Chapter 5! I apologize ahead of time for it being short. It's just over 1000 words. XD My brain is completely fried. A big thanks to Elemental Gypsy for reviewing this! Everyone else, please review this. I have no idea if you actually like what I'm writing unless you tell me. Even if it's just a suggestion or constructive critiscm I'd appreciate it. Anyway, on with the fic!
Tala sat in the garden behind the mansion that the BBA was holding a party for all of the beybladers to get together between tournaments. He tilted his head back and stared up at the nighttime sky. It was a gorgeous night free of clouds and filled with stars. He was picking out familiar constellations when he felt a familiar gaze fall upon him. The ice wolf's head lowered as he smiled at Claude. The silver haired youth was gorgeous in Tala's opinion. Claude was wearing simple black slacks and a navy blue silk shirt, but the material clung so well to his lithe frame that he looked better than the most beautiful model on the planet. He tilted his head to the side slightly as he looked at his dual minded eagle. "Hey lover. What brings you out here?"
"I was looking for you. You disappeared on me and I couldn't find you anywhere inside so I figured you'd be out here stargazing." Claude closed the distance between them and curled up in Tala's lap. His arms snake around his lover's waist tightly as he buried his face in the wolf's chest.
Tala sighed as he ran his fingers through Claude's silver locks. He wrapped his free arm around the eagle's back and squeezed him gently. They sat in silence as they simply enjoyed being in each other's company. "Are you afraid you're going to lose me, Claude?"
The question caught the silver haired youth off guard and he pulled back to look into ice blue eyes quizzically. "Why do you ask that?"
Tala brushed his fingers along the side of Claude's face ever so gently. He sighed as he answered. "There's something about the way you're holding me, like you're afraid to let me go in fear that I'll disappear."
Claude rested his head back onto Tala's shoulder as his grip on the ice wolf tightened slightly. "I guess I am a little. I'm never really sure where I stand with you or how you feel. I just worry that one day you'll realize that you don't love me like I love you and then you'll just disappear from my life. I don't want that to happen. I guess every time you get distant or disappear or pull away from me I worry that you're getting sick of me and are considering leaving me" he whispered softly. His grip tightened even more as he pressed his face into Tala's neck.
Tala wrapped both arms around his lover tightly as he cradled the other boy. "I'm not disappearing from your life anytime soon, Claude. I like you a lot. I don't know if I'm in love with you, but I know that I hate not spending time with you. I need you to be patient with me. I'm not used to having to express all of my emotions. Please just understand that I want to be with you. You have to trust me to stay by your side." Claude nodded but stayed silent. Tala sighed and settled for sitting in silence with his lover. There was nothing more he could do to reassure his dual minded eagle that he wanted to be with him and that he wasn't going to disappear or leave him.
Claude lifted his head from Tala's shoulder and looked him in the eye. Storm grey met ice blue as they stared at each other searching for the answers they both wanted so desperately to find. Claude sighed and rested his forehead against Tala's. "I love you Tala. I understand that you don't know for sure if you're in love with me, but I need you to understand that I do love you. I can't imagine not being with you. I won't ask you to make any decisions or say anything you're not comfortable with or sure of, but I do want you to know that I'll always be here waiting for you. I'll always be waiting until you tell me you love me. Even if that day never comes I'll be waiting. I'll wait for you until the end of time. I love you so much." Claude was on the verge of tears and he desperately needed his lover to tell him that everything would be okay. He wrapped his fingers around Tala's shirt tightly.
Tala placed his hand ever so gently on the side of Claude's face and ran his thumb underneath the eagle's teary eye. "I'll be here Claude. I promise that for now I'll be here with you. I hope that one day I can tell you what you want to hear, but I just don't know right now. I hope that knowing that I want to be with you is enough for you right now. I don't want to lose you, but I don't want you to be unhappy because of me either. I care about you too much to hurt you."
Claude pressed their lips together gently before pulling back. "That's all I needed Tala. All I needed was for you to tell me that you care and that maybe someday you'll be able to say what I really want to hear. You make me happy Tala. You really do."
Silence fell over the couple as their lips met in a series of feathery kisses. The kisses slowly turned deep and passionate until both were completely unaware of their surroundings. Two sets of eyes peered from behind a tree as they watched the two kiss. Miguel gently tugged on Kai's hand and guided him away. "Will they be okay? Can Tala give Claude what he needs?"
Kai smiled at his lover and nodded. "As Claude heals Tala, Tala will heal Claude. They're going to be good for each other, Miguel. They are the only ones capable of healing the wounds caused by Boris and Barthez. All they need is time and patience." Miguel looked back towards the couple who were now whispering softly to one another. The pair left their friends alone so that they could continue the healing process.
Okay, the above conversation between Tala and Claude is based on several conversations I've had with my boyfriend. And before you assume that my boyfriend is completely closed off emotionally, Claude's half is based on him.I got burned and am having trouble opening up to him so he is constantly questioning where he stands with me.It's not good and I wish I could change, but I can't. Just thought I'd let you all know where the conversation came from.
Tala: You're making me be mean to my Claude.
I am not. You're just afraid of hurting him and yourself.
Claude: Why am I such a sap?
Because you're cute that way...?
