jenna-pls : Something with your last review gained my attention (prob because you wrote the first sentence in my mother language) . And since you didn't point whether you are talking about the story or about my babbling on the last chapter , I will just reply it from both me and Arizona POV (in this story) .

You said something about pain . Sometimes , it isn't always about the pain that people like us worried about , sometimes it's about the feeling of taking a person down with you . That person that we really love and we wanted to love them , to show them the love that we really have for them , but we are just too afraid . The darkness and pain , we aren't afraid of them . Pain is inside us , we grow up with them , we live with them . And then , there's someone that makes us happy . And that's someone is totally the opposite side of us . They are just too positive and we are in pain . We just don't want to spread the pain to them ... There's just enough pain flying around . Sometimes , we don't feel we are worthy enough to be loved ...

Author's Note : Thanks for the reviews (really glad that some of you understand the struggle that Arizona is having) and sorry for the late update . I am dealing with a lot of things right now , doctor's appointment , endless works plus some personal issue . Lately , I found it hard to translate my thoughts into words . And also before I published my other story , I said to myself to update both of it on the same time so that they both could get fair updates .

I am going to try to write in POV for this one and the next one .. Haven't write any chapter using POV for a very long time . Let's give it a try and see how it goes . And I think it's about time for us to see what's inside of Arizona's head . Even though I know I will feel a little bit exposed writing her thoughts in POV (as her character in this story has always been similar to me) .

And also , please know that I am not a natural smut writer (I am laughing as I wrote this sentence) . So please excuse all the awkwardness of the smut I may write . Or like in this chapter .

And the last one , DO ANYBODY HERE KNOW WHAT ZODIAC SIGN ARIZONA IS ? Did they mention in an episode ? If you guys know , please tell me at the review section or PM me . I'm just curious :D


You're the light , you're the night

You're the color of my blood
You're the cure , you're the pain
You're the only thing I wanna touch
Never knew that it could mean so much

You're the fear , I don't care
Cause I've never been so high
Follow me to the dark
Let me take you past our satellites
You can see the world you brought to life

I'll let you set the pace
Cause I'm not thinking straight
My head spinning around I can't see clear no more
What are you waiting for ?

Arizona POV

A ding from my phone follows by a long vibrate wakes me up from what it seems , a very peaceful sleep I've had in years . I look around the dark room before I realize that something is on my left arm . No , not something . It is , in fact , a someone , a human . A very beautiful woman that at this moment , I feel so lucky that I get to wake up next to her . For a few seconds , I just watch her face . Just what did I do to deserved this kind of beautiful sight early in the morning ?

I slowly turn to look at the phone on the nightstand . The ding sound produces by my phone just now is an evident that there is a message or probably an email coming in . Silently cursing the person that sent the interrupting message , I fix my eyes on Callie again . She is in my arms , sleeping soundly like there is nothing to worry about . Her face indicates that she feels safe in my arms .

Safe ! I smile to myself . That is what I want her to feel around me , to feel safe and comfortable . I continue to observe every inches of her face . Starting from her bruise forehead to her high arched eyebrows , her perfect nose . And then there is her mouth , her lovely plump lip that I have tasted .

A weird feeling creeps into my head as I feel like wanting to kiss her lip again . But then I will only wake her up . And seeing the way she breathes peacefully right now , her chest rising up and down , her right cheek resting on my chest and the scent of her hair darting into my nose , I don't have the heart to wake her up .

Not now .

I just want to stay with her like this forever if I can . But who am I kidding ? For a moment , I actually forgot that I have company to run , that I am a CEO of one of the construction / real estate Seattle - based company . I forgot all of the controls I own , I forgot that I have responsibilities . My only priority is her , only her .

Ding .

Here it comes . I roll my eyes .

Ding .

Ahh , again !

I sigh as I slowly remove Callie away from myself . I make sure the pillows are supporting her head correctly before I pull the blanket to make sure her body is covered properly . Finally satisfied with Callie's sleeping position , I slowly get out of the bed and take my phone with me , proceeding toward the bathroom .

I open the message . It's from Evelyn , asking me to call her back once I am up .

"Eve , it's six in the morning . You better tell me that there is something important happening , otherwise I am going to hang up now ." I said to my phone as soon as I get inside the bathroom .

"Have you check your email ?" Her secretary from the other line asks .

"No , I just woke up ."

"Mr Xiang's assistant texted me . He told me that he and his boss just landed like four hours ago . They asked if you could meet his boss before nine ?"

"Mr Xiang , the cement boss from Taiwan ?" I raise my eyebrows . I quickly receive a 'mmhmmm' from Evelyn . I am thinking very hard by now . "It's my first day back at work . I have staff meeting today , a lot of papers to be signed . Can't it wait ?"

"He's suddenly here ." Evelyn quickly answers . "I can push the staff meeting right after lunch if you agree to meet him in the morning . Or do you want me to push the meeting with him after lunch ?"

I cringe as I really hate a rush job . What's up with all the hurry from these Taiwanese people ? "Let's just leave things the way it is so that I can get it over with this whole cement thing . And push the staff meeting after lunch ."

"Okay , Miss Robbins . Sorry to bother you . Good .. uhh .. morning ."

And the call is ended by my secretary . I look at myself in the mirror before I begin to wash my face . The pretty and relaxing bubbles that were floating around me just now are nowhere to be found as the working mode in my body is already switched on . I exit the the bathroom and begin to tidy up the the loft , in the dark . Collecting all of the clothes that are hiding under the coffee table , I shake my head to the left and right as I put all of it inside of the basket . Callie's place is just as same as teenager's room nowadays .

I make my way toward the bookshelf near the bed as my hands start to rearrange all the books . One by one , alphabetically . I grin when I see Callie , who is still sleeping as I wonder what her reaction will be once she sees the way I arranged the book . She will definitely call me a freak . And ooh , how will she reacts seeing the loft is now seems to has bigger spaces ? I smile as I thought about her reaction , I wish I could witness it but I know that I won't be there when she wakes up later . I will be in the office and be buried into lots of papers .

Suddenly , I hear her voice as my eyes catch her changing the sleeping position . She is now lying on her back with her head sinks deep into the pillow . That is when I hear her voice again . This time , it is clearly a moan . A moan escaping from her mouth ? I rub my head in confusion .


For a moment Callie feels like she can't breathe . Arizona is now crawling up her body , staring at her with the strong blue eyes . The eyes that full with passion .

"Breathe ." Arizona says as she kisses the back of Callie's hand . A few seconds after that she gently take both of Callie's wrists before she pin it down just above the Latina's head . Arizona leans in as her lips found the red lips that she has been craving for since they shared their first kiss .

Arizona slowly bite the lower lips of the woman underneath her . Almost instantly , Callie moans and grants an access for Arizona's tongue to enter her mouth . Their tongues dance together and it becomes a competition to fight for dominance and control which Arizona quickly wins it . She continues to explore her lover's mouth for a few seconds . After a while , she pulls away , breaking the kiss . Arizona smiles when she sees the way Callie's body respond to her touch , the Latina still has her eyes close . Knowing that there's a lot of thing for them both to learn about each other bodies , it excites her . Arizona's smile grows bigger as Callie finally opens her eyes .

"What ?" Callie is still gasping for air after their steamy kiss .

"Just savoring the moment before you finally will be mine , completely ." Arizona smirks as she leans in , whispering into Callie's ear . "Or in an easy words , before I fuck you ."

Without waiting any longer , Arizona licks onto the Latina's earlobe causing Callie to closes her eyes again as her head sinks deep into the pillow . Arizona's warm breathe against her ears and her tongue caressing her sensitive spot , that's just too much for Callie to handle .

With her hands still pin down on the mattress , Arizona begins to move on top of her . The blonde starts to leave trail of light kisses from below the ear until she reaches Callie's chest , her eyes are quickly meet with a pair of erected nipples .

Arizona bites her lips as she stares at them with a clear excitement written all over her face .

"Are you just gonna gawk at them or do you want to start sucking on it ?" Callie asks in irregular breathes .

"I think I like option number two more ." Arizona winks before she moves her head forward . She wraps her mouth around the Latina nipple . She takes a deep suction which makes her receive a moan from Callie . Arizona then starts to lick the nipple in a slow rhythm at first before she changes it faster and faster as every licks that she gives , she receives a few moans in response .

"Fuck .. mhmm . That feels so good ." Calie moans as she rubs Arizona's hair , pushing her head deeper .

Arizona bites the nipple slowly as she switches the action between licks . She does the same to the other nipple . Her hand starts to travel downward . Callie is far too gone into the world of pleasure to notices the hand that is now sliding into her pink panties . Arizona continues her sucking on Callie's nipple as her finger parted the vagina lips of her lover . Holy shit , it's already wet . Like seriously wet .

Callie suddenly opens her eyes , wide . Feeling Arizona's finger roaming around her wet fold , she feels like she is about to explode . And Arizona doesn't even fingered her yet !

Arizona stops sucking on the nipple and she looks up , she gives Callie a dirty smile before she leans down again for a kiss . As her tongue enter Callie's mouth again , her finger against the Latina wet centre also does the same .

"O-oh . God !" Callie gasps . "F-fuck ."

Another finger enters , Arizona plunges her index and middle fingers in and out in a steady rhythm . Arizona can feel Callie's passage is now gripping on her fingers . With every thrusts , Callie meets her fingers halfway . "You are so tight , baby ."

"A-Arizona .. Mmm .." Moans escaping from Callie's lip is only building Arizona's desire up even more .

Feeling the additional speed that Arizona put in every pumps , Callie works her hips up to matches the pace . Heart is beating fast , Callie knows she will come anytime soon .

Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep . Beep .

It's the alarm clock . 7AM .
Her eyes fluttered open . Callie wakes up only to find herself on the bed , alone . She throws away the blanket to the other side of the bed in frustration .

It is just a dream . A really good dream , though . But what the hell ? Why can't it be real ? Callie feels her head starts to spinning as she looks around her empty loft .

Callie gets up into a sitting position as she starts to recognize one weird thing , that her loft is not messy as it always been before this . Is it Arizona that cleaned up her place ? But … She looks around .

The smell of Arizona's perfume on one the pillow is the only evidence that the blonde did stay here last night . But where is she right now ? Is she running away again ? Is she starting to regrets her action of staying here last night ?

Her head feels dizzy even more as she thinks about it . Unanswered questions are currently wandering inside of her head .

To be continued …


Growing up , I saw my parents fight . A lot . And I still remember me saying to myself that I won't be like them . If I one day , I finally found the one ... I will hold her tight and never fight . I will treat her right and never break her heart like my dad did to my mom . But life is funny . It's even funny now , that I am slowly turning into my pops. I am sorry , M .

Tuesday

21st February 2017

0215hrs