Chapter 8: What's Going On?

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Warning: This is shounen-ai aka male/male so if you're offended/disgusted/plain hate it, leave now!!

A/N: Wow...Spiderman 2 was awesomely coolio. And Kingdom Hearts is just the most beautiful game ever. sigh I envy any of you who has Kingdom Hearts. I recently borrowed it from my friend and played it and wow...... I recommend all of you to go watch Spiderman 2 and play some Kingdom Hearts (not hard to beat if you have the strategy guide)! But beware it's nothing like the Final Fantasies. So anywoo...thanks for all the reviews! Hopefully this chapter gets things more heated up. Enjoy!

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After the odd confrontation with Matt, we started walking back to the hotel. I was getting more and more uncomfortable with the fact that Kotsuki's hand was on mine. It practically chased Matt away! Or at least that's how I justified his quick departure. When we got to the doorway, we saw an angry Yolei standing next to the door. Sleeping on the floor next to her were Suto, Koromon, and Agumon.

"About time. I agreed to babysit them for the day, but I didn't know there was a night shift involved," she glared at us. "Obviously you two were too busy to remember them. They're dead tired. Next time you should give me a hotel key so that I could put them in bed."

"Oh my, terribly sorry Yolei," Kotsuki said in concern. Why did he keep beating me to my line? He seemed to try hard to be the nice guy and fit in. Well apparently it worked, because Yolei was staring at me now, as if expecting me to say something.

"I'm really sorry Yolei," I quickly said, looking away from her eyes.

"Yeah, it won't ever happen again," Kotsuki added on.

"Well it's ok. Suto could stay at my place anytime. Just tell me ahead of time or leave your cell phones on so that I could contact one of you. It could be like a sleepover." Her tone suddenly became soft and motherly.

"We'll make sure to do so next time, if there will be a next time," Kotsuki smiled. "Thank you so much for looking after them today. You can go home now. Bye." Yolei waved lazily and left. I just stood there dumbly in the hall. "Koi, it's time to come in now," Kotsuki said as he gently picked up Suto and woke up the others.

I nodded slowly and walked in a trance through the doorway. What an odd thing that just took place. Again, Kotsuki had done most of the talking. I felt dumb, but at the same time thankful. If I were to give Yolei an apology, she probably would still be yelling at me now. It was weird to see her forgive and forget so suddenly and quickly, and even offer to take care of Suto during the night. No matter, it wasn't important. What concerned me the most was Matt's weird behavior tonight. Why? And why did he stare at our hands? If Matt didn't care, he would surely have given me one of his teasing smirks, but today he just kind of ran away. Did he care about this marriage? Did he care enough to...perhaps...stop it from happening? No, Tai, stop thinking. There is no more hope. Matt's with Sora, and shall be forever. Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will know the reason. With that, I thought no more of it and fell asleep.

-----Matt's POV-----

I ran as fast as I could away from him. It seemed that I was angry with everyone; TK for telling me, Sora for cheating on me, Kotsuki for holding Tai's hand so tightly, Tai for dating that Kotsuki, and me for hiding my feelings for Tai for so long. As I neared my house, I slowed down to a walk. I dreaded going home and staring into Sora's fake "I love you" face. I wondered now if Yoshi really is my child. Maybe he is Rafu's, or another guy's. I realized that I didn't love Sora, for I wasn't angry with her for cheating on me, but more angry with her for doing it when she clearly knows the consequences. I'm sure that she knows that if I knew, we'd get a divorce. How could she dare put the children in such misery? But then again, she knows that I've lived through it. Perhaps she thinks that it'll be okay because she knows that I would avoid divorce at all costs?

"Yama-chan, you're home!" an unusually sweet honey voice broke into my thoughts. Geez, was she standing in the doorway and just waiting for me to walk up the path? I guess she was trying to sound as if me coming home was the greatest thing that could happen to her, but it made me sick. It didn't matter though because I had to pretend like nothing happened.

"Hi Sora." I forced a smile. "How was your day?" I couldn't help but add. Stupid Ishida and your big mouth, now she's going to know. Immediately her smile faded, but she quickly recovered.

"Great! Just great! Why, did you want to know something in particular? Did TK tell you anything?" Wow, she was even more obvious than me.

"No, why would he?" I continued to smile. Just then we were interrupted by our two kids--or, excuse me--my one kid and stepkid (who I love just as much despite the facts).

"Daddy! You're finally back! We've been waiting for you! In fact mom didn't want to start dinner without you. Now we're starving. Let's go eat!" the happy Akina said as she leapt into my arms.

"Oh really? And why would you wait up for me Sora? I told you I was coming home late. This isn't the first time either," I said in more of a joking manner, but I suspected that she just wanted to seem innocent.

"Oh, I just wanted to wait for my lover. You got a problem?" she giggled. Ha! Just like I suspected. We went to dinner, and Akina and Yoshi were gobbling food down like there was no tomorrow. I just looked at them as they ate and as they ran off to their rooms. How easy things would be if they didn't exist. But they did, and Sora just had to be having an affair, and I just had to be in love with another person. How did things become so complicated, so twisted?

"Yama-chan, something wrong?" she asked, placing a concerned hand on mine. I clenched my teeth. I was disgusted at her and couldn't stand her calling me "Yama-chan." Sure, she sometimes called me that, but since when did that become my regular name?

"Nothing's wrong," I said as best as I could.

"Well you know that you could always talk to me, okay hon?" With that, she quietly left the table. I sat there alone, hands tightly gripping the chopsticks. It was only then that I noticed that I had already finished dinner. "Yamato, you're getting old," I told myself. Maybe this is just a nightmare. Everything will be fine tomorrow. As I got on the bed, Sora came and cuddled me as best she could. I just wanted to push her away, but instead I thought about my best friend Tai. His eyes, his voice, his smile, and of course his hair. I thought of the times when his hair used to be big and crazy. Smiling, I fell asleep.

I woke up slowly, thinking about my sweet dream that involved a certain brunette. I looked at the clock. 10:00?? "Holy shit! I'm late!" I cried out. Then the events of yesterday came flooding back into my head. Nope, it wasn't a nightmare or a sick dream.

"Shhhh. Calm down my Yama-chan," a voice next to me said soothingly. "I called in for you. I told them you weren't going today. Today you're all mine."

"Sora?" I said in shock, turning around. Nothing could've prepared for what I was about to see. There next to me laid Sora--naked. I was suddenly aware that I was not attracted to her at all, and had a sudden urge to scream and tell her to put her clothes on.

"I was thinking," she continued seductively, "about the last time we made love, and I realized that it was a really long time ago." Yeah, a REALLY REALLY long time ago. I don't think I even remember ever doing so. Wow, talk about inactivity. And I never even had the desire to do so. How very strange. And to think that I only just realized that I wasn't in love with Sora. Ha, funny. I was then taken back into the real world when I felt her kissing me and her hand travelling down there.

"Um, Sora, I'm not in the mood," I said quickly, getting out of bed.

"But Yama-chan, you're never in the mood," she whined. Boy was her voice annoying.

"When did I ever say that before?" I asked.

"Well you don't say it but the fact that we haven't done it in a while is proof!" she cried out. I know I just ruined her day, but she was probably thinking about Rafu anyways. Just then my cell phone rang. I grabbed it from the nightstand and glanced at the number. My heart skipped a beat. Tai. How funny it is that I'm standing here, in my 40's, feeling like a teen with a crush. But then he's getting married. Probably want to go shop for tuxedos with me. I suddenly became angry. Three more days till his wedding.

"What?" I answered.

"Well hello to you too," he said. "I was just wondering if you wanted to come get tuxedos with me?"

"Ha, I knew it," I smirked.

"Shaddup. Now you wanna come or not? Just you and me." My anger was quickly replaced with excitement. Just Tai and me? Who wouldn't jump for a chance like that?

"Fine," I said, trying not to sound too happy.

"K. I'll come over." click.

"So?" she gave me an expectant look while dressing.

"Tai's coming to pick me up. We're going to go look at some tuxes for his wedding," I said.

"I want a divorce," she suddenly said. What? How could she suggest such a thing? My eyes desperately went to a picture on the wall of Akina and Yoshi.

"No," I stated.

"We're not in love with each other. You never want to make love to me. You're always hanging out with anyone but me. Ever since Tai came back you two have been inseparable. We haven't talked in weeks. You tell yourself that Akina and Yoshi are the most important, but have you been paying attention to them lately? It's Tai Tai Tai everyday! If I didn't know better I'd say you were in love with Tai!" she screamed. Luckily I was still looking at the picture because I knew my face faltered after she said that. I cleared my throat and tried to compose myself.

"Not that you care. You'd rather get divorced so that you could marry Rafu. And I do care for Akina and Yoshi! Tai would often bring Suto over and we'd hang out and look after the kids!" I defended. I looked back at her. This time it was her face that faltered.

"Rafu? Who?" she asked cautiously.

"Stop faking. I know the whole thing. I saw it myself," I said, not wanting to bring TK into this.

"How long did you know?" she whispered.

"The point is, I can't believe you'd do such a thing! I don't want Akina and Yoshi to get split up." I suddenly broke down in tears. Oh gosh, if I ever bring them the pain I went through...would I ever be able to forgive myself? I knew that I wasn't being honest either. If Sora knew about Tai...I don't even want to think about it. She'd make me feel even guiltier than I'm feeling now.

"All you care about is Akina and Yoshi. You're almost obsessed with this whole split thing. Matt, you're not the only one in the whole world who had to deal with their parents' divorce. It just didn't work out for them. Can't you see? It was better for them, better for us. We have no love between us. You don't even care if I'm cheating on you. All you care about is divorce. You fear it with your whole body and soul. Does a marriage have nothing to do with love? I married you because I love you, or thought I loved you. And I thought you felt the same way. We go way back. We probably have the longest history out of all these people, but now I know that the love I thought we had was fake. It was just an empty love," she said. Yup, I was definitely feeling guiltier. I guess girls have the power to make guys feel this way. When Tai and I fight, I usually feel like I am right. At that moment I heard a car approaching. Tai to the rescue! I quickly wiped away my tears.

"Well, gotta go," I smiled weakly, running out the door before Sora had a chance to stop me. It just made me feel irresponsible. I mean, besides cowards, who runs away from fights? I quickly got in Tai's car. I didn't say anything because I was feeling pretty bad about what just happened. Even though I didn't love Sora, she was still my friend. I guess Tai sensed something was wrong, so instead he drove to the park.

"Come on," he sighed and grabbed my arm. He led me to our bench and we both sat down. "Is everything alright? Is there something you want to tell me?" That I love you? Sure I want to tell you. But I can't, I just can't. I looked into his eyes, begging him not to do this. What if I slip and tell him the truth? "Yamato Ishida, we're not leaving until I find out what's going on. You know you could trust me with anything." Not with this Tai, not with this. You won't understand. What if you hate me afterwards? If I tell you, will I disgust you? Are you disgusted of TK for marrying the wrong woman? And what will happen to Akina and Yoshi? Will you be mad at me for letting the same thing that happened to me to happen to my children? Oh god Tai, how I want to tell you.

-----Tai's POV-----

Matt looked at me with his sapphire eyes, begging me not to question any more. But I had already made up my mind. From last night I promised myself that I would find out what was wrong. Getting tuxes was just something I said so that I could bring Matt over to the park. "Yamato Ishida, we're not leaving until I find out what's going on. You know you could trust me with anything." Well, that was obvious. I didn't really have to say that. He just didn't want to tell me. I watched him, and it seemed that he was struggling with himself. To tell or not to tell, is that the big question Yama? Well please do tell! If you tell, I'll tell. I'll tell you about what happened this morning, or maybe even a bit more. Gosh Matt, how hard could it be?

"Gabumon got really sick. Tai, I don't know what to do." He was avoiding eye contact, knowing that I'd see straight through this lie. Well I already knew it wasn't true, but I decided to play along.

"Really? How sick? Since when?"

"Since yesterday," he said slowly. Too bad I was the ambassador of the Digital World, or his lie may have worked.

"Matt, stop lying. I visited the Digiworld this morning and Gabumon was saying hi to Agumon and me. He seemed just fine."

"Oh." Silence. Matt, just say it! It can't be as bad as my secret, the one that involves you. "TK saw something that was...disturbing," he finally said.

"Something about Kari?" I asked, immediately jumping to conclusions. After all, what else would TK be worried about?

"No. It wasn't about Kari." Silence again. This time it seemed to last forever. Throughout the whole time he kept his head down. Was he afraid to look at me? Was he ashamed of something? Finally he looked up. His eyes were red. It never matched with those blue sapphire eyes of his. Oh Yama, please don't start crying. I'll be here for you. You could tell me. "It was about Sora," came his sudden response.

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Whee!! Done with this chapter! If you find any contradictory stuff, tell me. Do you think it's too verbose (har har har, SAT word)? I think I try too hard to make things understandable except it ends up all complicated and confusing. Oh, and the wavy lines don't show up anymore. Do you guys know why or how I could get it to show up? Anyways, I'll try to get one up before the end of this month. If not, you guys will have to wait a while because I have to go to camp and afterwards I have to catch up on my summer homework before school starts and SATs. sigh. Hate those. Year 2006, I feel your pain. Now go review!!