Chapter 13: Meant to Be

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Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon.

Warning: This is shounen-ai aka male/male so if you're offended/disgusted/plain hate it, leave now!

A/N: You know, Sora's never done anything bad (except steal Matt from Tai)... I just hate her for that, but she really doesn't deserve it. I mean, I probably liked her before I discovered Taito... SOOO...my point is that I'm showing the softer, more understanding side of Sora in this chapter.

Yes, and moving away from Digimon...I'd just like to point out that Naruto and Fullmetal Alchemist are the coolest! And I just finished watching Sukisyo/Sukisho. The ending was...okay...but the series is cute. Yes, I like to advertise anime in my A/N's. lol. Go watch Naruto and FMA! But before doing so, please R&R! No flames, and thanks for all the reviews!

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-----Matt's POV-----

My eyes slowly fluttered open as I felt the warm sunlight caress my face. My heart skipped a beat when I saw the body next to me: Tai. We were at my house--in my bed to be exact. We had been so mentally drained after coming back from Matsumoto that we both immediately dropped dead on the bed after putting Suto to bed. I smiled as I watched Tai sleep. His breathing was smooth and soothing. He wore a gentle, almost blissful expression on his face. Yup, waking up next to Tai was a hundred--no, a trillion gazillion times better than waking up next to Sora. I carefully wiped a few strands of hair off his face. It was strange how someone like me, who slept next to a woman all his adult life, could feel so belonging and comfortable sleeping next to a man. I should have admitted my love for Tai sooner. I should have told him before he left for America. I sighed. At least we're together now. Now we just have to find a way to tell everyone, including Akina and Yoshi. Hopefully they'll understand.

I quietly got up, careful to not disturb Tai. Then I made my way to the kitchen. This was the life: waking up next to the one I love and making breakfast for him.

"Hey Yama," I heard a soft voice from behind me. My heart melted from the new name. I turned around from what I was doing and grinned.

"Morning beautiful," I greeted, cracking two eggs into a bowl. He blushed lightly and gave an embarrassed smile.

"Yaaamaaa!" he half-whined. I smirked.

"What? Can't I state a simple fact?" I asked, giving him an innocent look. His blush deepened, but he stayed silent. He looks so cute when he blushes. I turned around, turned on the fan, and began making breakfast. Suddenly I felt a pair of hands wrap around my waist. Now it was my turn to turn red. It was such a simple gesture, yet I couldn't control my racing heartbeat. Sora had probably done this many times, but I had never really felt such a magical touch to the hug.

Tai gave me a soft squeeze and rested his head on my shoulder. "Whatcha making?" he asked playfully.

"Breakfast," I stated the obvious. "You just go to the table and wait for Chef Ishida's secret recipe."

"Yes sir oh mighty Chef Ishida," Tai said sarcastically, and went to set up the table.

-----Sora's POV-----

I was planning to spend a couple of days at Rafu's to sort things out, but after just one day the kids were complaining about coming home. Not only that, but they found it strange that I took them to someone else's house. It was already about 10:00 in the morning. I was in the car driving back home while Akina and Yoshi were sitting in the backseat chattering away about random things.

"We're here!" I announced as I parked the car on the driveway. I heard a squeal of excitement as my two kids leapt out of the car. "Akina dear, could you help me with our things? Yoshi, you can go in first." Before I could finish, Yoshi had already grabbed the keys from my hands and was running to the door. I stared at his retreating figure. He had so much energy, like his real father, Rafu. The only person that knows the truth, besides me, is Rafu. Luckily Yoshi has my looks, so Matt never got suspicious. He believed me when I told him he got drunk the night it happened. If he knew the truth...I don't know how he'd react. Yoshi and Akina are so precious to him.

I looked back at Akina. She struggled a bit as she took things out from the trunk. She had to go on her tiptoes to reach some of the things that were farther in trunk. I went to help out. I noticed that Akina had suddenly become very quiet.

"So after the divorce are me and Yoshi gonna have to split up like Daddy and Uncle TK?" Akina suddenly asked. That took me by surprise.

"D-d-divorce? Uh..." I stuttered. Should I tell her or not? At last, I decided to tell the truth. "You two will get to see each other very often. It'll be alright. Maybe you two won't be split up at all. Anyways, Daddy and I will still see each other because we're still friends. We feel this is best for us. I know it may sound selfish, but please forgive us. We don't want to hurt you two," I tried desperately to explain. How are you supposed to explain divorce to a 6-year-old? To my surprise, she didn't look phased.

"I've been doing some thinking, and I've decided that it is probably for the best. I'm not scared or anything. Maybe a bit sad, but if it's better for the whole family, then it's fine. I just don't want to leave everyone. Since you said Yoshi and I will still get to see each other often, then I guess it's cool," she said and gave me a small smile. I gaped at her. Here was my very young daughter talking like a grownup. Though she resembled Matt in many ways, with her blonde hair and blue eyes shining in the sun, she definitely did not inherit Matt's fear of divorces. I felt both relieved and confused at the same time. It was good that she won't have a breakdown or anything like that, but how can such a small child seem to understand it all?

"Mommy mommy!" I felt keys being pushed into my hands.

"Yeah honey?" I answered, but I was still thinking about Akina.

"Mommy mommy," Yoshi continued. He tugged urgently on my skirt. I switched my gaze from Akina to Yoshi.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Why is Uncle Tai hugging daddy?" That sure caught my attention.

"Oo! Uncle Tai is so funny! Is Suto around too?" Akina asked excitedly. How interesting, she was serious one minute, then excited the next.

"Tai's here?" I asked in confusion. I then remembered the call I received from Kotsuki. That's right, they had canceled the wedding. I should have guessed that Tai would be here. "Yoshi, we should let them be. Uncle Tai is probably feeling very sad right now."

"But daddy was cooking! He didn't hear when I called him. Cuz the fan was on. It's not fair! I miss daddy's food. We haven't eaten it in forever!"

"So you think I don't cook as well?" I gasped, feigning shock.

"Of course not!" my two kids chimed in, giving me angel faces. I smiled softly.

"Anyways," I continued, "Tai needs this time. Let's not distract them." Even as I said this, part of me was in doubt. It was perfectly fine for Matt to cook breakfast, and it was fine for Tai to hug Matt. But if Tai was feeling so bad, Matt probably wouldn't be making breakfast at the same time.

I soon found myself thinking back to the day when I suggested a divorce. "If I didn't know better I'd say you were in love with Tai!" I had screamed. It seems foolish to react so rashly. They were best friends after all. But still, I really meant it when I said it. Matt had been cold back when I first met him, and Tai was the one who made him into who he is now. Tai was also the only one Matt could really talk to. I remember that I had thought there was something more than friendship between Matt and Tai. This, of course, was before I fell in love with Matt. But the thought had always stayed in the back my mind somewhere. I'm supposed to be the keeper of love, and yet I've never been able to figure it out. I loved Matt, but our marriage became something far from love. I started seeing Rafu because I needed to be loved. Matt had never really given me that, but I was so blinded by my own love for him that I agreed to marry him. Such a fool I was. I sometimes wonder if he had ever loved me at all.

"Mommy!" Yoshi gave my skirt one final, hard tug. He stood there angrily looking at me. I snapped back to the present. "I SAID," he started, giving special emphasis on the word "said." "I said that Uncle Tai didn't look sad."

"Well..." I started, trying to think of some reason for that. Maybe Tai just isn't one who knows how to look sad? No...that wasn't true...

"Well I'm going!" Yoshi warned.

"Well if Yoshi gets to go, I'm going too," Akina said. Then they both ran in the house before I could stop them.

"Wait you two!" I called after them, but it was too late. I ran in after them.

"Uh...hi Sora... What are you doing?" Matt said. He blinked at me in confusion. I took in the scene. He had a bit of eggs on his fork, and he was ready to take his next bite. Tai was sitting across from him. Tai had his fork in his mouth, and he kept switching his gaze from me to Matt to me to Matt... Everything looked so peaceful, and I was suddenly aware of the silence that had fallen upon the kitchen.

"I'm so sorry Matt! Tai! Yoshi just ran in. I was thinking of giving you two some time alone. Tai, I'm so sorry. You must feel horrible," I quickly explained, slightly embarrassed at my irresponsibility. We had just barged in when Tai needed this time to recover.

Before they had time to reply, Yoshi was already running towards Matt. "Daddy!" he whined. "How come you cook for Uncle Tai but not for us?" He gave Matt a small pout before climbing onto Matt's lap to take a bite of food.

"Oh, so you admit that I'm a good cook," Matt replied, ruffling Yoshi's hair. Strange. It didn't seem like we were interrupting anything important. In fact, Matt sounded cheerful. He then switched his attention to me. "How'd you know Tai was here?" he asked, scrunching his eyebrows a bit.

"Oh, Yoshi said he saw you two hugging. I'm really sorry if we walked in at the wrong time..." To my surprise, neither of them said anything. They both just turned bright red. Matt opened his mouth, but then closed it again. He absently started to scratch his head, which was a habit he had developed over the years whenever he got nervous. Tai averted his attention to his food and decided to stare intently at it.

Just then, Suto walked in. He looked like he was only half awake, but when he saw Akina and Yoshi, his eyes flew wide open. "Akina! Yoshi! Hi guys!"

"Hi Suto!" Yoshi and Akina greeted in unison. Yoshi quickly jumped out of Matt's lap. "Did you sleep in my bed?" he asked. Suto nodded a bit.

"Sorry I didn't ask you before," Suto said quietly and looked down at his feet.

"It's okay. I give you permission now. Come on, let's play!" Yoshi was still full of energy.

I looked back Matt and Tai. Both were busy munching, and both were careful not to make eye contact with anyone. I figured it was time to talk to them. If Tai wasn't feeling so bad, then what happened? Where'd he sleep last night? On the couch? In the guest room? On my bed? Next to Matt? I shook the thought out of my head. They probably slept together many times when they were kids, but times have changed. They wouldn't do that...right? Sure, Tai was gay. But Matt...well I can't really tell anymore.

"Kids, why don't you show Suto your new games?" I suggested getting them away from the kitchen. Almost immediately Yoshi zipped up the stairs, dragging Suto behind. Akina closely followed them.

"OK you two, what happened? Tai sure doesn't look sad," I stated bluntly. I knew it was rude to say this if Tai was sad. But I really didn't think so.

"Sora, aren't you supposed to be at Rafu's?" Matt asked, lifting an eyebrow.

I sighed. That's the first thing he says. "Yeah, well the kids really wanted to come home," I said.

"Rafu? Huh?" Tai asked. I guess he had no idea about my affair.

"The guy Sora has been having an affair with for who knows how many years," Matt quickly explained. He made it sound like it was just some annoying thing of little importance.

"Affair..." Tai echoed softly. His eyes met Matt's for a brief second. I don't know why, but something about their look made me think that it was more than just a simple glance.

"But Akina already knows about the divorce right?" Matt asked.

"Yeah. Wait, how'd you know?" I asked, surprised.

"Lucky guess. She seemed different today. But she really is mature for her age. How was her reaction?" Matt asked hesitantly.

"She's dealing with it. She said some really amazing things. Very unlike you. She seemed to understand, and she doesn't seem to mind too much. It seems like she thought about it for a long time." I recalled our conversation. Matt nodded a bit, thinking it over.

Just then, the doorbell rang. Great. Perfect timing. Here I was trying to interrogate Matt and Tai, but before I could even begin, someone interrupted.

"I'll get it," Matt said quickly. He got out his chair and walked to the door. I followed, but I stopped a couple feet behind him. I stood at an angle so that the person at the door wouldn't see me unless he peeked in. I soon found Tai standing a bit in front of me. Matt opened the door. TK.

"Hey Matt! Good news! I don't know if you heard or not but Tai's wedding is--Tai? Hi Tai! Matt! Look at you! You don't have to rush you know. I mean I know I said--"

"TK!" Matt cut him off. He was blushing a bit...which was odd. In the past couple of minutes, he had already blushed a couple of times. And he certainly is not one who blushes very often. He quickly pulled TK in.

"Oh Sora too! Ha. Ha. Ha. Hi Sora," he gave me a small wave. I arched an eyebrow. Good news? Rush? I looked over at Tai. He had that same puzzled expression on him. He seemed to have had that expression ever since I came in.

"Sora and I are getting a divorce," Matt informed TK. He looked at me.

"Oh," he said. There was a slight pause. "OOOOOOHHHHHHHHH! So Sora, how goes it with Rafu?" TK asked casually. I stared at him. What the heck? How'd he know?

"OK, hold up. What the heck is going on? First off, what's Matt rushing into? Second off, why does everyone know about Rafu but me?" Tai questioned, hands flailing about.

"Oh, then I guess..." TK started, looking at Matt. Matt groaned. "Um...nothing Tai... And as for the Rafu thing...I was the one who saw it."

"You?" I asked in shock. "Matt, you liar! You said you saw it with your own eyes!"

"Well you would deny it if I said otherwise," Matt shrugged. I stayed quiet. That was true. But Tai rose a good point. What was Matt rushing into? I repeated what TK said in my head. The good news is the cancellation of the wedding... TK said Matt was rushing into it...after he saw Tai.

"So it's true," I heard myself say. "You and Tai. You know I knew it all along. I mean, it was pretty obvious right? But I didn't want to admit it. I mean..." I just heard myself rambling along. I wasn't even really aware of what was happening. I just stood there in a daze, like a zombie talking away.

"Sora," Matt started. He took a step towards me. For some reason I instinctively took a step back. So it was true. It wasn't just some weird thought in my mind. And here I was acting shocked, but there really wasn't any reason to do so. So did Matt ever love me?

"Did you ever love me?" I asked seriously, looking into those soft blue eyes that had once taken my breath away.

"Sora, please don't," Matt pleaded.

"Did you?" I insisted. It seemed like the whole world only consisted of him and me now. I didn't bother to see how Tai was reacting.

"Of course I did! I must have. I mean, we were the item back then, remember? Surely I loved you..." Matt trailed off. He sounded like he was trying more to convince himself than to convince me.

"Matt," Tai said gently, laying a hand on Matt's shoulder.

Matt looked at Tai and gripped his hand. "Right?" Matt whispered to him.

"It's OK," Tai wooed, pulling Matt into an embrace. "You're right Sora. Me and Matt. But you know it's not just his fault. Look inside you. You hold the crest of love. You've known pretty much even before you two went out, right?"

I stared at him. He had changed from a somewhat clueless guy into a mature and logical one.

"I-I guess," I said uncertainly and looked down at my feet. I didn't feel sorrow, for I no longer loved Matt the way I used to. I didn't feel emptiness or loss, for I knew I had already lost Matt when I got myself into my affair with Rafu. I couldn't say that Tai's confirmation had any impact on me at all. It was just a simple statement of the truth, of something I saw a long time ago but refused to acknowledge.

"So since you two are getting a divorce, there really is no problem in this," Tai concluded. I nodded.

"Yeah," I said, this time more confidently. I looked into his eyes and nodded. I guess some things, like Matt and Tai, were simply meant to be.

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Forgive me if this chapter seems unrealistic or far-fetched... And sorry for the long delay, but at least it hasn't been half a year...heh heh... Anyways...next chapter will probably (hopefully) be the last one. My fic is dying anyways...T-T But YOU can keep it alive with your awesome (non-flaming) review! lol. This sounds like an ad for something, or like a recruitment. Hope this chapter wasn't too boring for you... Since you've already read it, complete the process by reviewing! It'll be greatly appreciated. Again, thanks for reading! Throw me any ideas for the next chapter if you want.