A/N: Okay so first off I want to thank the people that reviewed, because it is so cool to get a review. So this is my little recognition to the people that did review, and to answer the questions, then I promise I will try to write longer chapters and update sooner!
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GinnyClone: Honestly, I'm really confused too. I have no clue where this story is going I'm just pulling stuff out of a hat. I will try to clarify more in this chapter, and try to explain what's going on as best as I can. Tell me if I can do anything else for ya!
OrangePunk: Okay, see you're my favorite reviewer, but shhhh don't tell anyone else it's a secret…And yes your assumption was correct he is a druggie. I love that scene too, its my favorite so far, I'm glade that you enjoyed it. Sorry I didn't update sooner but I will try to do more updates. Hopefully I can clear up some of your confusion, and some of my own.
Okay see these nice people reviewed, now they get a response from me in the story isn't that cool, you could too you know if you just hit the pretty special review button. It will thank you in the end. Cause I don't know about yours but my review button talks to me. That could also be for other reasons but we will ignore that for the time being. Think of it as karma you review mine and I review yours. Life is a circle round and round we go where it stops nobody knows. Okay done with the mini soap box.
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The first time she noticed that something wasn't right with him was a month after they had move in together. He hadn't come home that night; she originally thought that he just had to work late. But as she watched the hours pass by, and he still hadn't appeared she started to worry. They fought about it the next day when he had finally showed up. Things started progressing for the worse after that fight, they fought more and more about useless things. But then she found what he was hiding from her, and that was the first time she threatened to leave him.
Rory was humming to herself as she folded freshly laundered shirts and put them away. She the started sorting the pants that where all kept in a singular hamper, as she came upon a pair of Jess's jeans she checked the pockets. He had a tendency to leave papers, money, even his cell phone in the pockets. She slowly finds and pulls out a little plastic baggie filled with white powder; she dropped the pants on the floor, and then slowly followed them as she slid onto her knees shocked.
He came in sometime later to find her in the same place with something clutched in her hand. He looked on confused.
"Rory? What's wrong?" she just looked up at him with frightened eyes, she slowly unclenched the bag so that he could see what she held.
"Rory, I can explain"
"Oh I can't wait to hear this so called explanation" she said bitterly, once she found her voice
Sure he had heard her upset before that's not what shocked him, what shocked him was the bitterness her sweet voice held. He had never heard such bitterness in his life, not even from his mother.
"I…" he really had nothing to say. She laughed and again he had never heard anything that bitter from his sweet, little innocent angel.
"Oh great, you? You what Jess? Is this what you've been doing all along? This!" she waved the bag around furiously. The tears stung at her eyes as she continued.
"You ask me to come away with you, to live with you, to trust you. How can I trust you now Jess? You lied to me, straight to my face. You said you changed…Oh you changed alright, I don't even recognize you!" she sobbed. His first instinct was to inch closer to her, to hold her and tell her it would be okay, but as she backed away from his advances he knew that it wasn't the time to console her.
"Rory, I…" he tried again, but nothing came out.
"You lied to me Jess. How? How could you?" she was again on the floor sobbing, it was all you could hear throughout the otherwise quiet apartment.
"How long?" she said after her sobs had been controlled.
"How long, what?" he asked confusedly
"Don't play dumb Jess, your no good at it. How long have you been doing this to yourself?" shocked at her question he answered truthfully.
"I don't know, not long. I mean before you and stars hollow occasionally at parties. But I quit when I was there, nothing to it I can do it again, I will do it again. It's just occasionally anyway, its not like I'm an addict or anything, I can stop. I can." He lowered to the end talking to himself.
"I'm leaving" she announced bringing him back to earth.
"What! No, please. Stay it will get better, I promise." Reality hit home to him at the thought of her leaving
"If it doesn't, Jess I swear to god that I am on the first bus back to stars hollow."
"It will, see." He took the bag that she was still holding from her, and walked into the adjoined bathroom, and flushed the white powder down the toilet. He turned to face her, smirked slightly, and gave her his best innocent puppy look.
"Fight over?" he asked pleadingly she smiled tightly.
"Yeah, fight over." He grinned and kissed her.
It wasn't the last time that they had that fight, but it was the fight that started it all.
"Where were you Jess?" she repeated the question her mother had asked before her.
"I'm sorry…" he stated solemnly. Tears sprung to her eyes. She knew why he was apologizing.
"Why?" she whispered
"I just, I'm sorry Rory I was going to go get help. I was, I just…I needed one last time."
"NO!" she yelled, shocked Jess jumped slightly.
"No, you didn't Jess don't you see you don't need one last time. There is never one planned last time. You could've gone Jess. You should have gone, why? Just why didn't you…" she trailed off crying.
"I'm going back home with my mom." She stated
"No, don't-''' she held up her hand efficiently cutting him off.
"This time is for real Jess, I'm going back with my mom, and it's final. I love you, but I can't sit around here watching you destroy your life."
As if it was planned Lorelai walked through the front door, coffee in hand.
"You ready, Rory?" she asked quietly, Rory nodded in response and grabbed her already packed suitcase out to where her mother was standing. She turned to where Jess was standing.
"Good bye, Jess." Whispered as if she didn't want it to be true. Then just as quickly she walked out of the apartment that she once called home. As the door slammed shut behind the Gilmore girls, he slowly slid down to the floor, and for the first time in his life Jess Mariano cried.
