Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha. End of story.
I Promise
3 years. 3 whole years since you first came through the well and enchanted me with…everything. Your face, your eyes, your personality. Your ability to light up a room. Your faith in me. The list could go one forever, if I lived that long.
You came and changed everything. I feel like I waited those 50 years pinned to that tree just to meet you.
1 year. 1 whole year since you last went through the well for the last time and left me forever. Maybe you never went through the well again, but I sure as hell did. I went looking for you, and it's a good thing I did.
Your family brought me to this place they called a home for funerals or something crazy like that. Seeing you there, like you were asleep…it was surreal. Especially because I knew you were never going to wake up.
They told me you had been in a car accident, whatever that is. You were in a box looking so damn beautiful but you were dead and I couldn't stand it.
To tell the truth, I always thought that someday you'd die. Someday I wouldn't be there to protect you and you'd be slaughtered by some demon.
I never thought you'd die in your own time. I thought you were safe there, but I was so damn wrong.
I hate this! I don't get any of it. Your time is so confusing, you know? Makes me wonder how you could possibly live in it everyday.
And now I'm sitting on the edge of the well and I'm looking at your picture. I don't know how the hell this is possible, looking at a dead, buried person like they were still living, but I am.
Your mom gave it to me before I left your time. She said I might need it, but I need you so much fucking more. Yet there you are, smiling at me like you weren't dead and my world wasn't so fucked up now that you're not in it.
I slept in your room last night, how about that? I couldn't fall asleep because everything smelled like you. Don't worry, I didn't touch a thing. I just wanted your scent in my nose cause I'm sealing up the well today. It's not like you're ever coming back.
So here I am, staring at your picture like the fool that I am. I close my eyes and pretend that it's really you smiling up at me. My eyes get hot and wet. Shit, I never even got to kiss you. But I love you, no matter what I said.
Damn it, I can't take this! I've been carrying this picture around with me for a year and it doesn't even help! I need you so fucking bad. I just want to see you one last time but I know that's never going to happen.
I know you're gone forever.
And the worst part? The part I can't take?
That I'm starting to forget.
I used to know your scent, your face, every expression you had…but now it's starting to fade. I don't want to forget you. I'll remember our times together when you were mine.
I'll remember, I promise.
A/N: I've read so many fics about Kagome grieving for Inuyasha that I thought it'd be interesting to have it the other way around. I particularly like this one. It was pretty easy to write. Please review! I want some honest feedback.
