Chapter 2- Despair
Hansuke: All scenes are not suitable for very young audiences. Parental Guidance is recommended. (tv shows) Haha… -"
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"Doctor! Doctor!"
"Suoh… where are you…? What's happening…?"
"Will he be alright, doctor!"
"Please say something!"
"Akira? Why are you calling for a doctor?"
Nokoru opened his eyes enough to see his friends. He felt so numb. He can't move his body; it won't shift in his order. "Suoh…Akira…" The blonde closed his eyes again but their voices still collided his eyes and to his thoughts. He can't help it, he felt incredibly hot and extremely paralyzed. He was that weak and so forth, he was unconscious. It became dark and again… darkness had cradled Nokoru to its arms.
It started to rain again in the middle of the night. The wind whispers cold, melancholy songs; making those who hear, fall in deep silence but someone was awake. He can't take the sound of rain, dripping down his window shade, the only thing that reminds him of his sorrow. He opened his sapphire blue eyes and sat down on the bed where he was laying before. He wrapped himself around his soft arms, he felt so cold due to the consistent fall of heavy rain. He needed warmth of a mother but there was none and he knows that. He can't even blame his parents because… "Because it's not their fault." Nokoru whispered to himself as he tightened his grip to his body. He rested his chin on his knee and began to think in silence.
His eyes marked hollow, tainting its beautiful gleam. He is hurt, and he knows it but he escapes the truth. "Why am I smiling?" Nokoru paused and listened to the rain. "because it is our expression of hiding our true feelings… under a mask… and Imonoyama's masquerade. And I can't blame anyone about it… It is my destiny after all." The blonde raised his head as he heard the door open. He looked at the dark figure which came in though Nokoru didn't see much of his face since he had closed the door before the light could even show the person's identity. Nokoru just rendered his masculine figure on which that he concluded that the person is a guy, just about his age. The guy went closed and stood before his bed making the blonde to adjust his eyes in the night to see the person behind his shadows.
"Who… who are you?" Nokoru murmured as he kept his eyes locked on the guy's face, waiting till he answers back. But one thing he wasn't sure about, his heart beated fast and his grip tightened on the blanket as the guy smiled at him sending him shivers down to his spines. The blonde was bothered by this, especially when the guy leaned over him and whispered. "Revenge best suits… for the person who stole my mother's smile." Afterwards, he turned his back and left the blonde speechless and stunned. "Idomu…"
Nokoru ran out of the room, wanting to see Idomu. He had gone out of the room and surprisingly found himself standing in a chamber of darkness and fear. He can't believe it, where was he anyway? Why would there be a room in such a place? Concluding stuffs, the blonde affirmed that he was no where in their mansion; instead of another's. But why is there a chamber here? Nokoru was surprised as two metallic figures caught his hands, unable to release him free. Even his feet where locked with the same metallic figures. Whatsoever the blonde do, he can't free himself. He felt uneasy as he heard footsteps walking to his direction. He was in fear but he tried to be brave and face the person. "Chamber it may seem… dear Kacihou." Nokoru was alarmed by the voice. He knew he had heard that voice before and it is familiar, hearing it everyday seeming to be music in his ears. "Su- Suoh! Is that you!" The figure showed before the blonde, revealing himself out of darkness, smiling. "Yes Kaichou, it is me; Suoh."
Nokoru smiled at his presence, being eased out in his situation but things kept him bothered. Looking at his friend, Suoh, he knew it was not right. The ninja should be freaking out by now, asking him if he's alright and he should be helping him out of the metallic cuffs but he did not. He just stood before him, frowning. The ninja went closer to the blonde, inches away and locked his amber eyes to sapphire ones. "Tell me Kaichou… Why have you done this to me? Don't you know that it hurts me?" Suoh lifted his hand and held his one's cheeks, feeling the warmth it releases. "Suoh… I'm sorry. I promise I would do my paper works already and-" He was cut off as the blue haired intervened. "It's not that Nokoru… I… I wanted you… and it seems that you haven't noticed this feeling I'm having towards you."
The ninja's hands trailed down to his one's neck and down to his chest, starting to unbutton his shirt and before the blonde could react, Suoh had pressed his lips to Nokoru's. For a moment, he did not release him and pressed his lips deeper till he had taken off the blonde's shirt. He pulled out and took deep breaths. The blonde was in silence; unable to speak because of the tension he was feeling. He was in deep thoughts, seeking for the right words to say, but the question is… is there any? The ninja wrapped his arms around his one and kissed him one more time. "Nokoru… now tell me… Do you love me?" The ninja waited for his answer, his arms were still around the blonde's waist.
Nokoru opened his mouth, but no words had escaped. He still did not know what to respond to the question he threw. He was confused and too astonished to say anything. He faced down unable to eye on Suoh directly. He just can't, he knows that having a relationship with him would be in vanity, in other words, unacceptable. But… he loves him, he was more than just a friend, he was someone very special to him. Yet, he can't decide far apart the two. What will he follow; his love or his pride? His heart or his brain? His true self or his mask?
Suoh frowned, and stepped back a foot. "So you're not yet ready." Nokoru looked up to see the ninja but he was gone in darkness, leaving no trace or any means of goodbye. "Who are you looking for?" Another voice approached at his back; familiar and it was. "Idomu!" Nokoru was bewildered; he can't explain what's happening anymore. Tell me Idomu… where am I?" The red-haired smiled and went before him, slowly. He was inches apart from Nokoru. His face, Nokoru haven't seen that looks on him before; he was happy… planning something evil. "My dear Nokoru… you're in hell…"
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"Doctor! Doctor! What's gonna happen to him! Tell me!" The raging ninja demanded. He was throbbing in great fear that his one's life could be in great danger or worse, it may cause him his death. Suoh held the doctor on his collar making the old man sweat in fear. Luckily, Akira held Suoh's other arm and calmed his superior, telling him that arguing with the doctor wouldn't help. "The patient… he's having pneumonia but in his case…" The doctor lowered his head and turned to his side. "His case is the worse that I have seen." The two stood in horror, filling the room with silence, unable to react on the doctor's statement. "I'm sorry but we'll try our best to find a cure for him." The doctor tried to lighten their burdens but failed. He just then quietly stepped out and left the two examining their Kaichou's sleeping body.
Suoh closed his eyes and shook his head. He sat beside the blonde who was filled with tubes attached around his body and a mask for proper breathing. The ninja smiled but slowly vanished in fear that his one would soon leave him. "Nokoru…" Suoh paused and held Nokoru's hand to his cheek, feeling a bit tormented, suffering in his own thoughts. "You won't leave us… right?" The blue haired whispered and in silence, he spoke to himself. "I wouldn't know what to do next if you'll leave me."
To be continued…
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Oo This is quite dramatic. Oh well, the chamber part was all in a dream. In my next chapters, there will be lots of scenes which are all in a dream of Nokoru but something happens, some of it comes true. oO. Gosh, this chapter in quite not good though it is long -". Haha… thanks for reading this chapter and thanks a lot to Satoshi-kun my best editor! -" please stay tuned for the next chapters.
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