Chapter 12

Okay, I have to do this now because I forget to put it in the end. So Thanx to Mondler4EvEr, astrozombie50, Dragon Pants, XxThaliaxX, Dark Angel Kira and well everyone else who reviewed and supported me. I'm so glad you like my story, and everyone's offering to be a beta reader…but um…..i don't know what that is. Sorry. But either way I love you guys. Oh and I know it's kinda late but, I don't own HSM or anything related to it.

Ryan's p.o.v

As I get our stuff ready for the campfire, Troy is silent. He's been acting like this the whole day. He's upset but not angry. I wonder what's wrong with him; does he act like this normally? I really wouldn't know. I zip up my small bag and walk over to him. He turns around and we are face to face. I lean in to kiss him but he dodges me and walks to the bathroom. I've had enough of this. I follow him to the bathroom. He tries to shut the door but, I stop him.

"What is wrong with you?" I ask

"Me!" he yells "what's wrong with me! You're the one with….you know what, forget it I'll see you at the camp fire."

"What are you talking about? I thought you had to work the clean up shift?" I ask

"I requested to be with the campfire. Funny how you never mentioned that if I could get someone else to fill in for me, then I was free to go." he snaps

Shit, it must have slipped my mind. But wait a minute

"You have to be partnered up, who are you with?" I ask

He smiles and pushes past me, he walks to the door but stops and turns back to me

"Nicole" he says as he leaves.

My heart sinks as the door shuts behind him. Did he just say Nicole? Not the same bitch that just yesterday we both hated. Why is he doing this? How could he? Stop breath. You're letting him get to you, Ryan. Of course he's getting to me I love him! And he said he felt the same way! This is exactly what I feared would happen. I put my feelings out there and they get crushed. So much for a good night, to think I was gonna introduce my best friend to him tonight! So he wants to date Nicole? Why? I'm lost, but right now I can't think clearly. I have to get going. I double check my stuff as I leave the cabin. So troy wants games? Two can play that game.

I take my seat next to Mark. I forgot how good he looks. His shaggy blonde hair and green eyes. He's gotten taller and is obviously has been working out. I see a small tattoo on his upper arm. He smiles as I sit down. I can't help but smile back. He was one of the only friends I had coming here. He was the only straight guy I've ever been attracted to. But that was in the past. I'm so glad he decided to come here yesterday.

"Ryan!" he says "god, it's been forever!"

He reaches over and hugs me.

"I know!" I respond

"How are you, what's new?" he ask

"Not much" I lie "you?"

"Um" he looks down "not so good"

"Why?" I ask

He opens his mouth but is stopped by the sound of the kids making their way to the campfire.

"Tell ya later" he says.

Some kids wave at me and I wave back. I see the little kid, Michael. I'm about to wave when I see who's behind him. Troy, with his arm around Nicole's waste. He's looking me directly in the eyes and smiling. It's like a kick in the face. How can he be so cruel? He obviously doesn't know what I'm capable of. But he'll soon find out.

Troy's p.o.v

As the kids tell there ghost stories I wrap my arms around Nicole tighter. Is he looking? I can't tell. It's too dark to see his eyes. So that's Mark? What's he got that I don't? Tattoos? Whatever. Ryan's gonna want me back soon enough. I tickle Nicole's side so she laughs. I notice Ryan turn his head out of the corner of my eye. Bingo. He looks at me for awhile and then turns to mark and says something. Mark laughs and looks at me. He then puts his arm around Ryan's waist and Ryan lay's his head on his shoulder. I thought that was it, but I was wrong. Mark slowly moves his hand to Ryan's thigh and rests it there. Ryan moves in closer to him and closes his eyes. He's not even glancing over here, he doesn't care if I see him or not. I pull Nicole closer to me, she smiles. I feel bad, leading her on like this. Knowing that once I get back at Ryan, this will all be over and she'll be hurt and confused. I had to lie to her and tell her I really liked her and Ryan was just a dare gone too far. She doesn't fully believe me, but she plays dumb anyway. What else can I do? And as if the heavens could hear me, Nicole sees a bug and hops on my lap. Ryan's eyes open but close in a second. He saw, I know he saw. I keep Nicole on my lap. I'm winning. And out of no where I see Mark grab Ryan's head and pull his face to his. Ryan looks shocked but doesn't stop there lip from touching and their mouths from opening and their tongues from meeting. It was short but intense. Before I know what's happening, Nicole's on the ground and I'm running to Mark. Ryan jumps up, but he's too late. I swing at Mark and hit him in the face. I expect him to fall but he doesn't. He just cocks his fist back and hits me in the stomach. He's going easy on me. Because if he wanted to he could've just knocked my head off. I catch my breath and Ryan tries again to stop us, but he gets in the way and I end up hitting him in the side of the head. Fuck. What have I done? He stumbles a little bit but then manages to catch his ground. He looks at me, not in anger or pain but in blank nothingness. I reach out to touch him but he turns away. Mark grabs his arm, but he pulls away from him too. The kids are all screaming and acting insane. Nicole's trying to calm them down. Mark takes off after Ryan. Not this time. I run after him as well. And the race is on.

The night is too dark to see anything, I have no idea where Ryan is, and he's not in the cabin or the mess hall. I run past Mark, whose sitting on the ground, out of breath. I stop, knowing that it's no longer a race, but a search. Think Troy, where would Ry be? And then it hits me! The studio! Duh, why did you not think of that earlier? I take of running again towards the studio. The closer I get the more light I can see under the door. Once I reach the studio I swing the door open and walk in. Ryan is sitting on one of the tables looking over his note.

"You read this didn't you?" he ask, holding the letter up

"Yeah" I pant

"And you thought that Mark was sometime of old boyfriend?" he ask

I nod. He laughs a little and puts the note in his pocket.

"He's just a friend" he says

I laugh a little. Wait, I'm pissed.

"Some fucking friend" I say "and since when is having someone fall for you nothing new?"

He looks down at his feet and then looks back at me.

"Look I don't have to explain myself to anyone…especially to you" he says and gets up.

Does he think it's that easy, to just walk away from me, from us? I grab him, and he tries to pull away, so I grab him tighter.

"Troy, you're hurting me" he says

I slam him into a wall and bring myself close to him so that I feel his breath on my lips.

"I love you. And I'm sorry. So let's move the fuck on" I say breathing hard

"Let me go" he says

I can fell my grip tightening.

"Stop!" he says

But I can't if I let him go he may never come back. He struggles more but I squeeze tighter. He stops moving and closes his eyes. I think he's about to cry. He opens his eyes and looks me directly in the eyes.

"Let me go" he whispers

I shake my head. He lets out a heavy sigh. He then, quickly drops to the floor causing me to loose my grip. He pops back up and gives me a punch to the back of my head. I turn around and he kicks me between the legs. I can't breath. I fall to the ground and watch his feet run out of the studio. What have I done? Troy you fucking idiot! You let your temper get the best of you, again. I slowly pick my self up and lay down on a desk. Pain is shooting through my body like lighting and every time I move it hurts. But the physical pain is nothing compared to the way I feel inside. The way my heart is slowly crumbling into a thousand pieces. I know that Ryan still loves me, but now he'll deny it and deny me. But I can't let that happen, I love him and I would never hurt him….again. I love Ryan Evans and he'll see it soon enough.

Well, rough little chapter there huh? Don't worry the whole Mark being straight but kissing Ryan thing will be explained in the next chapter. I really hoped you liked it. Give me more reviews! I love you guys

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