I finish the last slice of pizza while Jason throws the box away. He looks through all of the cabinets and drawers making mental notes of what there is and isn't. He already told me he couldn't go back to the college. His dorm room has probably been looked through and is being watched by Conner and his men. The only down side to being a good guy is sometimes beating their asses doesn't make them learn a lesson. Just makes them angry. I wonder if they found the Red X suit, where would that even be hidden? Surely hiding it in the dorm room could be dangerous. Especially since he lived in a double dorm by himself. The school could have given him a roommate at any time. No doubt he knows this. Since we have been here he has also turned the heater on, allowing the house to be warmed up. I can feel the difference now that there isn't a man made heat between the two of us.
"So...I am kind of going about this as if you are staying the night here but I need to ask you what you want. Are you staying?" he asks I look to him seeing the random pack of paper towels he holds in his hand.
"I don't know, I mean I should call my team. At least let them know that I am safe and not with Conner. I don't want them thinking I am dead" I say he nods and gestures to upstairs.
"There is a couple of unopened burner phones up there. Make a call and shut it off. Don't break it. But shut it off. They are programmed not to to be tracked when turned all the way off. It doesn't matter anyway I guess" He says putting a roll of paper towels on the dispenser on the counter. I cock my head to the side sliding out of my seat, grabbing the used paper plate with me. I dump it on top of the pizza box and lean over the counter.
"Why not?" I ask, he gestures to the house.
"They can't track you here. Signal blockers are set up around a 20 meter perimeter. If you are in this house it shoots the signal outside of that range. It'll just send them on a goose hunt. Can't be too careful here" he replies. He is smart. He thinks of a lot more than Robin ever gave him credit for.
"Can I ask you something?" I begin, he nods to me "How are you alive? Why didn't you just go back to the Bat. I am sure he would have been thrilled to have you back...you wouldn't have had to spend your life running from other people"
"When word got out that I was dead...the daughter of the dragon...she took me out of my grave and put me in something called the Lazarus pit. It heals, brings back the dead restores memories. It can't restore a soul though. So when I was alive I was just a shell of who I used to be. They used that, training me in their assassin like ways and then when they needed me to have a soul they took me to someone who could help. It did...and I was fine but you know I had done so much wrong in that time and even after I got my soul back, Rae I was mad. I was pissed off and somehow I blamed the Bat. I did some more bad things, things I don't think I can just erase. So I chose this life instead. It isn't glamorous but it works for me." He answers. I know about the Pit. I look to his hair and gesture to the hair strand that is stained white. It looks so out of place in his dark hair. He nods and presses his together tightly.
"A little gift from the Lazarus. I have tried to dye it. Cut it. Anything you can think of and it never goes away. A constant reminder as if I need one of those. Same as my eyes...you may notice they seem unnatural sometimes. That's why" He jokes and turns around putting the pack of paper towels on top of the cabinet.
I try to think of all the things that Robin told me about him, how much evil they suspected him of. For a while they even believed he was working with the Joker and that the whole thing was just a cover up for him. Meanwhile they thought he was evil, he was fighting inner demons about how to protect himself from himself, and from the world he once knew coming after him.
"I don't really know what to say to comfort people...so just...I'm sorry that happened to you." I say plainly, It's true I don't know how to comfort people.
"It's okay, I have gotten used to all of that being apart of my story you know? At the time it was frustrating that it was happening but, now...I think I just accepted it. However allowing my guard to get so low around you that I didn't pick up on the obvious clues that you were a Titan well...that I am still accepting" He says with a smile. I can't help but smile back rolling my eyes and shaking my head while checks to make sure the water works in the sink.
"What were my obvious clues?" I ask he laughs
"Well, you seemed more accustomed to traumatic situations. You dress in all dark colors, believe it or not you did look a lot like how you really look. Just with longer hair and black hair instead of purple. The deep blue eyes too, those were really close to your violet once, which by the way I like better. After the first day after the attack you didn't baby your wrist nearly as much. Which only meant to me you were high as a fucking kite or you could semi heal yourself." He explains, I nod at each thing he mentions.
"Well if it makes you feel any better the glamour look was the opposite of what I wanted" I say now he cocks his head to look at me. Trying to look through me actually. "I wanted to be blonde...green eyes...bright colored. Robin insisted I look this way though. I just wanted to look...different"
"He knew what Conner was after. You didn't know though so why did you want to look so different?" He asks, I looks down at my boots. Trying to figure out how to answer this question. Especially to a person I just found out is the enemy. Well that didn't stop us a couple hours ago.
"I wanted to feel pretty. Like Starfire" I admit. I assume this takes him off guard because he furrows his brows and looks at me with complete and utter shock. He doesn't say anything for a minute or two, looking me up and down. No doubt trying to think of what to say next.
"Why would you want to look like Starfire?" he asks...I chew on the inside of my cheek recalling the night I saw Robin and Starfire naked. Robin fucking her in a way he hadn't fucked me in a long time. I remember how hurt I was, how many lights shattered in my room when I finally got back. How many times I had to try to meditate to get the image out of my head. How hard it was for me not to break up with him the next day when he knocked on my door with flowers and a cup of my favorite tea from my favorite place. I guess Jason figured it out by the look on my face because he curses under his breath and walks around the counter turning me towards him. I didn't even realize tears were falling down my face until he wiped them away.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks, I shrug brushing off the emotions centering myself the way I have been mentally training myself to do for a long time.
"We had fought...he was mad because I didn't follow an order on a mission...a mission with you actually. I followed you up to that rooftop. Remember? You Xed me to the Ac unit?" I ask he laughs and nods "Well, he was mad I put myself in danger being alone with you. I told him that me being his girlfriend should have no impact on our missions. I stormed off and went to my room. When I went to his room to apologize I heard noises...so I used my shadow self to go in. Him and Star were having sex. Roughly. They don't know, that I know because I figured being able to work as a team was more important than my feelings."
"He shouldn't have cheated" Jason says bluntly, I nod in agreement
"I know. I just can't help but think that if I was prettier...hotter...if I looked like her than maybe when he was angry with me he would just hate fuck me instead of going to her. Though I have forgiven Star..just like she forgave me for dating the man she was in love with. I can't bring myself to forgive him completely though. He just kept going back to her. I would beg myself to have sex with him when I didn't want to just so he wouldn't go back to her. I couldn't. He kept going back" I admit. Jason releases a large exhale, he has put some space between us allowing for me to take some deep breaths myself. This is the first time I have told anyone about this.
"Raven...Starfire has nothing on you. I am not going to lie she is pretty hot. I think you are hotter though. Maybe you are just more my type anyway" he says, I let myself laugh shaking my head at him and his humor. It does make me feel better to talk to him about this, even though the logic side of me is going at war with every other part of me.
[At the tower]
"Anything out of Conner?" Cyborg asks Robin as Robin steps out of the room they keep their prisoners. Which is very rare. Robin just shakes his head slamming his fist down on the couch.
"He says she left. He never got to sell her. Which means she is out there somewhere with that Jason guy, do we know anymore about him?" Robin asks, Cyborg shakes his head and opens his mouth to say something but the ringing of their Titan "House Phone" makes him shut it. He reaches over and answers it, his eyes immediately widen and he puts it on speaker phone.
"Raven?! Where are you? Are you safe?" He asks Robin hastily moves for the phone looking at the displayed number, it's area code isn't even from around here.
"I'm safe. I am okay. I am working on a separate case but I wanted to call you guys and make sure no one panics. Conner moves women out of the docks furthest from town. It's basically on the exact opposite of where the tower is. The complete other side" Raven explains, Robin nods. He picked Conner up from the College he hadn't even been able to get out of him where he has been moving the women. Cyborg breaths a sigh of relief and sets a hand on the counter next to the phone.
"Where are you? We can work on this case together?" Robin says Cyborg shoots him a glare, out of all people Robin isn't the person to try to coax her home. They both hear the hesitation on the other end.
"Hello Richard. I need to work on this alone...I only called so you guys wouldn't get worried. I will call again when I can. For now...just let me do my case and you can have your bad guy. Conner is the real reason why you sent me in right? As bait? It's fine I know now...I know a lot more than you think Richard. Goodbye" Raven says on the other line, Robin opens his mouth to speak but the dial tone disrupts him. He curses under his breath and pushes the phone off the counter. He wanted to be the one to tell her. To explain everything.
A couple months ago
The Titans storm into the comm room Robin flinging his staff across the room. It barely misses Beastboy who yelps and ducks saving his forehead from a knarly knot. Robin's face is beat red as he looks to the other Titans. Raven folds her arms across her chest, her eyebrow arched at him.
"Can you guys give us a minute?" Robin seethes, everyone obliges, walking in their own direction. Starfire hides in the stairway blocked by a wall but can hear every word.
"What the fucking hell was that Raven? I told you not to follow him up there" Robin fumes, Raven shakes her head with disgust
"You didn't order me as a leader Richard, you ordered me as your girlfriend and may I remind you we promised each other our relationship wouldn't get involved in our missions" She says he kicks the nearest couch making Raven glare harder at him.
"It shouldn't fucking matter Rae! What if he hurt you? What if he did more than hurt you? You don't know what kind of a guy he is? Why would you even put yourself in a situation like that? With no backup? I wouldn't be mad if I didn't fucking care so much about you!" He yells, she scoffs
"If you fucking cared about me? Richard all you needed to do was trust me. As your teammate and your girlfriend. All he did was escape and X me to a fucking AC unit. He's a thief not a kidnapper, not a murderer and not some sex fien. I don't get why you are so mad" She says back, her voice slightly raised but no where close to his volume. His anger has always been a problem, it isn't something he isn't aware of either. He looks Raven up and down and just shakes his head at her dragging his hand through his hair.
"How am I supposed to trust you when you can't follow simple instructions? Don't follow him anywhere by yourself. You know our relationship is going to define how I treat you in the field. If you are hurt and someone else is hurt, my main priority is always going to be you...you matter to me. I want to protect you but how can I do that when you won't listen to me?" he says, Raven hates to admit he does carry a point, but so does she. She isn't about to let him walk away thinking he is right when has yet to admit she is to.
"You aren't my daddy, You are my leader, I trust you. So why can't you trust me with something like this? You send Starfire? Beastboy? Cyborg? But I can't go?" She asks He shakes his head in frustration and slams his fist down on the coffee table as he sits down on the couch he earlier kicked.
"You aren't like them, you are my girlfriend what part of that aren't you understanding?!" He yells. She flinches, and sucks her teeth and for a minute she had the thought to break up with him, problem solved he can't treat her like a child anymore. But then she would lose him. So she turns on her heels and heads into her room allowing the frustration consume her vision. Robin stands up going to his own bedroom allowing the door to shut with a hiss. A knock on the door pulls him away from doing anymore damage to anything in his room. He walks to the door and allows it to open. Starfire stands in front. She doesn't know why exactly she walked up here, only that she wants to check on him. Before he stops himself he grabs her in pressing her against the wall of his room. His lips find hers and his tongue explores the inside of her mouth. She is shocked but she kisses back feeling his arms with her hands. She released a small moan coming from the years she has wanted something like this to happen with him. Without warning he moves her from the wall to his bed laying her down beneath him as he explores her mouth some more. He reaches underneath her mini skirt and rips away her panties, she gasps in response staring down at the ripped fabric in his fist. His fingers run along her slit as she moves her hips suggestively. It doesn't take long for him to unbuckle his utility belt and take off his pants he doesn't even bother taking off the rest of her clothes he lifts up the skirt and thrusts to fingers inside of her while his other hand moves to the back of her neck guiding her to his member. She takes it in her mouth unsure on what really to do with it. She doesn't need to, he groans as he face fucks her, guiding her head up and down his member. He pushed her head all the way to where he can feel his member hitting the back of her throat. She moans as pulls her head off watching the drool drip from her chin. He pushes her back down onto the bed lifting her hips up to connect with his, he pushes himself inside of her moaning as he does. She does to, she has never felt the feeling of a man inside of her before. He begins his thrusts, hard and fast like body slams. He covers her mouth with his hand as he goes fast and harder each one sending mindless pleasure through the both of them. His hand falls from her face and to her chest grabbing her breast hard as he continues his thrusts. Starfire moans deeply and grips the bedframe for support as she struggles to stay silent. He pounds her faster as he feels himself reaching climax. He does so bursting inside of her as she moans at the feeling of his throbbing cock inside of her. He pulls out watching himself drip out of her. She just looks up at him, her green eyes finding his.
"So is that what the sex is like?" She asks he nods to her as he catches his breath
"Raven...can't know that happened" He says to her, she nods in understanding and smiles at him. Finally what she wanted to happen with him did, maybe not the way she wanted but it happened. A feeling of guilt took over her when she thinks about Raven, about what she just did to her best friends boyfriend.
[Present time-With Raven]
Hanging up on my friends and shutting off the phone feels like I just slapped them in the face. Honestly I wouldn't mind slapping Robin but Cyborg didn't deserve it, he has been there for me since day 1. Jason gets ready for bed showering now that he has figured out how to turn on the hot water valve. I had learned that he curses more than Robin does. Every time something didn't go to plan he threw out curse words like they were nothing. It almost shocks me that anyone can curse more than Robin. We both decided we could sleep in the same bed, it would make it easier to alert the other in case they were found out. If Conner's men came looking for us. As I settle into the bed with newly washed sheets, I finally feel comfortable. I have stripped down to nothing but my underwear and tshirt. It feels good to let my legs breath. Jason walks into the room, a towel wrapped around his fit body. I knew whoever Red X was they had to be fit but I never thought I would find myself staring for this long. He smirks and drops the towel his member shocking me into dropping my gaze.
"Why did you do that?" I ask he laughs wrapping the towel back around him and looking through a large black bag.
"You seemed to need something to look at Sunshine, thought I would give it to you" He replies I scoff and lay my head down on the pillow looking up at the dark ceiling. I hear him drop the bag onto the floor and pull on a pair of underwear. I can still the bulge from where his dick sits. It's more inviting than I would like to admit.
"You are unbelievable" I say rolling my eyes.
"Tell me princess, are you one of those girls with Daddy issues that likes to be fucked senseless with weird ass kinks?" He asks I gasp at his boldness and press my lips together.
"For your information I do have 'daddy issues' but I don't think I am kinky. I wouldn't know anyway Robin isn't a very kinky person. He's the only guy I have ever had sex with" I admit, he scoffs but it blends into a chuckle. He gives off this attractive boyish smile as he gets into bed next to me, he doesn't get under the blanket just rests on top of it.
"So you don't know if you are kinky, I mean I didn't know if you were either that's why I didn't go much farther than what we did already today" He says I allow myself to laugh looking at him in complete disbelief.
"We had sex what do you mean there's more?" I ask he chuckles again this time slightly more mischievous. I recognize it from the many times that laugh has escaped his mask.
"There is a lot more, I didn't choke you...I didn't spank you...I didn't have you give me head...I really want to tie you up but that might be the Red X in me talking. I didn't though, that is mostly though because I don't know where you stand on any of those and I didn't want to do it if I didn't know if you would like it. I would much rather know what you are into and stick to that so I don't make you uncomfortable" He says, the thought of him caring enough about what would make me comfortable for some reason makes me want him even more. Robin always made sure I wanted to have sex with him, consent was always first. He just also cared a lot more about what would make him feel good. After the first couple months of us dating he stopped putting work into my orgasms, I ended up needing to make myself finish later in the shower or something. Jason seems like the type of guy who would make sure you finish while also making sure he felt good. Thinking about letting Jason fuck me again sends butterflies to my stomach.
"How would I even know if I like to be choked?" I asked he smirks
"We could try it" He suggests, I tongue the inside of my cheek staring at him. I look at his hands, looking at them brings another feeling of butterflies but not to my stomach...somewhere...lower. Maybe I would like being choked. Maybe it is just being choked by him that I would like. I push the thoughts out of my mind shaking my head.
"We need to get to sleep" I say turning over he laughs and agrees finally getting under the covers with me but facing the opposite way. I let the silence of the room take me, listening to any slight noises. The hum of the heater is all I hear as I drift off to sleep. Though when I wake up the burning feeling in my very soul doesn't go away. I need more. I need him. Something about this situation with him is stirring something in me I don't know how to control. When I look to him beside me he is sound asleep. I tap him on the arm and he wakes up looking over to me with urgency and concern.
"Are you okay?" He asks
"Can we...try...sorry this is stupid" I say sucking in a deep breath and wishing I could take the last minute back. He shakes his head and grabs my hand.
"Sunshine, did you wake me up for sex?" He asks, almost in disbelief. I nod sheepishly "That is the best thing you could have woken me up for. Tap my arm if you need me to pull back"
He pulls me on top of him pushing his hands under my shirt and cupping my breasts while I grind down on him. I can't control it, it's my body doing whatever it needs and it needs him. I feel him harden underneath me. I use my powers to remove my shirt and he watches in amazement. He sits up grabbing me around the waist and kissing my body. Sucking on my breasts and rubbing his palms into my back. I moan letting my head fall back as I continue to grind on him. I could orgasm just from this.
"Your moans are so fucking hot" He whispers, one of his hands moves down to my ass grabbing it hard. He slaps it and it stings a little but makes me wetter than I was already. My moan comes out like a short gasp and he does it again this time a little harder to get a bigger reaction. "God I can't tell you how bad I have wanted this"
He makes me feel so wanted, that it fuels my own want. In one swift movement he switches our position. I am now on the bottom while he hovers over me. He takes off his boxers and then continues to kiss up and down my body. He kisses my thigh and it makes me want his tongue again. It felt so good before it is now a craving again. He lightly kisses closer, I moan and finally his tongue connects with me. His hand reaching up to grab my breast. He plays with it while he eats me, devouring me like I am his last meal. He moans in delight as he does so matching my pleasure sounds. He leans forward grabbing my neck and pulling me close to him. He squeezes tightly around my neck and makes eye contact with me as he plunges his member inside of me.
"Fuck" escapes my lips, he slams into me over and over, bringing more pleasure than I have ever experienced with Robin. He pulls out sitting up and releasing my throat.
"Come here" He demands, I do on my knees on the bed, he kisses me deeply as his fingers explore where his member just was. I moan into his mouth and he pulls away. "Your moans are driving me insane. Turn around but don't bend over"
I listen feeling the rise of his arousal from him. He grabs my breast with one hand and guides his member into me from behind with the other. I gasp loudly as he begins to pound again his hand going back to my throat. This pleasure is different. It feels so good every thrust is sending me into another world of pleasure. He presses himself against my back as his thrusts continue. My head leaning against his chest.
"Fuck" escapes me once again He goes faster and my vision seems to blur.
"God you feel so good" He days, it drives my pleasure even further he removes his hands, the hand that was choking me is now on the back of my neck and he pushes me down until my face hits the bed. He continues his pace and deepness and I am squeezing the sheets with everything as my moans grow loader and loader, almost screams at this point which makes him go faster and harder. My body begins to rise and rise until it explodes in an orgasm, tightening around him as he continues to fuck me hard. He pulls out at the last second using his hand on my neck to hastily turn me and pump onto my chest. His warmth is hot to me. I look up at him through my eyelashes.
"Thank you"
