Hello peeps! sory for the wate, but I've been doing A-levells (hint: I update saster when fuled by reviews).

I'd like to thank Hannoka for her very nice review, and tell Hanafox that she may like to check her use of capitall letters. I'll also take the opertunity to say that inless you've invented a cure for dyslexia, flames regarding my spelling are a thoura wast of everyone's time. So don't.


Yuki,

wow, i gota say I didn't exactly expect you to reply. I figured you'd just chuck it, I wasn't even sure you'd read it. Cause, that would have made it prety pointless to send give you it in the first place, but I just couldn't go without- well, you can figure.

But as to what happened, i don't know i can just itell/i you. See, all the memories are beried in youre head, you never really lost them, just can't find them any more. So for one think you should try to remember yourself. And the second is that no matter how much I tell you and how much you belive me, it'll still be something that makes practickally no sence from someone you've convinced youre self you hate (yer, don't you think I don't know just how many lie you tell you're self everyday. You should stop, by the way, youre a lot happier when youre honist with you'reself. I speack from you're experience.)

Ok, I've just read what I've writen and realised it's goning to be no help whatsoever. Sory,
but you do tend to bring out the vauge in me (if that's even a phrase, I don't know).

Anyway, as I said, you just have to remember what happened. We worked something out for incase this ever happened (I won't go into how exactly, it took us howers of going throug psychology books to get it.). There's a spesifick memory triger that should start you off remembering, and the rest should lead from there. It might be right away or it might take a few days, so maybe do it in a holaday

I'll tell you it, but you've got to think about some things first. Please, just think about them.

Firstly, i'm not geting out of this hell-hole. No matter what you remember, were never going to be together again. You'll have to live the rest of you're life knowing what happed and never seeing me again, and there are things you could remember that will make that horable.

Secondly, no matter how important these memories where to us, and how much it ment at the time, it wasn't no fairy taill. Bad things happened, we got hurt, and we hurt other people.
it's not going to be the sort of thing that you lable the 'good times'. Bloody strainge, but not all that good.

Thirdly, if you do remember, who are you going to talk to about it? Sure as hell not not me anymore. Not Sugure, not Hatori, not Haru (trust me on this) or Kagora (ireally/i not Kagora,
I don't think Momiji could keep it quiret, you'll never want to face youre brother with this,
and you'll hesitate to let Tohru know what happened. What are you going to do if it's too much for you? You'll have to cope on you're own.

I gess it's not really what you'de expect me to say, but that's the truth of it. Perhaps you should just forget it, walk away, get on with you're life, It woudl probably be for the best.

Anyway, that said, this is the memorie trigger, if you're sill intent on doing it.

You kneed a photograph with us both in it. That should'nt be so hard since Tohru got hear.
Then you got'a stand in fround of a mirror (I know it sounds kinda spooky, but hay, it was you're idear) so you can see both you're reflection and the photo, and say 'I want to remember' over and over till something happens. Or till you feel really stupid. It might be that you start to remember in dreams or something. I don't really know. You're the one that understood this stuff

Well, that it. I guess I might hear from you again, but I might not.

Kyo.

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Yuki sat quietly on his bed. He still held the letter in his hand, but he was stairing mutelly at the wall. He looked down to the crumpled paper, then back up to the wall again.Tohru came to the door and oppened her mouth to request enterence, but she soor him through the cracked opening, soor the tears painting smooth torents down his porcelin cheeks. She bit her lip, and left. Yuki stayed, oblivious. Howers passed in deep thorght. Finally, Yuki stired. He glanced one last time to Kyo's warning, and stood.

He knew what he had to do. He really didn't see any choice.


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