First off, let me start by thanking you guys for your patience and for continuing to follow my story. I'm deeply sorry this has taken so long. I know I've told you the story is already mostly written; I've just not had the time to edit. I had to stop because I had my boards which I now passed! Yay! So I'm back and I promise the chapters will keep coming until I catch up to my current one. My editor is also studying so has not had the time to chime in. But as long as you can excuse my grammatical mistakes and possibly some stuff that could have been written better, the chapters will keep coming until it is complete. :) THANK YOU! I welcome all your feedback always!

Chapter 35

Driving in the mountains

10:35 am

The next day Olivia and Amanda drove towards the cabin to meet Lucy and their children. Amanda had lowered the window as she took a deep breath.

"It's amazing out here."

"Yeah, it is. I'm glad we're staying for a few days."

"Fin's not." Amanda said amusedly. This was one of her surprises for Liv. She had spoken to Lucy and her mother asking if they could stay for 3 or 4 nights to decompress from their stressful case. She had to finally let her in on this part of her surprise because she didn't know what Liv would need to pack.

"Yeah, he really dislikes being in charge." Liv added.

"You getting tired of driving?"

"Nah, I'm fine."

"Honey, I'm pregnant, not broken. I've seen you readjust at least 5 times in the last half hour. Pull over at the next stop and let me drive for a bit."

Olivia smiled at Amanda's astuteness. She thought she was being careful yet Amanda caught her discomfort. The truth was, she was tired. The case had taken a huge toll and for some reason she still felt ill at ease. Amanda on the other hand, was light and airy. Happy and hopeful. Olivia wanted to take it all in but she couldn't help herself. She had that feeling one gets when they set off for a trip; akin to leaving the stove on but not quite that. The older woman couldn't place it.

Amanda not only took the wheel but she connected her phone to the CarPlay. Suddenly country music took over their radio as Amanda blissfully sang, "Country road, take me home…" Olivia couldn't help but chuckle.

"What? You got a problem with my music?" Amanda teased.

"No, I just didn't exactly grow up around country music."

"So what do you like? Just the classical stuff?" Amanda noted that Olivia mostly played classical music in the background whenever she went to her place.

Liv defended, "No, I listen to plenty of Disney tunes as well."

This earned her a hearty laugh. "No, really? I mean, I don't just listen to country. Mostly when I'm really happy or really sad."

"Isn't that what most country, folky songs are? The dog died, I lost my job, my girl left me…or I'm so in love, I love my babies, I found Jesus." Olivia continued her teasing rant.

"That just about sums them up." Amanda smiled back as she carefully scrolled through her phone.

"I'm just messing with you, Amanda. I like Broadway music and of course, you know I enjoy classical. I really like old jazz too. Like Ella Fitzgerald, Billie Holiday, Louie Armstrong…"

"I love all those too. I can put some on now if you'd like?"

"Nah it's okay. We can listen to some country for awhile."

"Well…if you insist and if you don't mind, I'd like to play one of those old, folky songs." Amanda took a moment of pause. "I makes me think of you." Amanda reached out and held her hand.

Liv kissed it gently, "Oh yeah?"

"John Denver wrote it for his wife, after they got into a fight, but that's besides the point."

"Are you saying it reminds you of us because we are always fighting?" Olivia gave her that look Amanda could feel burning into the side of her head.

"No, fool. We're not always fight'n anymore. Listen to the damn words won't ya." Amanda sometimes went full Georgia. Olivia absolutely loved it.

The pleasant tune started and Olivia sat back, allowing herself to sink into her seat and relax.

"You fill up my senses, like night in a forest. Like the mountains in spring time, like a walk in the rain. Like a storm in the desert. Like a sleepy blue ocean. You fill up my senses, come fill me again. Come let me love you. Let me give my life to you. Let me drown in your laughter. Let me die in your arms. Let me lay down beside you. Let me always be with you. Come let me love you. Come love me again…"

Olivia was touched. The lyrics were beautiful and the melody evoked an incredible tenderness. She chanced a glance at Amanda who had watery eyes. She squeezed her hand a little tighter.

"I love it."

Amanda's lip quivered. Olivia could tell she was trying to hold back her emotions.

When the song ended Amanda proclaimed, "I didn't write it but I meant every word." She smiled at Liv.

"That's beautiful, Amanda. Thank you for loving me so completely." Olivia was serious. She remembers being a young girl and having boys dedicate corny songs to her. But this was different. This was so much deeper.

They played with each other's hands and shared as many tender touches as driving up a mountain would allow until Liv dozed off.

After another hour Amanda pulled into the cabin. The fact that Olivia drifted off was a rare sight. The older woman seldom fell asleep in car rides. It was a testament to her trust in Amanda and also her level of exhaustion from the previous weeks.

"Baby, we're here." Amanda whispered as she gently rubbed her cheek.

"Oh wow. I'm sorry. I can't believe I fell asleep."

"Nothin to be sorry about."

As they got out of the car an excited Noah came running from the cabin with Jessie following close behind.

"Mommy!"

"Noah!" He leaped into Liv's arms as Jessie did the same with Amanda.

Their children showered them with hugs and kisses. Then traded women as soon as they were satisfied giving each of their mothers a giant hug.

"Aunt Manda! You're finally here." He hoped as he dove into the blonde woman's arms. Amanda lifted him as she made her way inside.

Jessie was already in Liv's arms showering her with raspberries and kisses saying, "I miss you. You miss me?"

"Oh I missed you and Noah so much baby girl!" Liv responded.

Frannie was excitedly jumping from person to person. Both women leaned down to great and fluff her fur.

"I didn't forget the furry one this time," Liv states as she pulls out a new toy for her. Frannie barked and ran after the toy Liv threw for her to fetch.

"I can see that." Amanda seductively said as she wrapped her arm around Liv's waist and kissed her cheek.

"My mom left this morning and I kinda told Rita it was ok for her to come and get me? That way you all can meet." Lucy shyly smiled.

"That's a great idea. She should stay and we can have lunch together."

"Thanks, Liv. After lunch we gotta go though. She has class tomorrow and I have that project to turn in."

Olivia and Amanda draw close, "Lucy, we cannot thank you enough for everything you've done for us."

"It's my pleasure guys. Really. I love your kids and it gives me practice for hopefully the future."

Lucy's father had been chief of police. Liv had trained under him and they'd always held each other in the highest of regard. Lucy's mom, Estelle, was always around the station in Olivia's earlier days and she was like a station mom to everyone. Unfortunately, Lucy's father had passed away a few years ago. When she was looking for a sitter there was no one she trusted more than this girl she'd seen grow up. Lucy was already studying early childhood development and already knew she would move towards child psychology and behavior. The cabin was her father's retirement place. Lucy and her mother frequented it whenever they could. Now it had been used twice to protect both Jessie and Noah. Olivia would forever be grateful to their family.

"Why did Estelle leave so early?" Liv assumed she'd be waiting for them to say hello.

Lucy tipped her head to the left; a gesture suggesting they talk in the kitchen. Amanda was off playing with the kids and Frannie.

"She doesn't know about me." Lucy quietly explained.

"Oh."

"Yeah." Lucy looked down at her feet.

"Well, honey your mom is a very kind woman. She's never come across as prejudicial nor homophobic. Am I wrong about that?"

"No. You're not." Lucy admitted.

"Does she know about Amanda and I?"

"No, no! I would never say anything unless you say so. It seemed to me you were both keeping it a secret."

"I appreciate that. I have no problem with your mom knowing. It's just a risky situation for us because I am Amanda's boss. I know it's inappropriate of me but we are both consenting adults and I don't regret it. I just can't risk anyone finding out at work before we are ready to figure out how exactly this will impact our jobs."

"I completely understand."

"But with that said. It's only because of work really, that we are being careful. I think your mom will surprise you. If you'd like…why don't you invite your mom to have lunch with us later? I trust her to keep our secret and you can see how she reacts?"

Lucy lit up like a Christmas tree, "You'd do that for me?"

"It's the least we could do after you've cared for our children. Is she far?" Liv inquired.

"No, she left this morning for my aunt's. She's only about 20 minutes away."

"Ok then, let her know. Besides, if she's not letting us pay you guys for the cabin the least we can do is buy you lunch."

"You're only staying 3 days. She'd never dream of it. She says you've had a hard enough time having to send your kids away."

Liv looked at her gratefully. "Go work on your project. I'm gonna go talk to Amanda and the kids."

Liv approached them as Noah was signing away with Amanda and Jessie. Both women had spoken about the children on the car ride and they'd agreed to talk to them.

"Who wants to play outside?" Olivia asked as an excited Jessie and Noah went to get their ball and meet them in the back.

"So…are we having that talk?" Amanda asked.

"Yeah, we are and we need to do a favor for Lucy." Olivia filled her in as they strolled outside watching the kids toss the ball. Amanda immediately agreed to help their nanny.

"Should we butter them up with presents before we say anything?" Liv was hesitant.

"Honey, I think we are the present. But I understand if you wanna give it more time."

"No, I don't." Liv replied.

"I'll go get their surprises anyway." Amanda had two boxes with her and she set them aside on the porch. "It's lovely here."

"Yeah, it is. The last time we didn't get to see it."

The children came running over as Amanda handed them juice boxes, "Noah, Jessie, come sit with us for a minute."

Amanda continued, "You guys know how we've been spending time together?"

"Yeah." Noah responded between slurps. Amanda gave Liv an expectant look; urging her silently to chime in.

Olivia sat him on her lap and kissed his head, "Do you like it when we all spend time together?"

"I love it, mommy. I want to do it for always!" Noah enthusiastically replied.

Amanda followed suit by picking Jessie up.

"Well, we've both been talkin and we thought it may be a good idea to all continue to live together, in a bigger place. What'a'ya think Jessie? Noah?" Amanda hopefully asked.

"Yee! I want to lib with Noya, and you and you and you." Jessie happily pointed to Amanda and Liv and then Frannie.

Noah's smile was from ear to ear. He was beaming. "Like a family?"

Olivia felt her heart melt yet again, "Yes, sweet boy. We are a family. We've always been."

"For real Aunt Manda? Mommy? We can stay together?" He was ecstatic.

They couldn't help but laugh at his enthusiasm, "That's right."

He jumped off Liv's lap, "I told you Jessie! I told you we could do it!" He whispered to her.

"Noah, what are you talking about?" Olivia was laughing but very curious.

Jessie squeezed Amanda's cheeks together, puckering Amanda's lips, "You kissy poo, kissy poo." She giggled uncontrollably.

"Noah?" Liv warned.

"We saw you kissing and I told Jessie we were gonna live together. Because thats what happens when grownups kiss, you are in love and we make a family like the Brady Bunch."

Amanda cocks her head, "You watch the Brady Bunch?"

Olivia turns to Amanda wide-eyed, "That's what you got from that?"

Noah continued, "Ah huh." He stated very matter of factly responding to Amanda. "And my friend Sally, at school, she has two mommies too. She never has to go alone on field trips." He smiled brightly.

Both women were stunned. Their plan was to ease them into moving in together but here were the kids…fully aware of their relationship.

"Noah, you're right. Manda and I are in love. How do you feel about that?" Olivia was still trying to be delicate with her son. He was older and never had she introduced him to someone as her partner. He was too young to understand what was happening when she dated Tucker.

"I'm happy because I love my Manda too. And I love Jessie and Franny. And I love it when we are all together. It's my favorite."

Jessie chimed in, "Me tew. Tewgeter Mommies."

"Awww. Honey." Amanda was getting emotional as she kissed Jessie's cheek.

Noah was suddenly serious, "Just as long as we get to be together and live together and I can be like Sally when we have a field trip."

"Yes, baby we are definitely moving in together." Olivia responded.

"Promise?" He was still serious. Although Olivia thought this part was referencing more the field trip. She had only missed one small trip to the library but he'd been crushed.

Amanda kneeled and hugged him, "We promise, sweetheart."

He smiled again from ear to ear and hugged Amanda, "Teacher says we have a field trip to the museum. Can we all go together?"

"Oh honey, I'm not sure Jessie will be allowed because she's not in your class but your mom and I will definitely try to both be there. Or if one of us works the other will go with you. Is that okay?"

"Yes!"

"Well then it's settled." Amanda stood up as they all made their way inside.

"Where are we gonna live?" Noah inquired.

"We're still working on that. And guys," Olivia drew them close. "Remember, for now, this is our little secret."

Jessie got really close as she whispered, "Why secret?"

Olivia didn't know what to say. She didn't want to start her life with Amanda and the kids under the shadow of shame. But she also couldn't risk one of them slipping to a coworker and causing trouble for them. As it was, navigating their living situation would be interesting. Olivia already thought on how they could justify living together if anyone on the payroll or health plan noticed.

Luckily Amanda came down to her level to justify this secret, "Because baby we are getting a new place, a new house and we want to surprise everyone. So for now it has to be a secret ok?"

Jessie giggled like she was in the heist of her life, "Ok, Momma." She kissed Amanda's cheek, "lub you." Then she turned to Olivia and did the same, "Lub you."

"They didn't even ask for their surprise." Olivia acknowledged.

"I told you. It might be presumptuous to say but I think all of us living together was gift enough for them."

"I have to admit I think you are right."

"Of course I am right." Amanda gave her a flirty grin as she leaned forward and placed a chaste but loving kiss on her lips.

"Ewww." Both kids were suddenly standing there giggling and holding they're eyes shut.

"Ok, you little rascals lets finish our homework so we can enjoy lunch in peace." Amanda took off with them.

An hour and a half later when Rita and Estelle arrived, they decided to drive to a nice, cozy mountain lodge that had amazing views and great food.

"Wow." The kids were amazed by the high ceilings and giant stone fireplace.

Jessie suddenly stopped, noticing a taxidermic deer head over the mantle, "Momma, is that Bambi?"

"No, baby no. It's fake." Amanda tried to usher her along but Jessie was unmoving.

"What fake?" Jessie looked terrified as her little eyes began to water and her lip curled up into a pout.

Liv saw what was happening and luckily Noah was too distracted by the mountain view to have noticed. She realized Amanda was struggling.

Olivia came over, winked at Amanda and scooped her up, "It's like a stuffed animal. Look Jessie did you see the fishies?" Olivia practically ran over to the saltwater fish in the large tank.

"Bambi's ok?" She wiped away at her tears.

"Bambi is in the forest right now with all his friends and family. Did you see?" She pointed excitedly to the fish. "Who's that?"

"Nemo!" She squealed at the first clown fish she saw.

Amanda was overwhelmed with affection for Olivia. She couldn't have dreamed this up better. Not thinking, she came over with Noah by the hand and leaned into Liv's shoulder, first placing a kiss on her cheek and thanking her for distracting Jessie.

Estelle, who had just arrived, noticed the action as she stared at them from afar with affection. She leaned over to Lucy, "They make a nice couple."

Lucy jumped up startled, "Mom!"

"Hi, honey."

Lucy couldn't help but ask, "You knew?"

"Well, come on honey it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that out."

"Yeah, but I think it's recent mom."

"Maybe so but you can almost see these things coming. The way they always look at one another. And the way Olivia was always bustin Amanda's chops. I wondered when in the hell they were just gonna f…"

"Mom!" Lucy reprimanded her mother and felt embarrassed for both of them.

"Christ Luce, I was gonna say forget the drama and be together."

Lucy bashfully stared at her feet smiling, "No, you weren't."

Estelle smiled as they all sat down at the table. Rita barely said a peep. The tall, thin, and tan brunette appeared incredibly awkward and nervous. She was a pretty girl with her long dark hair and almost looked like she had crossed over from the 60's. Amanda could see why Lucy liked her.

"So," Estelle began directing the conversation at Liv and Amanda, "You two finally stopped pretending to just be friends?"

Olivia and Amanda were stunned but laughing nervously.

Lucy mouthed off apologetically, "She knows."

Noah jumped up, "Knows what?"

"I mean I know how you all like to play the roommate game but you ain't foolin nobody." She side glanced her daughter.

Noah was all too forthcoming, "This is my family. We live together." He said with a big smile.

Jessie giggled and swung her legs reaching for Liv and Amanda's hands, "My mommies."

As touched as they were with how quickly the children had accepted everything wholeheartedly; it dawned on them how there was no way in hell they would keep their secret.

Estelle continued to side glance her daughter. Olivia soon realized her comment had nothing to do with her and Amanda but for Estelle's sake she would play. "Yeah, well we never got the chance to pretend to be just roommates. Although I'm sure that's coming. Because of work, of course. Just not with you, Estelle."

"Well, I for one am extremely happy for both of you and these kids." She ruffled Noah's hair. "But I am especially happy Amanda, Olivia, that you both feel comfortable enough to be honest with me." She was looking straight at her daughter. "I only want to see you happy."

Rita kept sinking into her chair as if the ground would soon swallow her.

"I guess some people consider me a kind and open person. I, myself, have always seen myself as extremely understanding and considerate." Estelle continued. Amanda wished she could have a drink so badly.

"Mom." Lucy whined.

"But I suppose not everyone feels comfortable with me. Ain't that right, Rita?"

"Mom!"

"What?" Estelle was holding back a smile.

"Mom…"

She put her arm over her daughter, "Oh honey I know. Course, I know."

Olivia put down her napkin, "Told you," She directed to Lucy.

"Lucy, I love you no matter what. Rita, I love you too honey. Did you actually think I wouldn't accept you? Or did you think me so dumb I wouldn't notice? You trying to use these two as a divergent." She cackled.

Amanda began to stand, "I think we should give you guys some privacy."

"You will do no such thing, Amanda Rollins. Thanks to you two my daughter is finally being open with me."

"I'm sorry Mrs. Becket." Rita shyly apologized.

"No, honey there is nothing to apologize for. I'm the one that owes you both an apology if you thought you couldn't tell me."

"Jeez, I hope my momma's as understanding." Amanda muttered under her breath.

After all the awkward confessions the lunch turned out to be a fun and enjoyable time with much laughter for everyone.

After they ate Estelle asked the waiter to bring a bottle of wine to celebrate.

Olivia could feel Amanda shift nervously and mutter under her breath, "oh oh."

Amanda didn't mind the women learning of her pregnancy. But they hadn't revealed this last bit to the kids. They wanted to tell them but both felt the news of living together was big enough. They wanted to take baby steps with them, so to speak, except the children were way ahead of them as they had already been aware of their romantic relationship.

When Estelle insisted Amanda take a sip she thought quick on her feet, "I'm on antibiotics."

But Estelle was nothing if not persistent. Liv had forgotten just how tenacious she could be, "Oh come on honey one little glass won't harm you any. It's a day of celebration! You two caught your bad guy, you're in love and my daughter and her girlfriend finally came out to me."

"That's ok. I really shouldn't risk it." Amanda was hoping she would drop it.

"Amanda Rollins I've never seen you turn down a drink except when you were pregnant with Jessie. It's not like your pregnant now." Both Olivia and Amanda froze.

Rita, Lucy and Estelle froze as well.

Amanda mimed quietly as she pointed to the children, "They don't know."

"I'm so sorry! No, I'm not! This is wonderful!" The three women stood up and congratulated the women as they hugged and became emotional.

"What's going on? Why are you hugging?" Noah looked incredibly confused.

"Manda and I will tell you later. Keep coloring that dinosaur. It's so pretty." Olivia had become a master at redirection.

Estelle jokingly directed at Olivia, "Jeez, you don't waste any time do you?"

Olivia rolled her eyes. As Lucy once again chastised her mother, "Mom!"

By the time they all arrived back at the cabin Olivia offered once more to pay for their extended stay but Estelle would hear nothing of it. Especially now that she knew they had 'a little one coming.' "Save your money!" She cautioned them as if she was their mother.

Lucy and Rita both crushed Olivia and Amanda into a huge bear hug. By six pm they were finally alone, just the four of them and Frannie.

After a light dinner Liv and Amanda were able to give the kids their surprise. Amanda had gotten Noah a Maui pajama set and Jessie a Moana one.

Both kids had never been so excited to get to bed.

"So the secret to getting them to sleep is Disney pajamas. I may go bankrupt but I'll buy them a new character every week." Olivia exclaimed.

Once the kids were finally sleeping, the night was young so the women wrapped themselves in a full blanket and sat outside together overlooking the beautiful mountain stars. Amanda leaned against Olivia's chest and she'd never felt cozier.

"Mmm, is this really real?" The blonde sighed.

"It better be. Because if it's not I'll gladly stay in this fantasy with you forever."

"Forever huh?" Amanda glanced back, kissing Olivia languidly on the lips.

"I have a surprise for you." Olivia pulled out a tiny wrapped box with a blue ribbon and handed it to the blonde. For a moment Amanda hesitated. "Don't worry it's not that kind of surprise."

"I'm not worried." Amanda firmly stated.

"Really?" Now, Olivia was surprised.

"Let's see? We're living together and having a baby. I can't think of anything else left to dream of. When you're ready, of course."

"Note taken." Olivia nodded her head in realization and acknowledgment. This was the most real relationship she had ever had. She had always been such a cautious human being. She couldn't believe the sentiment she felt and level of certainty with Amanda. She wasn't proposing by any means but now she knew Amanda wanted it. She wanted it as well but she needed more time. It was a lot and it was a lot very quickly. She needed one aspect of their relationship to move at a normal pace. Even though her heart fluttered at the very notion of marrying Amanda.

"Open it." She insisted.

"I have a surprise for you too, you know. But that one's inside." She explained as she carefully opened her box. Inside was a delicately beautiful, rose gold bracelet. There was a tiny A and and O on the clasp but what made her catch her breath was the singular, tiny, rose gold duck charm that adorned the bracelet. "Oh Liv."

"Do you like it?"

Amanda turned around and crushed her lips to hers. "Like it? I love it." She immediately put it on. "Now, I know where at least one duck went." She laughed.

"Not all of them flew away with the lake." Liv chuckled.

Amanda became very emotional.

"Oh honey, I was trying to give you a gift that meant something but also make you smile. I didn't mean to upset…" Olivia tried to explain.

"I know. I'm never taking this off." Amanda regarded that bracelet as a promise. Whether Olivia intended it that way or not that's how she felt about it. "Olivia Benson, you are a romantic."

Olivia kissed her and nuzzled her nose into her hair, "If you tell anyone I'll deny it."

Amanda laughed as she explained, "Your gift is inside and it's romantic too but not like this." Amanda's gaze shifted. In an instant she turned sultry, "I don't know if you're up for it though."

"Oh, is that so? Let's go inside and find out."

The master bedroom was beautiful. The mahogany walls made it cozy with it's large windows offering the best views of the mountains. It had it's own fireplace which Amanda readily began to start.

"Just gimme a few minutes to get this going." Amanda quickly sped.

"I'm gonna go jump in the shower." Olivia said over her shoulder.

The temperature was getting cold. After Amanda finished her task she went to the living room to stoke and prepare the other fire. She checked on the kids and they were nice and toasty with Frannie snuggling up to them. She then went to her secret hiding spot in the hallway closet and finished laying out the room as she'd planned.

Amanda heard Olivia finishing before going into the kid's room so she decided to quickly jump in the guest bathroom and take a 5 minute shower to not keep Liv waiting.

When Liv entered the room, her breath stilled. There were flickering candles on the nightstands and dresser. Red roses in beautiful bouquets in three different places. The lights had been dimmed.

Olivia decided she would give Amanda as equal a treat.

When the blonde walked in, Olivia was laying on top of the covers with a black lingerie that made her impossibly sexy. The firelight reflected off of her tantalizing cleavage.

Amanda herself entered wearing a sultry baby blue negligee that left little to the imagination while holding a bottle of wine and a glass for Liv. "Wow." Her eyes bugged out of her head.

"Wow yourself, Amanda." Olivia sat up as Amanda went for the nightstand; pouring Olivia a glass. The brunette sat up as she ran her hand up the back of Amanda's thigh, stopping to rub her ass appreciatively. "I love my surprise." She smiled at her.

Amanda handed her the glass as she sat beside her. Olivia took a sip and before she finished swallowing Amanda kissed her, tasting the wine on her lips.

"Mmm. Too bad I can't have any." The blonde teased, "But baby, this isn't your surprise."

Olivia placed her glass down as she continued to kiss and caress Amanda, "Oh no?"

Both women were extremely turned on. Tonight was a celebration so Amanda wanted to make things perfect, suddenly feeling unsure of her next move.

"Well, where is it?" Olivia's curiosity was getting the better of her.

Amanda stood up and went to her suitcase, pulling out a small box. "Listen, I may have gotten a little overexcited. I don't want to you think that we need this by any means. Nor do we have to use it. I just thought maybe…I dunno…"

"Amanda, I'm sure I'm going to love it."

Amanda was incredibly shy all of a sudden as Liv opened the box and her eyes went wider than Amanda had ever seen.

"It's open because I cleaned and antibacterial'd everything. But honestly, I'm sorry, this is probably too much, too soon and I swear I don't need it and…" Amanda was on a rant.

Olivia got up on her knees and held her face between her hands, crushing her lips to hers, invading her mouth readily with her tongue. When Olivia pulled back Amanda let out a small moan and felt herself lightheaded.

"Amanda?"

"Yeah?" She timidly whispered.

"Are you scared or having buyers remorse?"

"I'm nervous." She smiled and cast her eyes down.

"Do I make you nervous?"

Amanda thought about this for a moment, "No, not anymore." She rubbed Liv's thighs reassuringly.

"Then whats wrong honey?" Olivia felt somewhat amused anytime she frazzled the younger woman. "Is the idea of this scary to you? Because Sweetie, we don't have to do anything, ever, that you don't want to do."

"No, that's not it. I'm just… I guess I feel nervous of how'd you'd react; that I'm putting too much on you too fast."

"But your not afraid of this?" Olivia signaled with her head down to the present, "Or what we could do with it?"

Amanda smiled shyly, "No. I bought it, didn't I?"

"Have you ever?"

"No." Her blue eyes were shiny and full of hope.

"Ok then." Olivia stood up, took the present and walked away to the restroom.

Amanda was baffled. She sat back on her knees wondering if Liv went to put it away or perhaps throw away the gift?

When Olivia walked out Amanda was too fixated on her face to notice anything out of the blue.

"Liv?"

Olivia came down to the bed, pulling Amanda by the waist as she stretched out on top of her. It was then that Amanda felt the protruding object.

Olivia kissed her as she softly spoke, "I'm glad you're okay with this because I plan to fuck you until you forget your own name, Rollins."

Amanda was speechless. Olivia was feathering kisses around her face as she innocently asked, "Is that ok with you?"

Olivia was now on her neck, gooseflesh covering Amanda's skin from the sensations.

"You gonna make me beg this time, Liv?"

"You're gonna beg me never to stop."