Author's Note : Hello guys . Calzonafan123 , I thought it was all clear on why Arizona wasn't a surgeon anymore . She has to take care of Joanne's company for now , as she feels it is the right thing to do . Lena , Callie is indeed a beautiful woman but her confident level isn't as high as other people in this story . Beautiful is a big word for her . She is kind , yes . She is beautiful , is she ? As in the last chapter , she was described as the teenager who sat at the back of the class (maybe a little socially awkward) . But what's important , she will be beautiful in Arizona's eyes . Soon ! McAwesome ! When you reminded me of how the Calzona's fan love the way Arizona says 'Calliope' , you got me searching for the compilation video of Arizona saying 'Calliope' in Youtube . And oh , damn ! My stomach hurts now . I just clicked on the video of ' 10 minutes of Arizona saying 'Calliope' ' made by xpsychoticbitch . I think I laughed so hard until I fell down from my bed lol (You and others who are reading this should go check it out) . I am freakin' tired of laughing so hard . So , enough of rambling . Chapter 8 , happy reading .


Do you hear me calling to you ?

Or are you too far gone , in too deep ?

Lost inside of the scary thoughts of your past ?

The world is too cruel for me to live here without you

What can I say to change your mind ?

To make you stay ?

A Week Later

Sullivan Group , Seattle

Through the glass window , Arizona was staring at the busy road in front of her fiftieth building . A knock on the door caught her attention as she yelled from inside of the office . "Come in ."

Evelyn , her assistant entered the office with a smile as Arizona remained quiet . She waited for the redhead in front of her to speak up .

"As you ordered , I've got you and the team flight tickets to Malawi on Thursday ." Evelyn put down the tickets on Arizona's working desk . The redhead couldn't help it but noticed the change of tone in her boss's voice and the words that she chose to use when she asked her to do something . It had change since her boss returned from Baltimore . Miss Robbins could actually said 'please' and 'thank you' . "And for the house cleaner , I've found one . She would do the weekly cleaning for your house starting tomorrow ."

"Thanks . Anything else ?" Arizona walked around her spacious office . Earlier , Arizona told Evelyn to find a house cleaner to take care of her house . She didn't want the house to be filled with dust during her absence . And even nowadays , she rarely slept in that house . Her house with Joanne . Arizona preferred to stay at the penthouse because everytime she went back to the house , she would always think about Joanne and then ended up reminiscing all of their memories together .

"I already called New York . Mr. Nate will be here tomorrow morning to discuss about your three months trip to Malawi ." Evelyn said .

Arizona nodded . She had to temporarily transfer all of her decision making power to Nathaniel before she left . She didn't want her absence to trouble anyone and affect the company . She believed that Nathaniel was now matured enough to handle the company during her absence . After all , it was his family company . He had to learn how to managed the company by himself because Arizona knew that she wouldn't always be around . And this was the great opportunity to see if Nathaniel was ready or not .

She would go to Malawi for at least three months along with few other volunteers from Sullivan Foundation . Arizona created Sullivan Foundation a few years ago in honor of her late wife . It was a charity and humanitarian organization for kids and homeless people around the world . And Malawi wasn't the first place she had flew to . Last year , her team was in India and Dhaka .

"Also , Mr. Jack wants you to call him . He said it's important ."

Jack was Joanne's hot tempered uncle . Well , not a real uncle . Joanne's father adopted him as his brother . Even since Joanne was still alive , he liked to gamble around but he rarely won . There was once Joanne had to settle all of the money that he borrowed from the loan sharks . But he kept coming back with a new one and Arizona ended up having to pay all of his debts . Again and again .

Arizona scoffed . What else could possibly Jack wanted from her other than more money ? Arizona was determined that this time , she wouldn't oblige to his request . Arizona knew Jack , that man would never feel enough with whatever amount of money Arizona gave to him weekly .

"May I leave now ?" Evelyn asked to her boss .

Arizona nodded her head but then she called her assistant . "Eve .. Can you get me a cup of triple shots Americano from the same yesterday coffee shop ?"

"Sure , Miss Robbins . You want it right now ?"

"Yes , please ." Arizona answered as she sat down on her chair .

Arizona had stop herself from visiting the Latina's coffee shop after that night when Callie admitted that she liked Arizona . She felt terrible for what she was doing right now as she promised the brunette that they would still be friends . Arizona knew she made a promise that she couldn't keep that night .

To be honest , Arizona was scared of the situation . Callie was the first person that Arizona had open up to after what happened to her life . Arizona wasn't looking for a new relationship or a friendship but somehow Callie managed to change her mind . Surely Arizona had friends but that was in the before . In the after , she wasn't interested at all in making a new friend . Callie was the first person has been added to Arizona's list of friend after many years of separating herself from socializing with friends . Just like Alex and April , they two were her closest friends . And she shutted them out .

And what if Callie's feeling for her would only go in deeper when they become a close friend ? Arizona didn't want to encourage the brunette . Maybe it was the best for them right now to stayed away from each other . Arizona would go back to her working mode . Even though she would surely miss sitting at the table near the glass window at the coffee shop while having to worry herself if today there was going to be a careless brunette spilling coffee on her , Arizona knew she had to this . She had to distance herself from Calliope Torres .

"Miss Robbins , Mr. Timothy is in the lobby . He would like to see you ." Evelyn's voice on the intercom quickly killed her thought .

"Let him in ." Arizona said firmly , approving .

Two minutes later , Timothy entered the office with a serious look on his face . What's up with the sour look on his face ? Arizona quickly got up and left the large wooden desk . "Tim ?"

"I'm here to say goodbye ." Tim was standing a few metres away from Arizona .

"I thought you still have a few more days left before they sent you back ?" Arizona asked . She was puzzled . Usually Tim would stay at her place for a day or two before they called him in .

"Yes , but I would like to spend that few more days with the new recruitments ."

"Tim , what's wrong ?" Arizona asked when she noticed that Tim couldn't look at her in the eyes . "You want to go back to the military base a few days early which you never done that before this . And you couldn't even look at me ."

"How could I look at you when all I see in you isn't what you used to be , Arizona ?" Tim finally let out all of the feelings that he kept since last week . "You think I don't know ? I am not stupid , Arizona !"

"What are you talking about ?"

"I am talking about how you have became so manipulative ." Tim shook his head . "I know about you and Callie . About your deal with her , the debt . I know you two are pretending to be in love with each other only to pleased mom and dad . I don't even know who you are anymore ."

It was true . Tim didn't know who was the person standing in front of him right now . Arizona was Arizona , his only sister and she was standing right in front of him . But emotionally , he couldn't sense if it was really Arizona inside the body . "Callie likes you , Arizona . If you ask me if she is the right person for you to start it over again , I will say 'damn yes , she is the one' . You really need to let go of the past so you can see what is in front of you ."

Arizona sat on the sofa , she was staring at the glass table . "How did you know ? She … she told you ?"

"I overheard your conversation with her . And she didn't have to tell anything . It was so obvious in her action , the way she treats you , that she really cares for you and you just think of it nothing more than just settling the debt between the two of you . She was actually worried when you came home drunk that night !"

Arizona slumped back on the sofa . "You don't have to cover for her , Tim . She told me that she likes me , I rejected her feeling and then suddenly you knew . What a coincidence !" Arizona said sarcastically .

"What ? So , she really likes you ?" Tim raised his voice . He was clearly surprised . So his instinct was true . And what's more shocking was the fact that Arizona rejected the brunette . Did she at least think about it before she said no ?

"So it's true that she told you ." Arizona felt betrayed .

"Is that more important to you right now ? She just told you that she likes you and you said no . What the hell , Arizona ?" Tim said angrily . "Are you going to live like this forever , Arizona ? You used to have joy in you . You were a surgeon . To become a surgeon was your ambition since you were ten years old . And you just gave up now . Not only your job but you gave up on your life . What would Joanne say if she saw you like this ? You think she would be happy to see how loner you have became ? You think she would be proud that you chose to stay loyally miserable to her instead of choosing to at least trying to be happy ? You think she wanted to see you unhappy , depressed ?"

"Oh , just shut up Tim !" Arizona's screaming voice filled the room . "Don't talk like you know everything ! You don't know anything ! And you don't have any right to judge me when I am too , still judging myself everyday if I treated her good when she was still alive ! You don't know anything , Tim . So just shut up !"

Arizona rubbed her face . "I quit my job because this company is the only thing Joanne left to me . I don't have anything else . And I would be damn if I slip this one away too . So , yes ! I gave up my job because I really need to do this . This is the right thing to do ."

"But that doesn't mean you have stop living your life . When someone dies you should started to appreciate your life more , Arizona . I get it that you lost your family . But you are not the only person that lost everything ." Tim sighed deeply . "When I first joined the army , there were five of us including Nick in the platoon . And then Nick lost his leg , there were only the two of us left . The other two died . The only differences between me and you is , I did something with the sadness and anger that started to built in me . I channeled it and turned those feelings to something positive . You just have to figure this thing out , Arizona ."

Arizona just stared emptily on the wall . Tim looked at his only sister , thinking that this was the last thing he could do . Sure , they argued a lot in the past like all the brothers and sisters in the world did but never like this one . Both of them were filled by anger . Tim was desperately trying to pushed in some senses into his sister's head and Arizona was only being defensive .

Tim hated that he had to raise his voice to Arizona like he just did but he was hoping that Arizona would finally realized the mistake that she was about to make . But Arizona was still staring at the wall , Tim just shook his head as he started to make his way out of the room .


Thursday

Airport

As the people walked pass her , Arizona was still standing in the middle of the waiting area for gate number three with her green army traveling backpack on her back . She had told her team to go ahead earlier , leaving her alone in the lobby . She knew that she couldn't leave like this . Her head was in a chaos and she would jump into a plane in any minute now with things between her and Callie remain unresolved . Arizona promised her that they would still be friends but then she suddenly disappeared . It was unfair for the brunette .

You need to figure this thing out , Arizona .

Without her realizing it , Tim words to her two day ago had Arizona began doubting herself . She took her phone out as she began dialling Callie's number that she secretly saved inside her phone . She waited for three seconds but then she quickly pressed the red button when she heard another announcement for her flight .

Good afternoon . This is the final boarding announcement for flight 3722 to Lilongwe . Please proceed to gate three immediately . The final checks are being completed and the captain will order for the doors of the aircraft to close in approximately five minutes time . I repeat . This is the final boarding call for flight 3722 . Please proceed to gate three immediately . Thank you .

Arizona reluctantly walked toward the gate . She turned around for the last time as she searched for a familiar face . It was a silly thought , though . No one knew she was here even her own parents . Except Tim , Nate , Evelyn and The Foundation . She would tell her parents later , as soon as she landed there .

And what about Callie ?


Yes , what about Callie ? Will she feel okay with Arizona leaving and hanging things ?

Reviews are welcomed , as always . Hopefully you guys don't have to wait for another real four months like this story is currently running for the next chapter , lol :D

Thursday

5th January 2017

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