Chapter Nine - Think It Through

I think being single for to long starts to drive you insane because , I'm not being mean he's a great mate, I went out with one of the guys I hang around with called Seb. Nice guy, really sweet, but kind of geek. But I was so gob-smacked that he asked me out that I instantly said yes. I really should of though it through because like most of my relationships it ended up down the toilet. After the dancing competition, that me a Gemma didn't' win but got through to the second round in, was over it struck me I didn't really have feeling for Seb. I couldn't have chosen a worse day to realise this coz this was the day after my 13th birthday party and he had bought me a 'Happy Birthday to a Special Girlfriend' Card. So I couldn't dump him myself now, I couldn't anyway, but this made it worse, so I got my mate Amber, who asked me out for Seb, to do it.

Well….today was weird, it started at lunch. Adam came up put his arms around my waist and said "Oh, that's nice" then ran off. I was very grossed out. Then he can up and SLAPPED MY ASS. I was like OWWWW! Then I told Gemma and Ashleigh that I have feelings for Adam coz I do. He found out and then our mates asked each other out for each other. I don't know what happened it was kind of weird.

I hate boys….Adam dumped me today and guess why… people are saying it is because I supposedly have a flat chest! Now I'm really self-confident about that.

Tom is a idiot, a mean idiot, Adam had this idea to go to Sasha when Jason was there and go on one knee, grab her hand, kiss it and tell her he loves her, all this coz he fancies her. But then he backed out and Tom had a major go at him then at Gemma for telling me the plan and then Gemma got really upset and so did I and coz I was mad I told Ally & Francesca. Now Adam hates me. That's bad coz I really like him. I always will and will do anything for him!

Ok, I've now so over Adam. It's so funny how emotions work, now I really like this other boy and as my friends Eric said ' You can't choose who you fancy, you just do,' and he's right you can't choose it just happens.