Suppressed Emotions, Hidden Desires
Chapter 4: Young Lovers
All of you who took the time to read this piece of shit, hats off to you! Rating CHANGE FOR THIS CHAPTER ONLY: Changed to M+
Here's the Recognitions! Rahhel, this contains CORRECT GERMAN.
Master Disaster: Well, I would NOT have had Shinji lie. It's not like him. Oops...Well, him cutting himself isn't either, but, under current circumstances, it's ok.
Were you about to call the pair something hentai-related? Good. Somethin like that's gonna happen this chapter! Sorry 'bout the paragraphs, it's the way I type. She'd eventually find out about the cutting himself sooner or later. How about sooner?
Frost-EVA-04: I will keep it up. I've got like two more chapters comin'! This one and one more!
Shingami-Halfbreed: Well, thanks. Changing personalities? IT'S WHAT I DO. God, My SUB-CONSCIOUS can change personalities. I had a dream once, and REI ACTED LIKE ASUKA. Yuck.
Sabby92: Well, that's great. I like the path I took (It's what I almost did after my girl left me) SO it fit :P I'm glad you don't have a clue where it's going...you won't be able to guess the ending!
Ninetyninenail: Kickass? NO WAY! Thanks!
Marduk-Report: Nutsy Bi-Polar Chick? Emo Wrist Cutter? WOW. Sums them up pretty much...Just a note. All German chicks are crazy and Bi-Polar. I should know. I have to deal with three of em LOL.
Here's the chapter.
The two are still in Shinji's room, just later that night.
Chapter Four:
It was going to be a long, long night, if you know what I mean.
Shinji and Asuka sat in his room, arms still tightly around each other. Shinji was using one hand to hold Asuka onto him, the other was stroking her fiery red hair. Asuka had balled her hands into fists to keep herself anchored to his front. They still didn't know where Misato was, she hadn't come home yet, and they don't think she'd leave without telling them. They didn't care, as they wanted, no, needed this time with one another. Asuka of course, broke the ice. "Shinji? Would you mind seeing if Misato's still here?" Shinji pulled his face out of her hair, and nodded. He stood up, and streched from being in the same position for almost two hours. He opened the door, and walked out. Having plain view of the living room, he saw she wasn't there. He ventured down the hall. "Where in the world could she be?" He said to himself, after checking her room. He saw no one in the bathroom, and no where else in the house. Sighing, he stalked back to his room. He opened the door, and, dropped his jaw when he saw her. She was lying on her side, resting her head on her right hand. She was running the fingers of her left hand up and down her legs, one of which was propped up, and the other was lying flat on his bed, making a 90-degree angle. He could plainly see the red on her cheeks, and backed up one step. "Asuka...what...what's...going..on?" He asked shakily. Asuka smiled, and relaxed her arm, hiking her skirt up as she did. "You'll see. Is Misato here?" Shinji shook his head back and forth, and Asuka's smile widened. "Come here..." She whispered. He took his sweet time walking over to the bed. He sat, and felt Asuka's hand on his shoulder. He looked back at her, and his heart began to race. Whatever she was wearing, it wasn't meant to be worn in public. It was so loose, it let him see down to where it tightened around her waist. "I can tell what she's about to do...she's going to lure me into something..." That thought was thrown from his mind, when she leaned forward, and kissed his neck. His blood rushed to his face, and she, having her mouth still attached to his neck, could see his face from the angle she was at. "Oh, what's wrong? You don't want this?" She asked, resting her right breast on his shoulder. Shinji tensed at the feeling of it weighing down on his shoulder. He turned, and spoke to her in his softest voice. "Yes...you don't know how long I've wanted this...but...what about earlier? You said th---" He was cut off by Asuka's finger being placed on his lips. "Shhhhh...Shinji, what I said...I didn't mean it. I don't care. I love you, and that's all that matters."
She cooed. Shinji took her finger off his lips, and kissed her with incredible force. She overcame her shock, and kissed him back, pushing against him. She pushed him over, and he held her close to him. Shinji was then slapped in the face. His body surged, and every nerve felt as if it were on fire. He began crying, and Asuka pulled back, in shock as well. Shinji buried his face in his hands, and sat up. She was in his lap, and suddenly, he wrapped his legs around hers. He pushed into her shoulder, and sobbed into it, coating the sleeve of her shirt with tears. "Shinji, what's wrong? It's okay, it's okay. I want this, and, so do you! It's okay. Last night is behind us. You pushed it then, but now we're both okay. Please..." She cooed. She stroked the back of Shinji's head, pleading with him. "No! It isn't okay! I could've hurt you, and you're okay with that! Asuka, please! I could've really hurt you, had you not stopped me. I want you, I want you very badly, but, I have self-restraint. Last night, it failed, and what about now? What if it fails tonight, and you can't stop me? What then?" He sobbed. She was crying too, but soon dried her tears. "Shinji, you won't. Even if you do, I promise I'll stop you. You aren't a sex-crazed beast, I know that. Please. Even if I can't, I'll be fine." Shinji looked up, and licked her lips. He kissed her, then agreed. He restrained from even touching her while she undressed in front of him. Soon, his drives were replaced. Love, passion, and restraint, were replaced with lust, desire, yet passion stayed. She finished with her skirt, and was there in front of him, at his mercy. Both of their minds were in absolute turmoil. Shinji didn't know what to do know, and Asuka was mentally preparing herself for what was to come. She kissed him, and unbuttoned his shirt. She pulled it off, and got down to his pants. Something inside him screamed at him to stop her. He fought a losing battle in his mind to stop this, and by the time the battle was over, they were both bare, wondering who'd make the first move. Finally, Shinji shot forward, and kissed Asuka with all he had inside him. His drives were kept under control by his mind, which was slowly being overtaken. To him, what they were doing now was perfectly fine. He wished they didn't have to go further than this, but he wanted it. Shinji began to feel strange, a feeling he had experienced before but did NOT like going through. He had lost the battle in his mind to lust, and desire. He was going to progress through this slowly. He still had self-restraint.
Asuka on the other hand, wanted to get the best part...fast. She reached down, and grabbed his hand. She placed it on her chest. He quickly yanked away from her, and looked a her, in complete shock. "Shinji, please. I thought we were going to make love? What's wrong?" Shinji sighed, and slowly balled his hand, completely forgetting where it was. She moaned, and Shinji quickly looked at her. "We are, you're just making it go to fast." Asuka agreed to the way Shinji did things, and, soon after, they had finished, sweaty and out of breath.
"Gah...son of a BITCH..." Asuka moaned after waking up. "Dammit...I can't bend like I used to..." She stood up, and pulled her shirt on. She walked out into the living room, and wave after wave of horror swept over her. Misato was sitting on the couch, looking incredibly sour. Asuka tried to back up as slowly as possible, and walk back into Shinji's room. "Oh no you DON'T! What did I hear last night coming from Shinji's room little missy?" She couldn't believe her luck. Just as they got serious last night, Misato must've gotten home. "Fuck it all..." Asuka muttered under her breath. "What do you think you heard? I didn't kill him that's for sure. All I did was---"
"Fuck his brains out? I bet you two didn't even change the sheets after you did it. I couldn't imagine having to sleep in something like THAT..." Misato cut in.
Asuka couldn't say any more. "Go get your fucker--I mean, lover, and I'll get some answers from him..." She walked into Shinji's room, and Misato heard Asuka shake him awake. Shinji walked out, kissing her, yet soured when he saw Misato. "So, you guys fucked last night, huh?"
"Yeah, so what? We love each other." Shinji responded.
"Let me tell you something, I hope you used condoms, if not, God save your souls. That almost happened to me and a boyfriend of mine. Thank God we played it safe. I hope you two dumbasses did." Misato barked. "We did, just so you know." Shinji barked back. He was tired of the way Misato treated them on serious matters, as if the pair were uneducated people. Shinji went back in his room, and he sat down on his bed, hanging his head in his hands. Asuka crawled up behind him. She placed her hands on his chest, wrapping her arms around him. "Don't mind that bitch...please..." She said, kissing his neck.
"Asuka...hahhh...Come here..." He said softly, turning around to meet her lips. Unbeknownst to them, Misato watched them from the doorway. "Ahhh...young love...precious." She whispered. She closed the door, the two lovers completely oblivious to her watching eyes.
End.
Next Chapter: This Is A Forbidden Love.
This'll end, an ending NONE of you will expect.
A/N: Well...This chapter was a personal best. If any of you are wondering why they've never been on a date, they've only been together for two days, yet they've seen each other almost 24/7 for quite a while before this. What's the point of a date?
G.M.T.D.M.
