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Chapter 3:

Scott and Rogue had been back at the manor for three full days before someone was finally convinced her to leave the unconscious Scott's side. It was another week before they could get her to talk, and even then it was only to decline or accept food. During that time Logan was practically going crazy, he had rescued the love of his life only to lose her again inside of herself. The professor had told him that she 'needed time to heal and would tell us her story when she felt ready', but for Logan waiting to find out why his Marie was so upset was like torture. The only time in two weeks that Rogue could be seen to visibly smile was the day that Scott finally woke up, and even then her smile quickly disappeared when she learned that he couldn't remember anything about the last five months. He only remembered being taken and being told that they would be freed after experiments were preformed. The word experiments sent shivers down Logan's spine and he longed to be able to talk to Rogue about it, but the only person she wanted to talk to was Scott who didn't even seem to remember anything.

Rogue had felt so hollow during the time that Scott was unconscious that for a moment after he woke up she felt that everything was going to be alright, at least he hadn't died because of her. Rogue had begged to be the first one to talk with Scott, and much to Jean's dismay, the professor agreed. "Oh Scott," Rogue said when she was left alone with him, "I was so worried about you, and after all that happened," "Thanks Rogue" Scott said sounding rather uncomfortable, "Rogue? You haven't called me Rogue in months" Rogue practically cried as she said it, "I haven't?" Scott said as he apparently tried to remember, "What have I called you?"

"Marie! You called me Marie!" she said as tears actually did to come down her face, "Why would I call you that?" Scott asked confused both by her tears and her insistence that he called her by a different name. "Because that's my name, Marie! Don't you remember!" Rogue sobbed as she broke down and cried into his chest as he lay on the hospital bed. "Uh, Rogue?" he said in a way that showed he was obviously uncomfortable with the fact that she was lying on his chest, "What should I remember?" Rogue wanted to tell him everything, but the Scott in her brain told her how much it would hurt him to know the truth, so instead she just lied and said, "Nothing, there's nothing you need to know." With that she had run crying from the room not caring who noticed.

From that day forward, Rogue had begun to act normal again and try to fit back into her routine of normal life, but she stilled refused to talk to anyone about what happened at the testing facility, even Logan or the professor. Rogue had begun to spend more time around Logan again, even if only to forget all that was going wrong in her life, and she was just beginning to feel that she could open up to him again after they had been home from about three weeks. She had begun to tell him about the little things of her experience, about the basic tests, but she had still not mentioned the main event that had destroyed her. Just as Rogue was beginning to feel that life might turn out okay after all, everything started to go downhill.

The first thing that happened was that somehow Logan found about the fact that she had wanted Scott to call her Marie. "What the hell is this!" Logan yelled as he walked into the library where Marie was sitting, "What is what, Logan?" she asked with a slight bit of apprehension in her voice, she was worried that he had found out what had happened while she was at the facility. Instead he had begun to rant at her about a different matter entirely, "What do you mean what? I was just talking with Jean, and she was joking and said that she thought Scott might have lost more memory than we though because he told her that you had asked him to call you Marie. Now she thought that that was funny because she doesn't know the truth, but dammit Marie, why the hell would you let one-eye call you that! Are you sleeping with him?"

After the last comment, Rogue realized that it was her turn to get upset, "Sleeping with him! God damn you Logan, we went through a lot together, and if you had any idea what you just said," "Then tell me," Logan said as Rogue started shaking and his voice became more gentle, "I'm here, just tell me." Rogue paused for a moment and opened her mouth as if to tell him, but then changed her mind at the last minute and sighed, "I'm just not ready yet Logan, not yet." And with that she had walked away with a sad look in her eyes leaving him to sit and wonder what was going on.

Marie felt so lost and betrayed by the fact that the man who had become her best friend, and whom she had trusted the most now treated her as if she was no more than a mere student and acted as if he was repulsed by the thought of being around her. She was in a constant state of delusion, so when her life truly began to fall in around her, it simply felt natural.

It all started one morning when Rogue woke up feeling awful, awaking from one of her many dreams about that fateful day, she had quickly run into the bathroom to throw up. As she sat in the bathroom feeling polluted with tears running down her cheeks, Rogue realized that no one would ever truly understand. Ah've lost the only person who really knew what Ah was going through she thought miserably, Maybe Ah should just tell everyone the truth and get it over with.

She immediately dismissed the thought from her head as the Pyro within her told her that she was too different to be understood already and that this would only make people more afraid of her. Hearing the chance to begin a new conversation, the other voices in her head couldn't wait to join in. Logan told her that she ought to fight her own battles like he did, Bobby told her that people might not be as untrusting as she would think, and Magneto told her that she truly would have had a more useful purpose for her life if she had did in his machine. Shut Up! Rogue yelled into her head as she began to sob.

When she finally pulled herself together and got the voice under control, Rogue found Ororo, also known as Storm, standing outside of the bathroom door. "We need to talk" she said with the kindest smile she could muster, "Yes?" Rogue said with a small frown, "Why don't we go down to the teacher's lounge to talk okay?" "Alright" Rogue said uncertainly as she followed Strom down the hall. "Listen Rogue," Storm began after they had sat in silence for a moment, "I know that you are going through a tough time right now, and that you really want Scott to understand, but he doesn't remember and there's no way that you can make him."

"I know," Rogue said with a sad sigh, "And would you really want him to?" Ororo's question shocked Rogue and as she slowly shook her head Ro said, "I'm glad you can understand that you wouldn't want him to have to go through what you're going through. And since that is the case, I think that it would be better if you just went back to the way things used to be while around him, and left him to go on and live his life. I mean he's getting married in a couple of months, and do you really want to be the one standing in the way of his happiness?" Rogue felt like someone had ripped her heart out, but instead of getting angry, she simply shook her head and said, "No, no of course not." As she got up and walked down the hall, she began to replay the conversation in her head, never even noticing the blue-scaled woman leave the room she had just come from.

'I told you that no one would ever understand you' Pyro's voice in her mind said, 'Perhaps it would be better if you just left'

After a moment's hesitation Rogue's own mind finally began to be sensible again and she replied No, Logan would understand me, he even said once that he loves me.

'He loves you?' Magneto's mind voice said with a laugh, 'Wolverine loves the untouchable Rogue? I seriously doubt it.'

Why not! Rogue practically yelled allowed as she waged this battle within her own mind, What is so wrong about loving me?

'Nothing,' Scott said gently, standing up into his leader role, 'It's just that,'

It's just what? Rogue asked dangerously

'It's that you have to consider that fact that he might just be using you to get at Jean or any other number of reasons.'

That's not fair! Rogue's mind yelled indignantly as she felt hot tears begin to spill down her face for the innumerable number of times in the past couple of days.

'Actually it would make a lot of sense' Magneto said reasonably, 'Maybe you should be wary' Bobby said in an uneasy tone and continued, 'For your own safety' 'Or his' Pyro interrupted with a sarcastic laugh.

Shut Up! Shut up! Shut Up! Rogue yelled as she shut out the voices from her mind as she had learned to do, Logan does love me, Ah know it.

With that final thought she put on her clothes and headed down to find something to eat in the kitchen. She snuck as quietly as she could past Scott and Jean's door, Rogue had recently been avoiding Jean as much as possible, Jean still seemed to be mad at her for the whole 'getting to talk to Scott first' thing. Now that Rogue knew, courtesy of Storm's speech, that everyone in the school felt that she was hindering Scot, she decided that the only way to keep from ruining his happiness was to avoid him all together.

Over the course of the next week, Rogue spent more and more time with Logan and they began to reconnect. While Rogue was happy to have a friend again, a small part of her realized that she and Logan would never really be able to have the trusting friendship that she had had with Scott. Rogue also realized something else as the week went on; she was now officially late.

At first Rogue had thought that it was just some sort of glitch, but now she was truly beginning to worry. She was over a week late by the time that she decided that she had to do something. She knew that there was no way she could get to town to buy a pregnancy test without asking someone to go with her. There was no way that Rogue could ask Logan to take her without explaining the entire story, and she refused to do that, she was still not entirely comfortable around Storm since their early morning chat, and she definitely couldn't ask Jean. So who does that leave? She wondered with a sigh, there was the professor, but that would be way too awkward.

'You know' Magneto's voice interrupted her train of thoughts, 'A regular pregnancy test won't work for a mutant' "What!" Rogue accidentally exclaimed out loud, drawing the stares of those near her, Then how do Ah know if Ah'm, well you know?

'Well you'd have to ask and experienced mutant doctor' Magneto said matter of factly. Magneto's voice receded to the back of her mind as Rogue took a sharp breath, Jean. She would have to ask Jean, the one person that she least wanted to go to.

"Uh Jean?" Rogue said timidly as she knocked on the door to the med lab, "Can Ah talk to you for a moment?" "Sure Rogue, come on in" Jean said with a kind voice that was somewhat stiffened while talking to Rogue, "What did you want to talk about?"

"Well," Rogue began nervously as she wrung her gloved hands together, "Ah've got this project for a class you see, and Ah have to fid out about how a mutant would know if they were pregnant." "Oh," Jean said with a smile as she went into her teacher mode, "What class is it for? Health? I'd love to talk to the teacher and come speak to the whole class."

Looking down at her hands as she began to shake with tears, Rogue whispered, "It's not for a class" "What?" Jean asked confused by the sudden jump, "Rogue, are you saying that…that you think you might be pregnant?" As Rogue nodded she noticed a look somewhat akin to loathing cross Jean's face and emit from her thoughts. Then as quickly as it had come, the feeling left and Jean went back into doctor mode.

"Well," Jean said as she sat in a chair facing Rogue, "There are a couple of tests that I need to perform and then I'll tell you what I find out." "Alright," Rogue said looking up into Jean's eyes, "But Jean," "Yes Rogue?" "Could we please keep this quite until Ah have a chance to talk to Logan?" "Okay" Jean said uncertainly, "Is…is he the father?" "It's a long story" Rogue said as she looked away and made sure that her mind was properly shielded from wandering telepaths.

"All done" Jean said as she came out of the back room of the lab forty minutes later. With a sigh, Jean looked over at the young girl and said, "The test results confirm what you thought, you are pregnant." "No" Rogue whispered quietly she looked at her shaking hands, this couldn't be happening. "And Rogue," Jean said as Rogue got up to leave, "I suggest that you tell the father as soon as possible" Biting her lip, Rogue silently nodded and left the room.

"Logan?" Rogue said as she approached him in the garage as he was working on his, really Scott's, car the next day. "Yeah Rogue?" he said without looking up from under the hood the car. "Ah have something Ah wanted to talk to you about" "Mm hum" Logan said still involved in the car, "It's rather important" Rogue with a small frown.

"What is it Marie?" Logan asked as he smelled the fear emitting from her, "Is everything okay?" "Not exactly" she said with a deep breath, then seeing the scared look in his eyes she added, "Ah not hurt or anything, Ah just have something to tell you." "Yes?" Logan said now looking deep into her eyes.

"Logan, Ah'm…Ah'm pregnant." "What!" Logan yelled as his face contorted in anger, "That's…that's not even possible. You can't touch people for god's sake!" Then looking up at her with a look of surprise and pain he asked quietly, "Can you? Can you touch people?" "No!" she said quickly after seeing the pained look in his eyes, "No, it is a long, long story as to how that happened, but Ah promise that no one got hurt." 'Yeah right' Pyro snorted inside of her head, before she could respond to his statement, she was jerked back to reality by Wolverine's dangerous whisper, "Who's the father?"

Three little words, "Who's the father" words that Rogue knew would forever haunt her. Maybe Ah should just tell him the truth she thought as she looked into his hurting eyes, 'It's your grave' Magneto said from inside her head, 'He will definitely murder Scott' Bobby added as she felt the Scott leader persona in her take over and she realized that it would tear Scott apart to know the truth. Having decided to keep the truth from Logan, Rogue sighed and said, "The father was simply a one night stand. Ah was really depressed after Ah got back and Ah just made a mistake, that's all"

"Dammit Marie!" Logan yelled as his claws came flying out of his hands, "I could have helped you get through this!" he yelled as he stabbed his claws into the wall. As he slowly retracted his claws and turned to look at her Logan whispered, "I thought you loved me Marie." And then as he walked through the door into the main hallway of the manor, Logan said, "I was an idiot to have ever loved you."

"Logan, No!" Rogue yelled as she ran after him into the house. "You don't understand" she cried as unwanted tears streamed down her face and Logan whipped around to face her at the base of the stairway, "I don't understand? What don't I understand! You slept with another man. That's bad enough, but that you slept with another man after telling me you loved me and after telling me for so long that you were untouchable, that's unbearable!"

A crowd was beginning to gather around them and at the top of the stairs, but Rogue didn't care, "Ah didn't ever lie to you Logan. Ah do love you, and Ah am untouchable, things just happen." "You're right Rogue, messed up things happen! Any love I ever had for you was just that, a fucked up, idiotic thing." "Logan Ah," Rogue began before Logan cut her off angrily, "Just tell me one thing, okay Rogue?" "Oh course Logan" she said as she looked him in the eyes, "Who is the father?"

"Logan Ah…Ah can't tell you that. Ah just can't" "And why not!" Logan yelled loudly as he looked into her eyes, "Because" Rogue said as she fumbled for the right words, "Because…" After a moment of silence Logan said quietly, "Like I thought" and then turned to leave. Because it's Scott Rogue's mind said as she put her head in her hands. Then hearing a gasp from the crowd gathered at the top of the stairs, Rogue looked up and saw Jean quickly turning to leave the crowd.

Great Rogue thought as she headed up the stairs to follow Jean, Ah forgot to put my barriers up and she must have heard that. "Jean?" Rogue said nervously as she rounded the corner into the empty classroom she thought she had seen Jean enter, "Are you in here?" "You filthy little slut!" Jean yelled as she sent Rogue flying across the room with her telekinesis.

"Jean, you don't know the whole stor…" Rogue began as Jean cut her off, "I know exactly what happened" Jean said as she pinned Rogue to the wall with her telekinesis, "I could never figure out why it meant so much to you to try and have Scott be so close to you, but now it all makes sense. While you were locked away, you put him into some kind of stupor, which explains the condition he was in when we found him and his loss of memory. While he was dazed and confused, you seduced him you hoar and then you tricked yourself into believing that he loved you. But don't worry, I won't tell Scott the truth. That would only hurt him to know that he had any sort of affiliation with the likes of you."

"That is not true!" Rogue yelled as she remembered all of the pain that she had been put through at the testing facility, "I would never do something like that" "Oh no?" Jean said icily as she balled her hand into a fist and her telekinesis began to constrict Rogue's throat. Grabbing at the nonexistent hands that were lifting her higher and higher up the wall as they strangled her, Rogue tried to kick and flail around to free herself. Just when she began to feel that the air was gone from her body and the room began to go dark, Rogue heard Xavier's voice, "Jean? Is everything all right?"

"What? Oh, yes professor" Jean said as she seem to come to her senses and she slowly lowered Rogue back down to the floor. Gasping for breath, Rogue looked at Jean with daggers in her eyes, and saw a very similar look, although with a trace more sadness, shining back from Jean's own. Rogue watched as Jean slowly left the room and then allowed herself to break down. As Rogue left the room after a couple of minutes of crying, she headed down the hall and towards the bathroom.

The first thing that she did once she pulled the bolt shut behind her was to throw up for the third time in one day. Between the morning sickness and her feelings and memories, she could never seem to keep the contents of her stomach down. As she sat shaking with her knees pulled up to her chest, Rogue couldn't seem to make the voices in her head stop.

'I told you that Logan didn't actually love you' Magneto said with his smooth 'I told you so' attitude. 'And Jean definitely will never forgive you either' Pyro said with a sneer in his voice.

But Ah didn't do any of those things that she accused me of Rogue protested to the voices in her mind, It's not my fault. 'Maybe if you'd been willing to take more responsibility for all of the things that happened' the Scott in her head said responsibly 'Then you wouldn't have to have all of these bad things happening to you'

Listening to all of the voices in her head and remembering all of the things that Logan and Jean had said and called her, Rogue knew that she had to make the pain go away. As she looked around the bathroom, Rogue found someone's left over razor blade sitting on the shelf in one of the showers. As she picked up the blade and set its cool metal surface against the skin of her upper arm, the voices inside Rogue's head began to fade.

Then as she slowly pulled the blade across her skin watching the dark stream of blood that began to spread from her cut and trickle softly down her arm, the rest of Rogue's thoughts began to melt away. She forgot what it was like to feel anything except the stinging of her skin and the sharp pain of the razor. For a moment her whole life was in the gentle flow of blood down her arm, Logan didn't exist, Jean's torments weren't real, and Scott had never abandoned her, for a moment Rogue remembered true freedom.

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I hope you all liked it, I know that it was a little sad, but that's just sort of where the storywent. Hopefully it will get a little happier soon.Please review! I'm almost done with the next chapter, but I don't know when I will have time to finish it, hopefully I will be able to get it up within the next week. Once again, Please Review!