mientosz : Hoping that she would be less cold toward Callie after this .

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waterproof88 : Hope you will find the next one and the other next would be as great as chapter 4 . Tq .

Lena : Seems like Barbara is desperate to find someone for Az . Maybe that is why she is less awkward .

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bluesky25 : Sorry about that and thanks for correcting me ! I got mixed up with the names as I already started writing this chapter while writing chapter 4 . The chemistry is there deep down somewhere but if only Arizona could let down her ego , a bit .

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Helena : Because you are amazing and always commented in your own language , I'm gonna reply your review using your language too . Warning : Sorry if it is bad . This is a direct English to Portuguese translate (brought to you by the help of google translate :D)
Obrigado por seus comentários. Eles me fizeram sorrir. Esperançosamente o passado de Arizona não assustaria Callie afastado .


Author's Note : Let me start first with an apology . This chapter is hard to write down , and I am not sure the medical stuff of this chapter is correct or not . But hey , I guess , at least I tried . Any reviews or suggestion or even a correction would be appreciated . If you saw any mistake (especially with the mixed up name error) , please don't feel hesitate to tell me . Sometimes , I missed it out and made mistakes .

And as for Guest and other readers that asked for quick and frequent update .. For now I could only update this story once a week (I usually update this story on my day off) . My job can be tiring sometimes , especially it is now school break in my country (I work in a cinema , so school holidays means overtime for people like us , hahaha) And writing a story on a smartphone is not really comfortable and smooth lol . But gotta be thankful to my smartphone , though , at least it still could generate a new chapter . Haha xD Hope you all have a great weekend + xmas holiday ! Thank you for the reviews / follows / favourites and for reading this . Enjoy !

P/S : Major flashback coming in inside of this chapter .


Malone's

Arizona slid in her phone inside the pocket of her dark brown jacket right after she turned it off . She pushed the front door of Malone's . It was a bar not far from her house , so she didn't have to drive to reached the place . And she knew the chances that she would go home later by driving was thin .

Because tonight she was planning to get herself drunk at this bar . A bar owned by Tim and Arizona's childhood friend , Nick Malone .

"Phoenix !"

Arizona was soon greeted by a dark brown haired man . It was no one else but Nick . He was grinning , happy to saw his childhood best friend . "Long time no see ."

Arizona smiled as she took her seat on the bar stool in front of Nick . "Been busy with work . But you know , mandatory family dinner every time Tim came back from the field . And The Colonel would have me slain if I miss it ."

"It is great to see you again after a very long time . Tim came here this morning and I was waiting for you to pop out behind his back !" Nick said as he served two glass of beer to Arizona and himself . "Cheers to , Tuscon ."

"Yeah , I was still in the plane on that time . My flight landed late in the afternoon . Cheers !" She chugged down the beer with one gulp .

"Woah , are you okay ?" Nick asked , worried with Arizona seemed to be distracted behaviour . This morning , Tim said that Arizona was seeing someone and she was very happy with her life . Tim also said to him that he couldn't wait to see Arizona's new girlfriend .

"I will be . How's your prosthetic ? Is this one okay with you ?" Arizona asked with a concern voice . The last time they met , Nick complained that the old prosthetic was making his leg hurt when he stood up for too long .

Nick lost one of his leg to an IED blast in Iraq , seven years ago . The device practically blasted him into the air . Miraculously , he was still alive when his team , including Tim found him . He was treated by army surgeons in the camp and when they could finally stabilized him , he was immediately sent back for further treatments and surgeries . Including that one surgery , one of the toughest decision Nick had to make in his life - the amputation of his leg .

"He's doing great . Ain't that right , buddy ?" Nick said jokingly as his eyes looking at the prosthetic leg . "Finally , they found a suitable prosthetic for me ."

Arizona smiled . She knew that even when he was in the hard time , Nick never gave up . Unlike her , when things got hard she would usually bailed . Gave up . "Can you get me another glass ?"

"Sure . Tim told me that you are dating again . Is that true ?"

Arizona just nodded , not really up to talking about her fake girlfriend that she just introduced to her family today . It wasn't an exciting topic . After all , Callie was only pretending to be her girlfriend .

"Then why are you drinking alone here ?" He put down another glass in front of the quiet blonde . Arizona quickly grabbed it .

"I will take that as a sign that you don't want to answer that question ." Nick shrugged .

All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die a happy man I'm sure

A slow rock song was playing in the bar right now as Arizona buried herself into a pensive mood . Other customers inside the bar were having a good time , they were laughing with each other but not Arizona .

A few seconds after that , she was lost in the deep thought that she usually had at night when she was all alone in her bedroom .

"Okay … We are almost done here , Dr. Karev ." Arizona showed off her signature dimpled smile .

Alex looked up for a few seconds , he cringed when he saw the very excited blonde in front of her . They had been in the OR together for almost ten hours . And he haven't had an opportunity to take a quick shower in the last twenty four hours . His body felt sticky .

"Imagine this kid . After a few weeks , he could run again without worrying himself of having a shortness of breath . How amazing is that ?" Arizona added again in her extra cheerful voice .

"Yeah , whatever ."

"Oh , come on Alex . Cheer up a bit ." Arizona was annoyed by the reaction that Alex gave to her . She was in a happy mood and talking to him was only making her depressed . "Look at me , I haven't seen my wife for almost two days now and I am still standing here ."

"The only thing that would make me happy right now is a cold fresh water running on my body ." Alex moved his neck to the left and right side , followed by a cracking sound .

"Whining !" Arizona exclaimed .

The nurse handed Arizona one of the surgical instrument . She was about to do the suture but stopped when she looked up and took a quick glance at the clock hanging on the wall . It was already 22:15hrs . "Crap !"

The boredom on Alex's face quickly disappeared as he turned into a panic mood . "What ? What happened ?" He looked into the kid's chest , searching for any abnormality .

"No , not the patient . It's my seventh wedding anniversary today . I am supposed to be at home now with Joanne . She promised me tonight would be the night full of …" She looked around before continued , whispering . "Dirty sex ."

Alex was grinning from ear to ear by now . He was giving Arizona his pervy look .

"I remembered about it actually but totally forgot when I got into this OR . Never thought the surgery would be this long ." Arizona shook her head . "Can somebody check my phone and see if my wife did call me ?"

"Yes , she called you . It went into the voicemail ." One of the extra nurses answered two minutes after that .

"That doesn't sound good ." Alex suddenly interjected . Alex was one of the few person that knew about Arizona and Joanne's marriage problem . The lovebirds were having a hard time , especially with Arizona almost every night got pulled into the surgeries . That is what you get when you are married to a surgeon .

"Damn , why did I put my phone in a silent mode ?" Those words slipped out of her mouth but then she remembered that she put it in a silent mode because she was taking a short nap before this surgery . "Colleen , could you open the voicemail on loudspeaker for me ?"

"Sure , Dr. Robbins ."

Honey , are you operating right now ? I wanted to tell you that I am coming to the hospital . And Aiden is coming too along with a box of pizza from the shop that you love . I tried to put him down to sleep , but he wants his mommy . Maybe we will go home together and if you could put our spoiled little boy to sleep , we would have our hot and steamy night full of dirty , dirty sex … All night long .

Joanne chuckled before continued . We will see you soon , honey . Love yaaa !

Alex was giggling like an idiot under the mask . While all the other nurses just smiled .

"I am sorry that you all had to hear that … sexy voicemail my wife just sent ." Arizona look at them , a little bit embarrassed . She looked deep into the patient's chest , forgot what she wanted to do just now .

"The couple therapy totally worked , huh ?" Alex raised his eyebrows .

"Surprisingly , it worked for us . At first , I was against the idea of telling a stranger our problem but now I had to thank the stranger ."

"Good for you . It never worked for me and Izzie ." Alex answered , referring to his crumbled marriage .

Arizona was surprised that Alex even mentioned to her about his marriage with Izzie Stevens . That man rarely talked to her or anyone else about this . "I think couple therapy helps … but only if both of them walk into the room and determined to make it work ."

"Yeah , my marriage with Izzie was long gone when she walked away and left Seattle . When she came back , I felt nothing ." Alex mumbled under the mask . "The couple therapy was only to make sure we were over and nothing else could be done ."

"Dr. Robbins , someone is calling your cell phone ." A nurse suddenly interjected as the phone

"Ahh , it must be her . Answer it for me , please . Tell her I am almost done ." Arizona's face lit up , happy . "And put it on loudspeaker . I want to hear her voice ."

"Hello , Dr. Robbins's phone . She is still in the surgery ." The nurse answered .

"I … I need to speak to Dr. Robbins ." The person on the other line said . Her voice was shaking . Arizona raised her eyebrows . That wasn't her wife's voice .

Alex immediately turned around with his puzzled face . "Jo , is that you ? You are on a loudspeaker , speak . Robbins is here too ."

"Dr. Robbins , your wife and your son came into the ER !"

"Yeah , she told me they were coming here so that we could go home together . Tell her that …"

"No , Dr. Robbins … I am sorry that I have to tell you this . Your wife and your son … They got hit by a car when they were crossing the main road in front of the hospital ."

Arizona's face quickly changed . She was looking at Alex but no words came out from her mouth .

"They took your wife to the surgery . Dr. Yang , Dr. Grey , and Dr. Kepner , they are all working together to save your wife ." Jo added . "And Dr. Shepherd too ."

That was way too many doctors from many departments in one operating room , Arizona knew that it was bad . It could only mean one thing , that her wife's injuries was very serious . "And .. How about Aiden ?" Arizona's voice finally broke .

"He's still in the ER ."

Alex looked at his mentor . He should finished up the surgery as he knew Arizona's mind wasn't in this freaking room anymore . "You should run down to the ER . Aiden is still there ."

"B…b..but .." Arizona couldn't move . Alex slowly took the surgical instrument from the hands of the blonde in front of him .

"You said it yourself that we are almost done . It just a suture . I can do it . Besides , I am your fellow now . I'm not your resident anymore ." Alex said . "Deep down in your heart , you knew where you should be right now ."

Arizona wasn't moving . Maybe she's still couldn't believe it . She just stared emptily into her patient's chest .

"Freaking go , Robbins !" Alex yelled , making Arizona slightly jumped from her place .

Arizona was looking at Alex by now . She slowly nodded her head before she finally stepped away from the table .

"My family …" She whispered to herself as she took off the gown .


April grabbed a trauma gown before she joined Owen and Meredith at the ambulance waiting area . The ambulance stopped right in front of them as the driver turned off the siren .

"What do we have ?" Dr. Owen Hunt asked as the paramedic opened the back door of the ambulance . "Miss , can you hear me ?" He tried to get a response from the woman .

"Car vs Pedestrian . 32 years old female , Joanne Sullivan . Multiple injuries in head , chest and abdomen . Abdomen is rigid . We suspect an abdominal internal bleeding . Half off her face got torn off ." The paramedic slowly lifted the bandage that was covering the woman's crushed face . "She was conscious when we found her but then lost it in the ambulance . The driver ran away from the scene . Witness said there were two cars , racing in front of the hospital ."

All of the doctors looked at each other . "Sons of bitches !" Dr. Meredith Grey could only shook her head .

"Her name sounded familiar ." Dr. April Kepner said as she took a thorough look on the patient , blocking the way .

"Kepner , we need to move . Fast !" Owen reminded the redhead .

"Page Dr. Shepherd . He needs to burr a hole to relieve the pressure inside the brain ." Meredith said as they moved the patient inside the trauma room .

"I don't think we have time for that . I am more worried about the injuries inside her body . She could bleed out anytime . Her body is a time bomb . Could someone page Yang ?!" Owen said , half yelling . "Wilson , start getting xrays ." He added when he saw Dr. Jo Wilson entered the room .

"Xrays for ?" She looked at the patient .

"EVERYTHING !" Four doctors yelled in unison . Including Dr. Cristina Yang whom just arrived .

"On count to three . One … two … three !" Owen counted as they all moved the patient from the gurney to the trauma bed .

"While she was conscious , she said that her wife is a doctor and she works here ." The paramedic said as he handed the charts .

April blinked a few times before she realized something … "Oh my god .. It's Joanne !"

All of the doctors inside the trauma room looked at April .

"It's Arizona's wife !" The redhead said , almost screamed . "Do we page her ? Call her ?"

"Are you sure it's her wife ?" Meredith asked .

"No , Dr. Robbins is operating on a kid with heart defects . Her focus should remain on the patient that is now lying on her table ." Cristina disagreed . "Tell her after she got out of the surgery ."

"We can't do that . It's her wife . She has the right to know . Besides , Alex is in surgery with her . He can take over ." Jo said , unsatisfied . But her opinion was ignored by all of the senior doctors .

"Heart doesn't look good . We need to get to the OR . Stat ."

"Abdomen too ." Meredith added right after that .

"Yang and Grey , take the patient to the OR number two . Tell Derek Shepherd to go straight to the OR . Kepner , page Dr. Avery and follow me while doing that . I need all of our people on standby inside of the OR ." Owen gave his orders as all of the doctors started to move .

He exited the trauma room as his eyebrows arched when he saw another gurney being pushed inside the trauma department . A paramedic was kneeling on top of the gurney , doing a chest compression on a boy as the other paramedic pushed the gurney right in front of Owen .

"I didn't know there's more than one patient coming in ."

"It's the son , 5 years old Aiden Robbins Sullivan . We don't have a pulse ." The paramedic began explaining . "I've been doing the chest compression for almost ten minutes now . AVP examination all negatives . We bagged him , still , no pulse , no breathing . We shocked him too . I think he's dead on scene ."

"You think ?" Owen scoffed as he took over the patient . He moved the young boy to the trauma bed . "Kepner , go scrub in for the mother's surgery ."

The redhead nodded and quickly left .

"You still want to wait before telling her ? It's her wife and her son . Her whole family ! She should know ." Jo was yelling , she couldn't held it back any longer .

"Fine , call her or page her ! Do whatever you need to make you feel better about this . But after that , come back to me . I need hands ." Owen was staring at the resident . "And do not raise your voice to me again the way you just did ." He added as he took over the chest compression .

"Thank you ." Jo quickly walked away .


The situation in the trauma room was awfully quiet than before . The room was gloomy as Dr. Wilson already stopped her manual ventilation while Dr. Hunt stopped the CPR . He shook his head before he glanced up at the clock . While doing so , he disconnected the tube from the bag with his hand .

"Time of death , 2232hrs ." He said in a low voice . There was nothing they could do . Aiden's gone .

At the same time , Arizona entered the trauma room . She was standing at the doorway as she covered her mouth with her hand , moving her head to the left and right in disbelief . There was a tube inside of Aiden's mouth , leaving the little boy's mouth slightly opened .

"Please tell me that he is just sleeping ." Arizona felt her whole world just had been crushed down . "He will wake up , right ?"

"Right ?" She asked again , demanded an answer from either the ginger or the brunette .

"There is no sign of brain activity . We couldn't revive him ." Owen stared at the little boy .

Dr. Jo Wilson stepped forward as she took off her gloves , approaching Arizona . She tried to calm the blonde but Arizona took a few steps back . "No !"

"We tried our best …"

"Please just … leave . Both of you ." Arizona cut off . Her body felt very weak but she forced herself to moved forward , to see her little boy's face . To touched his hand .

"Oh , Aiden … My little soldier ." Her voice was trembling . A tear felt down on her cheek . And once the first tear broke , the other followed it as well . "Mommy's here . I am so sorry …"

"Oh , God .." Arizona couldn't held back her tears . Seeing her son lying there .. And his hand felt so cold . She couldn't helped it but felt like she was the one that caused this to happened . She did this .

She sobbed as she wiped the tears using her palm . "I love you , sweetheart . I really love you ."


Almost an hour already passed but she was still sitting in the waiting room . Joanne was still in the surgery . Arizona wasn't the kind of woman that prayed a lot and she didn't go to the church on every Sunday morning but she never stopped praying ever since she entered the waiting room . That was the only thing she could do right now. And honestly , she could use a little help from God today since she already lost her Aiden .

Now she really understood the feeling when a parent or a spouse had to wait patiently for an information from the surgeon regarding their loved one who was lying on a table in an operating room . It was all about the restlessness and the nauseous feeling inside the stomach while waiting for an update . Whether their loved one survived or died .

Or whether Joanne was doing okay inside the OR .

Arizona scanned all of the faces inside the waiting room , one by one . Face of sorrow , face of hope , face of emptiness . Empty because she knew that they couldn't do anything but wait . And what kind of face she was making right now ? Emotionless , that was for sure . She just lost her son and her face was still sticky with her own tears . Arizona didn't know whether she was ready for another big news .

And that news is , if Joanne lives or dies .

Alex stepped into the waiting room with a bottle of water and a cup of regular coffee . He stood in front of the blonde and silently handed her both of it but Arizona wouldn't budged . She was staring at the empty chair in front of her .

"A few cops were in the attending lounge just now , looking for you . They wanted to ask you some questions ." Alex slowly talked . "I told them to get lost ."

"Thank you ." She replied , her voice was as cold as an iceberg . She didn't really need a pressure from the authority . Right now , she only wanted to hear that her wife was okay .

"Has someone comes out from the OR , giving you an update ?"

Arizona shook her head , slowly . She was still praying silently in her heart . She couldn't bear another lost . They loved each other very much so Joanne must survived . Or she would spend the rest of her life , blaming the death of the two person she really loved on herself . That two person that made her smile just by thinking about them . Her family that she couldn't wait to come home to them every time she left for work .

The guilty feeling started to came creeping in inside of Arizona's chest . If only she went home in time and followed her schedule , didn't forget her plan with Joanne ... Joanne would definitely not be in the operating room now but in her arms , on the bed inside of their house and Aiden would very much still alive , maybe sleeping soundly by now in his room under his favourite Captain America blanket . She was responsible for what happened right now , for Aiden's death . And she knew she could never forgive herself .

He looked at the blonde in front of him that was already lost in a very deep thought . Alex sighed . He had to find out what happened in the OR so that he could give Arizona an update , just to keep her calm . "I will be right back ." He walked away .

Alex ran down to the OR as fast as he could . He pushed the door to the OR number two a little bit too strong . His eyes was soon greeted by the doctors who had took their bloody gloves off . April was sobbing as she took off her mask .

"What happened ?" Alex asked the question that he could guess the answer already .

Derek Shepherd just shook his head a few times .

The song that was sung by the rock band already finished as Arizona was brought back to the reality . She looked over at the empty glass in front of her before deciding to get another one . She didn't want to go home . Just not yet .


Colonel's House

0347hrs

Tim slowly unlocked the door , not wanting to created any not needed noise as he knew all the people in the house were already asleep . It was almost 4 am in the morning and he just got back from his friend's house . Well , not a friend actually . More like a secret girlfriend . He hadn't feel ready yet to introduced the girlfriend to his family . No one knew he was seeing someone , including his own sister .

Tim tip-toed in the dark as he made his way to the living room . He put down the key of his truck on the table nearby . But then he sensed something wasn't right . He felt like somebody was watching him . All of the training in the army taught him to always be alert with the environment around him .

"Who's there ?" In one quick move , he turned the table lamp on . He was shocked when he saw Callie was sitting there alone . "God ! It's you , I thought you were a thief ."

"I'm sorry ."

"Why are you sitting here in the dark ?" Tim asked weirdly as he took the seat next to his sister's girlfriend . "Where's Arizona ?"

Meanwhile , Callie was debating inside of her head on whether to tell the golden blonde man in front of him that Arizona didn't come home yet after she left the house in anger . Maybe she should told him . He was more familiar with this town than herself . Tim could go find her . God knew what was happening to her since it was too late for someone to stayed outside the house at this hour .

"Just spill it ." Tim looked at Callie . "I know that something is bothering you ."

Callie cleared her throat . "It's Arizona . She went out earlier . I don't know where she is right now ."

"It's freaking late now !"

"I know , but I tried to stay calm and told myself that maybe she likes to hang out alone at certain places until dawn whenever she's back in town . Maybe she goes out to see an old friend . And she falls asleep ." Callie answered . "Maybe it's normal . Maybe I am panicking ."

"Nothing about this is normal ." Tim left the seat as his hand took out his cellphone that was suddenly ringing . "Nick !"

He listened to the voice on the other line as his eyebrows furrowed in concern .

"Thank god , she's there . Please take care of my lil sister . I will be there in seven minutes ." Tim grabbed the keys that he put on the table earlier .

"Found her . She's at our friend's bar . I will go pick her and her drunk ass up . You stay home eh , okay ?" Tim said to the Latina before he exited the leaving room .

Two minutes after that , Callie could hear the engine of the truck roaring . She felt a little bit relieved knowing Arizona was safe . But she knew that she could only finally went to sleep in peace when she saw Arizona's body sleeping inside of the bedroom with her own eyes .


Thoughts ?


Tuesday

20th December 2016

0320hrs