Ram sat at one of the desks and chairs next to the window where the fresh air blew gently. After Subaru made a scene and took out his well-formed anger on all of friends and shouted at Ram, she decided to go and think about what she had just seen. Having many visions of Subaru dying over and repeatedly in different scenarios just to save them made her really think on how she had treated him.

In truth, she did not want to drop the unique nickname that she created for Subaru but in that one moment where he snapped at her, she did not want to test his patience any further than that and refrained from calling him "Barusu" any longer. But she did not plan on putting a full stop to it though; only until they are on good terms.

"...Subaru-kun.. No, let this be false.. Please not like this. I can't bear the knowledge of killing him twice.." Rem on the other hand was a complete mess.

At a desk and chair to the right of Ram sat the blue Oni and her eyes were red and overflowing with tears while she was crying into her arms folded on the desk. Mourning the many passed lives of her beloved and how much mental distress she caused him.

Ram did not like to see her in the vulnerable and sorrowful state that she was in. Even though she understood why Rem was like this she wanted to not make her sister seem as fragile as she is in front of the others and this. Seeing not even Emilia breakdown this much.

"Rem? I understand that you're not doing the best right now, but you need to get up and go back in shape so we can look for that boy later." She said with a stern and solid voice, sounding unfazed by the recent events.

"Sister… sissy I want to but. I will be nothing but a distraction and a hindrance; I KILLED HIM TWICE! TWICE SISTER! Once is already more than enough by far." She broke down further, with tears covering almost all the bottom half of her face.

Frankly, Rem knew she did not kill him twice; she has only done it once according to what she saw. But in his next loop… she tortured him fearlessly and with cruelty just for information by her distrust of him, because of that smell. It was Ram who killed him in the next loop, but Rem did not want any more pain in her heart, so she forced herself to believe she killed him twice.

"Rem, we both know that he died once from both of us…" She uttered in response.

"Yes but… The second time… after I… did those horrible things to him he was already going to die. But you just killed him out of mercy. It was the only way for him not to experience any more pain inflicted by myself. I was the main cause of his death out of the two of us." Tears… so much of them you could compare her eyes to sprinklers.

"I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him. I killed him. I hurt him. I insulted him." These thoughts plagued her mind like an illness.

"Yes, Rem I know but," Ram's face twisted into a scowl at the stupidity of Barusu not telling them what had happened to him and acting like everything is fine "that fool didn't try to tell us what had happened, if he did then it would."

"Sister… Do you hear yourself? Of course, he tried! Don't you remember when he tried to tell Emilia-sama?" Rem asked, being upset and suddenly, the loop of when he did try only to be stopped by the witch came into her mind.

"Oh yes, you are correct. Regardless of that however, that doesn't give any right whatsoever to speak to me or Roswaal-sama in such a manner." She spoke thinking back from Roswaal's hospitality to the clown offering anything he so desired.

"Ram... how could you? How could you be so prideful about Roswaal-sama like this when Subaru-kun has suffered so greatly for all of us? Forced to keep his mouth shut or else many would perish? He gave more than his all. He gave his life…" This was the first time she had felt such disappointment directed towards her sister, much less addressed her by her name. Rem still felt more disappointed in herself than her sister though, as her loyalty to her sister would always stay no matter what. Her expectations just went down a little.

Pain. Tears. Swear. Blood. Despair. Hollowness. Were the things Subaru felt when he went through all of that in his loops. Rem never thought she thought that her dear, dear sister would ever say such a thing especially in a time like this.

"Sister. SWALLOW YOUR PRIDE AND OPEN YOUR EYES!"

Suddenly, everything went black.

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