I've found a reason to show,

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And at the reason is you.

-The Reason, Hoobastank

"She misses him!" Beast Boy screamed loud enough for the whole tower to hear.

"Shh!" hissed Robin and Cyborg.

"But the poem, the only thing she wrote on the first page! She misses him! Why do you cry when you miss someone?" Beast Boy angrily stormed around the living room, Robin and Cyborg careful not to get in his way as he fumed around the room.

"Maybe it was about us, and how she missed being home," sighed Cyborg, almost unable to contemplate Raven's supposed feelings towards the team's number one threat.

"It might have been about you," Robin said, a little smile on his face.

"Sure, and she thinks my jokes are funny."

"She could, she is very mysterious."

"Right, but just don't get your hopes up to be broken again," Cyborg commented.

Beast Boy sighed, "Do you guys even think we have a chance?"

Robin and Cyborg looked at each other, and then cocked their heads toward their green friend.

"Maybe," the two said together.

"Give her time and space and she may even come to you," Cyborg said hopefully.

"Highly doubt it," Robin said under his breath. Cyborg slammed his elbow into Robin's side, and he yelped in pain. Beast Boy threw the two a look, and got up off the couch to go return the journal to the bedside before she woke up, seeing it was missing.

-xXx

Slade was an absolute mess. His work was crap, working out wasn't an interest anymore. He felt himself worthless, and didn't even bother trying to get our of bed in the morning. His thoughts were primarily on Raven, indulging in the crude fantasies of a middle aged man. He no longer needed to hide behind the mask he had worn for what felt like his whole life, for the mere thought of Raven, his Raven (possibly), banished the thoughts of anything vile against the Titans. Was he hanging up his mask of evil doings? Perhaps, but he wasn't sure himself of what he was doing. Everything seemed so unstable, from his emotions to his plans. For the first time, our favorite villain realized that love was the most powerful emotion of all.

-xXx

Beast Boy visited Raven often, until Cyborg deemed her fully nourished. They talked little, but their eyes seemed to tell all. She looked at the journal, then to his face, and could make the connection. She did not scowl or get angry, she simply sighed.

"I'm sorry," she said, while exhaling a great force of wind.

"For what?" Beast Boy asked, smiling, but soon after the grin, a frown reappeared on his face.

"How I feel. I can't change the past, Beast--" Raven started.

"It's over, OK?" Beast Boy snapped.

"No, it is not. None of this will ever be settled."

"What do you mean? You miss him, don't you?"

"I missed you while I was, well, wherever I was. I missed the corny jokes, the smell of that fake food you eat…."

"Tofu."

"…I missed being home, Beast Boy. But I can't tell you anymore then that."

"So something did happen!"

"Nothing to your liking."

"What do you mean nothing to my liking?"

"You wouldn't like to hear what happened. That's all. And I'm not going to tell you what happened, so get over it."

Beast Boy glared at Raven. At that moment he didn't care for her as much as he used to.

"Friends tell each other secrets, no matter how embarrassing. Raven, he could have hurt you and we would never know! You were crying! Starfire said you were upset but she didn't say about what!" Raven was glad that Starfire was keeping the secret.

"Beast Boy, you are my friend! I am trying to protect you…."

"From what," he said getting up.

"I know how you feel, but--. I hate to be the one to have to tell you this."

"Tell me what."

"To tell you…that I don't…feel the same. I don't feel the same way about you, as you do, well…me. I have always known, and always wanted to tell you. But I never wanted to break you."

Beast Boy stared at Raven, partially glad that the closure of her not returning the love was complete, but partially broken.

"I'm glad you told me, Raven," he said, and headed out the door.

"Beast Boy, wait!"

"I'm tired of waiting, Raven. This time you're to late," he said shutting the door behind him. Raven closed her eyes, trying to fight back the tears that she induced Beast Boy to have.

-xXx

Star came back downstairs, passing an upset Beast Boy on the way down, and entered the living room to "hang out" with her friends. Robin and Cyborg were intently in a head-to-head battle, entirely ignoring the fact that someone else entered the room. Cyborg screamed with glory, he defeated Robin, slimly, but glory is still sweet.

"Hello friends," Starfire meekly said. The two jumped in surprise as the teenage alien made her way toward the couch, to sit next to Robin.

"Star, what did Raven tell you?" Robin asked. Starfire looked at his masked eyes, trying desperately to picture them.

"I am not obligated to say. I promised Raven that I would not tell anybody," Starfire said, disappointed she could not tell.

"You sure you can't tell us? I'm dying to know what happened!" cheerfully commented Cyborg.

"I am quite sure I can not tell you, Cyborg. Raven was very upset, and I would not want to make her even more upset. She is being very hard on herself, perhaps to hard."

"Well, I guess we have to respect her privacy. Maybe she wants to tell us, just not yet," Robin suggested. Cyborg nodded his head in agreement, and Starfire smiled weakly acknowledging the suggestion too.

"Beast Boy was angry when I passed him in the upstairs hall. I am not sure if Raven told Beast Boy of what happened. I am scared to go check on our friend," Starfire dolefully said.

"I dunno, Star. Possibly. I think we need to give the two their space," Cyborg remarked, "I'm going to go check her stats, see how she's doing." Cyborg said, giving the control to Starfire, walking to the back door to the room where Raven was staying.

"You up to loose?" Robin said, a huge grin on his face.

Starfire got all excited and remarked, "I'm up to loose my title of the undefeated looser!" The two intently started to click buttons and stared at the T.V..

-xXx

Up in Raven's room, Cyborg sat looking at the computers, reading the information it gave him.

"Raven, you have to eat," calmly said Cyborg.

"I am not hungry anymore."

"Raven…. You need to gain energy back, you are still very weak."

"I am no use to the team weak, now am I?" Raven said, smiling. A smirk inched across Cyborg's face.

"Just make sure you eat, 'cause the computer is telling me your energy is low and stuff. And don't eat fast, when you do," Cyborg, concerned, said.

"So, has Starfire told the big secret hovering around the tower?"

"Nope. She hasn't told anyone. Robin says tha--"

"I will tell you guys, I promise. Just not yet. On my own time I will."

"OK, well then. Just eat, and not to fast, OK?"

"OK."

"Feel better," Cyborg said, walking out of the room.

"Hopefully," she said, closing her eyes on her pillow getting ready to dream.

-xXx

"She said she is going to tell us, just not yet," Cyborg said.

"See? I told you!" screamed Robin, excited he was going to beat Starfire in the race. Starfire yelped, and her concentration was intensified.

"Wha! How the hell did you do that!" Robin said, throwing the controller down on the floor.

Starfire giggled, "I won! I won!"

Cyborg laughed at Robin's defeat. "Who wants pizza?"

"Oh, I do!" Starfire jumped.

"I'll go get Beast Boy and ask if Raven wants anything," Robin said, getting up.

"We are getting something for her anyways, she's not eating at all," Cyborg said, matter-of-factly.

"Alright then. I'll be back soon."

Robin walked up the stairs to Beast Boy's room, a little nervous of how he may act. He knocked on the door with his knuckles and awaited a response. A muffled noise was his answer, but Robin barged in anyway. Beast Boy was on his top bunk with a pillow covering his face.

"Beast Boy, we are going out for pizza, you want to come with?" he asked, his voice full of concern.

"I'm fine," he said, his stomach growling.

"No, come on."

"I'm fine."

"Beast Boy, you need to have something, you're going to starve."

"Fine."

Robin sighed at his ignorance. "She's going to tell us, soon. Don't worry, soon the mystery about what happened will be over." Beast Boy lifted the pillow off of his face and looked down at the Boy Wonder who was looking up at him.

"She said she was?" he asked.

"That's what Cyborg said."

Beast Boy sighed, and jumped down from the bunk-bed ready for pizza.

The four left for their favorite pizza parlor, hungry and excited to finally hear what Raven had to say. But Raven on the other hand was trying to think of how to say it.

"We kissed," she mumbled into the emptiness of the room, "Well, duh. We kissed, and he thought I was drunk, and I wasn't, nor was he. Yah, well that's going to be a shocker. But it's the truth." Raven sighed. The sooner she told her teammates the sooner this would be over. More thoughts poured into her mind. How was she going to fight Slade, once she was back to good health? How would he react to her? Will he always be the cold hearted villain he made himself become? No matter how hard she tried, he was always her thoughts, her nightmares and dreams. No matter how much she wanted to reject it, he was apart of her, in a way she never thought possible.

"Ugh, this is going to be hell," she said, rolling on her back, "trying to tell them what happened." Raven continued to repeat what she thought would come so easy when they came into the room.

-xXx

"So, which movie?" Beast Boy asked, holding up three movies in his hand.

"The one with action."

"Umm…."

"Sci-fi!"

Beast Boy's shoulders rolled over, and closed his eyes and picked one.

" 'The Afternoon of Mere Insanity' it is!" Beast Boy said smiling.

"What?" the other three said, confused at the title.

"The title sounds interesting, so I grabbed it."

"What about all of our suggestions?" Cyborg asked.

"Well, they were suggestions of what to get. You didn't tell me to get anything, you suggested it."

"And you wonder why he doesn't think like this all the time," sighed Robin, and Star giggled at the comment.

"Hey! It's hard work that thinking stuff!" Beast Boy said popping in the movie of his choice. The three sat on the couch wondering why they didn't go into the video store themselves.

-xXx

"That's it, I've got to the tell them…I can't keep this a secret any longer," Raven said, swinging her legs over the side of the bed. She stood up, and the room seemed spinning.

"Oh no," she said, falling straight down onto her knees, and then fell flat onto her bony face.

-xXx

BEEP! The team jumped in surprise as Cyborg's right arm secreted the loud noise. Cyborg checked his arm, and his eyes widened.

"Oh shit," he said, getting up quickly, "Raven's gone flat-line!" The team got up and jogged behind Cyborg up to Raven's room.

-xXx

"That's one way of getting the attention to tell someone something like this. Flop on the floor. Nice style, Raven," she said mocking herself. She heard footsteps in the distance, smiling they all cared.

-xXx

Cyborg was the first one through the door, and was the first to see Raven on the floor. He ran to her side, and picked her up, turning her over, belly to the sky. Raven smiled, and blinked.

"Raven! You OK?" Cyborg asked, his thoughts racing.

"Yah, I'm fine. I wanted to walk down and tell you guys, but I guess I really am still weak," she said, being lifted on to the bed.

"Oh, your wires fell off when you fell, that's why it signaled as a flat-line."

"Well, now that I've got your attention, I guess I should tell you what happened." Starfire became nervous in the background, shaking a little from the nervous excitement in the room. Robin turned around at her uneasiness.

"Are you OK?" he asked enclosing his hand in hers. Her trembling ceased for the second that he touched her, but now she trembled even more, in fear of how he would react if she started to "melt with his touch".

Raven took a deep breath. She didn't know how to start, and she was certainly uncomfortable with the three men staring back at her. Beast Boy sat down, and took her hand, and squeezed it tight, showing his kindness. He smiled faintly, which surprisingly relaxed her, and she started to piece sentences together in her head.

"Everything seemed like a normal "kidnapping", I was locked in a cool room, with a concrete floor. It seemed like forever I was down there. He fed me, and left me alone once again. He came back, sometime later, and guided me to a bedroom," she said, her voice shaky.

"He led you to a bedroom?" questioned Beast Boy, "to do what?"

"To sleep, Beast Boy. That's it. But I don't think you want to here this who story, so I'll shorten it," Raven said, taking in deep breaths.

"Take your time," said Robin, trying to relax her.

"He offered me alcohol, I rejected, but he gave it to me anyway. I figured maybe…"

'Don't lie to your friends! Tell them you took it to get what you wanted!' she thought to herself.

"Raven?" Beast Boy asked.

"Wha? Oh, yes. Well, he gave me the drink. I took the smallest of sips, pretending that I was drunk. He took the drink away from me, and was leading me up the stairs when…." Raven's voice trailed off, she was ashamed of what she had to say.

'Why are you making this a big deal? Just tell them that you kiss him, and that the both of you weren't drunk. Don't let your emotions get in the way,' she thought to herself again.

"…we kissed." Silence continued long after Raven stopped talking. She pulled her hand away and out of Beast Boy's grasp, and held her breath, trying to not let tears escape from her eyes.

"But he was drunk though, right?" Robin questioned. Raven looked at him with sad eyes.

"He wasn't, he only took a gulp, not nearly enough to stir a man of that statue."

"And you pretended?" Cyborg asked, finally asking her a question.

"It was real, everything was real. I am sor--"

"You are betraying us?" Robin said, letting go of Starfire's hand, stepping closer to the bed.

"No! I am not betraying you! Love is something you cannot control!" Raven shot back in anger.

"You love him!" screeched Beast Boy and Raven's eyes began to leak tears.

"Please, do not yell at Raven," Starfire said, sticking up for her friend.

"Star she loves him! She cannot fight him she is worthless against him!" Robin heatedly said.

"I feel that you love me, and you still fight," Starfire said.

"I am not fighting against you, Star. Raven has fallen in "love" with the enemy!"

Starfire stood agape, unable to say anything. Beast Boy still sat on the bed, looking at Raven, who was looking at the wall across the room.

"At least we know his weakness, now we know how to take him down, Robin. Let's use this to our advantage," Beast Boy said, his voice showing no compassion. Raven looked at Beast Boy, confused on what was going through his mind.

"What are you going to do to me?" she asked, tears still flowing out of her eyes, staining her face.

"Nothing to you liking," he snapped back. He got up and left, in a heap of rage.

Robin left, leaving Starfire and Cyborg left.

"I didn't think they would be so mad," Starfire said, quietly.

"Robin thinks I am betraying you guys," Raven said, sniffling, "Which is not true. I still want to fight him, I want to bring him down for what he's done. Slade hasn't changed that part of me. But what I will feel towards him will be different."

Starfire and Cyborg's communicators beeped, and Robins voice came online.

"There's trouble, hurry and let's go," he said.

"I must go, but I will be back after to talk more," Starfire said. Cyborg made some last checks on the computer and followed her out.

-xXx

Beast Boy fought with more gusto that night, Robin more angry. The emotions led for a faster jail time for their enemy, which meant Starfire could sit with Raven.

"You shouldn't have been so hard on her, Robin," Cyborg said, defending Raven's honor.

"She cannot help how she feels. She might have had those feelings because she was locked up with him. Isn't that human nature? The wanting to reproduce--" Starfire started, but Robin cut her off.

"I know that. I overreacted, OK? And I agree with Beast Boy. We are going to use Slade's new weakness to our advantage, even if it is our own teammate.

BEEP! Cyborg's arm made the ear piercing noise again, and the Titan's once again jumped in surprise.

"Raven's gone flat-line again!" he said, racing to the T-car, "and this time it may be for real!"

A/N: I think that is enough, for this chapter. A lot of dialogue, eh? Sorry not a lot about Slade, but he will definitely play a bigger part in the next chapter, I promise. Keep on reviewing please, it is really appreciated!