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Chapter 16
Good Letter, Bad Letter
Previously on-
She put the letter back in the box with shaky hands. "I have to tell him, he won't like that I had an abortion, but I have to, he deserves to know..." she thought as she wiped away her tears.
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Brooke washed her face so it didn't look like she was crying and went back into the living room.
"Here Haley." she said handing her pajama pants and a shirt.
"Thanks Brooke." Haley said as she got into the wheel chair. "I'll just go change, we can watch a movie or something until they get back."
"Ok, I'll pick one now." Brooke said walking over to the cupboard full of DVD's.
Haley came back a few minutes later and they watched a movie and the guys got back shortly after that then Haley and Nathan went home.
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"Did you have fun today, Cheery?" Lucas asked while he was getting a drink in the kitchen.
"Uh, yea, lots of fun." she said in a not so Brooke tone. "What about you guys?'
"Yea, me and Nathan don't hang out with Kieth that much anymore so it was fun." he said taking a sip of his water.
"That's good." she said sitting down at the table and looking down at the floor.
"Brooke, what's wrong?" he asked. "You don't seem like your usual self tonight."
"Luke, I..I have something to tell you." she said quietly with tears in her eyes. "I kept something from you...and I think I should tell you because I'm not being fair to you and you don't deserve to be lied to...we always said we could trust eachother, but I'm sorry, I broke that trust..."
"Brooke, what...what are you talking about?" he asked very uneasily.
"Please, just read this letter and notice the date because this is to hard for me to just tell you..." she said as the tears rolled down her cheeks.
"Oh..k." Lucas said confused taking the letter never taking his eyes off of her. The letter read...
April, 2003
Dear Lucas, My Broody...
I have something to tell you, but I can't say it to you in person because it would break your heart and I hate seeing you like that. So here it goes, yesterday, when I told you I wasn't pregnant, I was lying. I was pregnant and I had an abortion, before you started saying all of that sweet stuff to me. I'm sorry Luke, I was so scared and vonurable, I didn't know what to do so I just got an abortion, I thought it would be the easiest thing to do, to just make the scared feeling go away and never tell you. I wrote this letter so I could somehow get it out of my system. I know you can't ever forgive me for this, but I need you to try and understand why I did it. Again, I am so so sorry.
Love, Brooke
Lucas put the letter down on the table and sat there for a few minutes. He was trying to think of the right words to say, but there is no right words.
"Lucas say something." Brooke said as she just stood there watching him stare at the floor.
"Uh...why...how...could you do that to me?" he asked confused, hurt, and angry still looking down at the floor.
"I...I was scared and stupid." she said starting to walk towards the hall to the bedroom.
"No, no, no get back here now, were not even close to being finished!" Lucas yelled as he stood up. "Your damn right you were stupid!"
"Luca-" she got cut off by him.
"Did you even think about how I would feel! I would have stayed with you and raised that child, but no, you had to have an abortion! That just goes to show you didn't even consider my past! My dad didn't want me, but I said I wanted this baby!" he yelled. He didn't like making Brooke cry so much, but he was just so mad and upset.
"Oh! Let's back this up a bit! You said you would have stayed with me and raised the child! Would that have been before or after you ran away with Peyton!" Brooke yelled through cries and putting emphasis on the word Peyton.
"Brooke, don't even start with that! I made a mistake, but mine was definitly not as bad as yours!" he yelled banging his fist on the table.
"Lucas, I know, I totally didn't me-" Brooke got cut off again but by the phone this time, she was actually happy the phone inturrupted this argument so she went and answered it.
"Hello?" she asked trying to make sure she didn't soundlike she was crying.
"Hello, is this Brooke Scott?" asked a man's voice on the other end.
"Yes, who is this?" she asked confused because she didn't recognize the voice.
"I'm Samuel Green, police officer, you have to get over to Peyton Sawyer's house right away, we asked her who we could call and she named you." the police officer informed her.
"What, why?" Brooke asked curiously.
"I'm sorry, I can't tell you over the phone." the officer said.
"I'll be right over." she said worriedly then hanging up quickly.
"What?" Lucas asked.
"We have to go to Peyton's, a police officer just called and told me that, it sounds serious." she explained calmly getting her coat. Lucas grabbed his coat, too. "Luke, I'm sorry." she said desperatly. He just gave her a cold look. "Let's go."
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They got to Peyton's after a couple of minutes. There was a police car and an officer waiting outside.
"What's going on?" Lucas asked worriedly as they ran to the man.
"There was a car accident, her boyfriend Jake Jaglieski, he...died in it." he said gently.
"Oh my god." Brooke gasped. "I have to go see her."
They ran into the house, a woman police officer was tending to Peyton. She was bawling and the woman couldn't help as much as Brooke could so they called her.
"Oh...Peyton come here!" Brooke said sympathetically starting to cry as soon as she saw Peyton sitting on the floor helpless. Brooke grabbed her and pulled her into a tight hug and she just cried into her shoulder, trembling. Lucas came and sat behind Peyton and rubbed her back. Brooke looked at him and mouthed 'thank you'. He just looked at her at first, but then thought about it and nodded.
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Peyton sat on the Jaglieski's couch, after the funeral, holding Jenny as the tears slid down her face. She had been staring into space for at least half an hour.
"You should eat something, honey." Jake's mom said as she went and sat down beside Peyton.
"I'm fine." Peyton said in one sad tone.
"That's ok, you don't have to eat right now if you don't want to." She said rubbing her back. "This letter has your name on it, it was in Jake's room, I thought you should have it."
Peyton took the letter and looked at it. It had Jake's writing on it. She started crying again and Jenny gave her a big hug. "Dwon't cwry mommy Pweyton, my gamma says daddy is watching ovwer us now."
"Thank you, sweetie." Peyton said smiling through her tears.
Brooke, Lucas, Haley, and Nathan all came into the living room.
"Hey P. Sawyer, how you holdin up?" Brooke asked asshe hugged her best friend.
"I'm alright right now, Jenny's making me feel better." she said smiling at the little girl on her lap.
"Do you feel like coming and being with your friends right now?" Haley asked gently.
"Sure, can I bring Jenny, Jake's parent's are kind of busy right now." she asked.
"Of course." Lucas said.
They all went to Karen's Cafe and sat at their usual table to talk and comfort Peyton, and just be together.
"I got this letter today, Jake's mom gave it to me, it's from him." Peyton said looking at the letter she put on the table.
"Are you going to open it now?" Brooke asked as she played with Jenny who was sitting on her lap.
"I can't Brooke..." she said tearing up.
"Why?" Brooke asked.
"Because...I'm scared if I open it and read it, I will start crying and won't be able to stop." she said as her voice got squeaky and a lump started to grow in her throat.
"Peyton, you never have to be scared of crying, if you want to cry, go ahead." Lucas said and put his arm around her and rubbed her shoulder.
"Yea, we are here for you, and Jenny." Haley said smiling at Jenny sympathetically.
"Thank you, I think I will read this at home." she said taking a deep breathe. "Brooke and Haley, will you guys come with me?"
"Of course we will, Peyt." Brooke said hugging her.
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The girls were at Peyton house and she was about to read the letter, Brooke and Haley sat with her on the couch as she began.
"Hey Peyton, I wrote this letter for a reason-" Peyton stopped and handed the letter to Brooke. "I can't read it, can you do it for me?"
"Sure." Brooke agreed then continued. "Hey Peyton, I wrote this letter for a reason. After the night Jenny called you mommy, I started thinking about it. You being her mom." as Brooke read, Peyton started crying. Brooke took her hand in her's and continued. "I wanted to write this down and make it official, I want Jenny to be in your custody if something should ever happen to me. All you have to do is agree and it's official, because it's already in my will, but this letter is yours to keep." Brooke took a deep breathe and continued again. "If you can't handle this or you just don't want to, then she will go to my parents. Just think about it. I love you Peyton Elisabeth Sawyer, and I know Jenny would be happy with you. Love Jake."
They sat there on the couch looking at Jenny play with her toys. Peyton was the first one to speak.
"I'm going to do it." she said through tears. "I love that little girl so much, and I know it would make Jake so happy."
Peyton went and sat on the floor with Jenny and picked her up and gave her a big hug. "Mommy loves you." she said and started to cry. Brooke and Haley also started to cry, also because they were pregnant, but that wasn't the point, their horrible day just got better even when they thought no good could come from this. But of course Brooke still had to deal with the fact that she lied to Lucas...
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"You know what, I think I'm just going to move into this house. Jenny is used to it and so am I sinceI sent most of my time here." Peyton said putting down Jenny's toys that she was going to pack.
"Do you think your ready for that?" Brooke asked. It was only a week later and Peyton just finished her phase of crying everyday. Brooke knew she did it because she was living there for a while since her and Lucas weren't exactly on speaking terms yet.
"Yea, I love this place and it has some good memories." she said smiling slightly.
"Good for you, Peyt." Brooke said smiling. "I'm proud of you."
"Thanks." she said picking up Jenny. "And look at that, I'ma mother before you and I didn't even have to get knoced up and lose my figure."
"Shut up!" Brooke said hitting her playfully.
"Hey, I have a kid in my arms, don't hit me." Peyton said. Brooke just laughed.
"So, on the subject of kids..." she said but didn't even have to finish because it got serious in there and Brooke new what she ment.
"Yea, I don't know what's happening with that." Brooke explained as they went to sit on the couch. "I talked to him on the phone last night, when you and Jenny fell asleep on the couch, he said he needs more time to think about this and he doesn't want to see me right now." her voice got high and squeaky and she started crying. "What am I going to do Peyt?"
"I don't know, B. Davis, I don't know." Peyton said hugging her.
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By the end of the day, Peyton was moved into Jake's house, now her and Jenny's house, it didn't take that long because she's using all the furniture already in the house and she just had to move her own things. They had a plan made; when Peyton went to school, Jenny just stayed home with Brooke because she had nowhere to be and she couldn't work. Jenny was really starting to get attached to Brooke. She was called 'Aunty Bwooke."
"Do I stay wif Aunty Bwooke today?" Jenny asked from her high-chair.
"Yes you do, mommy is going to school." Peyton said grabbing her book bag. "Ok, I got to go, be good munckin."
"I wiw, I aways be good to Aunty Bwooke!" Jenny yelled.
"That's good, love you baby, bye." she said leaving the house and mouthing 'thank you' to Brooke.
"So, what do you want to do?" Brooke asked Jenny taking her out of her high-chair.
"Why is your tummy so big?" Jenny asked totally ignoring Brooke's question.
"Well, I have a baby in there." she said trying to teach her something.
"Why?" Jenny asked curiously.
"Uh, ha ha, um, because I want to have a baby." Brooke said running out of answers.
"Why?" Jenny asked again.
"Because...um...I like them?" Brooke said confused trying to think if that's a good enough answer. "How about we watch one of your movie's."
"Otay!" Jenny yelled running to the DVD stand. "I pick this one!"
She grabbed 'The Little Mermaid' and handed it to Brooke. Brooke groaned and put it in. Every single day they had to watch that one. Brooke thought to herself, "if my kid ever wants to watch this fricken movie, I'll burn it!"
When Peyton got home in the afternoon Jenny told her everything her and Brooke did. Then Peyton went into Jenny's room and started painting a mural of the disney princesses. She got the idea when she was at school and she couldn't wait to start. Jenny was so excited. Peyton loved the look on Jenny's face when she told her. That face of happiness made Peyton believe everything was going to be ok after all.
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There! Please Review! Next chapter is going to be 2 months later, yep, that means it's time for Haley and Broke to have baby's! Who wil be first? Will they both be healthy? Will the baby bring Lucas and Brooke back together? You will have to read the next chapter to find out:)
