the time I was seventeen. I lived here for my gap year when I was eighteen."
Mr. Kane nodded. He liked this girl. She had that calm air around her. And not to mention she had the most impressive resume so far.
Usagi on the other hand was boiling up inside like a hog.
Judas Kane looked across his clipboard, "Do you know anything about the war Ms. Tsukino?"
Usagi looked puzzled for a moment, who didn't know about the war. What exactly was this man asking?
He smiled, "I'm sorry I didn't phrase that correct, do you know what the war was about Ms. Tsukino?"
Usagi smiled looking into Judas' eyes, "Of course, the colonies and the Earth."
He nodded, "We do lots of work with that now, that's why we needed an intern, special help after the war. I just want to know if your sensitive on this subject, and if you are capable of doing this kind of work?"
Usagi smiled, "Of course I'm sensitive on it... who isn't with such conflict. But if what you're asking is if I'm uncomfortable working with such. The answer is yes." She smiled rising her head a bit, then lied bitterly through her teeth.
Judas stood extending his arm, which Usagi laid a firm shake, also, standing.
"Well Usagi, we will call you when we decide, make sure you give the woman at the desk your number."
Usagi stood shaking Mr. Kane's hand again, leaving the office.
Leaving the number of the hotel she was staying in she returned to the motel that night. It was so quiet… she picked up the phone dialing Mamoru.
"Mamo-chan!" She said into the receiver.
"Usako, how are things in the Sanq Kingdom?" He asked gently.
"I think I did well Mamo-chan, I'm just so afraid there had to be at least fifteen girls there." She complained.
She could almost hear the compassion in his voice, "Usako, don't worry. If you do get this job then you valuable experience from most likely the best to get it, and if you don't. I'll still love you just the same." He spoke softly into the receiver.
She's always feeling better with him, no matter what he said. "Mamo-chan… it's very quiet and… apparently the television don't operate…at all."
"Of course I'll talk you to sleep Usako." He said. She lay down on the bed, putting it on speakerphone.
They spoke about the weather, news, his latest case, how everyone was doing. About anything, anything that would calm her, she fell asleep soon afterwards.
The next few days passed almost too quickly.
Usagi hung up the phone, extending the long string of thank you's' from her mouth. As soon as the receiver hit the base it was back to her ear again and her fingers scurried around the keypad, into a familiar number, home.
Shingo picked up the phone, "Good afternoon. Tsukino residence."
"Shingo put mom on the phone." She figured that dad was at work.
"Hello."
"Mom! I got the internship!" She said, yelling into the receiver.
She could almost hear the smile break into her mother's voice. "So we can set that apartment up for you like your father suggested. Oh Usagi-chan I'm going to miss you so much."
"Mom…" Usagi groaned as if all her friend were on the line, she knew it now. Her mom was going to break down in tears. And so she did. She broke down in bitter tears and explained how little Usagi never used to want to leave home and how cute she was when she was a baby and college hadn't been the best decision to make.
"I just… I just… I just… I just…I'm going to miss my only daughter!" Mrs. Tsukino yelled.
Usagi sighed, why'd she call here first? "Mom… I'm going to call the gang and let them know… I'll call you back in half and hour. One half an hour…that's 30 minute okay…bye mom… bye mom…GOODBYE MOTHER." She said hanging up the phone.
She dialed Rei's she wasn't in so she got the answering machine, "Hey Rei just called to tell you that I got the internship and to tell the scouts. I'm going to miss you guys so much but before you know it I'll be home. So bye Rei-chan."
Mamoru, "Mamo-chan!"
"Usako how is everything?" He asked smiling.
"Fine, fine… no… GREAT. Mamo-chan, I got the internship!" She yelled.
She could almost hear his heart sink by the tone in his voice, "Really… Usako that is…wonderful."
She felt so guilty, "Mamo-chan, aren't you happy for me?"
"Of course Usako, it's just that… I'll miss you." He stated.
"Oh Mamoru, I'll miss you too. Oh Mamo-chan I'll call you everyday and when I get settled maybe you can come and visit." She said smiling.
Mamoru smiled, "I'd love that Usako. I love you too."
Usagi glanced at the clock, she needed to go shopping and get everything done… before the stopped room service. "Mamo-chan I'll talk to you later."
The said their goodbyes and Usagi, picking up her purse she ran out the door.
~*~
She held the four large bags in her hands. She had to seem professional and as Usagi always figured. If you want to have a Natural aura about you, fastest way would be to pick it up at the nearest boutique. She wondered what he new partner would be like; they had told her that they had chosen two girls for the internship.
Then, she, being Usagi, tumbled directly into someone.
"Watch it!" The person yelled angrily at her.
"Hey! I didn't intentionally bump into you so I can fall on my-" Usagi gasped.
"Usagi!"
"Rei!"
They stared at each other for a moment that caused shift looks from bypasses, two girls sitting up straight legs apart facing one another with clothes strewn about them like a fortress. It was only the security guard's voice that took them out of their haze-like state.
"Excuse me, you would two like some help?"
They both scurried up quickly gathering their things. "What are you doing here?" Usagi asked suspiciously.
Rei smiled sheepishly, "I'm shopping for a professional look Usagi…"
Usagi gasped, "You…you're the other girl who got the internship. Rei-chan why didn't you tell me you were going after it?"
"I don't know, I suppose if you know that you could ruin my chances by getting the internship you wouldn't want to do it anymore."
Usagi nodded, it sounded like her, and it made sense.
Then Usagi flung herself at Rei squeezing her tightly, "Oh I'm so happy! I knew that I'd have someone to stick it out with me, I'M SO HAPPY IT'S YOU!"
Rei could only turn red in the face…gasping for breath.
The next few hours went by quickly, she had contacted Mamoru and let him now the more wonderful news, her mother and the rest out the scouts.
~*~
The alarm clock went off in her ear.
-Get up get up!-
'No…lemme alone I just want a few more minutes…'
-You'd better get up if you want to make a good impression.-
'Have you gone mad? On who?'
-Did you forget today was the first day of the internship?-
'Ohhh no…'
-Yep.-
Usagi groggily rolled out of bed, walking into the bathroom and hissed angrily to her conscience.
'You may have one the battle but I will win the war.'
--Ha!-
-----
She met Rei outside of the Sanq Kingdom capital building. She took a deep breath and holding Rei's hand, they bounded headfirst into the Sanq Kingdom building. After sliding in the ID cards they had gotten through the mail and after passing through the security check they looked around the large office building buzzing with people. No doubt on one of the other floors was a conference room and office of Relena Peacecraft, and a small cubicle for her personal interns.
"Hello, you two seem lost, need some help?" A small woman asked holding a large stack of papers.
"We're the new interns." Rei and Usagi said simultaneously. The woman nodded.
"Ah, Relena's new interns…take the elevator two flights up and you'll reach her floor. And, girls I wish you good luck." She smiled. She was a very pretty, her wavy aqua hair just hit her shoulders, her bright blue eyes held a calmness about her.
They waved behind her with a small 'thank you.' Moving up the elevator two flights, they caught the receptionist. She looked at them.
"I'm Haruka Tenoh I'm guessing you two are the new interns?"
They nodded, Haruka shook her head, "Relena is in the back room," She motioned behind her to a small room. Two cubicles were close by, empty. Usagi was guessing one belonged to her. Haruka had sandy blonde hair cropped short on her head, almost masculine, but her long eyelashes and full feminine form gave her away. After talking on the comm. For a moment that Usagi and Rei guessed was Ms. Peacecraft she looked back to them.
"You may go in now."
Usagi and Rei both took a breath and bounded across the room, which had a fair share of people running around. They looked to the door and looked each other over uncertainly before they opened the door and stepped into the office.
"Hello Ms. Tsukino… Ms. Hino." Relena said from behind her desk as Usagi and Rei approached her, she gave Rei a firm handshake.
Rei couldn't help but notice the five boys in the corner. Usagi noticed them as well, a particular one in fact. She stared. She couldn't help it. She completely forgot that Relena's hand was in front of her, waiting for a handshake.
She was tired, very tired. It had been an especially hard day today, and she was returning late to the apartment after almost collapsing from lack of sleep. Ami had retreated home long before. Usagi pulled the jacket closer to her body, February was her favorite month, it was just after Christmas where your presents were not as new, right before spring and the aura of Christmas still lingered.
A large group of boys were gathering outside of her house apartment, she making up her mind not to pass through them walked into an alley, deciding to use the fire escape.
Usagi had forgotten how short she was, and jumping to grab the chain dangling at the end of the fire escape wasn't easy. She stopped jumping as she stared at a clatter of metal trashcans. Curiosity got the best of her, walking over, she almost screamed, matter of fact she did. But after a few seconds, her throat closed up and didn't allow anymore.
A boy, no older than herself lay on the ground, propped up against the wall, his leg, broken in many places, his arm, by the way it looked, dislocated. And his chest was victim of a bullet wound.
She kneeled by him, his eyes were closed, and he was breathing softly. Light brown hair was a tousled messily around his head; he looked a bit older than her.
"Oh my god…" she breathed reaching for the cell phone in her pocket.
Her hand was caught before it touched her ear, he roughly pulled her down and a gun pressed to her head, "Who are you?" Was the husky whisper.
"I'm trying to help you!" She yelled in fright. Holding her, was nothing short of a task, and moving his arm with bruised ribs wasn't as easy as he put off. His gun clattered to the floor. She scrambled away from him. He would shoot her if he got the chance…
-Call the ambulance!-
'But—he was going to kill me…'
-So you'd let him die when you could help him? It's not up to you who lives or dies, but it is up to you to help him. -
Usagi knew her conscience was right, she dialed 911 and soon enough the ambulance picked them both up.
He stared back at her with the same amount of intensity. Damnit…why him? Out of all the Gundam pilots why did he have to know the blonde who had known his true identity? This was something that would happen to Duo Maxwell, as he saw it, not something that happened to him. Heero Yuy.
They just stared at each other for a moment, and all the Gundam pilots, Relena and Rei had noticed. And she fainted right there, before even getting to shake her employer's hand.
