Chapter Three.
"Here," Sawyer chucked Kate a bottle of alcohol over the camp fire towards Kate, "you need it."
Kate grinned, in spite of the earlier events of that night. "Weren't you supposed to give this to Jack?" she asked him playfully.
Sawyer grinned, "good thing I didn't, I ain't gonna let the last of my alcohol go to waste." He took a quick sip from his own bottle.
Kate let out a small laugh and took a drink from hers to, she certainly was thankful for it, "what else did you bring?" she asked.
Sawyer grinned, "Why do you wanna know sweet cheeks?" he asked, before pulling a book out. "I did bring some pretty interesting reading martials, though" he chucked the book towards her with a grin.
"Oh my God!" Kate burst into laughter as she saw what Sawyer had been reading. "You're reading Are You There, God? It's Me, Margaret?" She grinned at him.
"It's the only thing to read, Freckles," Sawyer replied, as Kate contiued to giggle. "Besides, seems you read it before anyways."
"Yeah, but that's different." She threw it back at him.
Sawyer caught it in his hands and shoved it back into his backpack. "Want something to eat, Frekcles?" he asked. He held up two chocolate bars. "Look what I manged to swipe."
Kate laughed at Sawyer cocky grin, and moving closer to him, gladly took it.
"Why you so quiet sweet cheeks?" Sawyer asked, as 10 minutes passed in silence.
Kate shrugged, "I was just thinking….do you think Locke and Jack are ok….that it hasn't got them….that they haven't?"
Sawyer sighed, "hell, Yoda can take care of anyone Freckles, and I'm sure he's probably found good ol' doc and there sitting around a camp fire roastin some boar." Kate forced herself to smile. She wanted to ask him a question, a lot of questions, but how could she just burst out with them?
"Well?"
"Well what?" she asked.
"Why ain't you talking?"
"I just," she sighed, trying to think of what to say. She wanted to ask the question that had been bugging her for so long, but how?"Remember, remember when you woke up in the hatch, when I called you Wayne?" she asked him quietly.
Sawyer looked at her confused, "yeah, but what the hell has that got to do with anything Freckles?"
Kate shook her head. "Nothing it's just, I think….Wayne..he,"she struggled to find a way to tell him so he wouldn't think her crazy, but it was crazy. She sighed, "I, I think Wayne possesed you that day."
For once Sawyer seemed speechlees, finely he manged to splutter, "what?"
Kate took a deep breath. "Before, when I was taking care of you…you asked me why I killed you, then you …you strangled me." She looked at the flickering flames of the fire, avoiding his eyes. "I..I ran off and then Jack came and found you on the floor. He went after me and we…we…"
Sawyer raised his eyebrows. "You what?" He was now highly interested in what Kate had to say.
"We kissed."
There was a horrible silence, Kate looked up and saw that Sawyer was upset. "Well," he said quietly, "guess that's why we're out here then, huh? Your after the doc." Kate shook her head.
"No! sawyer its not like that, I don't know why I did it, it…it just happened, I, I can't explain it." She whispered.
Sawyer didn't reply, and Kate wished she'd never said anything, but she went on. "Anyway, that's when I came back, and, I called your name, but you didn't reply, but when I said Wayne you did-that's why I was talking to you about it, about why I did it, when you woke up."
Sawyer seemed to be trying to figure this all out. "who's Wayne?" he finely asked.
"He was my father," said Kate softly.
Sawyer frowned, "and, what happened to him? Why would he posses me?"He seemed to be getting more and more confused by the minute.Kate forced herself to look Sawyer in the eye before she whispered,
"Because I killed him."
Sawyer seemed both shocked and surprised. Kate was even shocked at herself. She'd told Sawyer of all people,her most deepest and darkest secret. Why had she done that? How could she ever trust him after he'd conned her and everybody else? She immediatelywished she could take it back, that she hadn't been so open.
"Why?" was the only question he manged to ask.
Kate didn't want to answer, but she forced herself to. "Because I hated him Sawyer. I hated the way he treated me, and my mother-I hated the fact that he was a part of me!" she was breathing heavily, having let her anger take the better of herself. She searchd Sawyers face, looking for some kind of emotion. The shock had disappeared from his face, now it was replaced by what almost seemed to be sadness. For a moment Kate thought he wasn't going to say anything. Then he began to speak quietly.
"Sounds just like my daddy Freckles," he said quietly. Suddenly Kate remembered the game of "I never" when each of them had addmited to killing someone.
"Did you-," she began but Sawyer cut her off.
"I never killed my daddy Kate, he beat me to it. Shot my ma and himself when I was eight."
Kate frowned, "but in the game of I never…"
Sawyer shook his head, "I shot someone else Freckles, I shot the man I thought was responsible for my parents death." For a while no one spoke, then Kate quietly questioned,
"Thought?"
Sawyer just nodded, "turned out I was beaten at me own game, I was conned into killing the wrong guy."
The two sat side by side, silent. Sawyer looked almost like a broken man, and both he and Kate were thinking of the wrongs of their pasts.Kate would never had though minutes ago they'd both be spilling their deepest and darkest secrets, and trusting each other with them.
"You know why I came out here Freckles?" Sawyer said slowly, "cos, hell, I'm in love with ya." He looked at her with pleading eyes, it was something he'd never thought he'd voice outloud, not even if he felt that way. But something inside of Sawyer had told him that it was now, or never.
Kate stared at him, not knowing what to say. Her heart was beating strangly fast, and her stomach felt full of butterflies. Then, before she knew what she was doing, she kissed him.
They drew away somewhat quickly, looking into each others eyes, each looking for rejection-but finding acceptance. Slowly Sawyer leaned in and they began to kiss slowly and tenderly.
Kate could hardly believe this was happening, but it felt so right.
Shehad made her choice.
Well, there you go, a very hard chapter to write but I hope you enjoyed it. Oh, and yeah, guess theres no chance of Jate now-but Jack will find happiness:D
