Chapter four
"Looks like they both went this way," Locke said to Jack as they both followed Kate and Sawyer's tracks through the jungle, "they shouldn't be much further ahead."
Jack didn't answer as he followed Locke, he hadn't wanted to turn around, but before Locke had come he'd been lost, with no food or water looking for someone who might be miles away, so reluctantly he'd agreed to come back.
He was still fuming though. After all they had been through, they had finely caught one of them-and then before he knew it their prisoner been gone, but how? He still couldn't figure out how their prisoner had got away. Silently he vowed to himself to keep looking when he could, even if he had to wait months. He was not giving up. He was going to find Henry whoever he was, and get back Michael and Walt too.
But when he had heard about Sawyer and Kate-and the monster, it had pushed those thoughts out of his mind. Now he was just worried. And so Llocke and himself had spent the night tracking. Now the sun was just beginning to rise, and he hoped that were getting closer to where ever Kate and Sawyer had spent the night.
But mostly Jack worried about Kate, what if she was hurt? What if the monster had gotten to her? he'd never forgive himself, after all, she'd been looking for him.
But deep inside of him, a worried sort of jealousy stirred-he was jealous about her and Sawyer being alone together. Though he convinced himself he shouldn't be. Kate wouldn't steep that low, her and Sawyer were just friends, weren't they?
He just didn't see what Kate saw in Sawyer, to him, the guy was an idiot. A selfish cowboy who only thought of himself-hadn't he proved that to everyone the night he conned them? Hadn't he proved it to Kate when he stole a kiss from her? Jack just couldn't understand how Kate had feelings for him, to him, Kate was much too good for Sawyer.
The sun had just risen now and they were still walking. All around them the jungle filled with the sounds of birds singing their morning songs.
Suddenly they came across a makeshiftcamp.
A fire was burning pathetically, it last embers almost burnt out. Next to it was Sawyer's and Kate's backpacks. On the other side of the dying fire lay Kate and Sawyer.
Kate was lying next to Sawyer, her head resting on his chest as she snuggled up to him for warmth. He had his arms wrapped around her, hugging her close to him. Both looked content and peaceful, lying so close together.
Nothing could have prepared Jack for that, and he just stared. Stared in disbelief, in shock, in pain. In jealousy.
Locke looked at him, checking his reaction, but Jack didn't let any emotion show through, or at least he tried not too.
Suddenly Kate stirred, hugging Sawyer closer to her, she slowly opened her eyes. When she saw Jack and Locke, staring down at her, she jumped, pulling away from Sawyer with a surprised and guilty look on her face.
Sawyer groaned. "what ya doin' Freckles?" he mumbled, as she jumped to her feet.
Jack was staring straight at her, as she hastily did the top buttons of her shirt up. He had no idea what do, or to say. So he just stared. Locke was looking elsewhere, as if the trees were suddenly amazingly interesting.
"Hi, Jack." Kate mumbled, her face red with embarrassment and shame.
At the sound of Jack's name Sawyer opened his eyes and got to his feet with a look of surprise. "Hey doc," he said in a cherry tone, "Fancy seeing you here."
Sawyer leaned over, and finding his T-shirt, quickly put it on, smirking at Kate as he did so, but Kate didn't return the smile, despite how happy she had felt moments before she realised Jack and Locke were there.
The trek backwas quiet and seemed so slow. Kate and Sawyer trailed behind Jack and Locke, talking amongst themselves while Jack strove ahead even of Locke, trying to walk off his anger and bitter disappointment.
As soon as they reached camp Jack disappeared, probably to the hatch. Locke wasn't far behind him. "So Freckles, doc didn't seem too happy." Said Sawyer, moving closer to her.
Kate frowned; she certainly didn't find it funny. "Yeah, wonder why?" she said sarcastically. Sawyer just grinned at her.
Kate spent the rest of the day with Sawyer, and the night. It was the talk of the camp, but Kate just ignored it, while Sawyer seemed to take pride in it.
He was certainly happy, and Kate was too, but she still couldn't help but wonder about Jack. She wanted to talk to him, apologise and explain why. But she didn't know how to, and a part of her was too scared to try.
"What's this?" Kate asked as she continued to go through Sawyer's everlasting stash on a particularly hot day.
Now that she was with Sawyer, it had somehow automatically entitled her to his stash, and Kate was amazed at half the stuff Sawyer had in it.
"Oh my god Sawyer-Tampons?" she burst into laughter as she pulled the packet out. Sawyer went slightly red.
"What? You never know when they'll come in handy for a trade, Freckles." Kate was still laughing.
"Your unbelievable Sawyer," she said, throwing them aside.
Sawyer leaned over and kissed her, "Well since I don't need em' how about you take them Freckles?" Kate giggled as he kissed her again.
Soon the weeks passed and Kate and Sawyer became even closer.
But as the weeks passed Kate began to get morning sickness. At first she ignored it, tried to deny it, but it was painstakingly clear.
She was pregnant
But as much as she knew she was, she wanted to make it real, she wanted to be sure, she wanted evidence. The only problem was, after Sawyer had given Sun the pregnancy test-they'd given it to Jack.
Jack who hadn't talked to her since he'd seen her and Sawyer sleeping together, Jack who wouldn't even look at her.
But she had to know.
Kate walked towards the hatch in the afternoon. Locke was there, as well as Charlie who was listening to some music with Hurley. "Have you seen Jack?" Kate asked Charlie.
"Sure, he's in there," Charlie pointed the kitchen, "Why anything wrong?" Kate shook her head, though she knew she wasn't being very convincing, "oh no, nothings wrong."
Jack looked up in surprise when he saw her, "Kate," he managed to say. "What are you doing here?"
"I need to ask you something," Kate said quietly, Jack just looked at her,
"Well, what?"
Kate frowned, "can we, can we talk outside?" she asked. Jack stopped what he was doing and glared at her.
"Why can't be just talk here, Kate?"
"Please, Jack." For a moment Kate thought Jack was going to refuse, but then he nodded his head. Putting the last of the dishes he'd been cleaning away, he led Kate outside.
They walked through the jungle for a bit, when Jack finely broke the silence, "well, Kate, what is it you want to ask me?"
There was no easy way to ask him, to tell him, so Kate just said is straight. "Jack I need the pregnancy test."
Jack stared at in surprise. "Your pregnant!" he almost shouted the words.
Kate glared at him, "well I can't be sure Jack, unless I get the pregnancy test but, yes, I think I am." Jack seemed to be finding it hard to process the information.
"Your pregnant?" he repeated, pacing on the stop in front of her. "Your pregnant-to Sawyer?" he looked at her with a disgusted look plastered on his face as the last words came out.
Kate glared at him. "Yes Jack, yes I am-not that it's any of your business anyway." She wished she'd never come, and she turned to leave, angry and shaking, but Jack grabbed her.
"Let me go!" she fought at him, punching him hard but he held onto her. Forcing her to look in his eyes he asked the question that must have been bugging him each day Sawyer and Kate had spent together.
"Why Sawyer, Kate? Why?" He sighed, and releasing her whispered. "You're too good for him Kate."
Kate exploded, too good for him! Who did Jack think she was?
"Too good for him!" She yelled, pushing Jack away, and continuing to yell;. "Too good for him? Do you want to know who I am Jack? What I did?"
Jack just stared at her in shock, it was obvious he hadn't expected this reaction.
Kate didn't care though, and she continued screaming at him. "You want to know what I did Jack? I killed him; I killed my father, and my best friend! So don't you ever tell me I'm too good for anyone! Ever!"
Kate didn't know what caused her to explode. Maybe it was the anger which had slowly been building up over the weeks as Jack refused to even look at her, or was the guilt she had inside of her for not choosing him. Or did she just want him to know who she really was, to stop living a lie.
She would never really know.
For a long time she continued to glare at him, her green eyes narrowed. She realised that tears were running down her face, but she ignored them. She wanted Jack to say something, do something, anything! Anything would be better than this silence.
In any other fight, Jack would be comforting her, but now he just stood there, staring at her as if he no longer knew who or what she was.
Then he turned away, without a word, and left her alone, sobbing alone in the middle of the jungle.
Wow, another really hard chapter to write, but I hope its alright. I'm going away so you might have to wait a week ormaybe morefor the next update, (unless the place has internet) But I will update, I promise!
