I also don't own the song - it's by Delta Goodrem!
Hey all you Lost fanatics out there! I know these chapters are quite short, but I'll update very quickly!
What the hell had she done? Kate stumbled blindly throught the jungle, collapsing against a tree.
I am in one of those dreams Where you just keep on falling No one hears you calling
It was only then when she realised where she was. Their first kiss. Their first kiss, and she had run away. This only served to bring a fresh flood of icy tears to her eyes. Her eyes that had not shed a tear since before the crash. But everything he did, every time he went near her, or even just looked at her, the barriers, the mask she had put up around herself came crashing down.
All that you saw was my smile But it's been dark for a while
How could she have believed it? Convinced herself that he would be even remotely interested in her? Well at least Ana had had the sense to knock her out of that dream. She had been told. He didn't need her.
No more sleep for my soul Or thats what I've beentold?
Well, it was gonna happen eventually. They were just too different for each other. They said that opposites attract, but Kate knew better. If they had been living in the real world, he wouldn't have looked twice at her. In fact, she would still be in jail, and he would be living in his quiet house in the suburbs, with his young wife and twenty kids.
Why did everything have to be so damn complicated?
Did you think that things would be ok?
That my life could keep going on this way?
But what was the point? Kate couldn't see what was stopping her from ending it then and there. Falling asleep, and never wakign up again. But in her mind, even then, she could see the disappointment in Jacks face at that thought. The cowards way out. So Kate contented herself with screaming.
When I cried, when I shouted and I screamed and I yelled
And I was mad and I was angry How come no one could tell?
She knew the reason why no one could tell. She had kept her feelings to herself. Deliberately. She didn't want to get hurt, and her vow afterTom died was that she would never love again. Her plan had obviously backfired, as this hurt more than anything else that had happened to her. Kate supposed this was what those soppy romance novels called heartbreak.
Nobody listened, I had a secret to keep, now the whole world knows
Kate cried. Cried for herself. Cried for Jack. Cried for Tom. Cried for the betrayal that had led her to this. Now everyone would know her secret, know about her dirty past. The one she had tried so hard to keep hidden.The past that she regretted every time she looked in the mirror.
Did you think that things would be ok?
That my life could keep going on this way?
She ahd tried for so long to keep her feelings hidden. But now it felt like her heart had been ripped open, and its contents displayed to the world.
All that you saw was my smile But it's been dark for a while And the days have gone cold
Ever since she was kidnapped, there had been tension in the air. It had been her fault, she knew that, but Jack was so bloody stubborn that he couldn't accept that she was sorry. On the outside, Kate didn't care.On the inside, she was screaming.
When I cried, when I shouted and I screamed and I yelled ...
And I was mad and I was angry
How come no one could tell?
Nobody saw her choice. It had seemed so hard at the time, one path or another. But now it was all so clear in her mind. She knew that he was all she had wanted. Why couldn't she have seenthat before?
Invader took my breath away Healer, the angel did I see
Kate had found her angel, but he didn't want her. The angel that was too pure and good to want her. The angel that didn't care. The angel that was sprinting down the muddy jugle path after her.
Jack knew Kate, really. Too well. He knew what his harsh words had done to her. He knew full well how she thought she'd let him down. He knew that this could, and probably would, send her over the edge.
He had to find her in time. Before it was too late.
It's not too far to go now Like a train off the rails here
Jack saw a body, limp in a familiar clearing. Shit. He didn't want Kate to end up like dozens before her. He knew that the guilt would be overwhelming if she went the same way as some of his patients, those who had depended on him. Kate was depending on him. And he'd let her down.
Cuz nobody listened Nobody listened
"KATE!" Jack rushed over to her limp form, just stranded in the mud. " What did she do to you?"
But they're listening now
Did ya like it? I just had to put a songfic in there somewhere! I know I havn't advanced the story much in the last 2 chapters, but that is all going to change in the next chappy when Kate is delirious and tells Jack something she will regret when she wakes up! Bring on the fluff!
Please give the lil puple button with SUBMIT REVIEW on it some love! It's getting lonely...
BTW - What do you think about me writing a new story set in the future when Kate is on the run and is injured - guess who ends up as her doctor? His name begins with J, ends in K and has AC in the middle? Can any of you guys spell? But Kate has another mysterious secrect or two... Sound good?
I'll try to post the first chappy of that tomorrow/day after!
Au Revoir Mes Amis!
Skinny Jeans xxx
