Author's Note: Yes, I know how heartbreaking my fic has suddenly become, and yes, I do think it's sort of wrong, but I believe what doesn't kill you will make you stronger so Edward and Bella's relationship will only get stronger afterwards. I am very surprised at how many reviews I received after only 45 minutes of posting the last chapter. My mom was starting to get irritated while I was showering because my computer kept playing my new mail sound over and over again. LOL. People who want to throw Edward out the window for making up a lame excuse for kissing Elizabeth, it actually is the truth so hear him out before you judge him. Any other comments? Wow, this must be the longest note I've ever posted.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, just Elizabeth, Henry, and Troy.
Forever
I stood there still like a statue for a while longer just letting this moment linger in my thoughts before pulling away with all my strength and breaking his grip of me. He must've expected this because he didn't look at all surprised and didn't do anything to stop me. I kept a distance between us but turned to face him my eyes cold. His eyes were pleading and devastated like I've never seen before but I was shocked to see a hint of anger there too.
"Bella, why did you come back with Henry?" he murmured almost inaudible to even my ears. "How did he know where to find you and what were you two doing since he disappeared?" Was he assuming what I thought he was? He really thought I could do something like that?
"Edward, don't assume things that you have no proof of," I snapped angrily. His eyes turned the color of night and his expression became pained.
"What else am I supposed to think? You disappear without a word and then he does too. It can't all be a coincidence."
"Even if we did something, which we didn't, who are you to say anything? You were the one in lip lock with Elizabeth right in front of me!" I said coldly. In a flash, his face was in inch away from me the air escaping his nose blowing in my face. I was a bit dazed but the emotions raging in me refused the entire effect of his scent.
"Bella, I already explained that to you. You left and I just didn't know why, I wondered if it's because you finally realized that you didn't love me anymore after all these years. I began taking my frustration out on things until everyone else left, tired of having things thrown at them. Then, Henry disappeared too. I assumed the worst and it tore me apart inside. I just became more frustrated and angry that I couldn't even keep the one thing I love most beside me. That's when Elizabeth showed up. I wasn't thinking straight anymore, I thought she was you so I…"
"Kissed her right in front of me," I finished. I couldn't bring myself to believe him. "Edward, she may look like me but she doesn't smell like me. You can even read her thoughts! How do you expect me to believe you thought her to be me?" I glared at him standing my ground. He sighed and put his hands on my shoulder.
"Bella, every word coming out of my mouth is the truth. I admit that I shouldn't have let my emotions cloud my senses but you can't honestly believe that I would hurt you on purpose."
"Oh, but I do," I said pushing him away a few inches so I can twist the ring off my finger. "This morning, I was finally convinced myself that there's no reason not to trust you, but now I think otherwise. Now, I don't even have a speck of trust for you that I had before I left." I took his right hand and placed the ring in his palm before wrapping his fingers over it quickly. "I don't need this anymore because there won't be a wedding. At least not for us." The hardest part of this was not letting my voice crack and break down in tearless sobs. I pulled my arm away and turned around heading back in the direction we came. I could feel his eyes on my back but didn't hear him follow me as I made my way out of the forest. I didn't know when I started running but I suddenly felt my legs move at lightning speed underneath me. I whimpered like a dog in pain as the wind blew past my face and swept my hair back.
I escaped and ran into the house heading upstairs into Edward's room. I went into the closet and grabbed my bag and began throwing random stuff into it until it was full. I pulled the zipper shut and lifted it off the ground heading towards the door. I was stopped by Alice at the door, her eyes frantic.
"Bella, please don't do this! You guys can get through this," she said trying to take the briefcase from me. I pulled it out of her reach quickly.
"No, Alice we can't. This is the only choice I have left." I grabbed her and pushed her aside. I continued to out the door and downstairs with her trailing after me. "Bella, you have to believe Edward. He didn't mean to kiss Elizabeth, he was just confused." I stopped abruptly and turned to look at her.
"If you saw Jasper kissing someone else right in front of your eyes after you only left for a couple of days, could you believe him?" She paused before answering and I knew that she was about to lie. "That's what I thought." I resumed leaving and swung the doors open a bit too hard and it unhinged itself.
"But Bella, can't you at least hear both sides of the story?" she asked still trying to stop me.
"Who else's story do you want me to hear?" I couldn't imagine anyone else that can convince me that what I saw wasn't the truth.
"Elizabeth's." I snorted unbelievably. She actually wanted me to hear Elizabeth's story. Even if what Edward said was the truth, how could she convince me that Edward really thought she was me?
"Alice, there's nothing that she could possibly say to me to make me decide to stay," I replied getting into my car. I slammed the door shut and started the car. Henry had forgotten to take the keys out of the ignition in his fit of rage. "I'm sorry Alice; I just don't want to keep hearing more lies." She opened her mouth to speak but I was quicker. The car began to move out of the driveway and back into the road before she could utter a sound.
The feeling I felt when Edward left came back. I felt strangely empty inside, as if something was missing. I wanted tears to fall down from my eyes so that I could let all this pain out even just a little bit but I wasn't allowed even that. I was drowning in silent pain and I couldn't resurface. I turned on the radio to drown out my thoughts and stop the quiet that was beginning to surround me. To make everything a lot worse, Pink's 'Who Knew?' came on.
You took my
hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh
huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
And
everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If
someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd
stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know
better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew?
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and
just too cool?
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When
someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I
guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew?
Yeah
yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my
friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause
they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until
we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could
remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who
knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who
knew
It couldn't get any worse than this. I slammed on the brakes and placed my head on the steering wheel. My whole body was shaking furiously and I let out loud sobs. This pain was nothing like the one that I felt before when he left. This one would never dull or even be tolerable no matter how much time passes. I was now dead inside, nothing but an empty shell. Forever was nothing but a lie for star-crossed lovers who didn't know better.
Author's Note: sniff This is truly heartbreaking. Questions? Comments?
