Author's Note : Okay , this update is quicker than it should be . Special for that Nerd Chick from India (you know who you are) . She asked about the next update a few days ago .
I am quite worry about this one . I don't think it's one of my best chapter . Next chapter will be better , though because , shit is finally going down baby ! Calzona will end up together , finally . And to the review asking that Arizona should work her ass hard to get Callie and not as easy as this - maybe right now , for this one , things should be easy (for now) . I could use a little easy and fairytale and lovey dovey right now as my real life isn't really lovey dovey right now :D No worries , I will surely put dramas here and there (when it's suitable for the storyline) . Okay , that's all my rambling for this chapter .


Death leaves a heartache no one can heal , love leaves a memory no one can steal .

Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls , hoping you'll call

It's just a cruel existence like it's no point hopin'g at all

Baby , baby , I feel crazy

Up all night , all night and every day

You gave me something , but I gave you nothing

What is happening to me ?

It was dark and the only thing she could smell was blood . Suddenly , the light was on . She had to covered her eyes , due to excessive of sudden brightness . She opened her eyes , slowly . Bloods were everywhere , glasses scattered on the road . It was quiet and cold . She walked around the car before her eyes found two person lying on the road .

"Joanne !" Arizona ran toward her wife . For a few seconds , she didn't know what to do . Seeing the amount of bloods coming out from many different places , she just froze there .

Hands started to move , she held the pressure down on Joanne's chest . Without she realizing it , her tears were falling down onto her wrist . Seeing Joanne lying there , she felt nothing but only the fear of losing her wife .

"A-Ari .." Her wife started to cough blood . "It's .. us-e..use-less . I am going … to die ."

"No , don't say that ! Don't you dare !"

"Aiden .. You sa- … Save him ." Joanne let out her final breath .

With her hands covered in blood , she wiped her tears using the back of her palm as she looked over her shoulder and saw her son . He wasn't moving , or screaming or crying . And she knew that was a bad sign . She left her kneeling position and got up , moving toward her son .

But that was when the light went off . And she was surrounded by darkness again .

"Aiden !" Arizona shouted into the blackness of the room , sweats were covering her face but her body felt oddly cold .

Arizona sat there for a few minutes before she decided to switch on the night lamp . The dream didn't happened oftenly but when it happened , it would definitely left her waking up in the middle of the night , screaming .

She got out from the bed and walked toward the bathroom , turning on the shower as she stood under it without even taking her clothes off .

Helpless , that was what she felt everytime she had that dream . It would always started with Arizona in the middle of nowhere before it turned horror . And every single time , it would end up with same script of she couldn't save her own family .

I had even much worse than this .

The temperature of the water coming out from the shower slowly turned warm and she just stood there with her back pressed against the cold tiles .

Half an hour after that , Arizona found herself in Nathaniel's training room , one of many facilities they had inside of the penthouse .

Arizona aimed her fist on the white word of 'Everlast' punching bag . She let out a deep breath before began punching the black punching bag .

One and two , with her bare right hands

Three , with her left hands

And four , giving a side kick on the left side of the bag .

Arizona looked down on her now red knuckles . She walked toward the training closet and picked up a pair of red gloves . She continued with quick punches .

"Stupid !"

"Fucker ."

"Useless !"

"Fuck !"

She yelled while punching . She felt so useless ? Hell yes . Joanne and Aiden died and the dreams that she kept having seemed like wanted to tell her that she could have done something . To save her family .

"But what is it ?" Arizona yelled again , subconsciously . "What is it that I could have done ?"

"Please tell me or just fucking stop bothering me !" She clenched her teeth as she kicked the bag angrily before began punching it again .

Arizona only stopped when she felt too tired to carry on . She sat on the metal bench , facing the punching bag that was now slighth moving to the left and right . She checked her phone , it was almost 4am and here she was punching a freakin' bag .

There was no call or message from Callie . Arizona's forehead wrinkled , but it wasn't like it was the brunette's fault as she was the one that said she would call her . She basically told Callie to wait for her call . And now it was 4am in the morning , not exactly the right time to made a call to her .

What happened last night wasn't what she planned to do . She didn't plan to kiss Callie this soon . Arizona knew that she had took a few giant steps when she probably should have take a baby steps first . Playing back the voice of Callie begging to her , to looked into her eyes , Arizona felt like she was hit with a pang of guilty . And she felt regret for leaving just like that . Tonight should had been their happy night , perhaps scheduling for another date , their second date but Arizona once again ruined it all .

Arizona looked into the mirror near the closet . Staring at her own face , she looked like shit . And she had an interview in another six hours . She would definitely looked like a zombie in most of the photos .

"Arizona ? What are you doing ?" Nate suddenly walked into the room , a little confused seeing Arizona was still awake . "I am going to the kitchen . Thirsty . You need anything ?" He asked in his sleepy voice .

"I couldn't sleep just now ." Arizona replied as she yawned . "I guess that's my call , I am going to my bed . Goodnight , bro ."

She gave a light pat on Nate's back before she left the room .


1036hrs

NST HQ

"What do you do all day at work ?" The young interviewer named Alicia asked .

Arizona's eyes examined the conference room , she had been sitting in this room for almost fifteen minutes . So far , she had answered most of business related questions asked by the girl in front of her . And she would like for it to stayed that way . Hopefully there wouldn't be any personal question .

"Working ?" Arizona replied with a weird face as she focused her eyes back on the interviewer . What kind of question is that ? "Don't you have any interesting question ?"

"This is supposed to be interesting . If you could be more thorough with your definition of working ." Alicia replied . She felt like the interview was more like a debate between them . Arizona Robbins , CEO of Sullivan Industries wasn't an easy task for her . She wasn't really friendly and she wasn't really speaking . It was hard for her to squeeze some more juicy details about Arizona , especially about her private life . And her boss had put a very high hope on her to dig deeper about the CEO's life outside of the office .

"Every Mondays morning , I would usually have a staff meeting . We would discuss about the progress from last week and then proceed with upcoming projects for the rest of the week . The meeting would usually lasts until noon . And then on the afternoon , I would do a site visit on my projects in Seattle . Sometimes I have to go out and meet my clients ." Arizona spoke firmly .

"So , you are not always in your office ?"

"Yes . I am not that office type of CEO . But it doesn't mean I hate my office ." Arizona tried to make a joke but her facial expression was very serious that it made Alicia felt hesitate on whether she should laugh or not .

Alicia cleared her throat , awkwardly "Okay … Do you have any hobbies ? Golf ? Or the boring one , like collecting stamps ?"

"I only work , Miss Reynolds . I don't have any hobby ." Arizona answered , monotone .

"Well , I am going to change my question . What do you do during your non work time ?"

"I do jogging , working out . And sometimes boxing . But I don't consider it as my hobbies , more like my daily routine . To keep my body in shape . And I usually get home late . So I eat a good dinner , usually a take out as I don't really cook at home and then I go to sleep .

"Wow , that's interesting !" Alicia said , trying to be interested with the answer . "You used to be a surgeon , why did you quit ?"

"My late wife left me a company to handle ."

"Don't you miss your moment of being a surgeon ? Do you ever feel like going back to being a doctor ?"

Arizona looked at her fingers nervously before she looked up into the interviewer's eyes . "Sometimes , yes , I do miss saving lives . But medicine is a fast advancing career . I have left my white lab coat for five years , I don't think I am suitable to become a surgeon again . There's a lot of catch ups to do ."

"What or who has been your biggest inspiration behind of your success today ?" Alicia asked .

"Joanne Sullivan . I would always remember her in every steps I take . She would always held that special place in my heart , eventhough she's gone ." Arizona stopped speaking for a while . Talking about Joanne made her felt open and naked .

"This is all for her . The success of this company for these past few years , the foundation . It's all for her ." Arizona continue with a low voice . She glanced down on the pocket of her pants . Her phone was vibrating .

"Is that why you opened Sullivan Foundation ?"

"Yes . Joanne and I both believed in giving back . By opening this charity foundation , I have completed what Joanne didn't get to do while she was still alive ." Arizona cleared her almost broken voice . Her attention was interrupted again by the vibrating phone inside of the pocket . "I'm sorry , someone is calling me . Could be very important ."

Alicia just nodded as Arizona got up from the leather sofa . She walked toward the corner of the room before she answered her phone .

"Arizona ." The voice was cold .

Holy , shit . She completely forgot to call Callie this morning before she went to this interview . "Calliope … I have been meaning to call you but I am stucked with work and …"

"It's okay , Arizona . I am sure that you are quite busy right now . So , I will just go straight to it ." Callie took a deep breath before continued . "I am going back to Seattle today ."

"We will go back to Seattle together . Wait for me , I would be in front of your hotel room in another …" Arizona glanced at her silver TAG Heuer . "Another one hour ."

"I'm at the airport already , my flight should board in thirty minutes ." Callie said from the other line .

"Well , then . Take another flight ." Arizona replied with a commanding tone .

"I am done waiting , Arizona . If you want me in your life , act like you really want it . Goodbye ." Callie ended the call .

"Hello ? Callie ?" Arizona looked at her now quiet phone . She just hung up on me ! She rubbed her head before walking back to the sofa .

"Can I continue ?" Alicia carefully asked . She looked at the blonde's face . Her face was bitter than before . She looked distinctly disturbed .

Arizona just nodded , giving a green light .

"Are you currently seeing someone ?"

Hand rested under the chin , Arizona gave a fierce look at the interviewer , along with her angry eyebrows . "Can we move on to the next question ?"

"Does that means yes but you just don't want to reveal who the lucky woman is ?" Alice continued to push . "Is her name … Callie Torres ?"

"I never talk about my private life to everyone , especially to some stranger , Miss Reynolds . And I would like to maintain it that way ." Arizona replied , still trying hard not to let out the anger that had started to build inside of her chest .

Lucky woman ? More like a bad luck if someone ever comes across me . I am not an easy person to be loved . I fucked everything up . Sometimes , I couldn't help it but think that I would only make Callie suffer with my complicated feelings . That I would drag her down with me . Callie was innocently bubbly and I don't ever want to take that away from her . Arizona shook her head slowly as she thought about it deeper . But another question from Miss Reynolds quickly killed her deep thought .

"I think all of the representatives from various newspaper slash magazines companies know that you don't do interviews . And NST is the first , why us ?"

"I assumed you already know the answer to that question , right ?" Arizona replied coldly . "I have a flight to catch up . So if we could move to the photo shoot session now , it would be great ."


Author's Note : So , about the other Calzona story that I have write down , I am still putting it on hold as I don't know if I could be fair with the update of this one once I start that story . But the response are positive by you all ! I will publish it , one day . Maybe after this one finish . Or maybe I should just end this one after they are finally together . What do you think ? Feel free to put down your comments .


Monday

30th January 2017

0130hrs