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Chapter 14

"So tomorrow you will be here by eight in the morning. We are going to all drive over together to the show. Remember no direct answers about your sophomore album and no comment about your family. You like to keep your private life, private," Darius said droning on about the dos and don'ts of my answers at my next interview.

"Darius, it's the same answers at my last two interviews," I said yawning. I can't believe he called me in for another meeting about the same thing we'd been talking about all week. I wasn't going to say anything but what was clearly written out for me.

"Just checking, I know how you like to ad lib," Darius said seriously.

"No ad libbing," I mimicked nodding my head. It was still another ten minutes before I was released and I walked slowly back to the recording studio I was assigned with Kwest. Darius wanted us to start working on another song and once again, it was someone else's.

"Somebody doesn't look to happy," Tommy remarked.

"What do you want Tommy?" I asked tiredly. I wasn't in the mood to deal with him. It was to early in the morning and I was to exhausted.

"Have you talked to Sadie?" Tommy asked curiously.

"No," I said staring at him. "Why?" When he looked down at the ground I started nodding my head. "So you guys are together again, that's great, just perfect."

"Jude, you have it totally wrong," Tommy denied shaking his head in surprise.

"No, I think I'm finally getting something right in my life," I said sadly. "I thought you'd finally saw the real Sadie but I guess not. I shouldn't be surprised but I am."

"You are wrong about your sister Jude. She's not as bad as you think," Tommy said before rubbing his hand on his forehead. That was only going to make Jude even more mad.

"Well, I guess you see something that I just don't see then," I said sadly. I walked over to my guitar and picked it up before tossing it back down. "I didn't need this now Tommy. Thanks a lot!"

"What are you talking about? I just asked if you talked to your sister," Tommy yelled.

"I can't deal with this now. I have to do another damn interview and smile and make nice even though I want to rip this unnatural blonde hair out of my head. I have to sing that song, if you can even call it that, again without throwing up. I don't know if I can do that. I have to break up with my boyfriend because he never should have been my boyfriend in the first place," Jude rambled on. "My mom's dating somebody and she won't tell me who or even talk about it at all. James thinks I'm selfish because I'm not sure if I like the fact my mom is dating, and now I have to watch you date my sister."

"You're breaking up with Spied?" Tommy asked surprised.

"I was…I am…I was…I don't know anymore!" I yelled. I began pacing back and forth my head pounding with a migraine. "I don't know what to do, who I am. I don't know anything anymore."

"Jude calm down," Tommy said walking over to me.

I stared at him as he wrapped his arms around me slowly. "Tommy, I don't know who I am. I look in a mirror and I see this weirdo looking back at me."

"Jude, you're still you, somewhere inside there," Tommy teased rubbing his hand up and down my back.

"I hate my life," I mumbled more to myself then to him.

"Jude I know why you're letting Darius boss you around and why you are singing such crappy music," Tommy said after a moment of silence went by.

"What?" I asked pulling away from him.

"Sadie told me about your mom and why you have to maintain your position here at G Major. But I think you need to talk to Sadie, you don't know what's going on," Tommy said softly.

"You have no idea what's going on in my life Tommy because Sadie has no idea. She's never there, she never calls," I said coldly. I wasn't going to sit here and listen to this. He had no right to sit here and tell me that I had no idea what was going on. I lived there, I had to fall asleep never knowing if it was all going to fall apart around me.

I walked to the door and turned around one last time before storming out. "I think you need to stay out of my life and get one of your own. I hope you and Sadie are really happy together."

The only thought running through Tommy's head was how everything could go so wrong so quickly. One minute he had thought she was really hearing him and the next she's telling him to be happy with Sadie. "Sadie better talk to you quickly Jude because I can't watch much more of this."

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I stormed into the apartment looking for a fight and boy was I glad to see Sadie sitting on the couch with James. I dropped my guitar case on the ground and pushed the sleeves of my shirt up, I couldn't wait to smack that half smile off her face.

"I'm going to go," James said making his way out of the apartment.

"Congratulations," I said between clenched teeth.

"On what?" Sadie asked confused.

"I hear you're back with Tommy. Guess I was wrong, you two are meant for each other," I said clenching my fists. I so wanted to hit her right now. My life was falling apart and hers was going perfectly. She went to college, she lived in a gorgeous dorm and now she landed the guy that I wanted. How come life couldn't be fair?

"What are you talking about?" Sadie asked even more confused. She stood up and crossed her arms across her chest. "I don't know who your source is but Tommy Q only has eyes for you."

"My source, as you call it, is Tommy Q himself," I spat out suddenly feeling sick to my stomach. I was losing Tommy all over again.

"I seriously doubt Tommy told you we were back together. I'm sure you jumped to conclusions like always," Sadie said rolling her eyes.

"What?" it was my turn to be confused.

"I'm only going to say this once, so pay attention," Sadie said slowly. "I am not with nor will I ever be with Tommy again. We are friends, sorta, and that's it. We both share a mutual concern for you, my sister and his secret crush."

"What are you talking about?" I asked unclenching my fists. I was so confused now.

"Jude, you can't really believe that Tommy wants me," Sadie said in disbelief. "Okay, I'm going to say this slowly for the mentally impaired. Tommy doesn't like me or anyone else, Thomas Quincy likes Jude Harrison, a.k.a. you. Do you understand me?"

"But…" I said softly.

"No there is no buts. I dated him Jude, I know for a fact that he's liked you for months, probably since he met you," Sadie said smiling to herself. I'd never seen her smile like that in all the years she'd been my sister. "It's kinda cute, the way he worries about you. The look in his eyes when he's thinking about you. The songs he writes about you. I can't wait to meet a guy like that."

"I don't know what to say Sadie," I said finally.

"Don't say anything," Sadie said grabbing my hands and pulling me over to the couch. "Jude, I know mom told you that she had to quit her night job or something like that so she needs some of your money to make ends meet."

"Actually, no she got fired from her job Sadie. She needs me to help make ends meet just for a little while," I explained.

"So she lied, I shouldn't be surprised," Sadie said shaking her head in anger. "Mom didn't get fired Jude, she quit. She's not looking for another job and she's using your money for the rent and bills. Her money is going towards a new wardrobe for the man she's seeing, seems he has money so she likes to look like she has some too."

I just stared at her. A part of me believed what she was saying. Because nothing about my family surprises me anymore. I never thought my dad would cheat and I never thought my mom would willingly sit back and let my dad screw her on child support payments. I never thought Sadie would come forward and tell me this. But I didn't know what to say. My mom is the only person who has been here, for me, since I got back from my Shay's tour. I didn't want to believe that she would lie to me like that.

"I think you should go," I said softly standing up and walking to the apartment door. I watched as Sadie nodded and grabbed her purse before she walked out the door, she turned around and smiled sadly at me.

"Just ask her Jude," she said before turning and walking down the hallway.

I stood there, holding the door open for a long time. Sadie's last words repeated over and over in my mind.