An: this is my first fic. I love constrictive criticism, so go ahead it will make me a better writer.

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed and never will. Only in my wildest dreams.

MILLY'S POV

Cry. He was gone, so that's what I did, I cried. I never thought loosing someone could hurt this much. I guess you never realize what you have until it's gone, and that guy, he made the pain worse. Why did he have to come on this ship? Why? He was kind of cute… WAIT what am I saying! Tolle is dead I can't get over him this fast can I? You can… who are you and why are you in my head? I'm your heart, the one that told you to jump Flay when she had the gun and was going to shoot him. Oh… then tell me am I aloud to fall in love with someone this fast after Tolle died? Isn't that bad I mean he just died. That my dear is for you to find out over time… I miss you Tolle, I wish you were here.

"Milly.." I sat up right there. That was Tolles voice! "Tolle?" I whispered. But I was wrong it was just Sai, he sat down next to me. "How are you doing? That was a hard situation to go through."He told me.

"I'm fine…" I knew he knew I wasn't, but I wasn't going to say. I was looking away from him but I could feel him frowning at me when I said that.

"Are you sure? I mean you were a little shaken in the Medical wing." Ha! A little shaken I almost killed that guy. If that was a little shaken then I want to see what he thinks psychotic is.

"I'm fine really Sai. You can leave if you want I'm not going to kill my self if that's what you think. I actually feel better." I heard him sigh and stand up.

"Okay Milly, if you need something just find me okay?" I nodded, he left. I wonder if I will ever feel completely happy again.

DEARKA'S POV

I can't believe that I hit the nail on the head when I decided to make that comment. I should've just said something like "what is the little natural tired?" but no I had to ask if her boyfriend died. Someday my big mouth is going to get me killed. I think Yzak and maybe even Athrun told me that once. Damn I'm so stupid; I just kept picking on that girl. Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, I banged my head against the bed. "OW!" great I'm acting like the naturals, worse I don't think naturals are that stupid. I guess I should apologize to her if I ever see her again. She was pretty, I smacked my head again. What am I talking about she's a natural! I should just get some sleep and think about this later.

SAI'S POV

I hope Milly really is okay. Tolle wasn't just her boyfriend he was her best friend, I know I could have seen them getting married, and that guy. He hurt her more, I don't know what he said but I do know that it was bad if he got Milly to try and kill him. But she seemed better when I talked to her, more sarcastic but better. I also think she misses Kira, but something makes me think that Kira is still alive. I hope I'm right but I can't be, can I? "Birdie" I look up, there it is Birdie Kira's prized position. I think I heard from him that a friend had given it to him a long time ago. Things are a lot different since Kira and Tolle died and it hasn't even been that long. I look at Birdie on my shoulder. Now that I think about it that fight I had with Kira over Flay it was stupid. Flay and I just weren't meant to be. It wasn't all Kira's fault, it was partly Flays, she used Kira and I think even he knows it. I shake my head, this is too much to think about right now, I should get some sleep. So I walked into my room along with Birdie. "I will keep Birdie safe for you… Kira…" and I laid down and closed my eyes keeping Birdie on next to me.