Guest and Guest : Hopefully soon ! Thanks for your reviews !
Calzonafan123 : Let see if Callie would man up and tell Arizona what she really feels .
waterproof88 : Thanks , I hope you are enjoying the holiday season too : )
weasley007 : There will be more sweetness if they could actually have a heart to heart talk . Happy holiday !
ellie0028 : Yeah ! Callie is definitely the one .
Guest : Haha , don't slap Callie . Arizona will hunt you down if you really do slap her .
Guest , Turtle , Lena and Nat : Thank you , this one is for you all .
mientosz : She won't be that way forever . Thank you for the review : )
AZsgirl : I figured that I could use a little sweetness in the story for this christmas :D Tq
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bluesky25 : Yeah , Arizona would have to do a lot of thinking , soon .
Author's Note : Sorry for the delay in updating . Work has been kicking my ass and I have to face just one more weekend before I would actually enjoy my long awaited holiday . I'm driving back to my hometown . And that means , I will have more free times to writer another chapter or I won't have any time to update it at all (spending quality time with family especially with my parents) . I don't know when will I update a new chapter after this or if I will update this story as usual , one week one chapter . To those who are still in holiday mood , happy holiday ! Chapter 7 , enjoy : )
Quotes credit to misprinted lies .
Standing too close to the war inside of her
Her words are like swords but you will never win the battle
She , who will suffocate the air of your lungs
Yet , you will never know that you are drowning ...
In love
Later That Night
Arizona returned from the bathroom as she had just finished washing her face . When she stepped inside her bedroom , she was surprised to see the Latina already lying on her stomach on the king sized bed . Just ten minutes ago , she went downstairs to grabbed a drink , Callie was comfortably engaged in a conversation that involved a lot of laughing and giggling with her whole family . And now she was here , slowly humming a song while reading one of Arizona's old medical book . The brunette clearly didn't notice Arizona's presence .
Arizona let her hair down as she walked to the closet , carefully not to frighten the brunette who was in her usual happy mood . Soon after she hung the damp towel , she took out the extra mattress . She accidentally pulled down a pile of clean pillow , making a slightly noise inside the very quiet room .
Callie turned around when she heard the noise Arizona made . She quickly hid the book under the pillow .
"You didn't have to hide the book . I know that you were reading it just now ." Arizona arranged the mattress next to the bed .
Callie was showing her teeth , giving an innocent respond . "Sorry , I didn't mean to touch your things without permission ."
Arizona just stayed silent , making Callie awkwardly rubbed her head . The blonde was always like this . When she didn't feel like want to talk , she wouldn't say a word . Another thing she had learned about Arizona just by observing her . She would talk when she wanted to talk . And her mood could be so unpredictable .
Just like what happened today . Without warning and so out of the blue , Arizona took her out of the town . They spent their evening visiting the city of Baltimore . Callie didn't know that there were so many museums in Baltimore until today . Art museum , maritime museum , ships museum , literature museum . She even got the chance to visited the Edgar Allan Poe house and museum . Their activity was ended with both of them having ice creams on a bench inside the Federal Hill Park . As always , Callie was the one that did the talking part while Arizona just listened .
Aiden and Joanne never came up in any of their conversations again which was making Callie frustrated . She really wanted to know more about Arizona's story . But she didn't want to push the blonde . Besides , the topic was too sensitive for her to squeezed more details from Arizona .
"You know that this is a king sized bed , right ?" Callie said when she saw Arizona was about to settled herself on the extra mattress .
"It's my bed , of course I know ."
"It's too big for me to sleep alone ."
By now , Arizona was raising her eyebrows .
"Oh , please don't think that I am making a move on you ." Callie said . "I am saying that we could share this bed . Besides , you have a lot of pillows to be put in the middle of the bed .. To separate us … In case you are afraid that I will do something to you ."
"Ha , you will do something to me ?" Arizona was laughing so hard as she looked at the Latina . "Thank you for your nice offer , but seriously , I am okay with the mattress . And just to make it clear . You should know that , I am not that passive type in bed ."
Callie was dumbfounded . The blonde was always secretive of her life but there she was , revealing another interesting fact about herself . That Arizona Robbins wasn't the passive type in a relationship .
"It is not really comfortable for you . You might wake up tomorrow with a pain in your neck ." Callie patted on the empty space next to her . "Please … please .."
Arizona raised her hands up in the air . She finally gave up , didn't want the brunette to kept bugging her . "Okay , fine ."
Callie was smiling when Arizona threw all her pillows on the bed along with her favourite blanket . After that , the blonde grabbed her silver laptop that she had left it alone on the desk earlier . She switched off the main light , leaving only the dim light on the nightstand to lit up the room .
Based on what they planned before , they should be at Seattle by now . But then on Saturday night , Arizona left home and came back drunk . She was supposed to book their flight ticket to Seattle that night . And here they were , staying in Baltimore for what Arizona hoped would only just be another night .
At first , Callie was lying on the bed facing Arizona as she waited for the blonde to make any before - sleep - conversation with her . But Arizona's eyes was focused on the screen in front of her , totally ignoring Callie . She sighed and turned to face the other side of the room . Maybe she should just sleep . Perhaps the blonde had to do some work on the laptop . Callie began regretting that she didn't bring her laptop here .
"I'm sorry that this is all isn't what we planned ." Arizona suddenly spoke .
Is she talking to me ? Callie was still keeping her mouth shut .
"Hey , you asleep ?" Arizona pushed Callie's shoulder .
"What …?" Callie asked using her fake sleepy voice .
"Hmm , go to sleep then ." Arizona refreshed the website she tried to access into for the fifth time . She was trying to book plane tickets for them online .
"Hmm , their online system seem to be having some problems ." Arizona mumbled alone , unaware that Callie was listening . "Fuck , fuck , fuck . What should you do , Robbins ? Think !"
"Yes , Evelyn . She could help me ." Arizona clapped her hands before she took her phone on the nightstand .
Callie smiled . So , Arizona talked to herself when she couldn't solve a problem , that was kind of weird but cute . She turned her body as she looked at Arizona . "Who are you calling in the middle of the night ?"
Arizona glanced at the brunette next to her that she thought was asleep . "My assistant . She could help me with the plane tickets ."
"Are you sure it's okay to call her in the middle of the night of a weekend ? It's not her working time ." Callie asked . Arizona needed to stop with her bossy attitude .
"I paid her well enough so that she could answer her phone even though right now isn't her working hour ." Arizona answered arrogantly .
Callie could only sigh . Arizona's back to her shitty mode .
0637hrs
Callie woke up when she heard the sound of the closet door pulled by someone . She propped herself up with her elbows , looking at the woman in front of her who was in a track suit and black t shirt . She rubbed her eyes a few times before she took a glance at the alarm clock on the table . It was still early .
"Good morning , sleepy head ." Arizona was surprisingly in a good mode .
Callie raised her eyebrows . What has probably gotten into her ?
"Evelyn texted me . She said she got tickets for us today . 5pm . Apparently the system is okay again while we were asleep ." Arizona explained when she saw Callie making a weird face .
"Which means she didn't sleep all night , trying to get into the online system because of us . Nice ." Callie replied sarcastically . "I feel better knowing somebody wasn't really sleeping ."
Arizona pulled open the curtain as she pretended not to hear what the Latina just said . She pushed the window as the cold morning air touched her skin . The weather was nice , suitable for her to went out for running .
"Where are you going ?" Callie asked .
"Going out for my early morning run . Wanna follow ? Bet you couldn't catch up with me . I am a fast runner ." Arizona raised her eyebrows playfully , provoking the brunette .
Callie knew she wasn't the person that woke up early in the morning just to went for a jogging in the park . And she didn't do a lot of outdoor exercise . To her , climbing the stairs to her loft was considered as her daily exercise and workout .
"Give me five minutes to wash my face ." Callie replied , she was surprised with herself that she actually agreed to follow .
They had been running around the lake for the fifth time by now . Remember the woods that Callie was staring and wondering what was there behind all that ? Well , there was a lake inside of the woods . She was here now with Arizona . Callie's heart was beating fast as she tried to catch up the blonde . Arizona was shorter than her , but damn , she ran fast . Maybe jogging is her daily activity . Callie stopped her movement as she drank the last drop of water from the bottle .
"Come on , Torres ! This isn't running . It is more like a freaking jogging ." Arizona ran back to her . "Told ya , you couldn't keep up with me . I could easily outrun you a lap , you know that ?"
"Yeah , yeah , yeah , whatever ." Callie covered her red ears . Arizona just couldn't stop with her gloating session . "You go ahead , I will just wait here ." With that , Callie sat on the grass as she watched the beautiful lake in front of her .
"Beautiful , isn't it ?" Arizona took her seat next to Callie .
Callie glanced at Arizona . "I wonder why the owner of this land doesn't want to build something around the lake ." Callie said .
"Well , I didn't have any plan for now . But who knows , in the future ." Arizona replied , never took off her eyes from the lake .
"What ?" Callie pointed her index finger on the lake , the empty land and the woods that was surrounding themselves . "This lake is yours ? And all the land around it ?"
"Heh , you thought that I would trespass someone's property and brought you with me too ? It's my grandfather's . And then my father's before he gave it to me fifteen years ago ." Arizona answered nonchalantly , like it was not a big deal at all .
"So , you are a millionaire even before you became a doctor and own a well - known company ?"
"It wasn't that shocking to own a lot of money or a big land , Calliope. You are a millionaire even before you went to your high school prom night ." Arizona was talking about Callie's huge trust fund .
"W…wait ? How did you know about that ?"
"I am Arizona freakin' Robbins , of course I know ." Arizona laughed . "And like I said , I have to know with who I am working with ."
"You need to stop investigating about me , Arizona ." Callie was uncomfortable with the blonde knowing her private life using a spy or a private investigator . She had no problem telling Arizona about herself , where did she came from , and all about her family stuff . She had no problem with it . If Arizona wanted to know something , she should have just asked her .
"Because ?"
"Because it is creepy . And I am not your worker . Stop digging ! If you want to know something , ask me directly ."
"Right now I want to know something . Can I ask it directly on your face ?" Arizona arched her eyebrows .
"Proceed ."
"Still remember with who you went your high school prom night ?" Arizona asked . "Who was she or … he ?"
Callie looked into Arizona's blue eyes while shaking her head to the left and right . She didn't go to a prom night with anyone . In fact , she didn't go out that night . The night all teenagers had been waiting for since the freshman year , but she stayed home . She remembered as a teenager , she was that girl that sat at the back of the class . No one wanted to ask her out . And it was all kind of confusing for Callie at school when she found herself attracted to both girls and boys . So Callie distanced herself from everyone . It was easier that way . "I never had a chance for it . No one asked me out and I didn't want to go to the prom night alone . So , I stayed home ."
"How was that possible ? I mean , you are a very attractive person .. But you know , sometimes you can't shut your mouth and keep rambling about things you shouldn't but you are still attractive and pretty , tho ." Arizona was staring at the Latina .
Callie chuckled . Arizona was saying that she talked too much but still trying to say that she was pretty ? That was a terrible combination to compliment and bad talking someone . "Nope , I wasn't pretty at all in school . Not the beauty queen bee type ."
"Hahaha , no . I don't believe it . I want to see your old photos ."
"You mean , my ugly photos ?" Callie asked , still laughing . "You must be that person that fell in love with a queen bee in high school , ain't that right ?"
Arizona was showing her dimpled smile while her head was working so hard , trying to remember the sweet memories . "Yeah , Joanne was that queen bee in our school . She was , however , a very kind queen bee . Unlike all the other queen bees in the tv ."
Callie looked at Arizona . "So , Joanne and you were in the same school ?"
"Same school , same town . She was my prom queen . Joanne was very beautiful that night , in the cream dress . And I could still remember how her hair smell that night when I danced with her . It was a very sweet fragrance ." Arizona stopped for a while . "She was very nervous that night . At first , she wanted to go to the prom with Tommy , the captain of the football team . Because she was afraid that her friends would abandon her when they found out that she was in a relationship with me , a chick too . But last minute , she called me and told me that she didn't care anymore . She held the queen bee title at school since she was fourteen and she didn't mind letting that go if that meant she could dance with me . She told me , all her friends could fuck themselves off . She was very kind that I found it cute and innocent when she swore ."
"So you both met in high school and was in a relationship since then ?" Callie carefully asked .
"I had a crush on her since I was twelve . But I finally had the gut to told her when we were both sixteen ."
"Wow , so you kept your feeling hidden for four years and just bumped into each other by accident , like that ? Or you stalked her around the school ?" Callie winked .
"I didn't have to . She was my lab partners for two years in a row . Every time she touched my hand , asking me to taught her how to did this , did that , I had butterflies in my stomach . It was a good feeling whenever she touched my hand but the downside to it was the hidden love that I had to keep . It was a torturing me . Luckily , when I told her I really liked her , she didn't freak out but felt the same way toward me ." Arizona smiled . "She made my school years colorful . She was perfect . Everything was perfect even . Until we finally graduated and went our separate ways . I flew to Seattle while she went to Stanford , studying in business . We broke it off in a good way as we both realized we had our own ambitions ."
Sullivan's Home
Arizona was looking at her high school girlfriend who was now arranging her luggage inside of the trunk , she didn't want to cry in front of her . Arizona was never comfortable showing her weakness in front of other people , let alone in front of her girlfriend . She needed to keep it together .
"Are you sure this is the best for us ?" Arizona put the last bag inside of the trunk .
"Honey , we have been talking about this for weeks now ." Joanne stopped her action as she turned around .
"I know , I know . We both made the decision together . I am just starting …"
Joanne put her index finger on Arizona's lip , cutting her off . "You think that this is a bad idea ?"
"Maybe we could figure this thing out . Together ." Arizona opened the passenger door before she took out the car mat and threw away the small stones along with the sand that was stuck on it . "Gosh , babe . You need to take care of your car properly ."
"This is so you . You dropped something and then you tried to change the topic ." Joanne forced Arizona to take a seat in the car . "Long distance relationship isn't as easy as it seems . Not everyone could pull it off ."
"But not everyone couldn't too . Maybe we could . Maybe I could , I will visit you , you will visit me on weekends and holidays . On every chances that we get ."
"Arizona , you are soon going to be a med student . You wouldn't have enough time to even wish a goodnight to me . And then I will become upset with you , thinking you have another woman over there in Seattle . Or if the situation is reversed and I am the one who is busy drowning with classes , you will start to think that I am seeing someone else ." Joanne stared deep into the sparkling blue eyes that she would surely missed after this . "And then we will have a very big fight which involve swearing , crying and yelling . It will be very messy and might jeopardize our studies . I don't want that to happen me or to you , honey . I want us to end things clean and smooth ."
"But I love you ." Arizona's gaze fell down on her shoes .
"I love you too , Ari . Very much . But that is for now . We are only eighteens . You might change your mind once you meet a girl named Jenny or Emily in the med school ."
"You know that I wouldn't do that to you , right ?"
"But I want you to do that . I want you to meet Emily and Helena or whoever in the med school . Without you feeling guilty knowing me waiting for you in California . You are one of the most kind - hearted and friendly person I have ever seen . And I know there is going to be a lot of people enjoying befriended with you . One of them might fall in love with you , and you might reciprocate the feeling too ." Joanne bit her bottom lip , no , of course she didn't want Arizona to say those three magic words to another person other than her but she couldn't be selfish . "I want you to enjoy your college years and I would like to do the same in Stanford ."
"You don't want to be with me ." It wasn't a question but more to a statement . Arizona looked up .
"No , I want us both to feel free . If we are meant to be together , we would find our way back . That is how the universe works ."
Joanne cupped Arizona's face . She slowly leaned in , giving Arizona a soft kiss on the lip . Arizona wrapped her hands around the brunette's waist , pulling her in as she deepened the kiss .
"Arizona freaking Robbins , you are making this goodbye seems to be like a hell ." Joanne mumbled , trying to catch her breath .
"I love you too ." Arizona finally smiled , like a little kid .
"I never thought I would see her again after that ." Arizona threw her view deep into the lake . "But we did . I was an intern at Seattle Grace Mercy West when I met her again . And she was there , lying on the trauma bed with a wrist fracture . She was waiting for a doctor to check on her and I remembered myself freaking out and searched the whole Ortho department for the best attending she could get ."
"So you both started dating again after that ?" Callie asked , she was interested in knowing the blonde's past . She wasn't jealous of the way Arizona talked about Joanne at all . Because Joanne's gone and she was trying to understand the blonde next to her . The blonde that could be very rude and ego but sometimes she could actually be more human and extra nice .
"Yes . She was supposed to be in town for just a week to look for a potential place . Apparently her dad wanted to open his next new branch which would be in Seattle . So she just stayed in town and after that managed the branch in Seattle . We'd been living together since then ." Arizona replied . "I was in my third year of residency when Joanne's father died . She was completely devastated . And I never wanted to see her sad like that . I wanted her to be happy and I wanted to take care of her . I don't want to leave her like her parents did and I know , deep down in my heart … I really loved her . So … I asked her to marry me ."
Callie stared right into the blue eyes . Arizona really loved her late wife . And Joanne was Arizona's first love . That was why when she died , it hit Arizona hard . Poor Arizona , the person that she loved was taken twice . First , after the high school . Second , when Joanne and Aiden died .
"She once told me that , if we both were meant to be , we would find our way back . That was how the universe work ." Arizona scoffed before she suddenly raised her voice . "The universe let me and Joanne be back together before it tore us apart . The universe is a fucked up shit !"
Callie was shocked when the blonde suddenly enraged . She said nothing but she just kept holding Arizona's hand . Noticing that Arizon didn't pull away her hand , she slowly rubbed blue eyes's hand using her thumb . "Arizona …"
"This is so fucked up , Calliope . The world isn't fucking fair . The other driver got away with just paying the fine while the other one that killed my wife and son is still in the prison for another two more years instead of eight years because that motherfucker had a great defense team ." Arizona couldn't hide her anger when she started to talk about the what happened five years ago . "Those two bastards should have just rot in jail . They took my family away !"
Callie pulled Arizona into her arms and Arizona just let her , her hand was rubbing the back of the blonde . She didn't know what to say or what to do to calm down the woman next to her . Part of her felt that she didn't have any right to say anything because she wasn't in Arizona's place . Only the blonde knew her own feeling , the feeling that she kept it bottled in . And only Arizona knew what losing a whole family feeling was . But she didn't want to see Arizona so upset like this .
"The universe is so fucked up ." Arizona mumbled into the hug . She wasn't crying , she had done enough crying .
After two hours of spending their morning by the lake , they returned home together when it was almost nine am . They both walked into the front yard together .
"You know that thing that I did just now wasn't what I typically did everyday ?" Arizona laughed as she thought when she woke up this morning , she was going to do ten laps today . She just shook her head . She was the woman with a plan , with a routine . But a morning with Callie ruined everything , she horribly didn't achieve any target for her today morning run . "That isn't running nor jogging . It was like walking with you around the lake ."
"I said to you to go ahead but you stopped instead and joined me sitting on the grass . I didn't ask you to stop , did I ?" Callie was smirking .
"You are a terrible workout partner ." Arizona stopped at the garage as she twisted the cap of the bottle . She drank all of the water with one gulped .
"But you are enjoying having me as your workout partner , am I right ?" Callie winked playfully .
Little did they know , Tim was on his back under the truck . He was trying to fix the leakage of the black oil . He put both of his ear on listening mode as he grinned alone under the truck , eavesdropping on Arizona and Callie's conversation .
Arizona rubbed her head . "I guess so … haha . Thanks , Calliope ."
"For ?"
"Everything . For the extra one day that you had to spend here . For listening to my story … for …"
"Oh just cut the crap , Robbins . Besides , all of my debt will be settled after this right ?" Callie tried to act casually . But only God knew what was in her mind right now .
Debt ? A puzzled look was on Tim's face right now .
"No , I still have to say thank you . You didn't sign up for this shit at all ." Arizona leaned her back against Tim's truck . "Thanks for listening to my story . I just couldn't held it back and I don't know why the hell am I feeling comfortable talking about her with you . Maybe it was because you said I could talk about it out loud to you ."
"It is nothing , really ." Callie shook her head . She just wanted to be there for Arizona . To stop the blonde from numbing her feelings .
"Even though you had to do it as a punishment for what happened at your coffee shop , I still have to thank you for agreeing to be my girlfriend for the weekend . You did a good job being my fake girlfriend ." Arizona said .
Tim's eyes went wide as he heard their conversation . He wasn't sure what he should felt . Angry ? Upset ? Because he was lied to ? No , not only him but his parents . Arizona lied to their parents !
"So , once we arrive at Seattle , it would all settle ? Clean slate ? No more debt or whatever punishment ?" Callie asked , her heart sank down a little . Arizona only saw the weekend they had spent together as nothing but a punishment , a debt to be settled .
All of the days they had share together , was it all fake ?
"No more , nothing . Unless you shower me again with a coffee ." Arizona giggled as she walked toward the front door , followed by Callie .
Meanwhile , Tim was slowly turning red under the truck . He couldn't believe what his sister just did . He shook his head a few times as he got himself out from under the truck .
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Thursday
29th December 2016
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