Chap27 Keeping it cool

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Doctor Ray forced himself to remain calm while a million thoughts whizzed through of his mind none of them all together comforting. He wasn't sure what exactly it was he was expecting when he arrived but he knew it certainly wasn't this. He had come without any backup and no plan for this. He knew he had to act fast and correctly not only for his and Sand's safety but for the safety of Jason.

"Sands…" Doctor Ray began carefully.

"Just shut up. Do you really want me to cut him right here? Blood is a hell of a bitch to clean…not that it really makes that big a difference to me or you for that matter. Although a dead body on your hands…that wont look to good on your record now will it?" he asked the knife still pressed against Jason's throat as he smiled manically.

Jason was doing his best to remain calm but it isn't the easiest thing to do when the person you love and believed loved you is holding a knife to your throat threatening to kill you. "You're very quiet there Jas, what's wrong you had plenty to say before," Sands sneered as he glanced down at him. He deliberately was avoiding looking into his eyes too scared of what he would find there. He didn't want to see the fear he knew would be reflected there as well as the mix of other emotions. He knew he had to stay strong in this he couldn't afford to break now. He still couldn't believe Jason had betrayed him like this. He was the one person he thought he could trust.

"No one's talking…what's that old saying again…silence is golden?" Sands asked after a while.

"Sheldon this isn't doing anyone any good you know this come on stop this…" Doctor Ray pleaded. He didn't come any closer incase Sands kept to his word and did kill Jason. That was what made this all the more difficult to handle in many cases like this it was an empty threat that wouldn't actually be carried out but in this case he really didn't know how Sands would act.

Sands was starting to panic he was beginning to see that he had boxed himself into a corner he didn't know what to do. He didn't want to kill Jason. Even although he had betrayed him part of him knew he wouldn't be able to kill him. He cursed that weakness within him. He couldn't let that show he was not going back to that hospital. It was all Jason's fault for phoning him. He should never have let him in. He would just have to be a lot more careful about who he trusted. He still had no idea what he was going to do. He could feel panic rising within him he was loosing control of the situation he had to get it back he needed to be the one in control.

Doctor Ray noticed a slight chink in Sands demeanour. He could tell Sands was starting to realise his situation. He didn't make any movements or say anything he knew as risky as it was the only thing he could do right now was wait it out.

"Sands. I'm sorry…I…I thought I was helping you…" Jason finally attempted. Sands said nothing as he took in these words. Help him? How could that place help him? "You know how much I hate that fucking place…" Sands muttered. He could feel his control slipping around him it was too late to gain it back he was in too deep.

He looked down at the knife he was holding against Jason's neck as if seeing it for the first time. What the hell was he doing? He felt his breathing become harsh as he let the knife slip from his fingers and fall to the ground with a hard thud. "Jas…" he whispered suddenly feeling Jason's body trembling against him. "I'm so sorry….my God…what's wrong with me?" he muttered.

"You're a bad boy Sheldon. You deserve everything I give you. You should consider yourself lucky I am as lenient as I am you deserve a lot worse than what I give you my boy," his father's voice screamed inside his head.

His father was right. He was a bad person. He moved to put his arms around Jason expecting him to push him away but Jason clung to him holding him tight. "It will be alright Sands…it will be alright…" he whispered.

"How…how can you be so nice to me…let me hold you after this…" he whispered.

"I…I love you," he whispered it was the only reason he had for this.

"I love you too…" Sands whispered.

Doctor Ray watched this closely and slowly entered the room. "Will you let me help you Sands?" he asked carefully. Sands looked to him and then into Jason's pleading eyes and nodded slowly.