Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or Rookie Of The Year.
Liars And Battle Lines
She was my first crush. She was my first love. My first everything. Well, except for sex. But that's a whole other story. When I knew I had another chance, it was amazing. I was going to make it right. I loved her. I still do. But she didn't love me back. In a way, she used me. And I paid for it.
It's hard to believe a liar when she's calling out your name
The signals are calling out so well
You called her lover, she punished you so deep
Her voice rings out like a beautiful melody
I can't sleep now. All of the 'what ifs' and 'maybes' keep my eyes open. I'm beginning to go crazy. I'm like a walking zombie. If I don't sleep soon, I think my parents will kick me out of the house.
I'm breaking all the angles, I'm falling down in circles, I am gasping for sleep
She knew I was weak. She knew I was fragile. She knew how I felt about her. I wouldn't have done what we did if I didn't feel that way. Now I feel like something's missing from me. That night cleared up everything I had doubted.
And did you see me falling?
Like a sun down in the evening
I am so dark and weak
I had ringer ID. Well, just for her. She deserved it. It was her favorite song. "Hey, Paige." "No time for small-talk, hun. I just wanted to tell you…I'm leaving for Banting a little early. Like…tomorrow to be exact. So um…I have to get back to packing. Talk to you later hun." That dial tone rang in my ear for 5 minutes before I hung up.
So she's packing up to leave for good now
Battle lines have been drawn out love
I got into the car. Before I put the key in, I sat and stared at the steering wheel. This is the same car that she totaled. The same car that she paid to fix. The same steering wheel that was in her hands. I put my head down and smelt it. It was disappointing that her scent didn't stay on the wheel, but just knowing that she touched it gave me a sense of serenity. I needed to tell her that I was going to go with her.
And when we drive, we'll take that long way home
And I apologize for bleeding words
We'll pack our things up like we should and go our ways back home
I banged on the door until she came down in flannel pajama bottoms and a tank-top. "Hey hun, what are you doing here so late? It's…11:30 at night." "Paige I have to tell you something." "Well, go ahead. I don't have all night. I have to rest up for the drive." "I'm driving you." "What?" "Paige…I'm going with you." Paige laughed nervously. "Hun, what do you mean you're coming with me?" "I'll transfer schools. I just need to be with you." She looked at me with a confused look on her face. She shook her head. "I can't do this right now." And she closed the door. I put my hands up on the door and rested my head on it. I stood like that for a few minutes. This was the fourth time I failed.
It's hard to believe a story that's been told so well
All these lines are sounding the same
I got in the car and looked at the rosary beads hanging from the rearview mirror. "God…if you're awake, which you are probably…I know I've made mistakes but…I need her. Please." I turned the ignition and put my foot on the gas. I looked up and saw her open the door. "Wait!" She yelled with a scared look on her face. I got out of the car and ran up to her.
Cross my fingers, hold your breathe
"Why don't you come in? It's messy but…we should talk." "Is that a good thing?" "Yeah."
Suburban legend, queen of that
I leave you with this beautiful melody
