Chapter Seven

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There was a silence. Miss Parker clutched the phone tightly. All she could hear was Jarod's breathing on the line. So what was she going to say? Why had she stopped him from hanging up if she didn't know what to tell him?

"Whatever it is Miss Parker it better be important, so spill it," Jarod said breaking the painful silence.

Miss Parker suppressed a whimper. He was acting so cold… maybe it was a mistake, make she should just let it go…

"It was nothing," she mumbled. "Go marry Zoë, I don't give a damn, I'm sure she can make you happier than I ever could, so go ahead, do it," Miss Parker closed her eyes to pull herself together.

"What the hell are you talking about? I'm not gonna marry anyone."

Miss Parker made a trembling sigh. "Yes you are," she almost whispered. "But it doesn't matter anymore, I'll kill myself anyway so, I guess I'm the one to wish you a good life, goodbye Jarod," Miss Parker snapped the phone shut before he could say anything, but most of all, before she would say anything stupid. Oh how she wanted to tell him the truth, but she just couldn't bring herself to say it. And she wasn't sure it would make a difference anyway. Why would he care if she loved him?

Miss Parker leaned back in the couch, she didn't have the strength to go to her bedroom, and she didn't want to wake Debbie up either. She had learnt that the kid awoke by the tiniest sound. Miss Parker closed her eyes, and her thoughts drifted to her future, she saw Jarod and Zoë happily married.

Life was so unfair. But maybe that was what it was supposed to be, she wasn't supposed to be happy…

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She must have fallen asleep, she didn't know how long, but she guessed a couple of hours had passed. Sleepily she looked around, what had wakened her? Was it Debbie? Miss Parker tried to listen, but she couldn't hear anything from upstairs.

Then there is was, a soft clicking sound, and suddenly she heard footsteps coming towards her. Miss Parker stiffened but didn't get up from the sofa.

"Miss Parker?" she recognized the voice immediately.

"Jarod?" she whispered into the darkened room.

Jarod walked up to the couch and sat down. He looked at her anxiously. "Are you alright?" he asked.

Miss Parker suppressed the urge to laugh. Alright? Had she ever been?

"Why are you here?" she asked instead.

There was a silence. "I was worried," he answered shortly.

"Why?"

"You said you were gonna kill yourself remember… why on earth would you do that? I didn't think you were that stupid Parker, but then again I'm sure I was wrong…"

Miss Parker shook her head sadly. Why had he come if he only wanted to torment her with his cold remarks?

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you," she said tiredly. But instead of waiting for his reply, she started to tell him about her little trip in time. She didn't think he would understand, he wouldn't believe her, but she had to tell him.

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"I don't know what to say Parker… I'm not gonna say it was a dream, but don't you think it's a little too far fetched. Visiting your future?"

Miss Parker sighed; she knew he wouldn't believe her…

"It's true. And it made me take a hard look at my life, I can't…" Miss Parker's voice trailed off. Jarod gave her a questioning look.

"I can't go on like this anymore… not when I know how I will turn out…" Miss Parker paused, glancing at Jarod. "I'm sorry," she said.

"For what?"

"Everything, I never wanted to hurt you, I know you hate me… but I'm really sorry."

Jarod sighed. "It's too late Miss Parker…" he said.

Miss Parker didn't know what to say, how could she make him forgive her? She didn't want to fight anymore…

"Is it too late to say… I love you?" Miss Parker almost whispered. It took all the strength she had to admit her feeling for him, but say it out loud was too much. She had never felt more vulnerable than she did right now.

Jarod was shocked to hear her say those words. He didn't know what to say. He was still angry at her, she had crossed the line and he didn't know if he could forgive her. His heart screamed at him to hold her, to tell her he loved her too. But his head told him to walk away, to leave her once and for all. It was what he had tried to do, but he didn't seem to be able to stay away, as soon as he thought she was in trouble, he came back like a knight in shining armour to save her.

Jarod sighed; he had to make up his mind. Either he could forgive her. And maybe they could be happy together. Or he could just walk away, and with that break her heart. He knew it must have been extremely hard for her to open up and tell him the truth, and he knew that if he rejected her now, she would break…

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TBC.