Chapter6 Just out of reach
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Jason lay next to Sands on the bed. "Christ Sands I'm so fucking sorry," he whispered He still couldn't believe how close he had come to killing him. It didn't matter how many times Sands had tried to assure him that he was fine and told him to stop worrying about it he just couldn't stop the guilt eating at him.
For the first time in his life his mother's words over ruled all others, including Sands something he didn't think was possible and in this case he wished it couldn't be true.
Jason ran downstairs the second he heard the front door shut indicating his mother had returned home. Jason advanced on his mother. "How is he?" he demanded before his mother had even the chance to begin to remove her jacket she had put on over her night clothes hours before.
Her eyes narrowed in on him. "To answer your question I have just been informed that he will be fine," she said wearily. Relief washed over Jason when he heard that although it was still tinged with guilt, it was his fault Sands had been on the brink of death in the first place.
His mother stared coolly at him as if reading his thoughts. "As well you might look relieved Jason Alexander Sykes. Do you have any idea just how lucky you are you did not kill him tonight? How on earth could you have been so bloody stupid?" she screamed.
Hot tears pricked at his eyes. There was no way his mother could understand just how he was feeling right now. He was the only person Sands had ever trusted and what had he done to honour his trust? He had almost killed him. Even although he knew Sands was going to be okay he knew he would never forgive himself for this.
Jason tossed and turned all night trying to sleep but he couldn't. Every time he shut his eyes images of Sands slumped on his bed with blood pouring from his mouth in frightening amounts.
"Can I go see him?" he asked his mother the next morning.
"No you may not." She said firmly.
"Why? You can't do this…" he said with more attitude than was wise to use with his mother.
"You can drop that tone for a start! Given the circumstances I just don't think it is the best idea," she said softening her tone a little when she realised just how upset her son was.
Jason could only nod. Sands was in a hospital bed, it was all his fault but he wasn't even going to visit him. How must Sands be feeling? Would he think he had left him? That was the last thing he wanted. He wanted to be by Sands bed. Even if Sands told him to duck off he would go but he just wanted to let Sands know he hadn't left him nut his mother wouldn't allow it.
Sands sighed, "It's cool forget about it. If I was pissed at you, you know as well as I do I would have made that very clear to you," he told him.
Jason smiled slightly then nodded. He knew Sands was right. There was still an element of guilt within him that would take a while to fade, if it ever did.
"I'm gonna guess your mom and dad don't know you're here, do they? I am going to assume and I am going to guess their phrasing was something along the lines of, given the circumstances your father and I, or mother and I depending on who was doing the talking think it is best you don't see him anymore. We know it isn't his fault but given his upbringing and… " he trailed off feeling he had made his point.
Jason sighed. "Look Sands, my mom saw the vodka bottles and could smell the drugs. She's seriously pissed at me for what I did to you. You know…"
Sands cut him off. "So is this what this is? Your last visit or are you going to disobey the orders of mommy and daddy?" he asked trying to keep the bitter sarcastic tone from his voice. Sands wasn't upset with Jason directly. He was upset with the whole situation. He should have known this would happen, it was the kind of thing that always happened to him. Every time Sands let himself get close to someone, maybe even begin to trust them something always happened to drive them away from him.
"No Sands, Christ Sands don't even think like that. Do you really think I am gonna just stop seeing you just because my mom and dad said I can't, especially now that you have an amazingly sexy tongue piercing?" Jason asked moving to kiss him.
Sands smirked a little them met Jason's lips. He let his tongue play with him, using his newly acquired piercing for maximum effect. Although Sands would never admit it he was happy that Jason wasn't willing to give up on him quite as easily as everyone else had.
"That's good to know," Sands answered as his hand slipped up the inside of Jason's thigh lingering teasingly just below the area of maximum pleasure. Sands looked up at Jason a smirk playing on his lips.
"You are a fucking tease Sands," Jason moaned.
Sands smirked as he continued to tease him. "I know," Sands told him.
Sands kissed Jason again, He kissed the tip of his tongue so the tongue ring played with Jason's mouth as it grazed his tongue and teeth. Jason kissed Sands with an increased passion as he did this.
"Like I said there aint no fucking way I'm leaving you man. Even if we have to be like fucking Romeo and Juliet," Jason said smirking.
Sands smirked and cocked his head a little. "Romeo and Juliet? Didn't have you down as the major soppy romantic there Jas. Don't tell me you've read the play. I'm gonna bet you cried am I right?" he asked teasing him ruthlessly.
"Shut up Sands you know what I mean," he said blushing slightly.
Sands laughed when he saw Jason blush.
He kissed him again. "You might be fucking sexy Jas but you aint getting me in no tights speaking yon olden times shit savvy," he said smirking. Sands was feeling a lot calmer and happier than he had for a while.
