A/N: I was in the depressing mood, so this is semi RaeBB.... More BBTerra.... I don't know it's really depressing! If you don't like depressing, then don't read this! I love all my reviewers, you guys are soo sweet!!

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This chapter is dedicated to: AnimeDutchess because she really wanted more BBTerra stories.... Well this story is sort of BBTerra and sort of RaeBB, but mostly BBTerra! Okay enjoy!!

Welcome To My Life

Raven sat on the edge of her bed crying. Beast Boy had just asked Terra out on a date. How could he break her heart just like that? She wanted to break down in front of her friends, but she just couldn't. They would think she was a baby and everything. They would all know that she could show emotions. She didn't want them to know that. Maybe if she hid her tear stained face, nobody would notice her. She put her hood on her head and walked out the door.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

She walked to her door and locked it. She turned up the radio so loud, that nobody would hear her screaming… She screamed her heart out…. She was so broken inside. I wish I had a great life, I wish had somebody to always comfort me!!

"Why why why why?!??!" Raven screamed and screamed over and over again. Why was she feeling this way all the time? She covered her tear stained face with her hood. She didn't want anybody to see her this way. She felt like beating up Terra, kicking her until she knew Raven's pain. Why didn't Beast Boy? Why didn't their dating work out? Oh, of course! Raven knew the answer to it. It was because Beast Boy couldn't live with somebody that couldn't show emotions.

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

"Friend Raven! Please tell me what is the matter" The beautiful red head alien called from outside Raven's door. She knocked and knocked. There was no answer. Raven didn't get up to unlock the door, right now was not a good time to talk to her.

"Friend Raven! I wish to talk to you! I wish to understand! Please!" Starfire screamed and Raven got up. She walked to the door leaned against it.

"Not right now Starfire" Raven choked out as more tears came out of her violet eyes. She slid down against the door so she was sitting on the ground.

"I wish to understand what has hurt you" Starfire said so softly that Raven could barely hear her. It was more of a comfortable whisper then a harsh demanding one.

"I'm so sorry Starfire, I just can't talk right now" Raven yelled and rush towards her window. She flew out of it and just like that she was gone…..

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

Raven flew above all the rooftops of the city. She was in love with him and he had no idea about it…. Why weren't they still together? She thought that he loved her and that she was good enough for him. She finally landed on top of an old workshop. She lay down her stomach so only her back was facing up. She cried and cried until there were no more tears for her to cry. It felt like forever until Raven finally had the strength to go back to the T tower. She found her way back through the darkness. The dark felt comforting and she felt safe as she flew through the dark blue sky. She landed on her window still. There was nothing different with her room. It was just the plain old room she had made when she joined the team…


To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

A couple years later….

Raven sat in her room starring out the window at the sun. Today was finally here, the day that Terra and Beast Boy were getting married. She sighed as she got up from the chair she was sitting in. She wore a black dress that was made out of silk. Her hair was tied up in a bun. Oh how she wished she was Terra right now. Terra would be getting married to the guy Raven was in love with! Why couldn't Raven just face the facts and get on with her life?

"Friend Raven? The wedding of marriage is about to start!" Starfire said and smiled. Raven tried to smile back, but a smile wasn't coming.


Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

"Are you okay Raven?" Cyborg whispered as they got ready to walk down the aisle.

"I'm fine, what gave you an idea like that?" Raven snapped and turned her head away from Cyborg. She felt a lone tear drip down her face. Why couldn't she get over her was the only thing she was thinking.

"Raven you there? It's time" Cyborg said as he gently shook her.

"What of course I'm here!"

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

Beast Boy stood at the alter while Cyborg held onto Raven. He didn't want Raven to run away. Beast Boy was smiling at Raven. Raven's face was blank. She didn't want to show any emotions. You stupid liar! Stop smiling! You're making me melt!!!!! Raven thought to herself as she came closer and closer to Beast Boy and the alter. Cyborg was the only thing that kept her upright. She hung onto him like he was the only thing she could see. Once they got to the alter, they spilt apart. Raven walked over and Starfire and gripped her hand, she was about to faint. She didn't want Terra to come down the aisle and say 'I do' to someone Raven had always wanted to say those words too. The roof doors opened and there stood the bride…..

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Terra stood at the roof door. She and Speedy had their arms looped around each other. Speedy had offered to give Terra away and of course being Terra and Beast Boy, they accepted. Terra wore a sleeveless dress that was made out of silk. She had her hair up in a high ponytail and it was held up with a white ribbon. She had a huge smile on her face. Her dress went down to the ground and it was rather puffy. She wore white high heels. She had a veil on that was held up by a small white crown. What is up with white? Raven thought to herself as she watched Terra and Speedy walk down the aisle. When they got to the alter, Terra kissed Speedy's cheek and walked over to Raven.

"Raven, I'm sorry" Terra said and smiled, and Raven smiled back making sure Terra thought she was happy for her, but oh was she wrong.

"I'm sorry to Terra" Raven whispered to herself as she watched Beast Boy meet her at the steps…

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

Raven watched as the priest talked to the two of them. This went on for a long while and Raven felt her heart breaking into fourths. (A/N: haha you get it? Because it was already broken in half? Sorry I just thought I would write that!!) Terra lied to her, Terra wasn't sorry for saying yes to Beast Boy. She wasn't sorry about ever falling in love with Beast Boy period. Terra had betrayed her and Raven knew it. Oh Beast Boy didn't know what it was like to be hurt or to be lose or to be left out of all the wedding planning because you thought that it was just to hard on her. Beast Boy turned around and smiled at Raven. Raven didn't smile back, she just stared.

"I do" Terra and Beast Boy said in unison.

"Does anyone object?" Terra and Beast Boy's eyes both went to Raven, but she didn't say anything. She didn't do anything. She knew she would regret ever not saying anything, but that was just to bad, it was in the past. She smiled and turned away.

"Then I new pronounce you husband and wife" The priest said and Beast Boy and Terra both smiled. Raven was the only one who didn't smile for them.

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Right after they had been pronounce husband and wife, Raven flew off not caring what would happen to her. She had tried over the years to get rid of the thoughts of Beast Boy and how they use to love each so much that she would have done anything for him. Her emotions and life were being pushed around and she was under control of Terra now. Terra could make up lies about her and tell Beast Boy and Beast Boy would believe Terra. That's the only person he would believe. Terra was the only person he believed. Not Raven, not Starfire, not Robin, and not Cyborg.

"I'm sorry Raven" Terra said and smiled.

"No Raven, Terra's not sorry and she'll never be sorry" Raven told herself as she flew farther and farther away from Beast Boy and his new wife Terra…..

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Epilogue:

Terra and Beast Boy lived happily and married forever and they didn't have one single fight. Raven was right about Beast Boy believing in only Terra. Raven never came back to the T tower, but she is still remembered everywhere. The titans searched a long year for her, but she was never found. For some strange reason, Beast Boy still thinks he can find her…. Probably because she was his first true love…..

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Raven's POV

I sit here wondering to myself if I could change the past, would I? If I could go back in time and get Beast Boy to myself, should I? I ask this to myself everyday. The roads have been my home for a long time now and I can't remember when I had a true friend like Starfire. I miss her and I know that's pretty random. But she cared about me so much and she just wanted to help. I know that the titans were looking for me, but I was so hurt that I just didn't want to see them again. I turned off everything that could track me. I didn't want them to find me. I didn't want to talk them. I just wanted my own life without any heartbreaks and without any lies involved. Nobody ever saw me crying on those days that I would cry to myself. Nobody cared if I was hurt inside…. Well except for Starfire…. Beast Boy didn't care about me anymore, but I still care for him so much. I watch over them sometimes and think to myself I should be the one married to Beast Boy and living happily with the people around me who love me. Well I guess that's not gonna happen… So that's life I guess….. Welcome to my life….

The End

A/N: Did you like it? I hope you did!! Was it a tear jerker because I was like about to cry because Beast Boy was making Raven so unhappy! I could have changed it, but I liked it this way! I'll update soon if you review! Hahaha! Get it?!?! Okay never mind..

-Hopeless