Riku has been tortured by Ansem and now by the one he thought he loved most. Is there anyone out there who doesn't just want his body?? Could someone really want him for his heart instead of his looks?? Ansem/Riku (mentioned), Sora/Riku, ?/Riku, Rape, Angst, Romance. Yeah and Sora bastardization! Okay ignore what I said last chapter I'm still going to try and make him good but I don't know... I'll figure something out. All I know is that in this chapter he's nicer/nice in general.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts or Characters used in this story so don't sue me!!! See I said that I don't own it! You can't sue me! Yeah no suing! Anyway someday I will force Sakura to make plushies of Sora and Riku for me but that doesn't really count.

All flames go to Sakura and Taku so that way they have some heat in their house seeing as Sakura refuses to be touched and they are currently not... AHEM... doing anything at the moment. Poor Taku!

Tears: Hey! What about me! I don't get any action either!

Anyway on with the fic please enjoy!

Tears: Grrr...

Aishiteru mo!

The Meaninglessness of Words

Sora was walking home from work; he still couldn't believe he had done that to Riku! It seemed so surreal when he woke up this morning to find Riku in the state he was and then to see images in his head of what he had done the night before. He had ran out of the house being unable to face Riku. In fact he himself didn't know why he had done it. Why did he rape Riku? Why did he rape the one he claimed to be his soul mate? How could HE DO THAT!? He wanted so badly to make it up to Riku but he new that his silver-haired tenshi wouldn't listen. No Riku had been hurt too many times that way to even try to accept Sora, but that wouldn't stop Sora from trying.

Sora opened the door to Riku's home, taking off his shoes he stepped inside. The house was quite and dark like all ways but something was wrong. He couldn't say what with out investigating and so that's what he did. He began walking around the small home not bothering to check the rooms that he knew where empty. Eventually he went to the bedroom, the place where he was dreading going. He saw clothes scattered everywhere, drawers open, in a summary the whole room was in disarray.

Sora's mind was racing. Is Riku okay? What happened? Where's Riku!? These thoughts ran frantically through Sora's mind. Pictures of Riku being hurt and kidnapped filled his mind. Riku' bleeding crying out for help and Ansem's cackling golden eyes enjoying the torture. No! Riku's okay, his okay! I won't let anything happen to him! But these thought's held no weight and he knew he couldn't trick himself, no not without solid evidence. His knees buckled and he fell to the bed, to his shock he heard the crinkle of paper and sat up pulling a note with him.

Sora,

I shouldn't even be bothering to write a note, but I'm gone and I won't come back. I wont allow myself to be hurt anymore; not by you, not by HIM, not by anyone. Don't even bother to come after me it would just be a waste of time.

Riku.

It was a simple note but it spoke volumes of how upset Riku was. Sora fell back onto the bed. He really couldn't blame Riku, who could? The bottom line was Sora screwed up big time, no pun intended. And there was no way in hell he could ever expect Riku to even start to forgive him.

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Riku knowing that there was no other place in his world that he could go to decided to use the door in his and Sora's old secret hiding place so he could get to another world. A world that even Sora hadn't gone to. So making sure that the blindfold was securely wrapped around his head, he slung his bag on his shoulder and stepped through the door.

He came out in Traverse Town; luckily it was already night in this world and he could remove his blindfold without having his eyes be too hurt. He quickly purchased a Gummi ship from Cid's shop and quickly went on his way fearful of staying in a place so full of people who knew him and Sora. Using the map in the Gummi ship he selected the world he would go to. It was a quaint world, out of the way, and best of all he knew that neither he nor Sora had ever stepped on the soil there.

Yume: Well that's all for now I can't write anymore at the moment maybe I will work on another one of my ficcie's or watch T.V. or something. Please review Ja ne!