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TJ: Woot. Aweeesome. Im updating. Anyways. Thanks all for the reviews. To clear up some thing. David is a friend of Inuyasha's. He doesn't play that big of a part. Anywho. Yeah. This fic is going to have alot of flashbacks. And such. My head hurts to night so leave me lots of reviews. I love you all. You stole my heart.
'Thinking'
''Talking''
''Let's go smoke some pot.'' Kagome said, pulling Sango through the throng of people.
''Lemme find Miroku then.'' Sango replied, taking her hand back.
Kagome sat patiently at the bar. The club. Again. How many nights a week did they spend there? Kagome sighed. 'I have no life. I suck.' Kagome thought in amused.
''Penny for your thoughts?''
''Hey Shippo. Do your parent's know your out this late?'' Kagome teased.
''Hey! It's only eight thirty. I have to be home by two.''
''Hahaha. Im only teasing sweetie. No need to fret.''
''So... How are you holding up?'' Shippo asked uncertainly. Last thing he needed was the wrath of Kagome on him.
''Im well. Holding to say the least. How would you feel if you were used?'' Kagome said, staring into her plastic cup.
''I never thought he'd be like that. I thought he really loved you... When I first heard the news... I thought you had left him.'' Shippo said. Kagome looked up at him, fresh tears blinding her vision.
''Well you thought wrong I guess. We all thought that though. I don't understand him at all. I mean... Things were good. My parents even agreed to let me see him. But I guess his brother told him my parents would never change their ways... He listened to his brother... Over me. That just... Sucks. I never thought Sess like me very much.'' Kagome said with a loud sigh. Shippo just patted her back.
''Buck up Kaggy. He really isn't worth it if he let you go so easily.''
''Ready to go my heart?'' Sango said, taking Kagome's hand. ''Allo shippo.''
''Uh. Hi. Where you guys heading?''
''To Miroku's to do illegal substances. Come on Angel heart. Roku's waiting in the car.'' Sango said, pulling Kagome away from the bar.
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Miroku was busy getting all the stems and seeds out of his weed while Kagome and Sango sat at a small circle table counting pills.
''So your poison tonight my lady?'' Miroku asked Kagome.
''Vics. Xanax. Marijuana. And a whollle lotta alcohol.'' Kagome giggled.
Sango closed all the blinds and turned on the CD player. After doing that, Sango walked into Miroku's kitchen, to the refrigerator and got out the liquor.
''Smirnoff. Vodka. Bacardi. And a lot of beer.'' Sango grinned. And then they got started.
Taking a xanax and a vic with water, Kagome sat anxiously awaiting the joint Sango was currently taking a hit off of.
Twenty minutes later, all three incredibly high friends looked towards the door.
''Wha's all the bangin' about?'' Miroku mumbled.
''Uh... Hi everyone. You guy's are completely fucked up huh?'' Inuyasha asked awkwardly, taking a seat on the couch.
''Thundercunt. How may we help?'' Sango said, in her best angry voice. And considering she was drunk, and stoned... She sounded more happy to see him.
''Uhm. Im just going to talk to Kagome in Miroku's room for a moment.'' Inuyasha said, helping Kagome up the stairs to Miroku's room.
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Kagome almost sobered up entirely once Inuyasha sat her on Miroku's bed.
''What part of me not wanting to speak with you don't you get?'' Kagome glared at Inuyasha, Taking a swig of her Smirnoff.
Inuyasha took in a deep breath. He let his eyes wonder over her. How could she make the simplest outfit seem so sexy? She was in cut off jean shorts and a pink wife beater. Her blue eyes were shining with anger. Her gorgeous black hair was pulled into a high ponytail.
''I just wanna talk to you. I know I messed up, but I can only apologize so much.'' Inuyasha said, sitting in the chair in-front of Miroku's bed.
''Don't you fucking say that. You fucking left me ate up and used. Do you know how it feels to be used?'' Kagome sneered.
''I never used you.''
''Well I don't know. Fucking three weeks after we fucked, you left me for Kikyo. I didn't see you for that entire three weeks either. Seeing as I was in a shelter for two and you were in another town for one of those weeks. It felt that way.'' Kagome said, staring straight into his eyes...
''I was confused! I had so many people telling me that I was better off without you! Don't you know what kind of pressure this relationship has put me under? How much fucking trouble?'' Inuyasha yelled.
''Then why do you want me back? You knew exactly what you were getting into from the moment we started dating. That night... Was so amazing to me. You said those nights I was with you were the best nights of your life. You told me so many beautiful things... Promised me so much... And fucking believed you! I fucking fell for your shit!'' Kagome screamed. By now she was in tears, knees pulled up to her chest and she sobbed into her hands.
''I meant every word I said...''
''Oh yeah right! Maybe at the time you did.'' Kagome spat out bitterly.
''I thought I was doing the right thing! I thought I was saving us a world of hurt!''
''You know what really sickens me about myself? I miss you. I fucking miss you. I told myself I wouldn't miss you. But I remember how I felt when I was with you. I told myself I would get ahold of myself. I said I wouldn't let you back in... Why am I even talking to you? I don't understand you! And Im tired of playing you little games! Im not a toy. You can't just use me and put me away when you want me. Apologizing will only get you so fucking far.'' Kagome said, getting up to leave the room.
''I love you. I trust you. I wanna be with you. I'll prove it to you. Somehow.'' Inuyasha said, walking to Kagome.
''You'll see.'' Inuyasha whispered, kissing her hard, then shoving her away... He walked out the door.
Kagome's eyes were wide as her hand went to her lips. She shut her eyes and let more tears fall.
She'd stay strong. She had to. Even if they did end up back together... Things would never be the same. Not with him and Kikyo having done the things they've done together. Not after what he did.
Laying back on the bed, Kagome let sleep claim her... Thinking about all the things that had once been, and the things he said to her.
'Is it even worth it?'
TJ: Sorry this chapter was so short. I have my reasons for it being that short. But anyways. Review. Gimme lots and lots of reviews. And I'll update faster.
