As she sits there, contemplating what is going on between her and Luke, she realizes that it really was both of them. Though she fancies herself wonderwoman, it bothers her that he so quickly accepted her offer to postpone the wedding. To her own credit though, she thought that Luke would have picked up on the change in the relationship. Valentine's Day was such a cliché time to talk about things, but I thought that it was going to be time, and then I waited too late.

FLASHY FLASHY

"Miss Gilmore, would you like to step on back?" a nurse clad in a colorful set of scrubs comes out to the waiting room to pull her back into an exam room.

She stands, following the nurse back to her room. I'm with Luke on this hospital/doctor smell thing. I hate going to the Doctor…I hate going to the Doctor…I hate going to the Doctor.

"You can take a seat and the doctor will be right with you." she says with a plastered on smile.

"yeah…let's see how long this little wait will take." she says under her breath letting her voice drip with sarcasm.

The nurse pauses at the door and takes in her comment, but keeps the smile as she walks out and closes the door behind her.

I hate going to the Doctor…I hate going to the Doctor…at least he's got pictures up on his wall. One of those eye things that only Rory can do, where you cross your eyes or stare at something or another…yeah…never got the hang of that.

As she is foolishly attempting to look at the picture from an upside-down view, the doctor walks in. "Miss Gilmore, how are we feeling today?"

"Well, I guess that is for you to tell me."

"What seems to be the problem?"

Lifting her sleeve she shows him small red bumps that are lining her forearm. "Well, I've got these little red marks on both of my arms and my stomach and I have a feeling I know what it's from, but I've never had an issue before."

"They appear to be hives…what do you think is the culprit?"

"Well, my fiance owns a diner and my best friend is a chef and I'm a little bit surrounded by food at all times. I'm also addicted to pie, and my all time favorite pie is blackberry. It's amazing! Have you ever had blackberry pie?" she says in full storytelling mode getting more and more bubbly as she talks about the pie.

"I don't believe that I have." the doctor says nearly monotone.

"Well…" she starts again with nervous laughter. "it has been my lucky week because they both had blackberry pie. However this time whenever I ate it I broke out into these hives, which I don't understand."

"Have you ever had any food allergies before?"

"Me! I've been told that I have an iron stomach, and my daughter and I can put away food better than a three hundred pound trucker named Bubba." As the doctor looks up from his clipboard she realizes that her humor is obviously not something he's into. "So… no, I haven't ever had any food allergies."

After writing a few more things down he stands up. "We're going to take a blood sample and do a quick check to make sure you aren't just getting ready to come down with something, as people react to illnesses differently. If nothing turns up there, we'll run some allergy tests on it and get back to you. Does that sound alright?"

"Yeah, that sounds great."

"Very well then, we'll have one of the nurses come in and take some blood, and then you'll have to wait out in the waiting room for just a bit while we wait for the preliminary results." he says, while walking out the door.

Surprisingly quickly, the nurse comes to take some blood and sends Lorelai out to the waiting room again. I've decided that I don't hate the Doctor, I hate the waiting. What are we supposed to do out here? They have magazines like Newsweek and Time…so nothing of entertainment value here, and all you can do is sit there and try not to meet the eye of anyone else who's waiting. I've never really understood that…do people think that if they look you in the eye, you're automatically going to know why they're here? Not likely friend. She continues to contemplate this idea while waiting, coming up with a crisis story for each patient sitting in the room with her. An "illegitimate baby" here, "cut her hand while attempting to perfect her knife technique to kill her husband" there… just passing the time while doing the waiting that she disdains.

"Miss Gilmore, we're going to take you back to the same room one more time."

This time as she is being escorted in, the doctor is walking in at the same time. Hallelujah, no waiting!

"Have a seat Miss Gilmore."

Sitting down she gets a bad feeling in her stomach. Why do I feel like he's getting ready to drop a bombshell on me? Prepare for the worst Lorelai, prepare for the worst.

"You don't have to worry about waiting for allergy tests, which is a good thing, but we did figure out your new allergic reaction cause. You were probably right about the blackberries, so I would stay away from those for awhile."

"If you aren't doing any allergy tests then how do you know that I'm allergic to blackberries?" she asks with a confused look on her face.

"Well, when we were looking at your bloodwork, we found the cause of the reaction, and it wasn't because you are allergic to blackberries. Your baby is. Often times…." Baby? All words after baby aren't making any sense. Baby…baby…Why would he say baby? "Miss Gilmore?"

"Did you say baby? I'm not pregnant!" she says in a laughingly, unconvincing confident tone.

"It appears that you are. I suspected that you weren't aware of that fact since you didn't mention anything, but you are indeed pregnant. I don't know how far along, but you should make an appointment with your OB/GYN soon to find all of that out and get started on your Prenatal vitamins."

"I'm pregnant?"

"Congratulations Miss Gilmore…I'll leave you in here for a minute to digest the news, and you can leave whenever you feel ready to."

All she can do is nod.

How am I pregnant? I mean… I know how I'm pregnant, but I'm pregnant. This was not something that I was ready for. We didn't plan this. Luke and I aren't even married. Luke just found out about April…I can't tell him this now! How do I tell him this?

She leaves the hospital with the intention of heading over to the Dragonfly to finish up some work. As she gets off at the exit towards Stars Hallow, she realizes that work isn't something that she can concentrate on. Thoughts of how Luke would take the news, what everyone's reaction would be, and if she can really do this whole baby thing all over again floats in circles in her mind.

END FLASHY

I kept waiting for the perfect time, and then when Rory invited us to the vineyard for Valentine's day, I knew that I was going to tell him. We reconnected again, and it was absolutely amazing. I was going to tell him that night as a perfect close to a semi-perfect weekend. My plans got changed. She laughs to herself a sad laugh. My plans got changed in more ways than one.

FLASHY FLASHY

Something doesn't feel right, and I can't place what it is. After a weekend on the Vineyard, a week passes by and Lorelai still hasn't been able to tell Luke about baby Danes. She is two months and a bout a week along according to what her doctor told her a few weeks ago, and is feeling like she and Luke are on a downward spiral. The two of them are growing more and more distant it feels like, and she is again waking up alone since he had "early deliveries." Something almost hurts. Oh please tell me that this baby isn't going to pull the morning sickness bit on me.

As she gets up to go to the bathroom, she grows more and more uncomfortable, sitting down to use the toilet, she looks down to see something that she didn't think she would have to see for a while. Oh no. Why am I bleeding? It's not that much, but that's not right.

She quickly gets up and throws on some clothes. While driving to the hospital in Hartford she calls Sookie to tell her that she's not coming in today.

"What's wrong, do you feel okay?"

"I'm not feeling good this morning. I think that I'm going to run out and grab something for my stomach and then spend the day in bed."

"I'll stop by later with some food for you…something light?"

"Sookie, never in your life have you made something light, I'll be fine, don't worry about it."

"All right, then I'll see you tomorrow hon."

"Most definitely you will."

As the drive continues, she starts to cramp up more, feeling more and more uncomfortable.

An hour later, as she sits, fidgeting in a hospital bed alone, Lorelai Gilmore doesn't know what to do with her self. I can't call Rory, because I haven't even told her about the baby, because I haven't told Luke about the baby. I can't call Luke because he's got too much on his plate right now. I want everything to be calm a bit before I tell him that he's going to be a dad…well…again. I want them here though.

As she looks around her room, hand on her stomach, her gaze falls to the window. The day is clear and the sun is shining. Getting lost in the view, she jumps a bit when she hears the door open. Finally, it took them forever!

The doctor sits down in a small rolling chair by her bed, and the look that briefly crosses the doctor's face as she looks into Lorelai's eyes makes her understand what has happened. Oh God, please don't tell me that this is happening..

"Miss Gilmore, I'm sorry…you've lost the baby."

"What happened?" she says with a small quivering voice.

"We never know…It just wasn't meant to be…I'm sorry."

She can't say anything more, but sits up in bed with her hands on her stomach, caressing what isn't there anymore.

"Can I call anyone for you?"

"No, but thank you." she say with a small smile to the young doctor.

"Well have to do a few more things, and you'll have to stay here over night, but you should be able to leave tomorrow morning."

Another silent nod from her patient is the doctor's cue to leave. As the door closes, the tears start to flow down her cheeks.

How could this happen? Why did this happen? All she can do is question why as the sobs continue to shake her.

Gladly she calms down by the time her cell phone rings. "Hello?"

"Hey, where are you? Sookie said that you didn't feel well."

"Yeah, I didn't feel very well this morning. I'm feeling better now though." she says, trying to hold back the emotion that she's feeling.

"If you come by the diner, I'll fix you something to eat."

"No, that's okay, I think that I'm going to go spend the night by Rory. We haven't really talked a lot in the past week after the Valentine's thing."

"Okay, then I guess I'll see you tomorrow?"

No Luke, I want you here now! I want you with me…and I can't bear to tell you that I need you, and I can't bear to tell you what has happened. "Yeah Luke, you'll see me tomorrow. And if you see Sookie, tell her that I'll probably be in late tomorrow."

"Will do. I'll see ya."

"Bye Luke." she says, her voice faltering just a bit at his name.

As she shuts the phone, she is dissolved into another bought of tears. Why couldn't I just tell Luke what happened? If he finds out that I kept this from him, he'll be so angry with me.

END FLASHY

She wipes a tear that had fallen as she remembered what happened just a few short weeks ago. Before she lets her mind wander again, Rory comes out to sit next to her on the porch.

"Hey."

"Hey, what's up?"

"Do you have something that you want to tell me?" she says smiling back at her mother.

"No, I don't think that I do." Well, I do, but I can't really do that right now.

"Well, let me see if I can refresh your memory of a piece of information that you haven't shared with me. You know how when I work too long on the computer I get a monstrous headache?"

"Yes?"

"So, I get into the kitchen looking for the advil that has always been kept there, but I have no luck finding it. So, I go upstairs and figure that you've got some in the medicine cabinet of your new fancy schmancy bathroom. Are you sure that there's nothing that you want to tell me."

As Lorelai listens to her daughter's ramblings she can't think of what she is hinting at. She doesn't understand…until she sees the bottle that Rory is holding in front of her. Her prenatal vitamins from this past month and a half. She glances at the bottle and then to Rory, who is smiling more than anyone could smile.

I just thought about all of this, and now I'm supposed to relive it again and again?

"You're pregnant!" Rory says loudly, throwing her arms around her mother.

As she pulls back to look at Lorelai, she realizes something isn't right. "No, I'm not." she says with tears in her eyes.

I know it's sad, but I wanted to actually have more serious Lorelai stuff, because while I love her bubbly personality, she has totally changed this season especially in the last few episodes, so yeah. Tell me what you think…I'm going to pick up the next chapter where this one leaves off.