I'm Sango, Not Kagome!
Chapter One.
A/N: Hello! I'm, writing this... finally. But unfortunately, I'm not in the best of moods... So if it isn't all that good or is very morbid... My bad.
Disclaimer: I used to do very fun disclaimers. But in the old story it stared 'round chapter eight... But those will start again soon. Neways, I don't own Inuyasha... Though I really wish I did....
Sango sniffled. It hurt so much.. She hated this feeling, this betrayal, this pain. There was new ache in her heart, so much different from the other hurts that existed there. The deaths, the hatred, the thirst for revenge... she could almost take them with a smile, she was used to it, well almost anyway.
...But this feeling, it felt so disgusting and horrible, and it made her feel so sick. As if it would be easier to just die.... To leave this world... She felt numb, but at the same time felt as if needles were being pushed into her skull. Her head was pounding with a noise to hurt the gods.. It was a deafening roar, and yet it was silent at the same time. She was in an abyss of pain and hate, and it was all because of... him.
Miroku.
The man she had loved so dearly.
She grasped her head and a sob racked her body. She had a horrible headache. She wanted so much for all this pain and horridness to simply fade away with the wind.. The wind was so cold.. She was so cold.. It was so quiet here... It seemed so wrong... Was something there? Where was the deafening hell?
In her haze of pain, Sango lifted her head. It felt so wrong here. It was far too quiet, there should be more noise then this in the forest. She strained her ears. Why was it like this? Her eyes were blurry from her waterfall of pained tears, so looking around was almost pointless. She wiped her eyes and heard it, there was rustling around her. Momentarily forgetting her pain, she swirled herself around and there, in front of her, stood a bear demon.
She jerked backwards and stood up, nearly toppling onto her butt. The beast roared and walked towards her menacingly. Sango turned around and ran at full speed, silently cursing herself for not bringing her weapon. She searched around for some weapon, and saw nothing immediately. The direness of her situation reminded her of her earlier hell. Luck simply didn't like her...
Her breathing became labored, her steps became heavy, and her eyes became filled with even more tears. She was going to die... She wasn't going to get her revenge, never live her dreams. Never...never.... The bear demon was just behind when she saw it. Her refuge. A plan formed in her head. She turned sharply and ran for them. Her salvation, some bramble bushes.
She ran through them at full tilt, ignoring the pain of three inch long needles digging into her skin and viciously tearing her clothes. She ignored the warm blood sliding down her arms and legs..
She just needed to trap the bear's skin in the brambles, and then he would be stuck. After that she would have to rely on herself to kill it. She heard a frustrated roar from behind her, and she turned. She grinned weakly, the bear was stuck in the brambles, just as she had hoped. Finally something was on her side. She glanced around for something to kill him with. There was a slightly large rock near her feet. It would have to work. She reached for it and the beast screamed. It knew it's death was here. It thrashed trying to break free, but to no avail, the brambles clung tight to his bloodied fur.
She walked staggeringly over to it, and raised the rock with a pained breath. She was so tired... So weak. She would so much more rather let it go, or to ignore it and lay down to sleep. But the taija inside of her would not let her. Sango let her arm go, and the rock cracked upon the beast's skull. It looked at her with a look of disgust and hatred, then died. Sango dropped the bloodstained stone to the uneven and prickly ground and heaved a sigh of relief. She fell to her knees and crawled weakly and slowly out of the brambles to the forest around them.
Finally, she was finished. She could sleep, she could be free. She collapsed to the ground, laughing silently laughing deep inside the solitude of her own head. She ignored her instincts telling her of the dangers of sleeping unarmed in the forest. She just didn't care. Finally... finally.... Slowly, the sweet darkness of unconsciousness enveloped her, and she drifted away, very far away.
A little girl sat, smiling, in a field. She looked no older then three and she looked very rosy and tanned. She blinked her brown eyes at the sunlight and giggled. In her small, slightly dirty hands were a ring of flowers. She drew her attention from the sunlight and slouched while staring in upmost concentration at her task. She was making a flower necklace for her daddy, he was coming home soon, and he needed a welcoming gift. She grinned happily, showing a missing tooth, and laughed out in full. Daddy always looked so silly when he wore her specially made flower necklaces, but he wore them anyway. She loved her daddy so much. She also missed him so much when he was gone.
A few minutes later, the little girl held up a finished necklace and smirked triumphantly. It was finished! She shook her medium-length brown hair out of her eyes and ran to her house to put the necklace in a safe place. She wouldn't want to give her daddy a messy necklace now would she?
She pranced home, smiling. The villagers smiled back at her as she passed. She was simply so cute! Getting to her house, she saw her grandmother sitting on the porch fanning herself. She smiled at her and the woman smiled back.
"Who will get that lovely little necklace you have there Sango?" The little girl hopped up the steps. And stood in front of her grandmother.
"It's for daddy! It's my welcoming home present! I'm sure he'll love it!" The girl hopped into her house and put the necklace on her mat. She then joined her grandmother outside.
"Grandmother, how come daddy comes home so much later then the other men?" The older woman hesitated.
"Because, he's the headman darling."
"That's the only reason?"
"Y-yes sweet one. That's the only reason." The little girl looked at the older woman in curiosity. Why was grandmother being so vague? Sango shrugged it of while she ran back inside to get her doll, and came back out on the porch. She and her grandmother then got into a conversation about how the doll was a concubine and wanted to be set free because she loved the stableman. The two sat for a while, talking about the doll's unfortunate life, when Sango saw her mother run by.
"Mother!" Sango called to her mother, but she didn't seem to hear. Sango could have sworn she saw tears flowing down her eyes. A few seconds later, her father came running out of a house looking very unusually dressed. Sango got up to follow them. Her grandmother grasped her arm, trying to hold her back, but she jerked out of her grasp. Why hadn't mother responded?
She ran till she came to the back gates of the village and saw her mother standing there, with tears streaming down her pale and pretty face. She stared with hatred and betrayal at her father. The look scared Sango. What had happened?
"Tsukino! How could you? How?! I've only loved you and cared for you for so many years and this is how you repay me? By sleeping with some village whore?" Her mother spat.
"Kayaki, I'm so sorry I didn't want you to find out-"
"Of course you didn't! You didn't want to be disgraced! How could you Tsukino? How can you do something like this! I-It's practically unthinkable!"
"Kayaki-" He stated, with a more firm voice, but she interrupted again.
"How long!?" She screamed at him in rage.
"What?" He asked. Her voice softened to barely a whisper.
"How long had this been happening?" The man looked away and glared at the ground.
"Three months." Her mother burst into more sobs. "She is with a child." Kayaki fell to the ground with sobs. Sango felt tears beginning to fall down her face. Why was mommy crying? What was daddy talking about?
"Kayaki, I apologize but-"
"You must disown me... I know.. But Tsukino.. Why? I gave you all I could and more. I loved you, I still love you! Why disown me? I have only done what would please you for years, despite my wishes... Please... Don't-"
"My love for you had died. I care more for Shayumi now." Kayaki burst into more sobs, but still managed to stand up. She held her head high, tears still streaming silently down her face. She walked up to him and spoke. "If you disown me, you disown my child. I shall leave this god be damned village, but I shall take Sango with me!" She said with a fury. Tsukino turned red with anger. He raised his hand and smacked Kayaki as hard as he could. Sango gasped as her mother staggered. Why... Why had daddy hit mommy?
"She will stay here hating your memory for leaving her! Leave now wench!" Kayaki raised a hand to her face and turned.
"I shall gather my things... But Tsukino.." She turned to him. "You shall never know her, and she you." Kayaki walked silently away. Sango's eyes widened. She spun around and headed for the flower fields. Tears fell down her face. She reached the fields and collapsed. Her mother was leaving, her daddy was different... She was going to get a new sibling. She didn't want this... She wanted her family, her own family she knew. Why did it have to change? She burst into a new set of tears, and curled up into a ball.
Mommy.....
Sango jerked awake. She panicked. Where was she? Why.. What.. Then it hit her. What had happened earlier, why she was covered in dried blood, and why she felt so sick. Miroku...The bear... The dream... Why had she had that dream anyway? Must she be filled with unhappiness and disappointment?
Sango shook her head. She looked up. The moon still wasn't out, so she couldn't have been unconscious for long. She had to get back to camp, that much she knew. Ignoring the pain, something she was so used to doing, she stood on her weak and slightly bleeding legs. Damn brambles.... She walked forward, and pain raced up her leg, her head pounded, her cuts were all stinging. This was going to be a very long walk.
After what seemed like an eternity, she reached camp. She wasn't' quite sure how she managed to find it, never mind how she managed to GET to it. She glanced around. Inuyasha wasn't there, he was probably hunting. Miroku was nowhere to be seen, and Sango was very glad about this. She could only see Kagome and Shippo. She walked slowly into the clearing. Kagome jerked her head and saw Sango. Her clothes were torn to shreds, her hair was messy, and she was bleeding all over. At once her 'protect friend' defenses went up.
"Oh my God! Sango what happened to you?"
"I was alone it the forest, and I got attacked. I had to run into some brambles to kill the demon." She looked down. "Do you have any clothes I can borrow? I stupidly forgot my other yukata at Kaede's." Kagome nodded.
"I think I have an extra uniform. We're about the same size, I'm sure it'll fit." Sango nodded. She hated the prospect of wearing that stupid, short thing, but it was the best thing she had at the moment, and she wasn't going to pass it up. "Thank you so much Kagome." She nodded.
"It's no problem Sango. Lets clean those cuts." She grabbed her backpack and began to shuffle through it. She began to take out a lot of things. She took out a case of ramen, some books, shampoo, and other random cleaning items. Then she pulled out her school uniform and set it aside. Going back into her backpack, she began to look for her first aid kit. With a happy "Aha!" She pulled it out and smiled at Sango. She softened her eyes.
Thank God for you Kagome. Thank God.
A few hours later, after her cuts were cleaned and the worst of them bandaged, Sango dressed into her new attire. It was very short, and she felt very uncomfortable, but Kagome seemed so happy about it. She kept babbling about them being twins. Sango smiled despite her situation. At least Kagome was happy. Inuyasha then walked into the clearing and blinked.
"Umm, Sango, Why the hell are you wearing Kagome's school uniform?" Sango looked down.
"I had run into the forest and didn't bring my weapons. I was attacked by a bear, and I ran into a patch of brambles to kill him. My yukata was shredded," She said, pointing to a pile of slightly bloody scraps of clothing. Inuyasha nodded.
"Well that sucks. Anyway I," he pulled out two rabbits from his coat, "brought food. Lets get to eating it shall we? Sango, will you skin it?" She nodded and he handed them to her and she began her work. She concentrated all of her mind on it, not letting her thoughts wander.
They all sat in the quietness for some time, each doing something. Sango was left to her rabbits, Shippo was drawing while Kagome was studying. Inuyasha was sitting in a tree. It was tranquil, and Sango felt very happy about this. Then the tranquility vanished.
"Hello everyone!" Sango's eyes widened. She should have known he would come to camp. She wanted to hit herself and scream "Stupid!" but she knew she couldn't. They would think she had gone mental. She forced herself to speak.
"Hello Miroku." The others followed suite. Why, why had she come back so easily? She could feel his confused stare on her, and she didn't like it. Why couldn't he leave her alone?
"Sango, why on earth are you wearing that? Where are your clothes?" Sango kept staring at the nearly skinned rabbits, refusing to look up.
"They got shredded because I had to run away from a demon." She answered quickly, clearly not wanting to talk to him. "Well, are you okay?"
"Yes." Miroku shrugged it off. She just must be tired. Besides, he was in too good of a mood to be worried about the predicament of Sango's clothes.
Kagome, on the other hand, was confused. Sango had given her and Inuyasha a more detailed description. Why didn't she want to talk to Miroku? It was like she was trying not to talk to him. Had something happened between them? She stared at Sango. What had happened? She was usually more talkative to him, and she was almost ignoring him. It confused Kagome to no end. She was curious, she wanted to know so badly what happened. She was about to get up and talk to Sango when Miroku cleared his throat.
"I have an announcement. While I was in town today, I met a beautiful woman. She agreed to bear my child, so I apologize for my lateness." He smiled. Kagome and Inuyasha stared at him in shock. Kagome covered Shippo's ears. Sango kept to her skinning. Miroku sweat dropped. "Oh no, we didn't do that, we just talked about it. I'm going to join you after a few more days here. I hope this is okay with you?" They all nodded, but Kagome saw Sango tense up. Then it hit her.
Sango had been in love with Miroku! How could she had not seen it? She could have set them up together! Now Miroku would be with another woman and Sango-
Wait a minute, Sango seems to have known about it already... She must have seen them together! Oh SHIT!
Kagome felt a wave of sympathy wash over her. Poor Sango, she must be hurting so much. She stared and began to think. If she had seen Inuyasha with another woman, other than Kikyo that is, she would be crushed. She could barely imagine what was going through Sango's heart right now.
"I've finished skinning the rabbit Kagome. Lets get it over a fire." Sango stated, staring at the ground. Kagome nodded and walked over to her.
"Sango, are you ok?" Kagome asked in a whisper. Sango hesitated, then response.
"I'm not sure Kagome. But I don't want to talk about while he's here. I'm not too shocked you knew, but I really don't want to think about this. I want to think about dinner." She said near silently. Inuyasha listened in. He snorted. Miroku wasn't really the smartest man in the world. He was actually very dense, and Inuyasha was almost shocked to realize this. His eyes turned to Sango.
Poor girl.
Sango and Kagome got a fire going, and soon the rabbits were on a spit. Kagome added some spices, and a delicious aroma filled the air. Everyone was ecstatic when the food was done, and they ate happily, all except Sango, who put on a mask of happiness to fool everyone, and it worked. She tried to be talkative, and Kagome brushed off her earlier unhappiness as she seemed to be happy now. Naive fools.
After the meal, they began to get ready for bed. Sango was eager to get to sleep. Maybe when she woke up, everything in her life would heal. Maybe it would all get better.
She drifted off to sleep, ignoring the ache's in her heart that wanted so badly to come out and tear at her mind. She slowly drifted away from the pain and hells of her world into a night of sweaty tossing and turning, and near sleeplessness.
A/N: I thought that was pretty good, though a bit rushed at the end, sorry about that. I'm also sorry for the lack of updates, I guess I've just been in a kind of slump. Ah well, you have you chapter, and I'll try to update SOMETHING relatively soon. I hope it was long enough, Three lines under seven pages! Plus I'm gonna edit this after I'm done with the AN, so it might get longer or shorter. Neways, have a good night or day!
